Wednesday, October 31, 2007


The first thing I noticed when I got home was a HUGE box sitting in the doorway.
MY COAT!! I ordered it weeks ago for my trip to NYC and it had finally arrived! And it's gorgeous! Black, wool, and long with 2 buttons and an empire waste. I love it.
Surprise number 2? A text. From The Psycho. It said, "Hey I've been thinking and I'm sorry if I ever did hurt you...A lot of times I was inconsiderate of ur feelings, just want u to know that, kiss"
((Sigh)) I'm starting to wonder if he is ever gonna let this go. I mean it's sweet that he's really thought about all the shitty things he's done to me, and that he's sorry, but move on already! I know I have.

So anyways, I won tickets to Buzz Fest on the radio a while back, and Cecilia and I had plans to go together. But poor Cecilia got the flu and had to cancel at the last minute, so I had about 2 days to find someone to go with me! On Saturday night while we were counting tips, I asked Alyssa if she wanted to go, but she said she had to work. So I asked Jayme and she said she definitely wanted to!

So now onto surprise number 3! We got to Buzz Fest rather late, because Jayme took so freakin' long to get ready!! But we got there nonetheless. We immediately got a couple beers and started scopin' out the guys. Haha. Then we went up to the hill to find some seats, and ran into Andrew! He was shirtless, drunk, and his ride had gotten kicked out. Haha. So I offered to drive him home and we hung out with him for most of the day. Then towards the end of the evening, we went down to get snacks and Andrew ran into some of his friends. He introduced me to one of them with a knowing grin on his face and said, "This is Dereck's brother!" I tried so hard not to blush when I shook his hand.
Then Andrew asked if Dereck was here, to which his brother replied, "Yea, he's up there! Why don't you guys come up with us?"
So we did, and there he was! Hot Dereck!! Jayme and I sat in front of them, since we didn't really know any of the people in their group besides Andrew. The Smashing Pumpkins had gone on and it was totally dark by now. Then Andrew came and sat down next to me.
"So Dereck asked about you."
"He did?! What did he say???"
"He said, "So what about your girl?" and I said, "I dunnooooo...""
"What!? You said I don't know!?"
"Well if he knows you like him, he'll lose interest right away! But don't worry, he's definitely interested."
"((sigh)) Well...I dunno. Find out what they're doing after this."

So we sat there in suspense a little longer until Jayme and I were both too tired and ready to go. I went to get Andrew and he said they were all going to Dirt bar, but that Hot Dereck really wanted to hang out with us. He just couldn't ditch his friends.
So we said goodbye, and Hot Dereck gave me a hug! I said, "I'm sure I'll see you around soon!" and he said, "Hopefully!"
Ah, I'm like a giddy middle school girl with a crush. Haha.

But today, I was reading one of his myspace bulletins...let me just go ahead and paste it. It's a survey, so I'm only gonna paste the relevant parts.

"3. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
probably, i can't remember who the last person i kissed was?? to many girls lol

7. Next time you will kiss someone?
probably tonight, who knows

16. Has someone ever hit on your boyfriend/girlfriend?
girlfriend?? ha ha

17. Have you ever kissed anyone named Kay, Kae, or Kaue?
probably i've kissed ALOT of people

47. Have you kissed somebody in the last month?
ha ha ha ha, more like how many"

UGH. Either he's writing all that stuff to sound cool, or it's true and he's writing it to sound cool. All I know is, this is bad.
And Andrew told me he was gonna "find out what the deal is" with him. So I dunno. I probably shouldn't even waste my time huh? It's just...when I see I guy I want, I just have to have him!! Even if he's horrible!
WHAT is my disfunction!?

It's Halloween today...I have to find another costume to wear to work. Ugh...

Mitch Of The Day:
"One time I was forced to go to the doctors because of a sports accident. Herpes."

Monday, October 29, 2007


I didn't end up leaving Houston until late Tuesday afternoon, but I got to Austin around 8pm. Shane and I decided to meet up at a shopping center so we could look for something to wear to the party. Shane had her new puppy in tow! He's a chihuahua mix, SO adorable! His name is Chulo. Anyways, I ended up finding a cute, simple black skirt to show off my new black leather boots.

After shopping, Shane needed to stop at the grocery store for some dog food, so I offered to wait in the car with Chulo to speed things up a bit. We were kind of in a hurry to get home and start getting ready! So as I was sitting in the car waiting, smoke starts coming out of my hood! I jumped out and popped the hood because my car was obviously overheating. There was green coolant leaking out everywhere! A random guy came over and asked if I was ok, and took a peak under the hood. He said it was my radiator, and that I wouldn't be able to drive it without blowing the engine. Great. Just my luck huh??

So when Shane came out of the store, I explained what happened and we packed all my stuff into her car and headed back to her place. Luckily she lives just down the street from the HEB we were at. I was gonna have to have my car towed over to a shop the next morning, and get my shift covered at work just in case I didn't make it back on time.

