Tuesday, July 31, 2007

All The World Needs Is Another Asshole...

Well...let's see...where to begin?
Last night was...I guess you could say fun. While I was getting ready to go out, I swear I almost had an anxiety attack thinking about The Model, and what was gonna happen. So I whipped out my good ole' pain killers from when I got my teeth pulled and popped half a vicoprofin. Then I made myself a vodka water, and then I left! By the time I got to The Model's house, I was feeling really happy, and looking forward to the night.
The first bad sign was when he suggested we take 2 cars. Umm...ok??
So Mitchell rode with me, and The Model and Mitchell's brother took The Model's Benz. Somehow, my cousin Jenna managed to get into the party before we'd even gotten there, which turned out to be a really good thing. The Model was acting like a complete douche bag the entire time. First I noticed he wasn't being his usual happy-go-lucky self. He seemed like he was kinda in a bad mood. When we first got there, Gavin, who was working the door, gave me a hug and said, "What's up man?" to The Model, and he goes, "How does that guy know me?? He freakin should cuz I dropped like $1100 in here Saturday night..."
THEN, to my horror, he proceeded to repeatedly talk about this chick's ass and how nice it was.
But even though all this was going on, the alcohol was flowing, and I was feelin' good, taking shots, and drinking mojitos. Before long, I was totally trashed! And not just your normal trashed, cuz I can usually handle my liquor. But because I took that pain killer, I was pretty crazy.
So I'm goofin' off, having a good time, not paying too much attention to The Model. Then, I can't remember WHY, I just grabbed him, kinda like that stupid blonde did the other night, and went to kiss him. Not a sexy kiss, or a make out kiss, not even a flirty kiss! Just a friendly, drunken peck on the lips. And he TURNED AWAY.
Again...wtf. Way to make me look like an idiot.
So Jenna and I made a break for the bathroom where she totally flipped out on me about what an asshole The Model was being. And I couldn't help but agree. So I stopped talking to him after that, and went outside to chat with Gavin.
He didn't seem too happy to be working. Poor guy.
Then I went back inside to tip the bartenders, since the alcohol was FREE, and in my drunken stupor, I motion for The Albanian to come hither, grab HIM and plant one on him! Which wouldn't have been so bad, except that after that I knocked over a drink that was sitting on the bar and broke the glass.
And it gets worse.
AFTER I did that, I twisted my ankle in my supercute high heels. I mean like seriously sprained my ankle. I think I tore a ligament or something! And Frank (one of my coworkers) had to CARRY me outside! He's such a sweetheart for doing that, but I know I'm never gonna hear the end of it! ((sigh)) Woe is me.
So The Model and his cousins had been talking about going back to The Model's house to watch Nacho Libre, which I've never seen. So I called him, from the parking lot, to ask what the plan was. And The Model actually had the audacity to tell me he didn't think it was a good idea that I come because I had "different intentions" than he did.
WTF #3.
I was so mad, I quickly got off the phone with him and sent him a text that said, "Ok i'm sorry you think i'm like...in love with you or something...i just wanted to wach a movie with you guys. That's all. And i'm drunk and think you're a cool guy. The end."
His response: Then I'm sorry about the misunderstanding.
My response: whatever...

Haven't heard from him since.
And he and his cousins literally ditched me afterwards! And I was clearly in no shape to drive. So Jenna took me home with her, and we passed out there. She drove me back to my car this morning. I so love Jenna. I dunno what I'd do without her! She makes me laugh at the shittiness that is my life. ((sigh))
I'm seriously done with The Model. I thought if we weren't anything else, at least we were friends, but apparently, I was wrong. So fuck him.
I'm done with assholes! I'm done with douche bags! And I'm done with models!!!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I have an underwater camera, just in case I crash my car into a river, and at the last minute I see a photo opportunity of a fish that I have never seen."

