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Saturday, April 23, 2011

Tired of Waiting

I'm starting to really worry that I'm never going to find the right guy.
It's so frustrating because I'm ready to start "the rest of my life" and I want to do that with someone, but it's like I'm completely helpless to the situation, and all I can do is wait! I'm tired of waiting!
And it's not that I feel acute loneliness but I mean...I ate at a restaurant today by myself, because I just didn't have anyone to go with.
((Sigh))
Don't get me wrong, I like being by myself most of the time, and I enjoyed sitting at the bar, reading my book, and eating my fish tacos, but I wish I at least had the option of having someone's company. And pretty soon I'm not going to be considered ripe and young anymore. I'll be middle aged, and all the good guys will be taken by all the 22 year old girls.
Tonight at work, I was practically called a cougar by a 21 year old guy I work with. He said that cougars are between 30 and 50 (which is SOO NOT true, but still). He obviously doesn't know how old I am or he might not have said that, but I'm going to be 27 in a month. A MONTH! And I'm no closer to finding the right guy than I was 10 years ago. I'm afraid I've gotten too comfortable with being single.
What am I doing wrong? Or what am I not doing that I should be doing??
Maybe I should start going to some sporting events. As if I have the time...
((Sigh))