But we tried not to let that put a damper on our fabulous evening! So we got dressed in a hurry, and Izzie came and picked us up, and we were on our way!

When we got to Pure, the bar where the party was at, there was a huge white H2 limo in front, and tons of paparazzi! We totally felt like celebrities, skipping to the front of the line and walking right in. It was awesome! Izzie and Shane had made friends with the manager and one of the door guys last week, which was super convenient! It wasn't that crowded when we walked in, but Pure has 3 floors so we decided to make our way up. The friendly door guy escorted us up to the 3rd floor, where the VIP area was. It was totally packed up there! And there they were, right in front of us! Pete Wentz, Ashlee Simpson, the rest of the guys from Fall Out Boy, and the guys from Gymn Class Heroes! They were all sitting in a booth, talking and laughing just like normal people. The booth area was roped off though, and there were tons of camera people crowded around, and girls I could only assume were groupies.

Well Door Guy got us in past that rope too! I felt like we were walking into a photograph in People Magazine! Pete and Ashlee looked just as I'd pictured them: he in his black hoodie with the hood up, she with her fedora cap and grease ball hair that looked like it hadn't been washed in 8 days, and both of them in their Converse. We thought about asking for autographs, but decided against it because we didn't wanna be rude, or annoying, or like all the other girls we were surrounded by. So we just mingled and had some drinks, and soaked up the limelight being reflected off the stars!

There was also a camera guy from some late-night show there, and we were totally on TV for like 10 seconds! Haha. Pete and Ashlee skipped out early, of course, and around 1 am we decided we were ready to hit the rest of 6th street. Against my better judgment, I texted Josh to see if he was working. He replied yes, and told us to come over for some free shots. So we did! And once again, all he asked for payment was a kiss, which I happily gave him! Even though he was kind of a jerk last time, he's still a cutie. We stayed at his bar until close, and then headed home for some much needed rest! All in all, Tuesday was a great night!

Wednesday morning, however, came much too soon. My alarm went off at 8 so I could start calling autoshops. I called work and let them know what was going on, and they got my shift covered for me. After calling several shops, I finally found one that said they could probably finish in a day, so Shane and I drove up to HEB to hide my keys for the towing people. Then we went back to Shane's and slept for most of the day. My car was done around 5, but the traffic was so horrible that I didn't make it back to Shane's till 8! So, what's another night in Austin, huh!?

It was pretty crowded out on 6th for a Wednesday too. Izzie didn't join us this time, so it was just me and Shane. We walked around 6th for a while and then decided to head down to 5th and Congress, where the swankier bars are. Josh and a few of his guy friends ended up meeting us around midnight. And it was really weird, because he was totally acting like my boyfriend the whole night! He kept putting his arm around me, or touching the small of my back when we walked, and I never realized how into PDA he is!! I had to actually tell him at one point that I wasn't comfortable making out in front of Shane and thousands of strangers. Mostly I felt like it was rude to Shane, since she wasn't with anyone. But she was off flirting with other boys most of the time, so there was no harm, no foul.

When the bar closed, the boys were walking Shane and I to our car, when some random drunk guy walked up to our group and just started talking shit to us for no reason. I could feel the testosterone levels increasing so I told the guy to do himself a favor and just keep walking. But of course, he wouldn't listen, and the next thing we knew, Josh and his friends were literally chasing this guy down the street! ((sigh)) Boys...

Shane and I quickly turned and walked in the opposite direction because we didn't wanna be at the scene if the cops showed up. So we drove back around and picked them up. Josh was sporting some bloody knuckles, and he seemed a little too proud of himself. ((rolls eyes))

We decided to hang out with them at one of the guys' apartment afterwards. They told us they had food, which was a lie!! So we didn't stay too long. I said goodbye to Josh and the other guys, and we headed out.

On the way home, I practically begged Shane to come to NY with Evan and I. I just really, really want a girl to shop with, and flirt with boys with and stuff. And Shane is single and we have so much fun together! She said she is really tempted, and she'll try and save some cash, but it's all up in the air. I hope she comes though! It would be so much fun!

The drive home was long and monotonous, but I was in for a couple of surprises when I got home...

Mitch Of The Day:

"That would be cool if the earth's crust was made out of graham cracker. It would disappear just like the ozone layer, but for completely different reasons."

The Key

((sigh)) OK.
I'm gonna try to get everyone caught up AND make a name key. Several people have requested that I explain who everyone is a little better to help them keep up, so I'm gonna try!

Perhaps I should make the key first...

Here they are, up to date, in alphabetical order.