Monday, July 30, 2007

Until I Crash And Burn

Well, hope has been restored!!
The Model is coming with me tonight. Mitchell's coming too; apparently some chick he knows has an invite. So we're all meeting at The Model's house and heading up there together. I think it's going to be really fun! And I'm gonna try to act as nonchalant as possible. I know it's probably a reallllly bad idea for me to be getting my hopes up again after Saturday, but...I can't help it. The Model is leaving tomorrow and then I can finally get him off my mind. At least for a while anyways....
So I was totally supposed to be at work at 3 o'clock to open the bar yesterday, and I didn't know! I was so depressed about the night before that I just laid in bed till like 2 in the afternoon and then went to my parents house. My mom and I were on our way to grab some lunch when I checked my phone and saw that I had like 3 missed calls from work, and 2 voicemails asking where I was! I totally freaked out! My mom had to drive me back to their house, and then I had to drive all the way back to the house I'm staying at, change clothes, grab my makeup and drive all the way to midtown. I did all this in 45 minutes, but by the time I got there, I was 2 hours late! SO humiliating! I read the schedule wrong. Ugh. I probably almost got fired. But Mark was managing yesterday and he was really cool about it. He just warned me that one of the owners was pretty pissed, and Mark basically saved my ass.
So I'm gonna make sure and write my schedule down from now on. ((sigh)) Yesterday was seriously like the worst day ever. We didn't make any money either, it was totally dead. There was only like 20 bucks in the tip jar when I got off.
Well hopefully I don't screw things up with The Model tonight. I HAVE to play it cool. And I'm totally gonna flirt with Gavin and The Albanian in front of him. See how HE likes it!
Well, I'll be sure to keep you all updated on how it goes! Wish me luck!!

Mitch Of The Day:
"My friend asked me if I wanted a frozen banana. I said 'No, but I want a regular banana later, so...yeah.'"

Sunday, July 29, 2007

All My Exes Live In Texas; The Guys I WANT Live Elsewhere...

Ok this is gonna be long!

First, let me talk about Friday night. After work, a bunch of people decided to go to this after hours club. It was pretty ghetto, but we had fun, and drank some more. Gavin AND The Albanian were there too. I tried to inconspicuously ask some of the girls I work with about the "single guys". Both of them told me Gavin and The Albanian were very available.
So when the club closed, at like 5, we headed over to some guys house, who I'd never met. By this point, Gavin was totally hitting on me! And I'm not gonna lie, I flirted back. So we drank a little more, and then Gavin busted out with his reefer stash. Haha, so we smoked a little. I know, I'm so bad!
Gavin was soooo baked though, it was hilarious! Then finally at like 7 we decided to call it a night, er...morning. So overall, Friday was a success!

Last night, however, was a total bust. I should have known this would happen.
Melissa and I had dinner at El Patio first, that was fun. Then we drove over to the bar where Mitchell's going away party was. By this time, I had halfway convinced myself that That Model wasn't going to be there. But they showed up a little after we did, and he was there. At first I was excited. He finally got a haircut and he looks gorgeous.
I invited him to go to the Tommy Bahama party with me tomorrow night, and he seemed excited about it and said he'd let me know tomorrow if he can go or not. Then some stupid blonde girl (why is it always a blonde!?) started talking to him, and flirting with him. Literally throwing herself at him... They used to date in like 9th grade or something. ((sigh)) I literally could not stand the sight of it. So I left to go walk around. Vette Guy AND Eric The Skeaze both made appearances last night. It was weird. I actually talked to Eric The Skeaze for a while; Vette Guy and I exchanged pleasantries. He was there with some other blonde. She was sweet, but uh...not so cute. It felt really good to blow him off and go back to the party.
But yea, back to the party...The Model was still with that girl. He hardly said 2 words to me. I saw her kiss him once. It was one of those, grab his face suddenly and plant one on him type of kisses. And he actually had the gall to look at me and say, "I just got a kiss! Did you see that!?"
After that, I left. Mitchell had been talking about getting a hotel room and continuing the party, but I kept getting mental images of The Model and The Blonde in a hotel room, and it was making me sick. I cried the whole way home, and then some more when I got there. It was horrible. And today I feel like shit. Not physically, just...worn down.
I can't get over him.
No matter how hard I try...over the years it's always been him for me. I compare every guy I ever date to him! I guess I've always hoped that one day, when he decides he's tired of modeling, he'll want to find a girl and be in a relationship. And I hoped I'd still be in the picture at that point. But right now, I just feel like it's probably better for me if I never talk to him again. Because he hurts me so bad and he doesn't even know it. I can't tell him how I feel, because it would be fruitless and disturb the balance. It's like teetering on the edge of a really high cliff with jagged rocks below me. ((sigh))
What do I DO????

Mitch Of The Day:
"The depressing thing about tennis is that no matter how good I get, I'll never be as good as a wall. "

Friday, July 27, 2007

If there's drama in your life, it's because you're dramatic.

