Wednesday, January 30, 2008
"Where are you going?" he asked.
"Ahhhh...I have to get up! It's 2 o'clock." I sighed.
"Let's go to the zoo today!" FB sat up in bed.
"Awe, I really wish I could! But today is the staff party for work. In fact, I have to go all the way home, shower and get my stuff together, and then drive all the way back over here by 4! I'm riding with Bethany."
Coincidentally, Bethany lives literally right down the street from FB.
"Oh yea...I forgot about the party. You must be excited! I won't keep you in bed then."
So we got dressed and went into the living room. Amanda, Charlotte and 2 of the guys were still there. They were all very thankful for the breakfast we brought them! I chatted with them for a little bit, and then FB walked me to the parking garage.
"I had a lot of fun last night, despite all the drama." he said as he took my hands in his.
"Me too." I smiled.
"Let's hang out again soon." he said, "Sooner than later."
"Sounds good to me." I couldn't stop grinning.
He kissed me goodbye and I then got into the elevator.
I drove like a bat out of hell all the way home. I got ready faster than ever! Although I didn't bother putting on makeup since I figured I could just do that in the car. When I got to Bethany and Tugg's apartment, we loaded up the car and headed out. They brought their 2 dogs too, because they didn't wanna leave them overnight. But they're small dogs, and they were really good in the car. The drive was about 45 minutes, and I told Bethany all about the drama with Charlotte from the night before. She was pretty shocked to hear about her behavior.
Finally we got there! We had 10 cabins and an activity hall reserved at a KOA campground in Conroe. A lot of people were already there, throwing a football around, playing music inside, talking and eating. Shortly after we got there, Alyssa, Jayme, and another one of the waitresses named Sierra, arrived. I was so glad to see Alyssa! We didn't do anything noteworthy for the first couple of hours. Just drank, goofed off and hung out. I brought my camera so I was running around everywhere taking pictures! Gavin mentioned he thought it was "so cool" that I take pictures. He used to do photojournalism in high school. I wasn't really drinking that much because all they had was beer, and daiquiris. I guess they figured bringing liquor to an event full of bartenders would be a bad idea. Lol. So at one point, I followed Mr. S., Gavin, Mark, and one of the guys from this band that plays at our work, into one of the cabins. They immediately lit up a pipe and started smoking. Lol. I know Gavin used to smoke a lot of pot, but he had to quit when he joined trade school. Apparently he couldn't resist. I took a couple hits, and that was all I needed to get a buzz! Then FB texted me and asked how the party was going. I told him it was going great and that I just smoked some pot, and he responded with, "Awesome! You should eat some Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream! That always goes great afterwards."
Alyssa, Jayme and Sierra left around 12:30, and by this time, about half of the people were gone. And Gavin had kinda taken to sticking by my side. Flirting? Hard to tell with him, but how typical! I was probably flirting back, consciously or not. I was feeling prettttty happy! And he kept making joking comments, that I could tell were half-way serious like, "Let's make out!" and, "Hey, I got the keys to an empty cabin!", and "Take me now!"
I mean I know he was just kidding, but I could tell there was a little truth in them. Bethany, Nick, Gavin and I went out in search of Mr. S.'s brother, Able, who had supposedly passed out on someone's couch. Well, we ended up in Gavin's cabin, and we were all sitting around talking. But then Nick and Bethany got up to leave suddenly, and it was just Gavin and I in the cabin.
"Well, I guess we should go..." I said, standing up.
"Yea.." he said awkwardly. We both walked towards the door at the same time, and he stood there in front of it for a second. And we had one of those really pregnant moments, where even though it only lasts a couple of seconds, it feels like ages. And all these thoughts were going through my mind. He was looking at me as if he wanted to kiss me. And I could tell he was thinking about it. And I just kept thinking, Is he going to kiss me? Should I kiss him back? I don't know if I want to. I really like Friend Boy... but then...I kinda do wanna kiss him.
Well, he must have seen the uncertainty written on my face because he abruptly turned and opened the door, and we walked out in silence. It's a good thing too because I really do like FB, and Gavin is just so...confusing! I mean the only time he lets loose is when he's either been drinking, or smoking. And you can just tell that he was one of those nerdy guys in high school, who suddenly turned hot, and didn't know how to act around girls. And he's still kind of like that! So he never knows when to make a move. And I also know that there's something sort of going on with him and Sierra, and I don't wanna get in the middle of any more work drama!
But he still hung around pretty close to me for the rest of the night. And he made me sit next to him while everybody was playing poker. Around 2:30 am though, I got really sleepy and announced that I was going to bed. So I went to the cabin that Bethany and Tugg and I were sharing, and pulled out the couch bed. At about that time, Bethany and Tugg showed up too, and went to their bedroom. I passed out pretty quickly, but was woken up by my phone ringing. It was Gavin! I didn't answer. Then he sent me a text, "Where are you? Are you alive?" Again, I didn't respond. He probably wanted me to go to his cabin with him, and I am not the bar slut! I know Valerie is, and her reputation definitely proceeds her! Not to mention, she's pretty much a bitch to everybody. But that's beside the point. I didn't answer him because I knew it would be a bad idea, and because I was exhausted.
However, I had an awesome time at the party, and I'm really glad I went! It was great to see everybody in a non-work environment and just hang out. Plus I got, hundreds, yes hundreds, of awesome pictures! So overall, the night was a success!
I spent the next 2 days recuperating from my hectic weekend. I have a date, a real date, with FB tonight! He just texted me that he wants to take me out to dinner before I go to work tonight. :) So all is well in that department. And I'm really looking forward to our date! Thanks for tuning in! I'll keep you all updated.
Demetri Of The Day:
“I wonder what the most intelligent thing ever said was that started with the word ‘dude.’
‘Dude, these are isotopes.’
‘Dude, we removed your kidney. You’re gonna be fine.’
‘Dude, I am so stoked to win this Nobel Prize. I just wanna thank Kevin, and Turtle, and all my homies.’”
Sunday, January 27, 2008
He didn't respond, but I wasn't expecting him to cuz I figured he'd be sleeping. But either way, I felt SO relieved to hear from him! My day immediately got better.
Around 6, he called to see what my plans were. We talked for a while, and then he asked if I was going to Drake with everybody.
"Yea, I'll be there. I think we're all going to meet up and get ready at Amanda's." I said.
"Oh, really? Cuz I know Charlotte is coming over here to have a couple drinks before we go out. I thought you guys would be with her."
"Oh, well I haven't heard anything about that but, I haven't talked to any of the girls in a couple hours."
Leave it to Charlotte to try and weasel her way in between us.
"Well, I think it was pretty much her idea to come over, so I went ahead and invited a couple of the guys. But you're more than welcome to come over here and hang with us before we go out!" he explained.
"Ok, yea that sounds great. Let me just call Melissa and Amanda and find out what their plans are."
So I called Melissa and the first thing she said to me was,
"Oh my god Peyton! Charlotte invited herself over to FB's! You have to get over there before she does!"
"Yea, I heard. I just got off the phone with him. But I thought we were gonna get ready at Amanda's?"
"No, not anymore. Amanda said she knows there's gonna be drama so she doesn't wanna be around Charlotte. So we're going to go get ready at Tim's apartment. You should definitely go over to FB's like...now!"
(Tim is Melissa's newest...boyfriend, I guess you would say. He also went to high school with Amanda, Charlotte and FB.)
I sighed, "Ok, well I guess I'll have to fix my hair here then."
So I rushed to get ready, and then started heading over there. While I was on my way, FB called me again.
"Hey, I just left for your house!" I said, smiling.
"Oh really?? Awesome! I'm glad you're coming over here instead. The guys should be getting here in about 30 minutes. I dunno about Charlotte though...she said she would be here around 10."
"Ok, well it's gonna take me at least 30 minutes to get there anyways, so I'll just call you when I get close." I said.
It was only about 9:15 at this time. And Charlotte lives even further away from FB's house than I do. So I knew I'd make it there before her!
I pulled up to his apartment at the same time as one of his friends, and he came down, hopped in the car with me and opened the gate for us. As soon as we got upstairs to his apartment, Charlotte was already calling for FB to let her in!! She must have either gotten wind of the fact that I was going over there too, or else she was just reallllly early. Because it was only like 9:45, and she wasn't supposed to even leave her house for another 15 minutes. Whatever...
So she gets upstairs, and as soon as she walked in the door, I knew she was not happy to see me. She halfway ignored me, only saying enough to acknowledge my presence in the room. Then she kept making subtle comments about how much fun she and FB had the night before, when I was with Cecilia. I didn't take the bait though. I just pretended to ignore her. But then, she had the audacity to ask me,
"So, I heard you got your job back. Didn't you like...get fired or something??"
I almost laughed, "Um...no. It was just a misunderstanding. I'm already back on the schedule."
"Oh. Well then why aren't you working tonight?" she seemed disappointed that I'd be hanging out with them, instead of stuck at work till 4 am.
"Because I had the weekend off for Cecilia's birthday." I slightly exaggerated that part, but she was being a bitch!
I can't believe she would bring that up! She knows damn well that I was not fired!
Well, this continued for a while, her making references to she and FB being alone, and saying things to try and piss me off. Finally we all jumped in a cab and headed out to Drake. As soon as we got there, FB started putting his arm around me, and just lightly touching my arm and stuff. But Charlotte definitely noticed! Haha.
Once we got inside, she stopped acting so catty. Most likely because she had a couple drinks in her. We were all dancing and having a good time, taking shots and goofing off. And then FB kissed me, right in front of Charlotte! She immediately turned around and started flirting with one of FB's friends. We just ignored her. Then FB said he and the guys were gonna go out to the patio and smoke a cigar. I said I was gonna head to the restroom, so he told me to meet them on the patio, and Charlotte followed me to the bathroom.
After I finished touching up my makeup and hair, we were about to leave the bathroom when Charlotte stopped me.
"You know I was mad at you right?" she asked.
"Um...well I heard some things, but I wasn't gonna believe any rumors unless I heard it from you."
"Well, yea. After I told you not to talk to FB, and that he had a girlfriend, you went and did it anyway, and slept in his bed!" she accused.
