Ever been woken up from a deep sleep, in the dead of night, to the sounds of someone violently banging on your front door??
Cuz I have! Last night I went to sleep around 10:45. I'd been sleeping for about an hour when it started. Jasper started barking of course, and I was startled into consciousness. Whoever it was, was banging incessantly, and ringing the doorbell in rapid succession. I looked at the clock. Midnight. Who the hell would be coming over at midnight?? I was afraid to go to the door and see who it was. They were still banging, hard! Then I heard the door knob rattle and turn, as someone tried to open the door. Alright now I was really scared. I was clutching Jasper's nose, holding his mouth shut so he wouldn't bark. For some reason, I didn't want them to hear me. I grabbed my phone and began to panic. My visitor was still trying to force the door open.
Who can I call?? I have...no one!
My first thought was Brandon, but I quickly talked myself out of that. As distraught as I was, there was nothing he could do, even if he was willing. Then I thought of my parents, but they're too far away.
Nick!! I suddenly thought, Not only does he live about a block away, but he's a police officer!!
I quickly dialed his number. The banging had temporarily subsided, but I was still shaking.
When he picked up the phone, I could tell he was out somewhere.
"Can you go someplace quiet, it's important!" I said.
"Yea, one sec." He said.
The line finally went silent.
"What's up?" He asked urgently.
"There is somebody banging on my door and trying to get into my apartment." I said, "I'm afraid to leave my room to go see who it is!"
"No, stay in your room. Call HPD."
"Ok..."
"Just hang up the phone with me, and call HPD, they'll run a Code 1 and be out there really quick, I promise. Just tell them some one's trying to break into your apartment."
"Ok." I said. The banging had started again, and I heard a man's voice.
"Alright, call me back after you call them, ok?"
"Ok." I said, and I hung up the phone, trembling.
Then I dialed 9-1-1. I told the operator everything, and gave her my address and phone number. She said someone would be out right away. The guy was still banging on my door. In a rush, I jumped out bed and went to my underwear drawer. I began rummaging around under my bras. I was afraid to draw attention to myself by turning on the light.
Where is it!?!
Finally my hand closed around something cool and heavy. My handgun. I sighed with relief and made a mental note to move it to a spot closer to my bedside. Then I grabbed Jasper, got back in bed, pulled the covers up to my neck, and put the gun in my lap, and waited. The banging had stopped again, but now I heard sawing.
SAWING!!
Omg omg omg, was all I could think. He's trying to saw his way through the door!
I didn't hear sirens, but I saw the blue lights flashing through my window. Nick was right, they were fast. A few minutes later, I heard someone knocking, not banging, at my door. I slipped the gun under my pillow and locked Jasper in the bathroom. Then I cautiously went to the door. I peeked through the blinds just to make sure it was really the police. It was.
Then I opened the door. Most of the conversation is fuzzy, but there were 4 or 5 officers, 2 of them were women. And there was the maintenance guy. THE FUCKING MAINTENANCE GUY! I was so livid. Why the fuck would he be banging on my door like a crazed psychopath at 12am on a Sunday night! I WAS SLEEPING! And he literally SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!! Not to mention, the cops treated me like I was just another dumb girl, calling the police because I heard a bird outside my window or something.
Apparently the people in the apartment below me had a leak, and he wanted to see if it was coming from under my kitchen sink. WHICH IT WASN'T! And when he asked if he could come up and check, I was like, "Seriously?? I have to get up at 5:30, can't this wait till the morning??" And one of the female cops said something really rude along the lines of, "Obviously it's important, it'll just take a second, and wouldn't you want your neighbors to do the same for you??" It was just the way she said it. Condescending. And of course she acted annoyed with me.
So alllll 6 of them came in! And I haven't exactly had a chance to clean during my 13 straight days of working. Ugh... So of course, the maintenance guy determined that the leak was NOT coming from my apartment. And then this guy cop says to me, in a rude, patronizing way,
"Ok well he can either turn of your water now, and figure out what the problem is, or you can wait till tomorrow and not have water to take a shower in the morning. But if you wanna take a shower tomorrow, he might have to come back in your apartment."
He spoke to me as if I was a child. I was too shaken up to defend myself.
"...Ok..." I said.