Ok, so a lot of exciting things are about to happen!! Haha...for me anyways.
While I was at work last night, Melissa texted me to tell me The Model is flying in for Mitchell's going away party thing Saturday night. So I'm REALLLLLLLY excited! I was giddy for the rest of my shift last night. Today I got new shoes and a top for our night of partying. The Model doesn't know that I know he's coming though, and I plan on keeping it that way! You know, so I can act surprised! Haha.
Also, I actually got to work behind the bar with The Albanian last night too. And we were in the small bar, so it was just the two of us. I don't think he has a clue that I'm slightly interested. Because I know he's single, and looking for someone. I'm just not sure if I wanna move forward with it or not yet... Because once I do, there's no turning back, ya know? And since it's work, everyone will know, yada yada... Plus I still have a little crush on Gavin, and he works there too. That's all I need is a work/love triangle. Ugh.
Speaking of drama, Mitchell and Melissa. OH. MY. GOD! They are so ridiculous... They're both crazy about each other, but neither one will set their pride aside and admit it. So they just keep playing these stupid games. I HATE games. And I mean, I know Mitchell is moving and all, and Melissa doesn't want to invest too much, and neither does he, but still! So Melissa's pissed off at Mitchell for something or another, and now she's not coming to the shindig on Saturday. Which TOTALLY sucks for me, because I realllly need a girlfriend for this! I don't wanna be that girl, standing around, waiting for The Model to pay attention to her! I wanna have someone there to goof off with, so that when random sluts start hitting on The Model in front of me, I'll have someone else to distract me. ((sigh))

In other news, Tommy Bahama Rum is throwing a huge party at my work on Monday, with free booze. And I get to go!! They basically rented the whole place out, and any employees who aren't working get to go. I was thinking about taking The Model, you know if he's still here, and assuming everything goes well this weekend... But if not, I'm definitely gonna ask Melissa. Cuz it's gonna be a total blast! And The Albanian is working...hehe.
I'm working tonight at 10 again. Hopefully it'll be better money than last night, seeing as how I spent all mine shopping. Lol. I really need to get myself on a budget. I'm so bad with money...ugh.
May has now tried calling me twice. Once yesterday, and once today. I didn't answer, and she hasn't left any messages. Hopefully she gets the hint. I'm sure we'll work this out eventually, I just really wanna get the point across to her that I have other friends besides her, and I'm disinclined to continue bothering with someone who ditches me, repeatedly, without a second thought.
As for Emma, I talked to her on the phone yesterday. I finally called her back. We chatted about nonsubstantial things for a bit, and then of course she asked if I was going to the shower. She wanted to ride together and go in on a gift together. I told her I'd already bought something. I just...don't really wanna be associated with her anymore. At least not when it comes to that group of girls. Because we all consider her undependable and fickle. And kind of self-centered. Well, I shouldn't say self-centered, it's just that she has this certain disreguard for how her actions affect other people. So I dunno... Emma is kind of like family, and I will always love her ya know? So I'm stuck with her. But, my mom gave me some good advice on that front (believe it or not!). I'm just gonna put my foot down. I'm not going to let her tag along with me and my friends, because she pouts. And I'm not going to tag along with her and her boyfriend, because they make me feel like I shouldn't be there. So that's that.
Anyways, I can't wait for this weekend!! It's gonna be a blast. I'm DETERMINED to have a good time. And hey, if things start to get shitty tomorrow night, I'll just drink more!

Mitch Of The Day: (I can't believe I forgot this last post!)
"...and then at the end of the letter I like to write 'P.S. - This is what part of the alphabet would look like if Q and R were eliminated.'"