  1. Addy - Jayme's best friend who lives in Austin and is NOT 21.
  2. The Albanian - Bartender/manager at my bar who I made out with once when we were drunk.
  3. Alli - Bartender at work, about 30, and a real smartass.
  4. Alyssa - One of my best friends, also cocktails at my bar.
  5. Andrew - Old friend from HS that I recently started catching up with. Friends with Hot Dereck.
  6. Austin - The last guy I actually dated. Was super sweet at first until he turned into a total douche bag. Brought me to a wedding and then ditched me for another girl.
  7. Bethany - Bartender at work, super cool, and new friend who I've been going out with a lot lately
  8. Billy - Guy from the bar next door whom I briefly dated. Met on the bus at the employee trip. Was very sweet at first, but doesn't play well with others when drunk, and gets very dramatic.
  9. Blinn - Owner/manager of my bar, super cool dude, and crazy when drunk.
  10. Cecilia - One of my best friends. I was the MOH in her wedding and she just had a baby about 2 months ago!
  11. Dee - Good friend Melissa's little sis
  12. DJ - The DJ at my work who's pretty much ALWAYS there, whether he's working or not.
  13. Dustin - Not-so-new-anymore door guy at work.
  14. Emma - We were best friends all through school, but have drifted apart in recent years.
  15. Eric The Skeaze - Guy I met out one night, who I still frequently run into. We've made out a few times, but he's obviously, a skeaze.
  16. Evan - Super good friend from high school who I am going to NY with, and we sorta hooked up once when we were drunk.
  17. Frank - Bartender at work who I am about to move in with.
  18. Gavin - Door guy at work who is super hot and I've always had a crush on.
  19. Gill - Former door guy at work. We played poker at his house once.
  20. Hot Dereck - My latest crush! Met at his bar, works in midtown, but apparently he's bad news.
  21. Izzie - One of my best friends since HS. Married and lives in Austin.
  22. Jayme - Waitress/bartender at work who I've recently started going out with. Kinda crazy, but tons of fun!
  23. Jenna - My cousin and also one of my best friends! Moved here from Austin about a year ago, and we hang out quite often.
  24. John - Door guy at work who I met at the employee outing. Kind of quiet, but very sweet and very smart. I'm still trying to figure him out...
  25. Johnny - Acoustic guitar player at work on the weekends. He usually hangs out when we play poker.
  26. Josh - Cute bartender in Austin that I had a fling with.
  27. Kristin - Former waitress at work who The Model gave his number to.
  28. Mark - Bartender/manager at work who is badass at dancing! Especially to Michael Jackson songs.
  29. May - Bartended with her at my last job and we used to be really great friends until she started dating Shady, her really sketch Asian mafia boyfriend. Then she pretty much changed personalities...
  30. Megan - Good friend from HS who recently got married and bartends at my bar.
  31. Melissa - One of my newest best friends. We went to HS together, but didn't become friends until we double dated with Mitchell and The Model.
  32. Misty - Bartender at work, and girlfriend of owner/manager, Mr. S.
  33. Mitchell - The Model's cousin who briefly dated Melissa.
  34. The Model - THE HOTTEST GUY EVER. Met in HS while working together at the mall. We've hooked up a few times, but he continues to screw me over and I continue to pine after him...((sigh))
  35. Mr. P. - Original owner of my bar, the brains behind the business! Very intimidating guy, but super cool once you get to know him.
  36. Mr. S. - General manager of my bar. Super cool to hang out with after hours, has been dating bartender, Misty for about 5 years.
  37. Nick - Bartender at work. Big antagonist, but overall a cool, funny guy.
  38. Paul - My cousin who recently got out of rehab for cocain addiction. Recently been spotted in midtown partying.
  39. The Psycho - My last serious relationship. Crazy, abusive, controlling, the reason I don't trust men.
  40. Rikki - Best friend from HS. Married and lives in Seattle.
  41. Rob - Cecilia's husband.
  42. Shady - May's asshole of a boyfriend. I bet he has a lot of skeletons in his closet. REAL ones!
  43. Shane - Good friend I met through Izzie, Megan and Rikki. Lives in Austin, currently single and so much fun to go out with! I usually crash with her when I go to Austin.
  45. Tina - New bartender at my job who I worked with previously and don't really like.
  46. Todd - One of my best guy friends. Known eachother since 2nd grade. If he didn't always have a girlfriend, I would totally date him because he is literally the perfect man. It just took me too long to figure that out... And he is going to play football for the NFL. Seriously. He's being scouted.
  47. Valerie - Waitress/bartender at work. Kind of a bitch actually. I don't really like her that much.
  48. Vette Guy - TROUBLE. The douche bag I dated for a while who drove a Corvette (until he totaled it), thought he was God's gift to women, and had the mentality of a 17 year old.
Ok that pretty much sums up the list! And boy did that take a while! I think I'm gonna have to get back to you guys on what's been goin on. It's been a hectic couple of days...

Mitch Of The Day:
"I'm an ice sculptor. Last night I made a cube."

Sunday, October 28, 2007


I'm feeling very frustrated.
I think I'm going to either get a different bartending job, or move to Austin.
And I hope that no one follows me.
I need a change.