"Yea, except he doesn't have a girlfriend. He told me, and so did like...4 other people!" I argued.
"No, he did have a girlfriend, and then you made out with him, and he broke up with her the next day!"
"Before I ever kissed him, I asked several people what his girlfriend situation was, and all of them told me he was single. And I talked to FB about it for a good hour, and he told me that she cheated on him! He just didn't wanna tell everyone that because he was embarrassed about it. I would think that FB would know his own business better than you."
"Well he lied to you. Because I went out to lunch with him yesterday and we talked about it. And even if he didn't have a girlfriend, I still told you not to talk to him! And you did it anyways!" Charlotte was started to get frantic.
"Charlotte...do you realize how pathetic you sound?! You can't tell me not to talk to him! I really like him, and he obviously likes me too, so I don't understand why you can't just be happy for us like everyone else is. There's nothing you can do Charlotte, just accept it!"
Our conversation was much longer than that, but I can't exactly remember all the details, just the highlights. But she also went on to say, that he doesn't really like me that much, and he's just using me, and that he's not ready for a relationship right now, and blablabla...
"Oh my god! Since when is it your job to speak for him?? FB is a grown man and he can make his own damn decisions, Charlotte. This is really none of your business. Now, they are all waiting for us outside, so when I leave this bathroom, I don't wanna hear another word about this from you. Seriously."
And I turned on my heel and stalked out of the bathroom. As soon as I got outside, I sent FB a text: We need to talk about something...
"What's going on?" he asked when I found him.
I explained everything that Charlotte said to me in the bathroom.
"Oh my god...seriously?? I'm so sick of putting up with this shit. I don't know what her problem is. She told you that I lied to you??"
"Yep!" I said.
"Well, I obviously need to talk her about this. I'll be right back."
I stood with his friends and watched as he and Charlotte had what looked like a heated discussion. His friends asked me what was going on, and explained as quickly as possible. They all agreed that she was being crazy and needed to chill. At about that time, Jenna called me and I stepped away to talk to her on the phone for a minute.
When I came back, FB grabbed my arm.
"Let's go back inside." he said.
"Ok..." I followed him in, intrigued.
We went upstairs, away from Charlotte and all his friends, to a secluded spot where no one would be able to find us.
"I told her to chill out, and so did all the guys. They were pretty mean to her actually..." he looked thoughtful, "But, whatever. Let's just not talk about that anymore, and have a good time." he said.
"Sounds like a plan to me!" I said and kissed him, "How 'bout less talking, and more kissing."
"I like that plan!" he said.
And we stayed up there for the rest of the night, talking...and kissing. :)
At closing time, Charlotte called FB's phone. He rolled his eyes as he answered. Shortly afterward, she came upstairs to find us, and once we got everyone back together, we hopped into another cab and headed back to FB's apartment.
Once there, Amanda met us in the parking garage and we all went upstairs. I was sooooooo happy to see Amanda! Finally I would have another girl to hang with! Charlotte seemed to completely snap out of her weird attitude. Whatever those guys said to her must have worked. We all 2-stepped to country music, had a couple more shots and goofed off.
Around 4 we all started getting tired, and FB and I were about to head to his room and go to bed, when we saw Charlotte...in his bed! She was on the phone, and crying. Talking to her ex...ugh.
"You have to get her out of there!" I whispered to FB.
"How?? I don't wanna be mean!" he said.
"Well...where are we gonna sleep!?"
"Ok, I see your point. I'll go say something to her."
Amanda and I exchanged looks as he walked into the bedroom to talk to Charlotte.
He came back a minute later.
"What did you say?" I asked eagerly.
"I told her she needed to get out my bed, because you and I needed it!"
I almost busted out laughing. If Charlotte didn't get the hint before, she definitely did then!
She silently trudged out of his room a few minutes later, and we all sighed with relief.
FB and I stayed up pretty much all night! And we got lots of exercise! And let's just say, we lost count of how many times. Haha. I just like him so much! He seems to be a really genuine guy, and I just can't get enough of him!
At 7:30am, I was craving kolaches. So we both got out of bed and went to get breakfast! It totally hit the spot! Charlotte and Amanda and the guys were still passed out in the study, so we left them a box in front of the door before going back to bed. ((Sigh)) I hardly got any sleep at all on Saturday!
But it was well worth it!
Demetri Of The Day:
"I’m in a weird situation because I like rainbows, but I’m not gay.
So, I wear a rainbow on my shirt, but then under it, it says “not gay.”
But I’m not against gay people, so under that I have to put “...but supportive.”
I just think its weird that one group took refracted light. That’s pretty greedy, gays."
Saturday, January 26, 2008
"Are you ready??" he sounded excited.
"Yep! Should I start heading in your direction?"
"Yea, sounds good. Just give me a call when you're pulling into the gate." he said.
"Ok. Give me at least 30 minutes to get over there, cuz I dunno what traffic's gonna be like."
"Ok. See ya soon!"
And that was that. So I got to his place, and we each had a glass of wine, and chatted while we waited for our cab. He told me I looked pretty, which made me blush profusely. Then our cab finally arrived, and we were off to the city! FB is very outgoing, I noticed. He struck up a conversation with the cab driver on our way, and tipped him generously. The first bar we went into was an Irish pub. There weren't very many people there, but we sat down at the bar, ordered a couple beers and just...talked! We talked about our friends, and family, and the craziness that was last weeked... Then FB got up to go to the bathroom, and Bethany called.
"Hey! Guess what!?" I said.
"I'm on a date with a guy you might know!"
"WHAT?? WHO!?" she asked.
I told her his name, remembering that they both went to the same high school.
"Oh my god! That's crazy! I remember him! Well, I don't wanna interrupt your date. Ya'll have fun, and call me tomorrow!" she said.
"Ok, I definitely will!" and we hung up the phone.
When FB came back from the bathroom, we decided to head to the bar across the street, which was another Irish pub. But that's what he had said he wanted to do: go to some pubs.
We ended up sitting at the bar next to a young guy from England. And FB, being so friendly, struck up a conversation with him too! Before long, we were all taking shots, and talking about soccer. Apparently Friend Boy was an avid soccer player for 18 years. Hot...
So I definitely had a buzz going by this point, but I was trying to play it cool, and we were just enjoying ourselves talking. Then around 11, we went to The Flying Saucer, which is famous for its one hundred plus taps. I got my favorite "beer", Lindeman's Framboise. A raspberry flavored Belgian beer, which is served in champagne flute. Then FB asked if I wanted to play some darts. I warned him that I'm horrible, and could possibly impale someone, but he just laughed and said he wanted to teach me. So we went over to the dart boards, and he was explaining to me how to play cricket, and I must have been giggling or something, because he stopped, looked at me, and then just suddenly kissed me!
"Sorry...I just had to do that." he said.
I smiled. And kissed him some more.
So we played a couple rounds of cricket, and I lost, dismally. Lol. But it was still fun.
"You know, if we had been playing shuffleboard, I woulda totally kicked your ass!" I said.
"You like shuffleboard?" he sounded surprised.
"I love it!" I exclaimed.
"Well where can we go that has shuffleboard? Let's find a place!"
So FB asked went to ask the bartender where the nearest bar was with shuffleboard, and we decided to make that our next destination. But as it turns out, we never made it there! As we were driving past Reef, FB mentioned he liked that place.
"Really? I know one of the bartenders, we should go!" I said.
So the cab dropped us off there instead. But when we got inside, there wasn't a person in sight! So we took shots, and decided to walk a couple blocks over by where my work is, and a few other bars. We talked while we walked, and it was pleasantly cool outside. We we got to my work, I decided we should go in there, since I was drunk. Lol. I hadn't been inside that building since Blinn suspended me, but I figured since Mr. S. called me, it wouldn't be a bad idea to make an appearance. It was already 1 am anyways. So we went inside, and Mr. S. gave me a hug, and Blinn gave me a high five, and Nick yelled, "Olive juice!" Haha. We had some more shots, and this is where things start to get fuzzy. I know we stayed there till close, and then took another cab back to his place. Then we made out a lot, until we passed out. At one point, things started to go too far, and I had to stop him. Because I definitely wasn't gonna sleep with him when we were both hammered.
Friday morning, FB woke up at 7 am! Neither of us knows why, but since we were up, we talked some more, and kissed some more...and I just couldn't stop myself this time. He was just so...amazing! And I wanted more of him! And it was great. Almost a relief actually. Then we slept for another couple of hours, woke up, and did it again! Haha.
On a side note, Charlotte sent him a text first thing in the morning that said something along the lines of, "Hope you have a great day today!" What the hell?? Is she seriously trying to get with him, now that he and I are...whatever we are! Ugh... Well back to the story...
"I'm gonna make you a badass breakfast!" he said, "With eggs, and green peppers, and tomatoes, and onions, and bacon..."
"Wow...I am pretty hungry." I said.
And he totally brought me breakfast in bed! And he even cut up fresh pineapple slices! It was delicious. Absolutely hit the spot. We lounged around in bed, and cuddled and watched TV for a while longer. Then around 2:30, I got up to leave. He made a pouty face.
"I wish I could stay longer, but my friend's birthday celebration thing is tonight. And I should probably make an appearance at home before I head over to her place."
"Oh, what are you guys gonna do tonight?" he asked.
"I'm not sure exactly yet. I know we're going to dinner, and then we'll be out in midtown. I just don't know where yet cuz Cecilia hasn't told me what she wants to do."
"Well, you should give me a call when you find out, and maybe we can meet up later. Cuz I'm gonna be out with the boys for sure."
"That sounds great! You guys should totally come hang out with us." I said.
"Ok, yea. Just let me know." he said.
Then he walked me to the parking garage, and gave me kiss goodbye.
"I had a great time last night." he said between kisses.
"Me too." I smiled and kissed him again.
Then we said our goodbyes and I got in the elevator. ((swoon))
I called Melissa on my drive home to dish. Then I called Bethany. Lol.