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends

So this morning I woke up with a lot of stuff on my mind about friends.
May totally sold out on me last night, and I'm realllly get tired of it. She promised me she wouldn't flake out on me, like she usually does, and then when it came time to leave, she didn't answer the phone, or respond to any of my messages. SO! I left without her, and I have no intentions of calling her any time soon. It's just getting really old, ya know?? I mean the whole time she was with her boyfriend, it was as if she had crawled in a hole or something, and I never saw or heard from her. Except on those rare occasions when she was bored because he was working. And now that they're broken up, and she's all heart broken, she just expects all of her friends, whom she ditched for the past 8 months, to be there for her! And I mean, I love May, and I do sympathize, breakups are hard. But really!? Friendships are not one-sided. At least, they shouldn't be. And in the past 8 months, when did she ever call to see how I was doing or what was going on in my life??
Point in case.
And then there's Emma. Emma and I were inseparable at one point. In seventh grade, I had just transferred to public school, and I didn't know anybody, and of course, I was a huge nerd. But so was she! And we became best friends. Then we went through high school, and then college, and now it's like we hardly know each other at all.
I think the true test of friendship is time.
When you're in high school, it's easy to be someone's friend. You see them every day, you know all the same people... But once you graduate, and go your separate ways, you have to actually go out of your way to be there for someone. And that's when you find out who your true friends are.
I will always be a friend to Emma, but...it just isn't the same. She calls me only when it's convenient for her, or when she needs something, and I'm just tired of it! She's been dating the same guy for like 2 years now, and I love him too, but I CANNOT hang out with them. They hang all over each other constantly, and she talks to him in baby voices...it's disgusting. And she doesn't even seem to care that it makes me incredibly uncomfortable. Frankly, she doesn't seem to care what I think or feel at all these days!
Now our friend from high school, Megan, is getting married in September. And she's having a shower the first weekend in August. So of course, Emma's been calling me off the hook wanting to know if I'm going, because she no longer speaks to any of those girls! And who's fault is that?!? I've really realized that Emma and I wouldn't be friends at all if it weren't for me. ((Sigh))
So, after all this thinking I've done, I have come to the conclusion that I have 5 best friends: Sophie (my sister and bestest friend in the whole world!!), Jenna (my cousin), Alyssa, Cecilia, and Izzie. I used to work with Alyssa and Cecilia. Cecilia is married and pregnant, so obviously she can't really go out or anything, Alyssa is in Cali with her boyfriend right now, my sister lives in Florida, Izzie lives in Austin and is also married, and Jenna and I only see each other once a week probably because we have opposite schedules.
I'm really glad I've started hanging out with Melissa though. Because the way things are looking, I could use a few new friends!
So what do you do about these so-called friends?? How do you tell someone that you've been friends with for years, that you don't really consider them a friend anymore? How do you tell someone that you feel you can no longer depend on them for anything?
Basically, how do you tell someone, "You're a shitty friend"??

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

De Ja Vu?

Work last night was alright I suppose. Although it could have been much better. I went in at 7, and around 9 a realllllly hot guy comes and sits down at the bar by himself. As soon as he opened a tab I looked to see what his name was: Coy. Interesting name huh? It took me a while to pluck up the guts to strike up a conversation with him, other than, "What can I get for ya?"
But after a little bit, his buddy showed up, so I talked to both of them for a while. I just couldn't stop admiring his chiseled good looks!
Then a group of dumb girls came and sat next to them...ugh. And his friend started talking to them. And then his friend introduced Coy to them, and then I had to give up, because the 2 of them were so engrossed in their flirting. It was rather disgusting. When I got off, I stayed and had a beer. Coy and his friend were still there. Still flirting.
By this time, I had forgotten all the free drinks I'd given them, because I'd been planning on giving him my phone number. So when they went to leave, Coy came over and gave me a hug, said thanks, and asked me when I was working next. I told him Thursday and Friday, and he said he'd be there.
I'm not holding my breath.

As I was driving home, I realized why I was so angry about the whole situation. I mean, besides the fact that I missed out on hitting it off with a total hottie.
He looks a lot like a guy a dated, right before/after I graduated college. Austin and I met at a local bar in the town where I went to college; he'd already graduated from there. We totally hit it off, it was like a whirlwind romance! Only problem was, he lived 3 hours away. But he came down to visit me, went to my graduation party, and I drove up to visit him, and we always had a blast.
Until one day, he had invited me to his cousins wedding. Brought me there where I don't know anybody, ignored me, and unabashedly flirted with some slut right in front of me the whole time!
Needless to say it was over after that, and I never really figured out why. He just gave me some b.s. excuse about us being in 2 different places and wanting different things. Classic. But I was totally heartbroken over it, because I had just started to really fall for him, ya know?
So anyways, back to Coy.
He and Austin just have wayyyy too many strinking similarities! Very classic, masculine good looks, strong jawline, gorgeous eyes, defined arms and chest...niiiice... ((Stop it! Stop it!!))
So I dunno...
Girls: DO we always go for the same guys? Without even realizing?? Or was that just a one time thing. I saw something in Coy that I had loved about Austin. And the fact that Austin and I never really had closure, and the way things ended...?
I dunno. I'm sooo confused! ((Sigh))

Well Melissa and I are going to Nordstrom's again tomorrow! I just can't get enough of that sale! And Jenna's working so it should be fun. And it's nice to have a new friend to hang out with. It's very refreshing!