Monday, October 22, 2007

One Crazy Night

Friday ended up being a total disaster! I mean, there were definitely fun moments, but overall...DISASTER.

I'll start from the beginning...
I was running late for some reason, I can't remember. Bethany and Jayme were already out and I was supposed to meet them at a club/lounge called Red Door. Also meeting up with us were Megan and Jenna. By the time I got to Red Door it was about 11:30 and they were ready to head somewhere else. Jayme's friend, Addy was in town from Austin and was also tagging along. The problem with that was, Addy is only 20. What the hell was Jayme thinking bringing an underage girl with us?! I mean that totally limits our options! So Bethany pulled me aside and basically said she wanted to ditch them. And both of us really wanted to stop by work for some free shots. But since Jayme works there too, it wouldn't be a good idea for us all to show up with a minor in tow.
Bethany explained to Jayme and Addy that some of her guy friends were meeting us at our bar, so we'd meet up with them afterwards. I texted Jenna and Megan to tell them the change of plans. So Bethany and I headed over there feeling very relieved!
Bethany's guy friends were already there, (I can't recall any of their names), and Megan and Jenna showed up shortly after we arrived. We had a couple rounds of shots on the house, and then decided to head over to Whiskey Creek. I saw John and Gavin too. They were both working. And for the record, Jenna thinks Gavin and I should date. ((sigh))
Anyways, when we got to Whiskey, we kind of split into 2 groups: me, Jenna, and Megan, and Bethany and her friends. For some reason, this pissed Jenna off and she kept making snide remarks like, "Your friends totally suck Peyton. I can't believe they're ignoring you." That got old pretty fast. I mean, I didn't feel like I was being ditched or anything because I was hangin' with my friends, and Bethany was with hers! Big deal! But Jenna didn't really see it that way I guess.
While we were waiting for drinks at the bar I started to scope the place out. The first person I saw was Eric The Skeaze. Seems I run into him everywhere these days! And he's always with a different girl! Ugh... The second person I saw was was me and Jenna's other cousin, Paul. This came as a big surprise because he recently got out of rehab...for cocaine addiction. He's pretty much the family scandal. But apparently, rehab "really changed him". Or so he says... He was with a date (he only dates Asian girls), but they both ended up latching onto our group. Around this time, Paul was leaning in to tell me something and his nose bumped my eye, and out popped my contact lense! That was when the night realllly started to go downhill.
Jayme and Addy showed up around the same time that Bethany and her gang disappeared. So we all decided to head down the street to Reef, where Hot Dereck works. Yes, that's what I'm calling him now. Hot, Unattainable, Bad For Me Dereck. ((sigh)) And sure enough, he was there, looking hot as ever. He bought us a round of shots, and I bought him a couple too. This was definitely the highlight of my night, seeing as the rest pretty much sucked. I was in a horrible mood when we got there! Jenna kept apologizing for her rude comments but then trying to justify them because she was "just looking out for me". Which, I understand, but nobody wants to be told that their friends suck. Especially by someone who doesn't even know them.
Anyways, I made Dereck smile for a couple pix while he was working. Heehee, and then I continued to look at them throughout the night. But we stayed at Dereck's bar until close and then headed back over to our work. Bethany called and asked if I could drive her over to Jayme's where her car was because Jayme and Addy were nowhere to be found. They came to Reef with us, but ducked out early. So we all met back up at our bar where they were closing everything down. We hung out for a little while, and then decided to go. I was gonna drive Megan to her car, when I noticed I locked my keys inside. Yup. As if my night couldn't get any more shitty. So I went back inside and asked all the guys if any of them were good with locked doors. Sure enough, Nick and Frank came to my rescue! And they actually managed to get it open in a matter of like...5 minutes! It was a miracle!!
So Jenna and Megan headed home and then I took Bethany to get her car. On the drive, we started chatting and decided to go eat at our favorite 24 hour cafe. We ended up staying there for a couple of hours just talking and sharing stories. It was fun!
So even though the night started bad, it ended ok.

Quick summary of last night: After work, Nick and I decided to stay for a couple of drinks and watch the Red Sox game. John and Valerie (one of the waitresses/bartenders) were there too. So we ended up staying for most of the night, and I ended up getting a bit tipsy, and THEN I ended up taking John home again, and spending the night. That turned out to be almost a carbon copy of the last time I stayed at his house... I'm still pondering on that subject...

Tomorrow morning I'm going to Austin!! Izzie and Shane got invitations to the Fall Out Boy AFTER PARTY!!! I'm soooo excited. Not really sure if the band will actually be there, but either way, I'm due for another trip to our state's great capital! So hopefully I'll have some good dish for you guys when I get back!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I rented a car. I didn't really need one, I just wanted to make one less available. I wanted one businessman on the bus with no car."