Then Evan called and asked if I wanted to go eat sushi with him. And since I was starving, I readily agreed. So I went home, got all my stuff together, and a few shirts for Cecilia to chose from, and headed to the restaurant to meet Evan. The sushi was excellent, and Evan and I talked about our dates. He had one on Thursday night too, but apparently his didn't go as well. It turned out his "date" already had a boyfriend! Lol. I called FB around 6:30 to tell him what our plans were, but he didn't answer. So I hung up and sent him a text that said: Hey, our plans are to meet at El Patio at 9 and then head over to Rocbar. So hopefully I'll se you! Give me a call if you wanna meet up.
After sushi, I went over to Cecilia's to get ready. We goofed off as we fixed our hair and put on makeup. She tried on like 8 shirts, and finally decided on one of her own. Then after some running around to pick up Cecilia's friends, we finally headed out to midtown! By this time, I was starting to fret about FB because I had never heard anything back from him! My first reaction in these situations is always to freak out, and overanalyze everything. Like, is he ignoring me? Does he not like me anymore? I shouldn't have slept with him! He thinks I'm a slut! Maybe he was only after sex! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
Cecilia told me to chill out and stop worrying about it, but I just couldn't. My mind was somewhere else all night. ((sigh)) I called Melissa while I was in the car, and she said that FB had called one of his guy friends, and that they were going to Rocbar. So why didn't he text me back?? Ugh...
We had some excellent blue margaritas at El Patio. Alyssa and her boyfriend, and Jenna and one of her guy friends met up with us there. Then we all headed over to Rocbar. As soon as I walked in the door, I couldn't stop looking for him. I wasn't even intentionally doing it! I just wanted to know if he was there. But he wasn't...
Alyssa and Cecilia were wasted by midnight. Lol. But I was still distracted about FB. I texted Melissa and asked where they were, and she said they were at the shot bar. "Is FB with you?" I text back, but never got a response.
At 1 am, we all went over to my bar, because Cecilia had never been there and wanted to check it out. When I got to the front door, sexy Mr. P. was standing there, and he gave me a funny smirk.
"Sooo how did that work out for you last night??" he asked sarcastically.
"Uh...great." I said, not really sure what he meant...exactly.
"Where is he?" he asked.
"I don't know!" I said.
"Oh, he didn't call?" Mr. P. grinned sardonically.
"What?! I'm not having this conversation with you!" I spluttered.
Mr. P. laughed, "Well maybe we should have a chat about that later." he joked.
I grabbed Cecilia and we went inside. I made a beeline for Nick to ask him what the hell Mr. P. was talking about. Nick busted out laughing.
"Dude, you and that guy were like...making out in front of everybody last night!"
"WHAT!? Omg, seriously!? That's so embarrassing..."
Nick laughed again, "Yea, everybody was watching."
"Great. That's the last time I bring a date in here! I'm never gonna hear the end of this!" I wailed.
My night just seemed to be getting worse. Bethany was working, and I told her about FB not calling.
"I'm seriously gonna be devastated if he's blowing me off." I said.
"Well...I wouldn't worry about it yet. I mean you saw him this morning. If he doesn't call you within 3 days, then it's off. But give him 3 days." she said.
I sighed. I hate waiting!
"What time are you going to the party on Sunday?" I asked, changing the subject.
"I think we're gonna try to leave around 4:30. Do you wanna ride with us?" she asked.
"Yea that would be great! Cuz I have no idea where this place is."
"Ok, just meet at my house around 4."
"Ok, I'm excited!" I said.
The lights were already on, and everyone was leaving at this point, so Cecilia gave me a hug, and she and Rob (her husband) left together, followed by Alyssa and her boyfriend. So I went outside (in the freeeezing cold! I left my coat in the car so I wouldn't have to carry it) to start walking to my car.
Then John approached. "Do you need me to drive you home?" he asked, halfway joking.
"No, not today! I'll be ok." I laughed.
"Well do you want me to walk you to your car?" he persisted.
"You don't have to," I said, "I mean...aren't you still technically working?"
"Yea, but this is part of my job." he assured me.
"Ok. Well let's walk fast, cuz I'm freezing!"
"Well here, take my coat." he took it off and put it around my shoulders.
"Thanks." I said.
When we got to my car, I offered to drive him back to work, and he accepted. As soon as I turned on the car, Gillet Of 20 Fingers' "Does anybody wanna have sex tonight?" started blaring on the stereo.
"Uh..." I laughed, embarassed. "Yea...Cecilia left her CDs in my car."
"Nice." he said.
The drive took about 2 minutes, so there wasn't much more talking. He thanked me for the ride, and then I left. I had been hoping to spend the night at FB's again, so it was pretty disappointing to drive all the way home.
((sigh)) I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow, but when I woke up this morning, all my feelings of anxiety, and worry came rushing back ten-fold.
I still haven't heard from Friend Boy. Melissa said he was out with them at the shot bar last night, but I never got her text. She also told me that Charlotte and 2 of her friends spent the night at his place last night. Which, isn't exactly unusual considering they crashed there last week. And I'm not really threatened by Charlotte, because honestly, she's short and chubby, and I know he's not into her. But...what if this means he's not into me??
I mean, we had such a great time Thursday night, and I really really like him. It's scary. I hate putting myself out there, because this always seems to happen to me. I mean I know it may be too early to tell yet but...I just have this feeling. And he and I had talked about going back to Drake again tonight, and now...I just don't know.
What do I do?? What do I think???
Demetri Of The Day:
"I like to do crafts. I work quite a bit with glitter, but don’t worry I make tough stuff, like daggers and skulls. The thing about glitter is, if you get it on you, prepare to have it on you forever, because glitter doesn’t go away. Glitter is the herpes of craft supplies. It’s like, 'Oh great, here comes the sun; flare up!'"
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
FB called me today around 6ish to "ask how the concert was". Hehe. We talked for quite a while, and he asked if I wanted to go out with him downtown tomorrow night, and of course I said sure! So I'm supposed to meet him at his place around 8, and then we're gonna take a cab into Houston so there will be no drinking and driving. Duh. I'm really excited!!
And guess who else called me today?? My GM, Mr. S. He's pretty much been the neutral party through all the work mess, but he called to let me know that I'm off suspension, basically, and to tell me what days I work next week. Then after I got off the phone with him, he called me right back! He said Alyssa had mentioned I wasn't going to the employee party and he wanted to know if that was true.
"Uhhh...." was all I could manage.
"Well, I just wanted to let you know that you are a member of our staff, and you can come to the party. So you should come."
"Yea...I just...didn't want it to be weird..." I said.
"Well, it's up to you whatever you wanna do, but you're still part of the staff, and I want you to know you're welcome at the party." He encouraged.
"Ok... Thanks." I said.
So I guess I am gonna go! Bethany pointed out that it would probably be better if I went anyways, so it doesn't look like I'm ashamed and guilty and hiding my face. Which is true... And she said they would probably all respect me more or going. So I'm really glad that all worked out.
I sure do have a busy busy weekend ahead of me! Going out with Friend Boy tomorrow night, then Cecelia's party Friday night, going out with Melissa and the girls Saturday night, and the employee party Sunday night! Whew! I really hope I don't end up hungover on any of those days...
Tomorrow I gotta get up early and head to the mall for a bit of shopping. I need to get something to wear tomorrow night and Friday night. Hopefully I can get something at Forever 21 for under 30 bucks since I have a gift card.
I'm still not sure if I'm gonna stay working at my current job or not though. I'm gonna test the waters once I get back to work and see how it is. Then I'll decide. Well, I guess that's all the updates for tonight!
Demetri Of The Day:
“A lot of people don’t like bumper stickers. I don’t mind bumper stickers. To me, a bumper sticker is a shortcut. It’s like a little sign that says ‘Hey, let’s never hang out.’”
The rest of my day was interesting...
Friend Boy called me!!! I was so ecstatic when I saw that he was calling, I started jumping up and down. And then I had to run to go turn my music down, and I think I almost didn't pick up in time! Good thing I did though...
Anyways, he was in between classes or something, and he had taken the metrorail to some part of Houston. And he said he was calling me because he thought the area was very picturesque, and that I would have a great time photographing it, because he remembered I was a photographer and it made him think of me. :) :) Yay! Then we chatted for a bit. He asked what I've been doing with my week off, and since it's really been only 1 day, I told him not much. Which is pretty much the case. Then he said,
"Well, do you wanna maybe get together sometime this week? I mean, does that sound like something you'd be interested in?"
"Yea, definitely! I mean...I don't really have anything planned so far."
And he said he would give me a call "later in the week", whatever that means. But then I mentioned that Melissa and I were gonna be at the concert tonight and you know, since we would be in his neck of the woods, maybe we could meet up afterwards. And he said sure, he didn't have anything going on. So I told him we'd probably get out around 11 and I'd call him.
Well, 10:45 rolls around, and I was still at the show! So I texted him and told him I thought we'd be there a while longer, and he responded with:
Ok. Have fun. Let me know when ya'll go out.
And I assumed he meant tonight. But we didn't get out of the show till around 12, and when I called he didn't answer. Melissa said he was probably already asleep since he has class. And then I started thinking maybe he didn't mean tonight! Maybe he meant like...when we go out out, like...on Thursday or Friday or something. I dunno...I'm so confused. But now I have to wait for him to call again, since it's his turn. Grrr..
But at least he called!! It really made my day. I don't know how it's possible for me to like someone so much upon first meeting them. Do I always do that?? G's I hope not... Perhaps it's just infatuation, coupled with all the wonderful things I keep hearing about him from other people. We'll see.
One thing that kind of took my day down a couple notches was Andrew. Yea, 21 year old Andrew, who says he likes me and all this crap, and now he has a myspace picture up of him kissing some chick. WTF?? What kind of message is he trying to send me?? I dunno why, but I'm jealous!! I mean, I can't define my feelings as anything else, so it must be jealousy. And I don't know why I even care, now that Friend Boy is in the picture. But it's more than just me being jealous, it's me being pissed at him for acting just like every other guy, and pissed at myself for thinking he was different. How so insanely cliche of him. Ugh. And since we are (were??) pretty good friends, I have half a mind to say something to him about it, even though I know I shouldn't. I did text him though, just to see if he would respond. I made sure it was a very vague message. All it said was: So what's the deal
No question mark either. Just that. He never answered. What a fucking douche.