Mitch Of The Day
"A severed foot is the ultimate stocking stuffer."

Sunday, July 22, 2007


Well, there's really not much to write about as far as this weekend goes. We didn't even hang out after work last night! Everybody kinda just...went home. But I ended up having to work today, so I'm kind of glad I got my sleep.
Work today TOTALLY sucked! Some stupid drunken idiot knocked over a table, some chairs, some drinks and his friend (who happened to be wearing a short skirt and everyone saw her panties)!! Haha. I guess it's kind of funny in retrospect but not when you're having to babysit and bartend at the same time. And hello!? It was 4 o'clock in the afternoon! On Sunday! What is wrong with people...
I did see The Albanian after work on Saturday night though. We didn't talk much cuz we were counting money. But I did notice that he got a nice tan from being in Mexico. And here's what's weird, I had a dream about him last night! I dreamt that we were walking through some city together with some mutual friends, probably work people, and he dragged me inside some place because he said he had to tell me something. And in the dream, I was sure he just wanted to kiss me! So I must have looked at him like...like I dunno, like I thought he was about to kiss me, but really he did just want to tell me something! Haha. But then, when he saw that I wanted to kiss him, he kissed me anyways, and it was like...omg. The most amazingly charged kiss! Not just , or sparks. It was like, even when the kiss is over, you just sit there, with your eyes still closed trying to regain your composure. THAT'S what it was.
Freakin. Amazing.
And it was just a dream!! Soooo I'm thinkin maybe I should give The Albanian a shot. It's just I had kind of already decided he's too much like my ex-fiance...really laid back, not super masculine, but really sweet. Ya know? And it's always nice to have a guy that treats you right, but in the case of my ex, he just let me walk all over him. And THAT is a turn-off. So we'll see I guess...I'm not working with him again till Thursday. Poo...
In other news, Vette Guy is now my friend on facebook. Lol. I'd sent him the request ages ago and forgotten about it, and apparently he rarely checks it. But he accepted me, and I looked at his pictures, and he definitely needs a teeth whitening. Haha. I know that sounds really mean, but hey! He blew me off, and it makes me feel better!
...and he calls himself a model...

As far as the comments go, YES, I am a real person! Come on, if this was fake, I think I could come up with some better story lines...
And no, I don't really want to go into detail about what I do in the shower.
As for everyone else, thanks for the compliments! I'm glad you all are enjoying the blog! I sure am having fun writing it! And it's nice to know I'm not just blogging to myself ya know? There are actually people out there who have in interest in what I have to say. So that's cool...

I've decided to add something to my blog also! The Mitch Quote Of The Day! I dunno how many of you are Mitch Hedberg fans, but I just can't get enough of his randomness! So here it is:

"I know a lot about cars. I can look at a cars headlights and tell you exactly which way it's coming."
Hopefully I'll have some more tantalizing stuff to write about next time!

Oh and P.S. I finished HP7 in less than 12 hours!!! LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED IT!!

Friday, July 20, 2007

A Little About Me And Then Some...

So, yay for all the comments!
Apparently somebody advertised me on Cosmo's Bedroom Blog, which means, apparently somebody actually reads this!! Which is awesome! I really like Bedroom Blog, and actually that's what gave me the idea to start this one.
And yes, I stole the "marry him and have a thousand of his babies" from there, but hey, I actually say that.
Anyways, so some of you were saying you wanted to know a little about me. Well I'm 23, and I live in Houston. I just graduated from a pretty upstanding university, but as of right now, I have NO CLUE what I want to do, which is why I'm bartending in midtown. I like to read, draw, and play the piano. I'm obsessed with music! I'm a total concert junkie! I have a horse, a dog, and a cat, who just had kittens! They're adorable! Umm...I have one younger sister, who is my best friend and I adore! She's so much more responsible than me...you'd think she was the older one.
I don't wanna give away too much personal info, so I'm not gonna say where I went to college or where I work.
I'm currently living with my parents until I can get back on my feet. And it TOTALLY. SUCKS. Seriously...

As for the boys, yes I am boy crazy, but NO, I am not a slut! I don't just sleep with guys on the first date or anything. The Model and I have known each other for...hmm...7 years now? So, I don't think sleeping with him makes me a loose whore or anything. And also, doesn't the fact that I'm in love with him give me a little credit???
((sigh)) Well, keep up the comments and I'll try to answer your questions.
Now let's get to last night...

