Ok guys, I appreciate you all having my back, but please stop attacking Rebecca James, and others in the comments. It's done.
Anyway, I have a lot of stuff to share, really juicy stuff, but I just got home, and it's 4:39am, and I'm tired. So I'm gonna have to write later. So check back soon!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
DISCLAIMER!!
1) I am not asking ANYONE for money. If you have the means, and want to donate to help me buy a new camera, that's great, and I cannot thank you enough. But I am in NO WAY trying to take advantage of you guys as my readers. So if you're not comfortable donating money, then DON'T! I don't claim to be poor, or homeless, or starving. I am simply a girl in her 20's, getting a college education and trying to get by on a part-time job with student loans. G's...
2) This blog is NOT PG rated!!! I am 27 years old, and therefore I write about the experiences of a 27 year old. NOT a 14 year old! So if your kids are reading this, maybe they shouldn't be. Not my problem.
3) Someone asked me something about a new blog?? This is the only blog I have, and the only blog I plan to have. I created a new donation page because my sister made the original one and it has our names and photos on it, as well as the names and photos of many people who have donated. I know for a fact that Sophie wouldn't be comfortable with me sharing her personal information with a bunch of strangers (let alone me, who blogs about all my deepest darkest secrets!), which is why I created the donation page specifically to post here on the blog. It's not a scam! I'm just trying to protect myself and others.
Hopefully that clears everything up...?
2) This blog is NOT PG rated!!! I am 27 years old, and therefore I write about the experiences of a 27 year old. NOT a 14 year old! So if your kids are reading this, maybe they shouldn't be. Not my problem.
3) Someone asked me something about a new blog?? This is the only blog I have, and the only blog I plan to have. I created a new donation page because my sister made the original one and it has our names and photos on it, as well as the names and photos of many people who have donated. I know for a fact that Sophie wouldn't be comfortable with me sharing her personal information with a bunch of strangers (let alone me, who blogs about all my deepest darkest secrets!), which is why I created the donation page specifically to post here on the blog. It's not a scam! I'm just trying to protect myself and others.
Hopefully that clears everything up...?
Monday, March 12, 2012
In order to protect my identity as well as my sister's and friends, I started a separate page just for my blog readers. I know a couple of you expressed interest in donating and you have no idea how much that means to me!! Here is the link if anyone wants to donate: click me!
Thank you soooo much!!
A Second First Date
So I just got back from a date with Bill. We went out for sushi, and he showed up with a bottle of wine, which we finished, of course. We had a lot of fun! I spent most of the night laughing, which is exactly what I needed today. After dinner, we went back to his place, against my better judgement, but, nothing happened! We just made out, and even that was pretty tame. We watched an episode of Man Men and talked, and goofed off. He said he wants to see me again, like soon.
I'm still curious why I never really heard from him after our actual first date though. And I wanna ask him but...I'm not sure if I should? It's just that we were talking about that movie, 500 Days of Summer, and he was saying how he hates girls like summer, who like you one day and then just disappear the next day, and I was thinking, "Well...isn't that exactly what you did to me last September??" But I didn't say what I was thinking, because maybe he thinks I'm the one that did that to him! I just don't know. What I do know is, he's very...affectionate, and I'm not really like that right off the bat, so it's a little awkward and I feel like I really need to spend more time with him getting to know him, and getting comfortable with him, etc. Of course this all depends on if I actually hear from him again this time! So we'll see...
Anyway, Sophie and I went to the lake this morning to fish for my camera. We put on swim suits and everything. And Sophie actually went in! I couldn't believe it. I tried to go in, but the water was painfully cold! I'm talking like...20 degrees or something ridiculous like that. But we could see the leg of my tripod in the water, right where it had fallen, and it was so close, yet just out of reach. So Sophie walked down the pier and asked some guys who were fishing if they could possibly fish it out. So this guy came down with a net and he was able to grab it, which is awesome. I was able to salvage the photos I took yesterday, but I'm still way behind on my project and now I have no camera to shoot with. ((Sigh)) But Sophie started this website where people can donate money for my new camera fund! She's so awesome. I already have $410 raised! Isn't that amazing?? If any of you readers want to donate, let me know, and I'll send you the link!! So things are already looking up compared to yesterday. Both of my parents promised to help me pay for a new camera, and when I finally talked to my mom, she made me feel loads better, only the way moms can do. Well I'm gonna finally go to bed now. I had to get up after only like 4 and a half hour of sleep last night to go to the lake with Sophie and I'm exhausted. Night!