WHY are guys such douche bags?? I mean what to they have to gain by acting like that. It's disgusting. Well, I'm pretty tired and beat up from that concert, so I'm gonna hit the sack. Let me know what you guys think!
Oh, and by the way, this Demetri Of The Day is fucking HILARIOUS. Like, I seriously laughed out loud at this one. For a while.
Demetri Of The Day:
“If someone asks ‘Are you ticklish’, it doesn’t matter what you say, they are going to tickle you. If you don’t want to be tickled, you gotta say something like, ‘I have diarrhea. Now don’t touch me, or your gonna make it come out…and yes, I’m very ticklish.’”
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I had to get up super early to feed my horse, and it was all cold and rainy. Then I had to run some errands after that and by the time I got home, I had to go back to the barn again because the farrier was coming. Well there happens to be this really despicable woman named Kim, who keeps her 2 horses in the stalls across from mine. And she was there for the farrier too apparently. Well I already had Details out and waiting in the aisle, and I had washed his legs because they were all muddy from being out in the pasture, and I didn’t want Ricky (the farrier) to get mud all over his pants. Well, Ricky was about 15 minutes late, but as soon as he pulled up I went to greet him. Then as he was getting his stuff out, I grabbed Details from his stall so I could tie him up for Ricky. But the stupid fat woman had purposely led her horse out first and literally cut in front of me! Ugh. I figured I’d let that one slide, so I walked him out to graze while we waited. Then as soon as he finished, I led him up to get trimmed and Kim goes,
“Um, excuse me! My horses are first, and I have another one so you’re just gonna have to wait.”
And she said it so rudely, that even Ricky looked at me with wide eyes.
“Well, I have a class tonight-” I started to say before I was interrupted.
“Well I’m glad for you, but I have a sick husband at home.” She snapped.
I pointedly rolled my eyes and sighed.
“Thanks for understanding.” I said sarcastically.
WHAT A BITCH! I mean what the hell does this lady have against me anyways?! The whole time her second horse was getting his feet trimmed, I just kept thinking of all the things I wanted to say to her, and how much I wanted to strangle her till her eyes popped out of her fat frizzy head!
But I never got my chance to say anything to her, because she left too quickly. And I was all worked up to it and everything! I’m a pretty confrontational person, and rarely do people speak to me that way and get off the hook. I like to defend myself. Especially when it catches people off guard. But since I never got the chance to get it off my chest, I left still feeling angry and frustrated. Then I was almost late for photography class cuz of that stupid bitch. UH!!
And all day I kept hoping Friend Boy would call, but he didn’t. :(
And now I’m worried that maybe he’s not interested in me! But I dunno, I might just be overreacting. Melissa says I’m being negative, but I like to think of it as being realistic! Preparing myself for disappointment. ((sigh))
Why do guys always have to make us wait?? But I refuse to call him. Or text him. I just won’t! I’m trying to play the game with strategy this time, because this is a guy I could actually see myself with, and I don’t wanna screw it up by appearing desperate.
Anyways, as soon as I got home from class, I realized I'd left my new coat sitting on the back of the chair! As if things couldn't get any worse...
Then Alyssa texted me. She just found out about my suspension. So apparently everyone at work thinks I’m stealing shit. And that just doesn’t sit well with me. I am not that person!! And I don’t want to be perceived that way!
So I called Nick. And I told him I’m really thinking about quitting. He whined, and said, “NOOOOOOOOOO! You can’t quit! Olive juice!”
Olive juice means 'I love you' in Nick language. Lol. It’s kind of an inside joke between the 2 of us. He said he thinks they might lift my suspension early, and he’s gonna check my schedule for me on Wednesday. Then he asked me if I was going to the employee party on Sunday.
“NO! Of course not!” I said, “That would just be too weird. And it really sucks too, cuz I was really looking forward to it.”
“NOOOOOOOOO!! You HAVE to go!” he begged, “Come on, I know it might be a little awkward, but…who cares?!”
“A little awkward is definitely an understatement. I’m not going.”
Nick sighed, “What if they put you back on the schedule??”
“Well, unless they put me back on, or unless I hear something from one of the managers before then, I’m not going. And I’ve already e-mailed Mr. P. I’ve said my bit. I’m done. They have to call me for me to go to that party.”
Nick seemed genuinely disappointed that I’m not going. AS AM I! I’ve been looking forward to that party since November. Seriously. ((sigh)) But I can’t just show up at that party. No way! I don’t even wanna show my face in the bar! And that for sure puts a kink in me and Alyssa’s plans for Cecilia’s late 21st birthday bash. Oh well. We’ll just go somewhere else.
I really hope Friend Boy calls me tomorrow. Cuz I sure could do with some cheering up after this taxing day.
Demetri Of The Day:
“I think vests are all about protection. You know what I mean? Like a lifevest protects you from drowning, and bulletproof vests protect you from getting shot, and the sweatervest protects you from pretty girls. ‘Leave me alone. Can’t you see I’m cold just right here?’”
Sunday, January 20, 2008
So I drove out to meet the girls in midtown. Melissa and the group were eating at a Mexican cantina, so I parked a block away and started walking. I walked behind the buildings instead of in front, so that I wouldn't have to pass by the shot bar and risk running into someone from work. But, I ended up running into someone anyway! Jayme called my name from the patio of the pub right behind the cantina. I turned to see who it was, and went over to say hi.
"I heard what happened." she said.
"Great...I guess everyone knows now huh?" I sighed.
"Um...probably. But I did overhear Blinn and Mr. P. talking about it today."
"Really!? What were they saying??" I haven't heard back from Mr. P. since his last email, and I'm pretty anxious to know what's going on.
"Well, Mr. P. was defending you, and Blinn was pretty much being an ass. He said he saw you do something. But Mr. P. was really sticking up for you. And I heard him say something like why did they have to punish you like that. So I think you might get off the suspension." Jayme answered casually.
"Hmm...well, who knows. But until I hear something, I'm avoiding that place."
Jayme laughed, and we exchanged a few pleasantries before I told her I was on my way to meet some friends, and left.
When I got to the restaurant, I sat down next to Melissa at the head of the table, and immediately told her what I'd heard. She and all the girls are boycotting my bar till I go back to work. Haha, I love them! So there were 4 boys sitting at the table with us who I had never met. Charlotte and Amanda were there too. Apparently they had all gone to high school together, but Melissa and I didn't know any of them. I did notice that the one sitting at the opposite end of the table from me was pretty cute. He had light eyes, dark curly hair, and a nice smile. I asked Melissa about him and she said he was a friend of Amanda and Charlotte's and that he came from a lot of money. Leave it to Melissa to list that as a characteristic. Lol. But she didn't seem to know much else about Friend Boy.
When everyone finished eating, Melissa and I took a cab over to Whiskey Creek where we were supposed to be meeting some more people. The boys didn't seem to like the place all that much, and it was pretty crowded and stuffy in there. I can only handle Whiskey Creek in small doses. Well, after a couple shots, Melissa and Amanda wanted to hit the dance floor, so they handed me their coats and purses and took off. I was a little put out by it at first, but then Friend Boy approached and we started chatting. Conversation flowed easily, and I found that I really enjoyed his company! After about 15 minutes of talking, he asked for my number, which I was delighted to give him. Around this time, Charlotte approached, and Friend Boy was called away by one of his friends.
"Omg Charlotte, he is so cute!"
"Yea, well he has a girlfriend." she said matter-of-factly.
"Seriously!?" I said. Disappointment must have been written on my face.
"Yea..." She sounded like she felt bad for me.
"Darn." I sighed.
Charlotte was walking away just as Amanda and Melissa came back from the dance floor with rosy cheeks.
"So, did you talk to him??" Melissa asked.
"Yea, but Charlotte just told me he has a girlfriend!"
"Well, yea but he's gonna break up with her like...tomorrow!" Amanda said.
"Really? Why? How do you know?" I asked, my interest piqued once more.
"Because they've been having issues, and he was planning on breaking up with her." Amanda answered.
"Hmm... Well...I dunno if I wanna get mixed up in that. I mean he still has a girlfriend! And he just got my phone number!"
I wasn't exactly sure what to think about Friend Boy anymore!
We hung out at Whiskey Creek for a while longer; I saw Vette Guy with some girl. We totally made eye contact too, but he didn't say anything to me. The girl he was with was ugly too! And I looked super hot! HA! Lol. Then Friend Boy asked if there were any other cool places around. Charlotte said she was ready to go too.
"Well where do you guys wanna go?" I asked.
"Let's go to Drake! I've never been there, and I really wanna go!" Charlotte said.
"Ok! Yea, Drake is awesome on Saturday nights. Who else is gonna come?"
"Well Amanda's with me, so she's coming." Charlotte replied.
"Ok, well we should get going then, it's already 12."
So me, Amanda, Charlotte, Friend Boy, and one of the other guys all headed out. We all piled into Charlotte's car, and that's when I noticed I had a couple texts. From Andrew. His text said to come to Drake. Small world! So I wrote him back saying we were on our way there.
We valeted the car, and got in line. They always have such a long line at Drake, but I can usually get in first with club courtesy. I espied Andrew waiting in the line a few people ahead of us. I went over to say hi to him. He kissed me on the cheek, and gave me a hug. I chatted with him for about 5 minutes, then I headed back over to our group, telling him to text me if he got in first. But he didn't. ;)
We had so much fun at Drake! We danced, took a few shots, and lots of pictures! I introduced Friend Boy to surfers on acid. He really liked them. I never ended up seeing Andrew again. He texted me saying they wouldn't let one of his friends in because of his shoes or something... But he said he would be at Rich's afterhours. So I asked the group if they were down for afterhours at Rich's.
"No, we're going to (Friend Boy)'s!" Charlotte squealed.
"You should come, I have plenty of alcohol, and Guitar Hero!" Friend Boy said with a sheepish grin.
"Ok." I blushed.