"Ok well you just call us again if you get scared." He said, sarcastically.
I wanted to slap the disdain and superiority off his face.
Hello?!?! I'm a single woman, who lives alone! I was dead asleep and it's midnight! How the fuck was I supposed to know it was the fucking maintenance guy!? It's not like I was expecting anyone!! And no one has ever banged on my door like that before. It literally sounded like he was trying to knock the door down! I mean, he banged on the door so hard, he scratched some of the paint off!!
As soon as I got back in bed, I called Nick. He had tried to call me a couple times, but I was too busy with the cops to answer. I told him what happened, and explained how rude the cops were.
"They shouldn't have done that. I mean, you live alone, and you're....they just shouldn't have done that." He said.
"Yea well...thanks for helping me out." I said.
"No problem. Call me if you need anything." He said.
Thank God for Nick. ((Sigh))
When I laid down, I stared up at my ceiling, and hugged Jasper close. Then I sobbed.
How easy it was for someone to rattle my cage, to make me feel unsafe. I have never felt so alone. So vulnerable.
I hardly slept a wink. I started at every single sound I heard. And my apartment faces the street, so there are a lot of sounds. ((Sigh))
Today when I get home, I'm heading straight to my apartment office and bitching somebody the fuck out.
How would you feel?? What would you do?? I mean, the maintenance guy apologized for scaring me, but I don't know what else to do. And that was completely uncalled for. I don't want anybody banging on my door at midnight unless the place is on fire! I have literally never been that scared in my life.
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Monday, February 1, 2010
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
A Tale Of Two Turkeys
So much has happened in 2 days, I dunno if I'll be able to cram it all in!
Ok, first of all, Brandon spent the night Friday and Sunday night! I think I already recapped Friday. Well, nothing happened on Friday anyway so, Sunday!
I had the day off, which was nice, and definitely well deserved. I slept in super late, and then went up to my bar to meet Nick and some coworkers. I called Brandon on my way there, and he said he'd meet up with me when he was done studying.
So we hung out there all day, and then Brandon and I headed back to my place around 12:30am. He'd been acting a little...distant through out the day I noticed. He kept leaving to talk to other people for long periods of time. But that's fine, I mean he's gonna be working with us soon, and it's good for him to get to know people I guess. So we get back to my place and I put on Across The Universe. He pretty much fell asleep, with his head on
my shoulder while we were sitting on the couch. So when the movie ended, I suggested we go to bed.
So when we got in bed, I started to get really impatient, wondering if he was ever going to kiss me. And there he was, laying right next to me, not doing a damn thing! So I started huffing. Lol. And then he asked me what was wrong. And I started giving him shit about how he must be afraid of me or something, and then suddenly, he was kissing me.
Finally!
And it was actually kind of anticlimactic. ((sigh)) I mean, we kissed for a while, and I just kept waiting for that feeling, that first kiss swooning feeling, to hit me....but it never did. :(
And I dunno if it's just because of all the waiting, and the built up anticipation, or if it's just because we don't have chemistry. But it's so frustrating!! GRRRRR!!!
So he left the next day, and I actually haven't seen him since. I mean we've talked, but he had a test this week, and he went into work late on Monday cuz his alarm didn't go off, so he's been studying and going to bed early this week. At least, that's what he's been telling me. And I've been working. And I talked to Melissa about it. She says I always do this. I really like a guy, and I chase him, and I let him chase me, and then as soon as it happens, BAM! I lose interest. And she's sort of right, but I'm not sure if I agree that it's self-sabotage. I mean, if that was the case, he'd at least be calling me still, right??? And I haven't heard from him all day. He used to send me "good morning" text messages. Haven't gotten one of those either. ((sigh)) Oh well. I'm just gonna leave him alone for a while and see what happens.
In other news! Last night, Bethany, and Tug and I went to the Ghostland Observatory show at the new House of Blues! It was AWESOME! We had so much fun! It turned out that a group of our coworkers were there, so we hung out in their booth with them, which had an amazing view, and guess who was there?? John.
The ups and downs with him never seem to end...