I went out with Mitchel and Melissa, but as it turned out The Model had to head back to NY for "a fitting and a job" at the last minute, but he'll be back in a couple weeks. :)
I actually had a blast with M&M though, I totally love that girl!
We ate at Fridays and then headed to a local bar for some drinks. Melissa is SUCH a lightweight, she's hilarious! I tried to convince them to head out to midtown (my new fav party spot!) but there was no changing their minds. So after a couple drinks, I decided to text Eric (the guy from my California night) and see what he was up to.
As soon as he told me where he was, I texted my good friend from high school, Evan to see where abouts in town he was, and it turns out he was right down the street from Eric. So I coerced Evan into meeting me there at midnight, and texted Eric to tell him that I was coming. To which he responded, "Awesome, call me when you get here".
First of all, the place was a TOTAL DIVE. Like...dark, and dirty, and really sketch. And I called Eric, but of course, he didn't answer. So Evan, his roommate (who's name I can't recall), and I went in and sat down. I tried to look around inconspicuously for Eric, but it was so freaking dark in there I could hardly make out any faces!
And then I saw him...

...Sitting at the bar making out with some dumb blonde! Ugh...
I wasn't really that broken up about it or anything; I mean he was just a random guy I made out with on a drunken night...but still. It sucks to be blown off by somebody you don't even really care about! So Evan and I laughed about it, and then we watched as he left the bar with the blonde. And I, being appalled, and somewhat catty, texted Eric saying, "Have fun with the blonde!"
Of course I got no response. I don't know why, but as I was driving home I just felt so...sad. It's like I just keep on meeting the same guy in different costumes! And they're all douchebags. I had a complete emotional breakdown on my drive home, complete with tears and emo music. Haha... But by the time I went to bed I felt better.
And this morning, I woke up to find a text from Eric that said, "She's just a friend silly, and I was totally wasted last night!"
Like I'm ever going to talk to that sleazeball again...

However, I also woke up to find that my tuition refund had been deposited in my checking account over night!! WOOHOO!! So that called for some major shopping...and it just so happens that today is the first day of Nordstrom's anniversary sale. So I got a couple new outfits.
It's been so long since I've actually just been able to splurge on myself, ya know? I really needed that. And I had fun too because my good friend and super awesome cousin Jenna works there! So she was like my personal shopping assistant for the day.
And today's excitement isn't over yet! Harry Potter 7 comes out in one hour! Yes, I'm a total HP Geek. Hahaha! I'm going to Kroger to pick up the book at midnight, and then I'll probably stay up reading it till 5 am.
And I'm working tomorrow. Tomorrow is Saturday, my favorite shift of the week!
I wonder where we'll be drinking after hours this time...

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

California Dreamin'

My good friend May just got dumped by her boyfriend, who she was living with. And she's been pretty depressed lately. So last night, we decided what we really needed was a single girls' night out!
We headed out to midtown, DETERMINED to find some cute guys. And we did!
The first bar we went in wasn't really that hoppin', although it was a Tuesday night. But when the bartender gave us a couple free drinks and some shots, we decided to stay. We also decided to tell him we were just visiting from California! Don't ask me why, we just came up with this crazy plan thinking it would be fun.
Before long, everyone in the bar knew about the "two California girls" and people were buying us drinks left and right! It was awesome; didn't spend a penny! And we picked up a couple hotties.
I totally ended up making out with Eric at the bar, and in my drunken stupor I fessed up about our tall tale. Although he didn't seem to mind at the time, by this afternoon I was starting to think maybe that was why he hadn't returned my phone calls.
I did get a text from him, apologizing and explaining that he'd passed out last night, but not a whole lot since. It kinda sucks, because he was hot, and an amazing kisser! Haha... But I really am looking to connect with somebody. Being single is fun, but it's not really all that glamourous.
((sigh)) I want a companion.
Also, I found out today from Melissa that The Model is still in town, and she wants us to all get together again tomorrow night. Apparently Mitchell is setting it all up. So we'll see how that goes, considering I haven't heard from The Model since we hung out last Friday...
Oh what a world, what a world!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Wee Hours