But our first order of business was to get everybody to their cars. There ended up being 3 cars, and the rest of the guys that stayed at Whiskey Creek met up with us as well. Then I was the only person in a car alone! So I jumped inside the car with the boys and asked if someone would ride with me, hoping, of course, that Friend Boy would. And he totally took the bate! In fact, he immediately jumped out of the car and said, "Sure! I'll ride with you!"
I can't really remember what we talked about as we drove, because conversation just flowed, and I remember laughing a lot. He's pretty funny too! So then we got to his house, and took the elevator from the parking garage up Friend Boy's apartment.
I followed Charlotte and Amanda into the bathroom where they changed into their PJ's. That was when things between Charlotte and I started to get weird... Amanda said something about Friend Boy and I hitting it off, and Charlotte suddenly got very territorial.
"Peyton...Friend Boy and his girlfriend are trying to work things out. You don't wanna get in the middle of that."
"I thought he was breaking up with her? That's what Amanda told me."
"Well he's not." she snapped.
"Just...don't talk to any of my friends, ok?"
I almost laughed out loud when she said this, because it sounded so absurd! Who is she to tell me who I can and can't talk to!? But all I managed was an, "uuuhh..."
"Well, I'm just looking out for you. Because I mean, you don't wanna mess things up for them, and you'll just end up getting hurt." Charlotte tried to cover for her faux-pas.
"Well, you're right, I don't wanna get involved in any of that. But, I'm not trying to like...be his girlfriend or anything! I just think he's a cool person. And I'm just barely getting to know him." I defended myself. I mean, I don't wanna step on anyone's toes, but it was getting ridiculous. I left the bathroom feeling a bit unsettled.
Melissa definitely wasn't kidding when she said he came from money. He's 23 years old, and this was the nicest apartment I've ever been in! All wood floors, 2 full bathrooms, a huge kitchen, a study... It was super swank! I kept running and sliding across the floors in my socks! We had so much fun goofing off. They had the full Guitar Hero set too, drums, mic and all! And all the guys were playing shirtless, because "that's what real bands do". It was hilarious. I wish I woulda taken some pictures of that! I did notice that Friend Boy has a niiiice body!
After they finished with Guitar Hero, Friend Boy whipped out the Grey Goose and made everyone shots. Lol. Which we hastily chased with Sprite. At some point, Friend Boy and I ended up out on his balcony talking. And then he was kissing me... I pulled away suddenly.
"You know...I'm gonna get in trouble for this!" I giggled.
"What? Why?" he asked.
"Well...let's just say I've been warned about you."
"Warned?" he seemed genuinely confused.
"Charlotte told me you have a girlfriend and to stay away from you." I blurted out.
"What!?" I watched with amusement, as a range of emotions flickered across his face. Shock, confusion, annoyance, anger, determination...
"Well that's not true. I don't have a girlfriend. And she knows that."
"You don't? Well...she said you guys were trying to "work stuff out" or something..."
"The truth is, my girlfriend cheated on me, and I broke up with her, and there is nothing to work out. I just haven't really told anyone about her cheating. But...it was a long time coming I guess. I just let it drag out for too long."
"Oh. I'm sorry. That really sucks."
We sat in silence for a few minutes just staring out at the amazing view.
"Well, can I kiss you now?" he said, breaking the silence.
I smiled, and leaned into him. He really is an amazing kisser. And he kept telling me I was sexy. ((blush))
We must have been out on the patio for a while, because by the time we got back inside, everyone was passed out in a heap of bodies on top of a pile of blankets in his study. I laughed at the sight. Again, I wish I would have taken a picture.
So Friend Boy and I headed into his room and kissing commenced. Things started getting a little heated and I had to stop myself, and him, because I'm not gonna do that again! I eventually fell asleep with his arms around me. It was sooooo nice...just to be held. And I can't quite explain it, but he and I just really clicked. And there's just this...chemistry. Sparks! And it feels amazing.
Since we were up till like 7 am, we slept in till about 3:30. Then we just laid in his bed, talking for 2 hours. We have so much in common! He rides horses, and he likes photography, and he's really smart. I honestly see potential in this guy! It's crazy that it happened so fast, and I'm sure I'm probably getting ahead of myself, and I know I'm being careless by letting him disarm me so, but... I can't help it! He walked me to my car, and told me over and over again what a great time he had hanging out with me. And he said he's definitely going to give me a call this week. Then he kissed me goodbye, and...I left!
I immediately called Melissa on my drive home to dish. She said she's really happy for me, and not to worry about Charlotte because she's obviously just jealous. She said all the guys told her he's a great guy, and that if he and I get together he'll really treat me right. :) And she even told me that I should take him to the Foo Fighters concert this Tuesday instead of her! Even though we've been planning it for a while. I told her no, don't be silly, but she insisted! So I said if he calls me before Tuesday, then I'll ask him. But I'm not going to call him first. So I guess we'll see...
Demetri Of The Day:
“‘Sort of’ is such a harmless thing to say. Sort of. It’s just a filler. Sort of... It doesn’t really mean anything. But after certain things, sort of means everything. Like after ‘I love you’... or ‘You’re going to live’... or ‘It’s a boy.’”
Friday, January 18, 2008
I've kind of just withdrawn into myself today, and the only thing that keeps my mind off things is my book. I tried cooking, that was a bust. While "drying" bread crumbs, the toaster oven burst into flames, and then as I was adding the last ingredient to my spinach souffle, the top of the pepper came off and spilled all over the whole dish. So it was completely ruined. ((sigh))
Melissa came over to pick up her beauty pageant photos and invited me out to the movies with her and the girls. I said ok at first, but after my cooking disaster, I just didn't feel like going anywhere. The weather sucks too. It's so cold, and rainy here. Ugh.
I just wish I could get out of this funk.
"I really wasn’t involved in everything that was going on other than asking you what well you were at. I did this mainly because we had cut some bartenders and I wanted to make sure each of you were assigned a well. I will discuss this issue further with Blinn and (the other manager that was on duty last night). I appreciate you taking the time to explain everything.
I responded with "Thanks, I appreciate it."
Hopefully he'll talk to them soon, and maybe they'll lift my suspension. Who knows... But at things are looking a little better at least! And hey, I get to post another Demetri quote!
Demetri Of The Day: Part II
"I love to stand behind people at ATM’s and when they enter their PIN number, I say ‘got it!’ and then run away."
"Hey Mr. P,
I really just wanted to talk to you about what happened last night, because it has left me feeling very unsettled. When Blinn told me he believed I was giving away drinks, I was pretty much shocked. Mostly because that's more than just a work issue; that says something about my character. I really love, and appreciate my job at *******, and I want to do my best. I want you to know that I would never do anything to jeopardize that. I know I make mistakes, and when those are brought to my attention, I do everything I can to correct them so that I don't make that mistake again. As far as last night goes, I'm not going to make excuses; I just want to explain myself.
Paul Jones, who happens to be a loyal regular, came to my well, and ordered 6 vegas bombs from me. Then he asked if I could bring them down to the DJ booth, since all his friends were down there. I said, sure, since he is the customer, and I wasn't about to tell him no. So as I was making his shots, another one of my customers, Jenna, approached me and ordered a drink, and a beer. She already had an open tab, so I finished the shots, made her drinks, gave them to her, and then rushed to the other end of the bar to give Paul his shots. When you approached me, I was in the process of handing them to him. You asked me what I was doing down there, so far away from my well I would guess. I didn't want to keep standing there, and get in trouble, so I told Paul I would be right back to get his money, knowing he was good for it, since he is a regular. There was a ticket printing out in the waitress well, and Paul had to set down the shots on his table before he could pay me anyways. So I went back down to the other end to quickly make the ticket. At this time, Blinn questioned me about whether or not I had rung up any of the drinks. I explained what was going on, and told him I just needed to go back and get Paul's money. I didn't want you to get mad at me for standing around on the complete opposite side of the bar from where I was supposed to be, and I didn't want Blinn to think I was sherking my duties, or stealing. So I explained that Paul was a regular and that I knew he wouldn't run off. As soon as I finished the waitress ticket, I ran back down to well 5 and got Paul's money. Then I rang up his shots, and Jenna's drinks all at once on bar left. Then I went back to the waitress well.
I had no intentions of giving anything away, I was just trying to consolidate my trips, keep up with the waitress tickets, and not get yelled at! I know about the action/transaction policy, and I'm not trying to dispute that at all. It's just sometimes hard to follow this system flawlessly when so many things are going on. I admit, there are times I forget stuff, and I'm far from perfect. Sometimes when it's slammed, I take up to 10 orders before heading to the computer. I do my best to ring up every single drink. I am an honest worker, as well as an honest person.
I do understand you guys are trying to run a business, and that were I in your situation, I might have taken the same actions. Sometimes it's hard to tell exactly what's going on behind the bar from the outside, and I know you all have a lot of employees to manage. I don't have any problem accepting punishment when it is deserved, but in this case, I just thinks it's very unfortunate that you all came to this conclusion. I didn't, as far as I am aware, give away a single drink last night. And even though I think this is an unfair punishment, I can accept it. I just needed to explain myself, and get this off my chest because I don't want you to underestimate my integrity.
Thanks for listening,
I let Bethany proof-read it and she said it was perfect, and that Mr. P. would either write me back, or call me. So we'll see...
Demetri Of The Day:
"I was on the street. This guy waved to me, and he came up to me and said, “I’m sorry, I thought you were someone else.” And I said, “I am.'”
An old regular came in who had been out of town for a while. He ordered 6 shots from me at my well. Then he asked if I could bring them to him all the way at the opposite end of the bar. And of course, I had to say I would, since he's a customer. So I said sure. Then, as I'm making his shots, Jenna comes up and orders some drinks on her tab. So I finish up the shots, and then hand her her drinks real quick so I can dart to the other side of the bar and give this guy his shots. When I get down there and start handing them to him, Mr. P. walks up and asks me what I'm doing down there. I explained, and then he said, "Well you better hurry up and get back over there, there's waitress tickets printing out." So I run back over to the other side of the bar to grab the ticket, and make it. Then Blinn approaches me and asks if I rang the stuff up. I said, "Not yet, I had to bring all the drinks way down there, and then Mr. P. practically yelled at me to get back over here, so I told the customer I'd be right back to get his money." And of course, I knew he wasn't gonna run off without paying me, cuz he's a regular and he's good for it. Then he starts questioning me about Jenna's drinks, and asking me if I rang hers up. And I told him she had a tab started. So I go back over to the other side when I'm done being interrogated, and I get the guy's money, go to the computer, and ring up his shots, and Jenna's drinks all at once. End of story.