So after the show, we all went back to our bar for a couple drinks, and John wasn't there. I figured he'd gone home. Then Bethany, Tug and I went to BW3's for some grub and trivia and ended up staying there for about an hour. When we went back to our bar to close out our tabs there he was! With his bike in tow. Apparently he'd gone home to get his bike or whatever, and when he game back, the rest of the crew was gone. So we were all standing around talking, and he offered me a shot. I said yes, of course, and we went inside. Bethany and Tug went home, and then it was just me and John.
We took a shot, and had a couple drinks and just talked for a while. It was kind of nice actually. Because both of us were sober, unlike every other time we hang out. Then it started pouring down rain! So John moved his bike inside through the back door. I ended up taking him back to my place, since he couldn't drive his bike. Don gave us a lot of shit as we were leaving, saying stupid things like, "Be safe! Use a condom!"
I yelled at him to shutup. When we got back to my apartment, I put on a movie (John wanted to watch 21) and we just made ourselves comfortable in bed. Before long, John was passed out, and my eyes were fighting to stay open. So I turned off the movie and went to sleep. And that was that! Just like last time. No kissing, no cuddling, no touching even! But I knew what to expect this time around, so it wasn't that weird. And I think I might be starting to get over him. All the runaround, the up and downs, the games, the ambiguity... It's gotten old. I just don't wanna do it anymore.
Tall Dark and Handsome still texts me btw... I'm not even really sure why, because he never texts me to make plans! He just asks what I'm doing! That's getting pretty old too. If he doesn't ask me out soon, I'm going to delete his phone number. I think I've just had it up to here with guys who can't make up their minds. I don't want someone who doesn't know what they want! I want a guy who's sure. A guy who's attractive, smart, funny, and nice. Somebody I can be myself with.
And do you know who I just described??
Todd.
Oh, and did I mention that Melissa and I are going to Dallas this weekend to see his game? I'm so excited!!!
Ok, first of all, Brandon spent the night Friday and Sunday night! I think I already recapped Friday. Well, nothing happened on Friday anyway so, Sunday!
I had the day off, which was nice, and definitely well deserved. I slept in super late, and then went up to my bar to meet Nick and some coworkers. I called Brandon on my way there, and he said he'd meet up with me when he was done studying.
So we hung out there all day, and then Brandon and I headed back to my place around 12:30am. He'd been acting a little...distant through out the day I noticed. He kept leaving to talk to other people for long periods of time. But that's fine, I mean he's gonna be working with us soon, and it's good for him to get to know people I guess. So we get back to my place and I put on Across The Universe. He pretty much fell asleep, with his head on
my shoulder while we were sitting on the couch. So when the movie ended, I suggested we go to bed.
So when we got in bed, I started to get really impatient, wondering if he was ever going to kiss me. And there he was, laying right next to me, not doing a damn thing! So I started huffing. Lol. And then he asked me what was wrong. And I started giving him shit about how he must be afraid of me or something, and then suddenly, he was kissing me.
Finally!
And it was actually kind of anticlimactic. ((sigh)) I mean, we kissed for a while, and I just kept waiting for that feeling, that first kiss swooning feeling, to hit me....but it never did. :(
And I dunno if it's just because of all the waiting, and the built up anticipation, or if it's just because we don't have chemistry. But it's so frustrating!! GRRRRR!!!
So he left the next day, and I actually haven't seen him since. I mean we've talked, but he had a test this week, and he went into work late on Monday cuz his alarm didn't go off, so he's been studying and going to bed early this week. At least, that's what he's been telling me. And I've been working. And I talked to Melissa about it. She says I always do this. I really like a guy, and I chase him, and I let him chase me, and then as soon as it happens, BAM! I lose interest. And she's sort of right, but I'm not sure if I agree that it's self-sabotage. I mean, if that was the case, he'd at least be calling me still, right??? And I haven't heard from him all day. He used to send me "good morning" text messages. Haven't gotten one of those either. ((sigh)) Oh well. I'm just gonna leave him alone for a while and see what happens.
In other news! Last night, Bethany, and Tug and I went to the Ghostland Observatory show at the new House of Blues! It was AWESOME! We had so much fun! It turned out that a group of our coworkers were there, so we hung out in their booth with them, which had an amazing view, and guess who was there?? John.
The ups and downs with him never seem to end...