I had to close the bar last night. Most would say that sucks, but actually, Saturday closing shifts are my favorites!
We do inventory and major cleaning every Saturday night when we close, which means extra money and major drinking! Haha. Didn't finish counting tips till about 4:30am... Then we all headed over to Gill's apartment and played poker.
I had so much fun, just hanging out, passing around a bottle of Jack like its communion wine, and goofing off. I really love my coworkers, and it's always great to make new friends! And of course, there's always the super hot door guy, Gavin...
I know I sound totally boy crazy, but that's only because I'm totally boy crazy! Actually, I'm just desperate to find some kind of distraction! From Vette Guy, from The Model... I've realized that I've been selling myself short. Especially with The Model. I've been crazy about him since high school, but I know that I can't have him because he lives in NY, and even if he did live here, I still don't know that he'd want me. ((sigh)) So I've settled for these casual encounters, thinking I can handle them and not get wrapped up in it, but I SOOOO can't deal with this! I am a serial monogamist by nature. It's really hard for me to have true feelings for more than one guy at a time. Interests come and go with the wind but I'll never get over The Model. I'd hoped that once we hooked up, I'd be over it. And I've never been more wrong. ((sigh))
So I'm pretty much damned if I do, damned if I don't. I just wish I knew how to read guys' minds!! If just ONE GUY would tell me honestly how he feels about me, right off the bat, it would spare me so much time, effort, disappointment and grief. But that's what all girls wish for, isn't it?

Saturday, July 14, 2007

(Not So) Freaky Friday

Well, yesterday was definitely...interesting.
I got off work around 9. The Model and his crew showed up for drinks, and that was cool, but it was as if last night had never happened. I know I'm not supposed to expect anything, but when Mitchell and Melissa are hanging all over each other by their second date, I can't help but get a little jealous. ((sigh))
It's so hard to not get your feelings invested when there's history (and sex) involved.

In other news, I finally heard back from Vette Guy. Which, I might add, couldn't have come at a more opportune time!

His message:

"Hey you. Thanks for the call, I just got your message today. I’m doing ok, just… well you know.

Anyways, I’m keeping it pretty low key for a while, me and Maddi (<-- his dog) are going to be even better friends! Lol. Let me know if you ever want to sit around and do little to nothing, cause I’m your guy!!! Hope everything is going stellar for you…"

I wrote him back a short, sweet, flirty message, telling him anytime he wants some company, to give me a shout. Although with his phone not working, I really don't know how he's gonna do that. So...once again, we'll see. And I'll probably be waiting expectantly for his next message, as usual.

You know, they shouldn't call it The Dating Game, they should call it The WAITING Game. Cause that's all it ever is really. And I'm starting to lose my patience!!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Model Citizens

So I found out the other night that The Model was coming into town again!!! The Model and I met in high school, before he was a model obviously. For me, it was love at first sight. Seriously. I've been obsessing over this guy since I was 16. Then he got discovered, and now he lives in NY and travels the world doing photoshoots and commercials cuz he's the hottest guy on the effing planet!!!
Naturally, I flipped out when he told me he was coming, because I had off work last night and reallllllly wanted to hang out with him. So Thursday morningish, I'm chatting on the phone about The Model with my good friend May, and he calls!!

May: You're crazy Peyton!
Me: I know...I wanna marry him and have a thousand of his babies!
May: ((laughs)) Omg, you're obsessed.
Me: Why shoudn't I be?? I have yet to find something wrong with him and he's only like, the single hottest guy in the universe!! OMG...HE'S CALLING ME!
May: Ok bye!

((clicks over))

Me: Hello?
The Model: Hey!! You got any plans tonight?
Me: No....
The Model: Cool well we're going out to dinner at Maggiano's and you're gonna be my date. So just be ready around 6:30 and show up as your usual hot self. Reservations are at 7:15.
Me: ((trying to compose myself)) Ok!

There was a little more to that conversation, but it's not important. The point is, for the first time ever, he actually asked me out ON A DATE! ((swoon)) I mean we have been known to ya know...in the past when he comes home. But it's never been like...a DATE! It always just sorta happened. And being that he lives in NY, I never bothered to try and pursue anything with him, because I just don't see how it could work out. And I love him to death, he is the goofiest guy ever, and we have so much fun! So, maybe this sounds slutty of me, but hey, when it comes to The Model, I'll take what I can get! Hahaha.