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Seek, And You Shall NOT Find

Well...not much has happened on the John front since our sleepover. I invited him out with Bethany and I the other night, but he declined. Said he had to study. Which is totally understandable! I mean it's great that he's dedicated to his...homework. ((sigh)) I dunno. Why does dating have to be so hard!? It's like, I haven't even made it past the first phase that leads to the actual dating part! Ugh...
I need to just stop looking. As soon as I stop looking, someone will come around. That's what always happens. And even though I know that's what I need to do, it's so hard!
Ok enough about my pathetic romantic life...or lack thereof.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but Megan, my friend from high school that just got married, got a job bartending at my work. They only hired her to work the opening weekend shifts, because she doesn't have any full-volume experience. And I know I should be glad she got hired, but my first thought was...well I wasn't happy about it! I feel like my work life is being infiltrated! Is that bad??? I mean...I love Megan, I just don't want her working there! And just today, another one of my ex-coworkers from my last job got hired! Her name is Tina and I ran into her the other day and specifically told her we were not hiring when she asked! What is going on here?! I feel guilty for even having these feelings, but I just can't help it. I mean is it so bad that I wanna keep my work life and work friends separate from everything else?? I like that I have different groups of friends. It's easier to avoid drama, and sometimes I get sick of hanging out with the same people all the time. G's this sounds horrible! ((Sigh)) I dunno. I just don't like it!

Well, we had a blast last night. Me, Bethany, Bethany's boyfriend Tug, Megan, and one of the cocktail waitresses, Jayme, all went out. We had so much fun! And we're doin' it again on Friday night! I actually have off for once. Melissa is supposed to come too, but her grandfather is sick, so I'm not sure if she'll make it. But either way, I know we'll have a blast!

I've decided I'm gonna be a vampire for Halloween. A SEXY vampire. Lol. All I need is some fangs, and I have an old Rennaissance costume that I can wear and, voila! A sexy, but tasteful costume. Thanks for all the great ideas though!

Eric The Skeaze came in to the bar tonight. He flirted with me and bought me a couple shots until his whore date showed up. Lol. Even though I'm completely over him, I'm still entitled to be bitter, right? Muahahahaha.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I went to a restaurant, and I saw a guy wearing a leather jacket, eating a hamburger, drinking a glass of milk. I said, "Dude, you are a cow. The metamorphosis is complete. Don't fall asleep or I will tip you over!'"

Monday, October 15, 2007


Friday night I fixed my hair all pretty for work since we had a nice cool front come in. Only thing that sucked was I knew that John would already be gone, because he had the early shift. So I went in, and I was scheduled to work the back bar, and there he was! Sitting at the bar, eating a sandwich and drinking a beer. I was very pleasantly surprised to see him! So we chatted a little about Harry Potter, and the Philip Pullman series (The Golden Compass is coming out this December!! Can't WAIT!), until we got too busy for me to hold a conversation. I wasn't expecting him to stick around for very long anyways cuz he had mentioned he needed to get up early and study for a test. But a few hours went by, and he was still there! I made him a couple shots too.
Then when the night was over, and we were counting tips, he was still there! Lol. And he was a bit tipsy too I might add. He's a really cute drunk. But anyways, I offered to drive him home, since he probably shouldn't be operating any motorized vehicles, and he accepted. When we pulled up to his house we sat and talked for a while. Then he grabbed an armful of stuff from my back seat and got out of the car!
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm taking your stuff and holding it hostage."
"So that I can coax you to come in the house..."
I laughed and got out of the car. Then he gave me back my stuff.
We started to watch Anchor Man, but he kept falling asleep so finally I got up off the couch and announced that I was gonna go.
"Why!?" he demanded.
"Because it's like 5 in the morning, and you're about to pass out!" I said.
"Well, aren't you tired?"
I don't really know how, but I got sucked into another Harry Potter conversation with him. Haha. He just started reading the third book.
Then he went to his room and got the first three books and starting placing them strategically on the floor down the hallway.
"What are you doing???" I asked.
"Leaving a trail of Harry Potter books leading to my room." he replied with a smirk.
I rolled my eyes, but couldn't help laughing. He's such a goof ball.
"Just stay here," he coaxed, "It's really late, and I don't wanna be responsible for you getting in an accident on the way home. I have a bed! And I promise I won't molest you."
"Oh well now that you've assured me, I feel totally comfortable! Thanks!" I said sarcastically.
But I did stay. And he didn't make a single move!! We just layed in bed and talked, until we finally fell asleep. The next morning, he walked me out, and hugged me goodbye, and that was it!
I'm still kind of wondering what to make of this. I mean, I know he was being a gentleman, but not even a kiss!? I at least thought he would try to kiss me. He did practically beg me to stay. ((sigh)) Boys are so confusing!!