The rest of the night was pretty shitty I might add...
Then at the the end of the night, Blinn says he wants to talk to me in the office. And of course I knew what it was about. He tells me 2 people told him I wasn't ringing up drinks. I dunno if he made that up to see if I'd "confess", or if 2 people really did say that, but I explained the whole situation to him. And all he could say to me was, "Well you've been working here long enough to know better. It's action/transaction. And (Mr. P.) and I talked about it for like 10 minutes, and we decided to suspend you for 2 weeks. So just...come back tomorrow and you can pick up your tips, and call us in like 10 days and we'll tell you your schedule." I mean, I'm literally still in shock about this. I asked him when I supposedly did this, and what the drinks were, trying to figure out exactly was he talking about. But he couldn't give me any specifics. So I told him that if I ever didn't ring anything up, it wasn't because I was trying to hoodwink anybody, it would have been an honest mistake. And I honestly couldn't think of any drinks I hadn't rung up tonight! I mean seriously! And mostly I'm shocked because the whole way home, all I could think about is why do I keep trying to prove myself to these people!? I mean, I shouldn't have to. I do my job, and I do it damn well, for one. And secondly, I have a degree. (Which is a lot more than I can say for a lot of the idiots I work with!) Why am I wasting my time trying to get in the good graces of a couple bar owners!? They're not gonna get me anywhere in life! I mean...I literally bend over backwards for these people, and do I ever get a pat on the back?? NO. All I get is criticized for a mistake that I didn't even make, because maybe someone thought they saw me do something. Don't they trust me?? Why can't they just give me the benefit of the doubt? I mean I can't afford to not work for 2 weeks!
And to top it all off, I had been really looking forward to the employee over-night party at Lake Conroe, which is the Sunday after next. But now I think I might just cross my name off the list since I will still technically be "suspended" at that time. ((sigh)) I don't even wanna show my face in there. I have half a mind to quit. Except I don't wanna just throw in the towel. I don't deserve this punishment! And I don't wanna let them get the best of me. Ugh. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Who knows...
I'm gonna spend this 2 weeks putting some feelers out and trying to find a real job. And I might get in touch with some of my contacts in the industry and see if anyone needs a bartender for next weekend...or this weekend, since I'm suddenly off tomorrow. Sometimes I just...hate my life. Why do these things always happen to me?? I mean...nothing ever goes right. Nothing.
Driving home, I just wanted someone to call and talk to, and I had no one to call! I can't get a guy to stick around for longer than a week, which apparently is enough time to screw me over, and I can't even manage to get my fucking bar managers to like me. I work in a fucking bar. I mean come on. What have I accomplished??
A huge fat nothing. That's what I have. Nothing.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Just so you all know, I don't hate my job. Far from it in fact! I love my job! I love my coworkers, my managers and owners, and yes, even my customers. Most of them are great, and I have a lot of regulars. There's just like that 10% of uneducated people that really drive me nuts. And since I can't be rude to them, I figured I'd vent a little on here. And also, the managers/owners at my bar are not a group of money-loving, selfish, uncaring bastards. They genuinely care about everyone who works for them. Which is what makes it so great to work there! We have employee outings, and parties, and we all hang out together. We really take care of our own, ya know?
I don't expect those of you who have never worked in the industry to understand the frustrations we bartenders put up with on a daily basis, but... For those of you who do know, I'm sure you get my drift.
So no, I don't want to quit. Lol.
In other news, my kitty finally returned!! She ran away about a month ago, and my mom and I were devastated. We've been leaving food out for her almost every night, and she was eating it! But finally today, she just walked up to my mom and started rubbing on her leg! So we just picked her up and brought her inside. She has a big oozing sore on her neck from her collar though. It somehow got twisted around her right front leg. But it doesn't seem to be bothering her now, so hopefully she'll be fine. I'm gonna take her to the vet this week.
Last night, Andrew and I messaged for a while on myspace. I'll paste.
Andrew: i was gonna try to hang out with you 2night...
me: well why don't you CALL me??
Andrew: everybody is asleep at my house because school starts tomorrow. and i don't have a phone so i can't call you......i can't wait till i get my phone turned on...i'm sorry...i really wanted to see you...
me: *Sigh*...it's always the same story with you isn't it? How bout you give me a call when you have a phone.
Andrew: stop...i'm getting that shit (car and phone) all this week. finally making good money from my company. and we'll hang out all of the time...
me: i'm sorry. it's just been a long, shitty day and i'm getting to the point where i'm really losing my patience with people!! that, coupled with the fact that you make me...nervous, and things being what they are, and going the way they are going...i'm just getting frustrated.
Andrew: nervous in what kind of way?
me: well...in a number of ways. first of all, because i don't seem to have any problem telling you exactly what i'm feeling, which is...good and bad i guess. bad because that usually either pisses guys off, or freaks them out. and lately, what i've been feeling is mostly annoyance. lol. because you can't seem to get your...shit, or whatever, together! secondly, because everytime these occurrences happen, i kick myself in the ass for even entertaining these ideas! because you're young, and i'm pretty sure we don't want the same things. so i keep second-guessing myself because of that. and it's hard to act on your immediate feelings when you're constantly second guessing yourself. here's the thing Andrew, i'm not going to waste my time with someone who isn't going to make an effort. if you WANT to spend time with me, that's cool, but you have to make an effort. don't make me wait around, or whatever. because i've put up with a lot of that shit in the past and i think it's really honed my...i don't wanna say standards, but basically there's a lot less shit that i'll put up with these days than i would have in the past. does that make any sense to you?? or am i way out in left field?
Andrew: haha...nah, we're on the same page babe. our wants are the same, i think you are bad ass, and sexy as hell! i really don't mean to stand you up, i mean, i'm definitely into you, and i'm finally getting shit together... and i'll be focused on "trying for a relationship", and you definitely seem like a bad ass chick, not saying that's what you were shooting for with me, but i definitely see you as having that potential. i'm finally getting over all of the unexpected crazy stuff that went down recently. ((his step mom died on Christmas, so sad!!)) but i'm excited about my company, and ready to get my shit together..lol. i completely understand why your standards are high, and a girl like you should def keep them high. don't get mad.....and you're not gonna freak me out. i've known you for a long time. we'll start hanging out, and whatever happens..happens.. i mean i def wouldn't wanna lose a friendship..
So...I'm not really sure what to do. He seems to know exactly what to say, but I dunno if it's genuine or not. And how the hell does he know what I want?? I mean, I do want a boyfriend, but that's not what I'm looking for in him. And I can't tell him that, because it would probably hurt his feelings! I'm just lonely. And some companionship would be nice. So I dunno. Any suggestions??
Photography class started back up tonight. It's a much bigger class than last session. And there's a guy in it, who I can already tell, is an insufferable know-it-all. Ugh. But we'll see how great he is when we show our assignments next week! HA!
I have the photoshoot with Melissa tomorrow afternoon. And then we're going to the movies. Alyssa might join us too. And next Friday, the 25th, Alyssa and I are taking Cecilia out to midtown for her very belated 21st birthday celebration! So that's gonna be fun. I've got a pretty busy rest of the month coming up!
Kitty looks so peaceful and content sleeping on my bed. I bet she's glad to be inside where it's warm instead of out battling the elements! Well that's all for today. I'll write more soon. Hopefully something exciting will happen in the near future. Haha...
Demetri Of The Day:
"I think the worst time to have a heart attack is during a game of charades...or a game of fake heart attack."
Ok, today at work, I experienced several things that really just GRIND MY GEARS!!! So people, please take the time to read this, and really CONSIDER what I am about to say, because I can promise you, I speak for more than just myself.
First of all, when you are a customer at a bar, please heed the following:
1) If it's your turn to order, KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT! Don't stand there with your thumb up your ass till the bartender comes to you and asks what you want and then say, "Uhhh....uhhhh..." Because that's really annoying. And a waste of everyone's time. That includes other people in your group as well! If you're ordering for anyone other than yourself, don't go, "I need 4, uh..." and then turn around to your friends and ask what they want. Point being?? HAVE YOUR ORDER READY!
2) SPEAK CLEARLY, AND TO THE BARTENDER! Don't mumble, or cover your mouth with your hand, or say, "I want a vodka redbull and (Idiot turns around to point at who he is ordering for, while still speaking.)" I can't hear you when you're turned all the way around pointing at someone and saying, "she wants a martini." I don't care who the fuck the drinks are all for, just tell me what you need so I can get to making them!
3) NEVER WHISTLE AT US! We're not dogs, and I promise you, if you whistle to get my attention I will do one of the following: ignore you, or rip you a new asshole for being such an ignorant bastard.
4) WAIT YOUR FUCKING TURN!!! We all learned to wait in lines in grade school, right?? Apparently not. If I'm taking someone else's order, I'm not going to take yours until I'm damn ready. DON'T fucking interupt me taking someone else's order! You can just wait. Ordering a drink is not a life or death situation. So chill the fuck out. I'll get to you when I get to you.
5) DON'T WAVE YOUR HAND AT ME, DON'T WAVE A NAPKIN AT ME, DON'T YELL "MISS!" OR "MAM!" OR "HEY!"I will proceed to ignore you while you jump around like a cracked out gorilla. We do see you. We see everyone. And believe it or not, we have a system that you may not be able to detect. So when it's your turn, I WILL COME TO YOU. Again, not a life or death situation. And you look like a fucking idiot.
6) DON'T MAKE ME RUN ALL OVER THE BAR 8 TIMES, JUST TO TAKE YOUR ORDER. Know your ENTIRE order when you place it. Don't order 2 beers... Then 2 more beers... Then 3 shots. Order 4 beers, and 3 shots. We're good at our jobs, and we can remember drink orders IN THEIR ENTIRETY! And I can promise you, you'll have to wait longer the next time you come to the bar if you do this. We aren't your slaves, and we have plenty of other customers to assist besides you.