So after the show, we all went back to our bar for a couple drinks, and John wasn't there. I figured he'd gone home. Then Bethany, Tug and I went to BW3's for some grub and trivia and ended up staying there for about an hour. When we went back to our bar to close out our tabs there he was! With his bike in tow. Apparently he'd gone home to get his bike or whatever, and when he game back, the rest of the crew was gone. So we were all standing around talking, and he offered me a shot. I said yes, of course, and we went inside. Bethany and Tug went home, and then it was just me and John.
We took a shot, and had a couple drinks and just talked for a while. It was kind of nice actually. Because both of us were sober, unlike every other time we hang out. Then it started pouring down rain! So John moved his bike inside through the back door. I ended up taking him back to my place, since he couldn't drive his bike. Don gave us a lot of shit as we were leaving, saying stupid things like, "Be safe! Use a condom!"
I yelled at him to shutup. When we got back to my apartment, I put on a movie (John wanted to watch 21) and we just made ourselves comfortable in bed. Before long, John was passed out, and my eyes were fighting to stay open. So I turned off the movie and went to sleep. And that was that! Just like last time. No kissing, no cuddling, no touching even! But I knew what to expect this time around, so it wasn't that weird. And I think I might be starting to get over him. All the runaround, the up and downs, the games, the ambiguity... It's gotten old. I just don't wanna do it anymore.
Tall Dark and Handsome still texts me btw... I'm not even really sure why, because he never texts me to make plans! He just asks what I'm doing! That's getting pretty old too. If he doesn't ask me out soon, I'm going to delete his phone number. I think I've just had it up to here with guys who can't make up their minds. I don't want someone who doesn't know what they want! I want a guy who's sure. A guy who's attractive, smart, funny, and nice. Somebody I can be myself with.
And do you know who I just described??
Todd.
Oh, and did I mention that Melissa and I are going to Dallas this weekend to see his game? I'm so excited!!!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Getting Back To Normal
Well I finally got my power back on Friday! So it's been really nice to have some space all to myself again. I can walk around in my underwear, sleep in, come and go as I please...all things that I'd apparently been taking for granted!
So I sort of started seeing this guy... He's actually a guy I met on that dating website a while back. And as it turns out, he went to school with Bethany! Lol. But we're not really dating; we just starting hanging out. And I wanna take things reallllly slow, and actually get to know him before I start to invest any feelings or anything so... Maybe it'll actually work. And ya know, he's a good guy. He has a job, and a car, and a phone, and all the things that most normal people have (unlike the last 2 guys I dated!). And he's nice, and really funny, and tall. I don't exactly find him sexy or anything, but he's cute, and I like him. So, that's that.
Today Bethany and I did something fun and different! Remember Nick? My old coworker who quit to start training at the police academy? Well he signed us up to take field sobriety tests with the cadets! Hahaha. So an officer came and picked us up, drove us out to the academy, gave us a bunch of free liquor and then we took tests. It was awesome! We had so much fun! And I fooled them every time!! I took four field sobriety tests with four different groups, and none of them would have arrested me. Hahahahaha! And I was definitely drunk! Not that that's a good thing or anything, just funny. Especially since I was giggling through most of it. Nick was so cute in his cadet uniform! Lol. Anyways... Today was a pretty good day. And tomorrow Bethany and I are going to Linens N' Things so I can get some stuff for my kitchen. Apparently they're going out of business, so everything's on sale. Then I might go get a massage and a pedicure. My back has been killing me...
Well I should probably go to bed since I have all this stuff to do tomorrow.
Goodnight!
So I sort of started seeing this guy... He's actually a guy I met on that dating website a while back. And as it turns out, he went to school with Bethany! Lol. But we're not really dating; we just starting hanging out. And I wanna take things reallllly slow, and actually get to know him before I start to invest any feelings or anything so... Maybe it'll actually work. And ya know, he's a good guy. He has a job, and a car, and a phone, and all the things that most normal people have (unlike the last 2 guys I dated!). And he's nice, and really funny, and tall. I don't exactly find him sexy or anything, but he's cute, and I like him. So, that's that.