So the date was a double, with his cousin Mitchell and his date Melissa. It just so happens that Melissa and I went to high school together. Small world, I know. So we ate Italian, had a couple cocktails, goofed off. I had a blast! Then we went to visit May at her new job. She just started bartending right down the street from my bar! It was a pretty cool place. We hung out, had more drinks, joked around, got a little tipsy... And there were several sexual inuendos throughout the night. I was starting to wonder if we'd EVER make it back to his place!
But don't worry, we did!

And it was


((sigh)) I can't even begin to describe the hotness! He has the body of a Greek god, only golden tan, and slightly scruffy... Now I can't stop thinking about him, which is probably a good thing, since it prevents me from thinking about Vette Guy, whom I still have not heard from. Maybe he's in jail...?
But I gotta work tonight, unfortunately. I get off at 9, but who knows where The Model will be by then, and I don't wanna seem too desperate calling him since we just hung out last night. But his trips to Houston are always too short!! And I just wanna see him as much as possible before he flies back to NY.
Well once again, at least I had a good time last night, with the hottest guy ever!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

The Waiting Game...

Ok, so apparently I've been completely misjudging Vette Guy's actions.
Or have I?

I got this email yesterday:

"Hey. So on Saturday I got in a wreck on 59 coming home @ 6pm or so. The vette is totaled and I was arrested for DWI – I blew a .10 (legal is .08), I literally had 4 beers over the afternoon. Just wanted to let you know that I’m totally not ignoring you or anything, but my phone is toast as well and I don’t have any numbers or anyway to get in contact with anyone. I feel like such a piece of shit, just sooo broken. I think this is the first time in my life that I don’t know what to do, how to do it or where to start. Anyways, you can call and leave a vm, I’ll call back as soon as I get it, or email me. I’m soo sorry…"

(P.S. Saturday is the day after I last saw him!)

I honestly have NO idea what to make of this! I mean, I suppose I believe him, but I wrote him back, told him I was glad he's ok and not to worry; everything will work out. And I got up this morning expecting a response, because I know he checks his email when he gets to work, but nothing. No email.

So here I am, waiting, again. ((sigh))
Why do I have so much trouble reading this guy?? I can't tell if he's genuinely interested, or if he's just playing me. And it's driving me nuts. GRRRR!!

Also, me being the online stalker that I am, found his blog page on myspace. He told me before he didn't have a myspace page, and technically he doesn't, because all it is is blogs, but still...
Anyway, I read a few of them. The last one was posted in 2006 though so I can't really set much stock by them. But he definitely had a girlfriend in his last post! I guess I just really wanna figure him out, ya know?? Why does he have to be so mysterious all the time?! Why can't he just TELL me what what he wants??

Why are men always so evasive and ambiguous??

Monday, July 9, 2007

First Blog Ever!

So I'm starting this blog in secret kinda...that is, I'm not telling anyone I know about it. I just like to vent and need to do it anonymously sometimes.

A little bit about me...well my name is Peyton, I recently graduated from college and I'm a bartender in a big city. I'm also single, and pretty much hopeless when it comes to dating.
What is it with guys anyway??
G's...they kill me.
The last guy I met seemed perfect...too perfect. Maybe it's because of his amazing job, the fact that he models on the side, or because he drives a brand new Corvette??
I dunno...but for the sake of his privacy, I'll call him Vette Guy. We met, we liked, we hung out. But no dates. I was actually kind of on a dating hiatus at the time...but he was just too hott to pass up! I guess I shouldn't have been so quick to settle for last minute hang outs with him. At least I didn't sleep with him. Two weeks go by and I get the "we want different things" text message.
((sigh)) So I got upset, got mad, got drunk, got over it.
And that was that.
Just when I was starting to forget about him, he sends me this email telling me he's taking me to a wine tasting and picking me up at 6.
I tried to make him sweat it a little, and said I had to check my schedule, but I guess I'm just a sucker.
I don't regret going though! It was an amazing date! We ended up buying and drinking a bottle of wine at the tasting, then he made reservations at a super nice, high rise restaurant, where we went through 2 bottles of champagne! It was awesome...
However, the happy drunk that I was couldn't resist those deep blue eyes, or those rock hard abs, and lets just say I ended up spending the night.
I haven't heard from him since either.
So apparently he wants to play The Game. Which is fine... I've never been very good at The Game; I always get attached too quickly. But I'm determined now!! It's been 3 days and I have made NO attempts to contact him.
Hey, even if I never hear from him again, at least I got an amazing date, right??
And there's always that really cute Albanian guy at work...