Bethany and I have plans to go to a haunted house tomorrow, and then hit up midtown. I'm really excited! I love haunted houses! Speaking of, anybody have any good ideas for a Halloween costume?? I've tried on so many at the stores, but they're all slutty and cheap looking! I want something that's hot, but tasteful. I usually end up putting together my own costumes, because they usually look waaaay better. So I really need some good ideas! HELP!

Mitch Of The Day:
"If you're a fish, and you want to be a fish stick, you must have very good posture."

Tuesday, October 9, 2007


Well...one of my old friends, Andrew, from high school was at Rich's the other night when Jenna and I went. Annnnnd he also happens to be pretty good friends with Dereck, the really hot bartender that I was crushing on.
So Andrew and I got in touch on myspace and I asked him for the skinny on Dereck. And apparently, he's not the best candidate for me.
Andrew's exact words?

"If you're looking for fun, Dereck is your boy. If you're looking for a relationship, DERECK IS NOT your boy"

Apparently he has commitment issues and he tends to string girls along.
Boo. He was SO cute too.

Oh well. At least I didn't waste any time on him. And now I can put my efforts towards John, because at least I know he's a good guy. All day I wanted to text him, but I don't wanna seem desperate. OR pretentious. Because it's not like we're dating, or talking, or anything. We just have a mutual interest. So I dunno. I wanna wait for him to make the next move, but I'm just not sure I'm patient enough.

In other news, I bought the most beautiful black trench coat online for our trip to NYC! I'm so excited! It'll be here in 3 days!
It's also nice that I'm basically working full-time now, because I don't have to worry about not having enough money to buy stuff for NY, and pay my bills. The only downside to that is, I'm soooo tired all the time! And I haven't gone to the gym in 4 days! I mean, I did go 3 times last week, but I need to go 4 times a week! And since I'm working 5 days a week, by the time I get a day off, I just have so much stuff to cram into that day, but all I really wanna do is rest! I'm gonna have to come up with a game plan here. My sleep schedule is just so completely the opposite of the world. Ugh...
Speaking of which, I guess I should go to bed!

Mitch Of The Day:
"Magicians disappear all the time, but as soon as a regular person does it, everyone is all scared. "Tom's gone!" "Is he a magician?" "No." "Then let's print up some fliers!'"

Monday, October 8, 2007

A Man, A Plan, An Attention Span

Well...I'm a little down because my kitten had to be taken to the humane society. Frank hates cats, and my dad is allergic so...my mom decided it was time for Edward and Chloe to go. I miss my Edward sooooooo much! I always looked forward to cuddling with him when I got home from work.

Anyways...on Thursday, Jenna and I went to Rich's to visit my new bartender friend, Steven. He gave us tons of free shots, and over all it was a great time! Not to mention, I met yet another adorable bartender named Dereck. And I don't really know why, but I'm super attracted to him! He's got this punk thing goin' on, but he's really sweet, and I love that! We've been myspacing back and forth ever since, so we'll see what happens!

Friday night after work, John walked me to my car, like always, and I offered to drive him back to his, since he was parked down the block. Well we ended up sitting in my car and talking for almost an hour! He told me a bunch of stories about doing reconnaissance in the marines (it's some cRaZy shit!), and we talked about life, and work yada yada. Anyway, somehow we got on the subject of Anchor Man, and he told me he's never seen it all the way through! I was in shock, because I love Will Ferrell and Anchor Man is just hilarious! So I told him he absolutely has to see it. And he said, "Well let's go watch it!" and I was like, "Right now?? At 5:23 in the morning??"
And he said, "Well sure, you have it, right?"
Me: Well...yea but I live like 45 minutes away from here...
John: That's okay
Me: ...and I live with my parents.
John: Ooooohhhh...
Me: Yea...my living situation pretty much sucks right now.

Then I went on to explain how I'm about to move in with Frank as soon as he finishes redecorating, or whatever the hell he's doing these days! I just wish he would hurry up! I think at this rate, I won't be able to move in till I get back from New York! I mean, what's the point? I'm gonna be gone for most of November...
Well, back to our conversation.
John: You have my number, right?
Me: I think so...I mean you gave it to me, but I'm not sure if I copied it right. Do you get text messages?
John: Yea
Me: Really? Cuz I sent you one once that said, "do you get text messages" but you never responded, so I assumed either you didn't get them, or I had the wrong number.
John: Well I had like a hundred messages in my inbox, and I recently deleted them, and then I got like 7 texts at once, so maybe that's why.
Me: Well that explains it!

So now, he gets my texts. :D

Saturday night, Bethany I worked the back bar together, and we decided to go eat after work. Her boyfriend, Tug, was coming too, so I texted John while we were counting tips and asked him if he wanted to join us. He and the other door guys were drinking beer in the front of the building in one of the booths. He agreed, and we all went to a 24 hour cafe. We had fun; I really like Bethany. Another new friend for me, YAY! We've got plans to go out this Wednesday night, since we're both off. WOOHOO!
Oh, and I learned that John likes Harry Potter!! He told me he's just started reading them and he's on book 2 already. I think it's so hot when a guy reads for fun. I love to read! So on my looooooong drive home, I texted John that we should watch the movies together, since he's never seen those either. He said he would be "totally down for some HP movie action =D", but not until he finishes book 2. So we have a tentative...date?