Today Bethany and I did something fun and different! Remember Nick? My old coworker who quit to start training at the police academy? Well he signed us up to take field sobriety tests with the cadets! Hahaha. So an officer came and picked us up, drove us out to the academy, gave us a bunch of free liquor and then we took tests. It was awesome! We had so much fun! And I fooled them every time!! I took four field sobriety tests with four different groups, and none of them would have arrested me. Hahahahaha! And I was definitely drunk! Not that that's a good thing or anything, just funny. Especially since I was giggling through most of it. Nick was so cute in his cadet uniform! Lol. Anyways... Today was a pretty good day. And tomorrow Bethany and I are going to Linens N' Things so I can get some stuff for my kitchen. Apparently they're going out of business, so everything's on sale. Then I might go get a massage and a pedicure. My back has been killing me...
Well I should probably go to bed since I have all this stuff to do tomorrow.
Goodnight!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Old Flame
Sorry I had to go so quickly last time! Hopefully I can get you guys all caught up now.
I've had a lot of time to think about the situation with BJ and I, and I even talked to Cecilia about it. And what I've realized is....I like him. Lol. But I'm afraid to like him because he's not really what I've been looking for. And I'm afraid that it just won't work out between us because of who I am, and who he is, and yet...I can't stay away! We just have undeniable chemistry!
I've gone up to Huntsville to visit him twice now, and we also hung out in The Woodlands once, which is sort of halfway in between. I dunno...I just have a lot of fun with him. And he is a nice guy, but things are just never clear cut and dry with us.
First, there's the situation with he and Cecilia. The other day, I sent her a text about it.
Me: Ok, be TOTALLY honest with me! Does it bother you at all, on a personal level, that me and BJ are...whatever we are?
Cecilia: U just do what u want to do
Me: I am, but that's not an answer!
Cecilia: I don't know. I guess part of me is a little jealous or weirded out or something. But I mean, I really have no right to be upset about it.
Me: No I understand. That's exactly how I felt when you and BJ were talking. This whole situation with the 3 of us is just so beyond effed up.
Cecilia: Well do u LIKE him, as in u could see this goin' somewhere, or are u just messing with him?
Me: I honestly don't know at this point. I know I don't WANT to like him! But I'm still trying to figure it out before things get too crazy.
Cecilia: This is just so weird. I never thought we would be back here to this again! Stupid BJ!
Me: Yea, me neither. But at least this time we know how to handle it and it won't affect our friendship.
She agreed. Our friendship definitely took a pretty big hit last time. What a mess! Anyways, I'm still keeping my options open, because I still don't totally trust him. Especially since he's in Florida for spring break with his friends right now. And I hate myself for admitting this, but I actually miss him! Ugh...
MOVING ON!
I'm actually off tonight, so Bethany and I are hittin' the town. I'm super stoked! She and I haven't hung out in a while, and we both got superhot new dresses to wear! I can't wait.
Melissa has been kind of giving me a guilt trip because I'm not going out with her and the girls tonight, but I almost feel like I've been neglecting my other friends! Ya know? I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Melissa! She's one of my besties, but I can't just spend alllll my nights off going out with her. I need to hang with Jenna, and Alyssa, and Bethany, and my other friends too. And it's hard to hang out with everyone all together, because they don't all know each other, and then I'm trying to split my attention 4 ways... You get the picture.
So it's Bethany and I tonight! And she keeps telling me she has this "hot friend" she wants to set me up with. I told her about BJ, but she agrees I should keep my options open, and there's no harm in meeting the guy. He'll be out with our group tonight.
As for FB, he's in Lubbock for spring break, and we haven't talked in a couple weeks. Unless you count the exchanged pleasantries on Facebook. I don't.
Jake The Door Guy? Totally out of the picture. He's just BAD. NEWS. And I'm glad I went with my gut on that one.
I went to the Rodeo Cookoff with Blinn, Valerie, Nick, and his friend Crystal. We had so much fun!! We drank lots of beer, rode carnival rides, played games and it was just loads of good clean fun! But then I noticed Blinn and Crystal getting cozy on the bus, and I was actually jealous!! Yea, weird right? But this was before the whole BJ situation so I haven't given it much thought since then. But, Nick did confess his undying love for me in his drunken stupor. Well not exactly undying love, but he admitted he's had a thing for me for a while. Obviously, he knows I don't return those feelings, and luckily, it hasn't been weird or affected our friendship at all, so that's good.
I'm trying to think if there's anything else important that's happened in the past couple weeks...
I hope I didn't leave anything out!