7) TIP BY THE DRINK! For example, if you order 2 vodka tonics, and 2 shots, then you should tip for the vodka, and the shot. Because that's 2 different things we had to make you, and it makes sense that we should get tipped for each. If you think that's too much, then you don't need to be going out.
8) ALWAYS KEEP IN MIND that you are not our only responsibility. We have several, not just including the other bar guests, and the waitresses. So don't call us over to you every 5 seconds. It's annoying, and we'll start to avoid you.
9) I don't think I should have to say this but...I better just in case. DON'T BE AN ASS!@! If you piss one of us off, not only will that person you pissed off not serve you, chances are, NONE OF US WILL. And you may even be asked to leave if your childish behavior reaches an inappropriate level. That means IF WE ASK YOU TO STOP DOING SOMETHING, STOP. DON'T ARGUE. DON'T BE DIFFICULT. DON'T BE A PERV. DON'T BE ANNOYING. DON'T GET AN ATTITUDE. We're just trying to do our jobs. We WANT you guys to be happy! So don't be so quick to pounce on us.
That pretty much sums it up i think...Demetri Of The Day:
"Every fight is a food fight when you’re a cannibal."
Friday, January 11, 2008
"Are you friends with this guy?" he asked in a low voice, almost a whisper.
"What??" I was totally confused.
"That guy. On the bike. Is he a friend of yours?"
"Why?" I thought this was a very strange question.
Guy #2 was now walking next to me on my right.
"Well, because if he's not, I'll hit him, and get you away from him." Guy #1 said, again in a low voice. By now, Sophie and Brent had noticed the 2 guys, but were still in conversation.
I turned to Guy #1, looked him in the eye, and said in a very serious tone, "If you hit him, I will punch you in the throat."
Guy #2 burst out laughing.
"Well then I guess he is a friend of yours." Guy #1 said.
"Yea...you could say that." I replied.
At this point Brent turned around, "Wait, what's going on??" he said.
I told him what happened and he laughed. Apparently the 2 strange guys thought we were being followed and wanted to "help" Sophie and I. Of course I thought that was absolutely ridiculous considering if Brent had been following us, Sophie and I wouldn't have been talking to him, and if Guy #1 had tried to jump anyone, I could have easily fended him off myself! But it was funny, and we all had quite a laugh.
Last night was pretty fun; we danced a lot, till I was practically sweating my ass off! But the Orlando night scene has nothing on Houston! Not nearly as many people go out here, and everytime I saw a hot guy, I had to ask myself if he was gay or straight. But overall, it was good time! So it's back to Houston today, and I've decided on Demetri Martin! So here's his first quote!
Demetri Of The Day:
"A dreamcatcher works, if your dream is to be gay."
Thursday, January 10, 2008
- Addy - Jayme's best friend who lives in Austin and is NOT 21.
- The Albanian - Bartender/manager at my bar who I made out with once when we were drunk.
- Alli - Real smartass bartender at work, about 30 years old, we've just started to become friends.
- Alyssa - One of my best friends, also cocktails at my bar.
- Amanda - One of my newest good friends who I met through Melissa and is a school teacher.
- Amy - My cousin, Jenna's older sister, who I never got along with when we were kids, cuz she's such a huge bully.
- Andrew - Old friend from HS that I recently started catching up with. Friends with Hot Dereck.
- Aunt Jessica - My moms sister, who wants to set me up with her daughter Noelle's riding instructor, The Frenchman.
- Austin - The last guy I actually dated. Was super sweet at first until he turned into a total douche bag. Brought me to a wedding and then ditched me for another girl.
- Bethany - My favorite bartender at work, super cool, and a good friend who I've been going out with a lot lately.
- Billy - Guy from the bar next door whom I briefly dated. Met on the bus at the employee trip. Was very sweet at first, but doesn't play well with others when drunk, and gets very dramatic. He recently moved back to Arizona.
- Blinn - Owner/manager of my bar, super cool dude, and crazy when drunk. We made out once after a long night of poker and drinking, and haven't spoken about it since!
- Brent - Sophie's new hubby, and my new brother!! He's a very talented musician, he's in a band, and he is an awesome singer.
- Cecilia - One of my best friends. I was the MOH in her wedding and she just had a baby about 4 months ago!
- Charlotte - Another girl I met through Melissa who has a really badass job and gets to travel a lot.
- Dee - Melissa's little sis.
- DJ - The DJ at my work who's pretty much ALWAYS there, whether he's working or not.
- Dr. New York - Shane's dude in NY, who actually lives in Jersey, but he let us stay on his yacht while we were in NYC.
- Dustin - Used to be a door guy at work, but I think he quit, or got sent somewhere in the marines cuz I haven't seen him in months.
- Emma - We were best friends all through school, but have drifted apart in recent years.
- Eric The Skeaze - Guy I met out one night, who I still frequently run into. We've made out a few times, but he's obviously, a skeaze.
- Evan - Super good friend from high school who I went to NY with, and we sorta hooked up once when we were drunk.
- Frank - Bartender at work who I was thinking about moving in with, but decided not to when I was thinking about moving to Austin.
- The Frenchman - my cousin Noelle's horseback riding teacher, who lives in Lafayette, and is super sexy! My aunt is trying to fix me up with him.
- Gavin - Door guy at work who is super hot and I've always had a crush on.
- Gill - Former door guy at work. We played poker at his house once. He still hangs out at our bar a lot.
- Hot Dereck - Guy I used to have a big crush on. We met at his bar, and he works in midtown, but he's bad news.
- Izzie - One of my best friends since HS. Married and lives in Austin.
- Jake - The hot new door guy at work, who is now talking to Melissa.
- Jayme - Waitress/bartender at work who goes out with us every once in a while. She works at the shot bar now. Kinda crazy, but tons of fun!
- Jenna - My cousin and also one of my best friends! Amy's little sister. Moved here from Austin about a year and a half ago, and we hang out quite often.
- John - Door guy at work who I met at the employee outing. Kind of quiet, but very sweet and very smart. And when he drinks, he drinks! I'm still trying to figure him out...
- Johnny - Acoustic guitar player at work on the weekends. He usually hangs out when we play poker.
- Josh - Cute bartender in Austin that I had a fling with.
- Kristin - Former waitress at work who The Model gave his number to.
- Mackenzie - Another new friend I met through Melissa. She's a Tito's vodka promoter, so I see her at work a lot.
- Mark - Bartender/former manager at work who is badass at dancing! Especially to Michael Jackson songs. He recently got a day job, so he just bartends on weekends now.
- May - Bartended with her at my last job and we used to be really great friends until she started dating Shady, her really sketch Asian mafia boyfriend. Then she pretty much changed personalities...
- Megan - Good friend from HS who recently got married and bartends day shifts at my bar.
- Melissa - My newest best friend. We went to HS together, but didn't become friends until we double dated with Mitchell and The Model.
- Misty - Bartender at work, and girlfriend of owner/general manager, Mr. S.
- Mitchell - The Model's cousin who briefly dated Melissa. Lives in Atlanta.
- The Model - THE HOTTEST GUY EVER. Met in HS while working together at the mall. We've hooked up a few times, but he continues to screw me over and I continue to pine after him...((sigh))
- Mr. P. - Original owner of my bar, the brains behind the business! Very sexy and very intimidating guy, but super cool once you get to know him.
- Mr. S. - General manager of my bar. Super cool to hang out with after hours, has been dating bartender, Misty for about 5 years.
- Nick - Bartender at work. Big antagonist, but overall a cool, funny guy, and we're pretty good friends.
- Noelle - My cousin, Aunt Jessica's daughter, who lives in Lousiana and likes horses just like I do.
- Paul - My cousin who recently got out of rehab for cocain addiction. Recently been spotted in midtown partying.
- The Psycho - My last serious relationship. Crazy, abusive, controlling, the reason I don't trust men.
- Rikki - Best friend from HS. Married and lives in Seattle.
- Rob - Cecilia's husband.
- Shady - May's asshole of a boyfriend. I bet he has a lot of skeletons in his closet. REAL ones!
- Shane - Good friend I met through Izzie, Megan and Rikki. Lives in Austin, currently single and so much fun to go out with! I usually crash with her when I go to Austin. However, we have the same taste in guys in she tends to think everything is a competition.
- Sophie - MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! My sister!
- Taylor - Brent's younger brother, who is about my age, and also a bartender. We have a lot in common and he's hilarious!
- Tina - New bartender at my job who I worked with previously and don't really like.
- Todd - One of my best guy friends. Known eachother since 2nd grade. If he didn't always have a girlfriend, I would totally date him because he is literally the perfect man. It just took me too long to figure that out... And he is going to play football for the NFL. Seriously. He's being scouted.
- Tommy - The guy with classic good looks that Shane and I met while out one night in Austin. We both thought he was hot, and that's when things with Shane and I started to get awkward...
- Tugg - Bethany's live-in boyfriend, who works for the owners of my bar, at the new shot bar. He's pretty funny.
- Valerie - Waitress/bartender at work. She used to be a huge bitch to me, but now we get along, and I guess you could say we're friends.
- Vette Guy - TROUBLE. The douche bag I dated for a while who drove a Corvette (until he totaled it), thought he was God's gift to women, and had the mentality of a 17 year old. We haven't had contact in months. Not since I called him out on his jerking me around and he got pissed and said he was never gonna call me again. Lol.
Things in Florida have been nice, and relaxing. Sophie manages a local tea shop and I've been popping in there for lunch everyday, then we go to the gym, and then usually read and hang out. Brent comes over every day too of course, since his wife lives here. Haha, that's still weird to say! But it's so awesome to have a brother-in-law! They're not living together yet though because they both have leases at their respective apartments, which sucks for them I guess, but they still see plenty of each other. In fact, the 3 of us are all going out dancing tonight because Sophie doesn't have to work tomorrow, yay! Oh, and guess what!? ((GASP!!!)) I bet there will be drinking involved!!! :-0 Lol, sorry that was acatty and passive agressive comment, but I just can't bring myself to erase it. Hee.