Mitch Of The Day:
"I miss the $2 bill, 'cause I can break a two. $20, no. $10, no. $5, maybe. $2? Oh yeah. What do you need, a one and another one?"

Thursday, October 4, 2007

What I Get For Settling

Well I never called John. I mean, I texted him once, and he never responded, so I'm just gonna wait till I see him in person and figure out where to go from there. Although we ARE myspace friends now. We'll see what happens.
I've been working so much lately, it's insane! But I'm not complaining cuz I just got my student loan payment plan in the mail, and with this trip to NY coming up, I need all the cash I can get!
Tomorrow Melissa and I are going to the zoo! I'm soooo excited! I've been taking this photography class with my mom for the past couple weeks, and we have an assignment to photograph wildlife. So what better place to do that than the zoo!? I mean, I have several photos of my horse, but I love the zoo and this is a great excuse to go.
And after the zoo, it's party time!!! That bartender I met a few weeks ago at the DJ AM show wants me to go to his bar tomorrow night. We've been chatting occasionally via text and myspace. His name is Steven. So, I'm gonna try to convince Melissa and the gang to head out some place different for a change. I mean, we're gonna have fun no matter where we go!
On Monday night I went to Happy Hour with Cecilia. She rarely gets to go out now that she has Presley, and her husband Rob is in Italy on business. Crazy, I know! But we had a good time catching up. She went home around 11:30 though, and I was all dressed to go out! So when Billy called and invited me to meet up with him, I couldn't resist.
I met him, and some of his friends at a patio bar in the Village. Bethany's boyfriend, Tug, works with Billy at the bar next door. And since Bethany and I work together, I actually knew a couple people. As soon as I got there, they were about to head over to another bar. So Billy rode with me to our next destination since he had left his car at a friends house.
Everything was going swimmingly at first. We'd had a few shots, and Bethany and I were talking (about work of course), when I noticed Billy was MIA. So I went inside to find him, and he was totally chatting it up with some blond. I don't know why I was jealous, since I'm not even really into him, but I pretended not to notice, and Bethany and I went to order another round.
Then I turn around and Billy is arguing with some dorky looking fat guy! I don't know what they were arguing about, but I walked over to see what the deal was. I tried to get Billy to leave him alone, I kept saying, "Hey let's go get a drink" or "Hey let's go outside. Everyone is sitting outside". But he wasn't having any of it. And by this time, it was already after last call, and people were leaving. So what do they do but take their "conversation" outside. I asked Tug what was going on, but he didn't know either, and neither of us could pull him away from this strange guy. I knew Billy was pretty wasted, I mean, he'd been drinking since about 7! And I also knew he was in a bad mood about something, he just wouldn't tell me what.
So finally, I was ready to go, and he rode with me, so I gently grabbed his hand and said, "Hey. Come on it's time to go. I'm ready to leave."
Well he PUSHED me off him! And I was a little buzzed myself, so I got really mad. Not that I shouldn't have been mad, I mean, there was no reason for him to push me like that.

"OOOOOH FUCK THAT!" I said as I walked off.

"What happened?" Bethany asked.

"He pushed me. I'm leaving his ass here. You guys still wanna go eat?"

So Bethany, Tug and I all went to IHOP for some breakfast.
When we got there, Tug told me to call Billy and see where he was. Well he answered the phone and said, "I have to call you back" and hung up on me!
Well he finally called back like 20 minutes later.
Billy: Well I was lucky to get out of there alive.
Me: What are you talking about?
Billy: Didn't you see the crew I was with?
Me: Umm...noooo I left after you pushed me.
Billy: Uh...I don't remember that, but ok. I guess I'll just talk to you tomorrow or something then bye.
And he hung up on me again!!
I didn't try calling him back right away cuz I really wanted to yell at him, just not in front of Bethany and Tug. So I waited till I was driving home.
He pressed the ignore button on me the first 2 times, and then finally he answered.
First he gave me crap about punishing him for other guys' actions. I tried to tell him I don't handle being pushed around very well. And he knows why. Then he had the audacity to say, "Oh what, it's not like I beat you or something!"
I was literally speechless. Then he said something about I don't act like most couples do at this point. I stopped him there and told him we've never had any conversations about our status, or even our feelings for that matter!! I mean, obviously he's more into me than I thought, which isn't good. But I don't know what could possibly lead him to believe we were anything more than just...I dunno...hanging out!?
At this point in our conversation, someone in the room with him started talking to him, and he was yelling at them to shut up, and then the phone cut out. He didn't call back.
I didn't hear from him at all Tuesday, and I was still pissed about everything that had happened.
Then today, when I was getting ready for work, he called.
Me: Oh. So you're alive.
Billy: Yea...I was so hungover yesterday, I didn't wanna talk on the phone to anybody.
Me: Uh huh. So what do you remember about the other night?
Billy: Uh...not much. The last thing I remember is taking shots at the bar.
Me: So you don't remember arguing with that guy, or pushing me, or hanging up on me 3 times??
Billy: .....no....
Me: Well how convenient.
Billy: What do you mean? I'd rather remember. I'm sorry if I did that. Are you mad at me?
Me: YES I'M MAD AT YOU! Well, actually I'm more mad that you can't remember what you did. Because you can't be sorry for something you don't remember doing. And you were being a total asshole so you should be sorry!
He apologized again, and explained that he'd gotten into a fight with a long-term ex-gf earlier that day. He didn't remember anything about our conversation on my drive home. So I didn't bring it up.
But I DID tell him he was more dramatic than most girls.