I'm still curious why I never really heard from him after our actual first date though. And I wanna ask him but...I'm not sure if I should? It's just that we were talking about that movie, 500 Days of Summer, and he was saying how he hates girls like summer, who like you one day and then just disappear the next day, and I was thinking, "Well...isn't that exactly what you did to me last September??" But I didn't say what I was thinking, because maybe he thinks I'm the one that did that to him! I just don't know. What I do know is, he's very...affectionate, and I'm not really like that right off the bat, so it's a little awkward and I feel like I really need to spend more time with him getting to know him, and getting comfortable with him, etc. Of course this all depends on if I actually hear from him again this time! So we'll see...
Anyway, Sophie and I went to the lake this morning to fish for my camera. We put on swim suits and everything. And Sophie actually went in! I couldn't believe it. I tried to go in, but the water was painfully cold! I'm talking like...20 degrees or something ridiculous like that. But we could see the leg of my tripod in the water, right where it had fallen, and it was so close, yet just out of reach. So Sophie walked down the pier and asked some guys who were fishing if they could possibly fish it out. So this guy came down with a net and he was able to grab it, which is awesome. I was able to salvage the photos I took yesterday, but I'm still way behind on my project and now I have no camera to shoot with. ((Sigh)) But Sophie started this website where people can donate money for my new camera fund! She's so awesome. I already have $410 raised! Isn't that amazing?? If any of you readers want to donate, let me know, and I'll send you the link!! So things are already looking up compared to yesterday. Both of my parents promised to help me pay for a new camera, and when I finally talked to my mom, she made me feel loads better, only the way moms can do. Well I'm gonna finally go to bed now. I had to get up after only like 4 and a half hour of sleep last night to go to the lake with Sophie and I'm exhausted. Night!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Give Up
I think I'm literally having the worst day of my life. I went to the lake with Jasper today to take pictures for my project that's due this week. The sun was out, it was a great day for shooting. I had my tripod and everything set up, and we were at the harbor, where it's flat and cement, good surface for a tripod. Well as I'm taking a picture, a huge gust of wind comes and blows my tripod camera and all into the lake. It's still there, somewhere 9 feet under the freezing cold water, never to be seen again.
Brand new $1400 camera gone. Lens gone. Tripod gone. Project gone. Memory card gone. Pictures gone.
LIFE gone.
This is the second time in 2 weeks that I've suddenly been confronted with a situation where I need to spend thousands of dollars. Last week it was the dentist, now this. I can't stop balling, I'm just so devastated. NOw I don't have a camera, and I can't finish my project for school. I mean, photography is the main reason I came up here to this fucking concrete jungle and now I don't even have a camera! I JUST bought that camera! What am I going to do/??? I just wanna die right now. I can never seem to get anything fucking right. EVerything is a mistake. I just keep FUCKING EVERYTHING UP!!? I just wanna quit school and move back to Houston and be done with it. I've failed. And I have NO ONE here. NO ONE. I've called my mom like 12 times and even she doesn't answer. I've drifted apart from all the good friends I had in Houston, and I don't really have any good friends here. At least none that I can call when I'm crying hysterically. I don't have a boyfriend, or someone to hold me when I'm sad or just need a shoulder to cry on. There's just Sophie. And I hardly ever see her. I just wanna give up.
I wanna give up on everything.
Brand new $1400 camera gone. Lens gone. Tripod gone. Project gone. Memory card gone. Pictures gone.
LIFE gone.
This is the second time in 2 weeks that I've suddenly been confronted with a situation where I need to spend thousands of dollars. Last week it was the dentist, now this. I can't stop balling, I'm just so devastated. NOw I don't have a camera, and I can't finish my project for school. I mean, photography is the main reason I came up here to this fucking concrete jungle and now I don't even have a camera! I JUST bought that camera! What am I going to do/??? I just wanna die right now. I can never seem to get anything fucking right. EVerything is a mistake. I just keep FUCKING EVERYTHING UP!!? I just wanna quit school and move back to Houston and be done with it. I've failed. And I have NO ONE here. NO ONE. I've called my mom like 12 times and even she doesn't answer. I've drifted apart from all the good friends I had in Houston, and I don't really have any good friends here. At least none that I can call when I'm crying hysterically. I don't have a boyfriend, or someone to hold me when I'm sad or just need a shoulder to cry on. There's just Sophie. And I hardly ever see her. I just wanna give up.
I wanna give up on everything.
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