So anyways, I finally got all the photo's from Amy's shoot touched up and sent to her. And she loves all of them! YAY! It's so nice to feel like I'm doing something right. And people say I'm really good at it, so...I dunno. It's just a good feeling. Now I have to start on the photos of Sophie and Brent's "wedding". And Melissa told me today that she's entering a Latina beauty pageant, so she wants me to take some head shots of her. That should be fun!
Tomorrow I head back to Houston, but I'm kinda glad because I do miss my girlfriends... Oh, and guess who messaged me last night?? Andrew. And he says he misses me, and wants to see me, and wishes he would have kissed me when he had the chance. Lol. So I might be seeing him tomorrow night...we'll see.
Melissa, Amanda, Charlotte, Mackenzie, Bethany's boyfriend, Tugg, and basically a huge group of friends are all heading out to the newest bar in Houston tomorrow night! We're all really excited! Well, that's all for now! Oh, and I'm going to make you guys a family tree, and update my name key, cuz there have been a lot of new people as of late! And I'm thinking about changing my Mitch Of The Days to a new comedian. Cuz I'm starting to run out of quotes, considering he's not around anymore to make new ones. :( So, maybe Demetri Martin or Dane Cook. Any suggestions?
Mitch Of The Day:
"When someone hands you a flyer, it's like they're saying "Here, you throw this away.'"
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
And as one you readers mentioned, it's true that I only write about the eventful things in my life. I don't drink every day. Not even every week. So chill out guys. I can take the heat, if you wanna talk shit, be my guest. I just don't want this to turn into a conduit to arguments. My blog is a means to an end...I enjoy writing it, not arguing with people.
End of story.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
It was very simple, but quaint. She and Brent had a small "ceremony" in these gardens nearby. Their friend/manager, just happens to be an ordained minister, so he married them. And it was just me, my parents, and Brents parents, and his brother, Taylor. We spent the whole day together, and it was a blast!
The wedding was at 10 am this morning, and I was the photographer! I got some really amazing shots, although Sophie won't let me post them anywhere, or show them to anyone, because she's lame and didn't tell anyone really, that she and Brent were getting hitched. Whatever...not really my business I guess. But regardless, I got some really nice photos and it was fun.
The only thing is, Sophie and I are both very artistic people, and she is also a photographer, and lately she's been acting really sour about me doing the photography thing too. It's like she thinks I'm trying to steal her thunder or something. And everytime anyone refers to me as a "photographer", she contradicts them, and says, "Well she just started..." and it pisses me off! First of all, because I did not just start. I've been doing photography for longer than she has! I used to shoot film in high school, but then my camera broke so I kinda got out of it for a while, and since my mom and I started those classes, I've gotten back into it. It just so happens that Sophie picked up a camera and started shooting this summer or something. So...like a couple months before I did, but she seems to think she's staked her claim on photography and only one of us can do it. Everything always has to be a competition with her, I don't know why! Ugh...it just sucks because hers is one of the only opinions I actually value, and she always has to be so...snotty about me taking pictures. Whatever...
Anyways, after the wedding, we all went out to lunch, and then to play minigolf. I really got to know Taylor too, Brents younger brother. He's about 6 months younger than me, and we have a lot in common. We're both bartenders first of all, and we have similar senses of humor. So we had fun goofing off and exchanging bar stories.
Then my parents went to the airport, Brents family went back to Jacksonville, Sophie and Brent went to their hotel, and I went back to Sophie's apartment, alone. So I decided to take Sophie's beach cruiser to the bookstore. I actually ended up riding to 2 bookstores, cuz Barnes & Noble didn't have the book I wanted. And then neither did Borders! But I got plenty of exercise! And it was fun. I haven't ridden a bike since college. But now I'm exhausted!!
I just wanted to fill everyone in on the goings on here in the sunshine state! Keep up the comments guys, I appreciate it!
Oh, and to all you haters out there, I don't have a drinking problem!!! I don't drink any more than anyone else my age that I know! I mean yea, I like to go out and have a good time, but who are you to judge me? If you don't like my blog, then spare me your comments and find another blog to read. There are plenty of them out there, and if I've heard it once, I've heard it a hundred times so please...seriously.
Mitch Of The Day:
"Chicago is known as the Windy City, and Montana is called the Big Sky State, so I think that we should somehow combine the two to create the ultimate kite-flying experience."
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Well first, let me start off by saying, the photoshoot this morning went great! I got a lot of really awesome shots, and I know we'll both be happy with them. It was fun too!
Ok, now before I can get to the real story, I have to tell you guys what happened last night. I was in a pretty good mood at work, just doing my thing and having a good time. And in pops The Model. Of course. He always has to show up and ruin my night!! Well, he and his friend ordered a round of drinks, and when they came back for round 2, I said, "Do you guys want shots?" And I gestured as if to take a shot, because I was trying to talk to them over a loud crowd, and usually body language helps. But The Model shook his head and made a face.
"Oh come on!" I teased him, "Don't be a wimp!"
The Model shook his head, "You're a lush!" he said with a huge stupid grin on his face.
"What?!" I said. It took me a second to actually understand him.
"You're a lush!" He repeated. At first, I just thought he meant because I take shots with my favorite customers, as do all the other bartenders. But then I realized what he was really implying, and it started to piss me off.
"If I'm a lush, then you're a lush!" I retorted.
But he just shook his head as if to say "no way".
"It's not like I was trying to get you to buy me a shot!" I clarified. He never got a chance to respond because I got called away. But the more I thought about what he said, the madder I got. Where does he come off saying that to me!? I mean how many times have I hooked him up with free drinks?! What the hell do I need him to buy me shit for?! I work there! If I really wanted to get fucked up on the job, it wouldn't be that hard. Oh, I was so mad!
"He's an asshole, I don't know why you even still talk to the guy." Nick said after I vented to him about what happened.
"Well...I don't know either! But I can't help myself!"
Later, The Model's friend came back and said anytime I wanted a shot, he'd take one with me.
"Well, I was offering to buy you guys a shot, not suggesting you buy me one. Why does (The Model) have to be a dick about it??"
"I dunno...because he's Princess [insert The Model's name here]!" he answered.
I laughed, "Wow, I think I might actually use that one."
Ugh. So I was pissed about that for most of the rest of the night, until he left.
Then tonight at work, everything was going along like usual, except that I was keeping my eyes peeled for The Model. But he never showed, thank God. Anyways, John came in around 1 am, totally obliviated! I mean really...he was so drunk. However, I didn't realize this right off the bat, because he puts on a pretty good front. But when I went to go talk to him, I teasingly gave him a push on the shoulder, and he fell over backwards and hit his head on a stool!!! Mr. S. had to call the paramedics because his head was bleeding everywhere! It was terrible! For about 15 minutes, I felt so horrible... I mean I thought I'd killed John! The look on his face when we helped him up and Mr. S. dragged him into the back room... It wasn't good. And I just had to go back behind the bar and keep working! But I couldn't concentrate on anything else, and I was so worried about him, and I just felt so bad! Finally we turned on the lights for last call, and I ran into the back to see how he was doing. He was sitting on an empty beer keg with a rag and a bag of ice on his head. He has kind of long hair, so I bent over and lifted up his hair.
"John...?? I'm sooooo so so so sorry! Please forgive me! I didn't mean to knock you over! Are you ok???" I asked.
He looked up at me with a sheepish, drunken grin.
"Don't worry about it..." he said.
"Well...is there anything I can do for you? Do you need some water? I'll go get you some water." I immediately ran out and got him an Ozarka.
He was standing up when I got back.
"I'm so sorry John!" I hugged him. He kinda laughed.
"It's ok...really. I'm fine." he slurred.
"Well I owe you big! I'll buy you a steak dinner! Anything you want!"
"All you have to do...is watch the Harry Potter movies with me." he said deliriously.
"What? OK! Sure! We can watch all 5 of them! I'll give you all 5 of them!"
"No, you don't have to give me them. Just me and you. Watch them." he said. He clearly had stars in his eyes.
"Ok John. No problem." I felt a little better when I walked back to the bar. If he felt well enough to flirt with me, then he would eventually be fine. I offered to drive him home, since clearly he was in no shape to drive. Gavin and I went and picked up his car and put it in the parking lot. Then he and I helped John into the car.
"Call me if you get lost. I know how to get to his house." Gavin said, "You have my number, right?"
"Yea. I'll definitely give you a call if he passes out again." I said.
So I drove John home. It was a little strange under the circumstances. I tried to keep him talking so that he wouldn't pass out. He has a habit of doing that even when he hasn't hurt his head. When we got to his driveway I asked him if he needed help into the house.
"Sure, if you want." he said.
"Um...ok I'll help you." I felt responsible for him! And the last thing I wanted was for him to get all the way home, and then trip out my car door and crack his head on the curb!
So we got out of the car, and he seemed to be fine on his own, but he put his arm around me anyway. Then he started skipping. Yea! Skipping!
"Ok John, I guess you'll be fine on your own then. Just make sure you turn on the lights when you get inside so you don't trip." I teased.
"Do you have to work tomorrow?" he asked.
"Well then do you wanna hang out a while?"
I sighed. "Not tonight. I can't cuz my parents are out of town, and I gotta feed all the animals and stuff."
"Ok, well goodnight Peyton."
I wasn't lying about the parents being gone thing. They left for Florida yesterday. But as I drove off I started second guessing myself. Maybe I should have stayed? I dunno... I mean, I do like John, and he's a nice, smart guy (who tends to drink a little too much every once in a while, but who doesn't?) and he has a lot going for him. He's a good guy. But...he's not the guy for me. And I'm tired of wasting my time. And why should I waste his? Maybe I'm thinking too long term but, hey. What would be the point? I already know it wouldn't work out. Plus, I still get butterflies when I talk to Gavin. Especially today in the car. He gives really good hugs. ((blush))
Well...that's my story!
And I still have to watch 5 movies with John.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I don't like grouper fish. Well, they're okay. They hang around star fish. Because they're grouper fish."