Mitch Of The Day:
"Imagine if you were a drummer, and you accidentally picked up two magic wands instead of sticks. There you are, keeping the beat, the next thing you know, your bass player turns into a can of soup."

Monday, October 1, 2007


Omg Saturday night was so much fun! After work, a bunch of us stayed to play poker again. I didn't get home till 10 am Sunday!! It was me, Mr. S (owner/GM), Misty (bartender and Mr. S's girlfriend), Blinn (owner/manager and The Albanian's cousin), Gavin, Dustin (sort of new door guy), John (door guy who stayed at The Albanian's the night we made out), Nick (bartender who always spreads rumours), Johnny (acoustic guitarist on weekends), and Ali (bartender). Like all those descriptions?? Hehe.
We closed the bar down pretty quickly, surprisingly. And since I've been sick lately, I wasn't gonna drink. I usually have 1 pint of cider while we're counting money. But when we left the back bar, Nick and the door guys were setting up the poker table. So I gave in and poured myself a beer.
I bought in, and stayed in for most of the night, which was awesome, but I eventually lost to Blinn. We even took shots last night! And that's saying something, because we usually stick to the strict beer only policy after hours. But Mr. S and Gavin were shooting whisky, and then Misty and Ali wanted shots, and it all just kind of showballed from there!
And John was flirting with me the entire night! Running his fingers through my hair, and telling me I smelled good...lol. It was quite strange! I mean...he knows about me and The Albanian. I guess he doesn't care? I have noticed that he seems to have taken an interest in me lately. The other day he asked me what I like to do for fun, and what I do on my nights off. He's a really sweet guy though. I like John!
So when we finally went out to the parking lot to leave, he asked, "So what are you doing today?"
"Going home and sleeping till work probably!" I said as I got in my car.

"Well, do you wanna go see a movie, or go out to dinner or something?"

"Well...I have to work at 7, so I doubt I'll have time! I'm only getting like 5 hours of sleep as it is. But...why don't you give me your number, and I'll call you if I wake up?"

So he did. Granted, he was pretty drunk...at least I think he was. It's kinda hard to tell with him. I obviously didn't call him today though. I mean I literally woke up, went to feed my horse and got ready for work. But I'm thinking about calling him tomorrow. I mean, he's really nice, and cute! I always say he looks just like the Prince Charming in Shrek II. SERIOUSLY. Long blonde hair and all. But he's not a metrosexual or anything! Haha. He used to be in the marines. So maybe I will go out with him. We'll see...

I am SO excited about going to New York!! I convinced Sophie to go; I'm gonna buy her a plane ticket, since Evan is buying mine. It's gonna be a blast!!! I invited Melissa and Rikki, she's always been a globe trotter. So hopefully some more people will come, but you know how people are. Nobody ever wants to commit!! Either way, it will still be fun.

I have so much stuff to do tomorrow! I haven't been to the bank in weeks and I've been walking around with like a thousand dollars cash in my wallet! I also need to go get a new drivers license because I lost mine on me and Billy's first date. At least I can take a new picture. My old one was terrible!
I've also started a new work out regime. I'm gonna force myself to eat more healthy and work out at least 4 days a week because when I get to NY, I have to look fab! Especially if I'm gonna be seeing The Model. But, knowing him, and the luck I usually have when it comes to him, I'll be right down the street from his place and we still won't see each other. ((sigh)) I know I shouldn't get my hopes up regarding him like...ever, but it's New York. And the first thing that always comes to mind when I imagine New York is HIM. And I just wish things between The Model and I could go back to normal. Well...I definitely wish more than that, but you know what I mean!
Oh dear, it's 5:25 in the morning! I started this post as soon as I got home from work today, so I should probably get to sleep...what with all the crap I have to do tomorrow. Err...today.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I like cottage cheese. That's why I want to try other dwelling cheeses, too. How about studio apartment cheese? Tent cheese? Mobile home cheese? Do not eat mobile home cheese in a tornado."