I guess I'll just tell you all about it later if I think of anything else.
TTFN!
Demetri Of The Day:
"I saw a sign that said "Watch For Children" and I thought, "That sounds like a fair trade. Especially if they're crappy kids.'"
I've had a lot of time to think about the situation with BJ and I, and I even talked to Cecilia about it. And what I've realized is....I like him. Lol. But I'm afraid to like him because he's not really what I've been looking for. And I'm afraid that it just won't work out between us because of who I am, and who he is, and yet...I can't stay away! We just have undeniable chemistry!
I've gone up to Huntsville to visit him twice now, and we also hung out in The Woodlands once, which is sort of halfway in between. I dunno...I just have a lot of fun with him. And he is a nice guy, but things are just never clear cut and dry with us.
First, there's the situation with he and Cecilia. The other day, I sent her a text about it.
Me: Ok, be TOTALLY honest with me! Does it bother you at all, on a personal level, that me and BJ are...whatever we are?
Cecilia: U just do what u want to do
Me: I am, but that's not an answer!
Cecilia: I don't know. I guess part of me is a little jealous or weirded out or something. But I mean, I really have no right to be upset about it.
Me: No I understand. That's exactly how I felt when you and BJ were talking. This whole situation with the 3 of us is just so beyond effed up.
Cecilia: Well do u LIKE him, as in u could see this goin' somewhere, or are u just messing with him?
Me: I honestly don't know at this point. I know I don't WANT to like him! But I'm still trying to figure it out before things get too crazy.
Cecilia: This is just so weird. I never thought we would be back here to this again! Stupid BJ!
Me: Yea, me neither. But at least this time we know how to handle it and it won't affect our friendship.
She agreed. Our friendship definitely took a pretty big hit last time. What a mess! Anyways, I'm still keeping my options open, because I still don't totally trust him. Especially since he's in Florida for spring break with his friends right now. And I hate myself for admitting this, but I actually miss him! Ugh...
MOVING ON!
I'm actually off tonight, so Bethany and I are hittin' the town. I'm super stoked! She and I haven't hung out in a while, and we both got superhot new dresses to wear! I can't wait.
Melissa has been kind of giving me a guilt trip because I'm not going out with her and the girls tonight, but I almost feel like I've been neglecting my other friends! Ya know? I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Melissa! She's one of my besties, but I can't just spend alllll my nights off going out with her. I need to hang with Jenna, and Alyssa, and Bethany, and my other friends too. And it's hard to hang out with everyone all together, because they don't all know each other, and then I'm trying to split my attention 4 ways... You get the picture.
So it's Bethany and I tonight! And she keeps telling me she has this "hot friend" she wants to set me up with. I told her about BJ, but she agrees I should keep my options open, and there's no harm in meeting the guy. He'll be out with our group tonight.
As for FB, he's in Lubbock for spring break, and we haven't talked in a couple weeks. Unless you count the exchanged pleasantries on Facebook. I don't.
Jake The Door Guy? Totally out of the picture. He's just BAD. NEWS. And I'm glad I went with my gut on that one.
I went to the Rodeo Cookoff with Blinn, Valerie, Nick, and his friend Crystal. We had so much fun!! We drank lots of beer, rode carnival rides, played games and it was just loads of good clean fun! But then I noticed Blinn and Crystal getting cozy on the bus, and I was actually jealous!! Yea, weird right? But this was before the whole BJ situation so I haven't given it much thought since then. But, Nick did confess his undying love for me in his drunken stupor. Well not exactly undying love, but he admitted he's had a thing for me for a while. Obviously, he knows I don't return those feelings, and luckily, it hasn't been weird or affected our friendship at all, so that's good.
I'm trying to think if there's anything else important that's happened in the past couple weeks...
I hope I didn't leave anything out!
I guess I'll just tell you all about it later if I think of anything else.
TTFN!
Demetri Of The Day:
"I saw a sign that said "Watch For Children" and I thought, "That sounds like a fair trade. Especially if they're crappy kids.'"
Monday, February 25, 2008
Work Work Work!
Saturday night was horrible!
We were short a bartender, and of course, it was insanely busy. Not to mention, I'm getting sick again, and I've just been so exhausted. My back was aching the whole night, and I just didn't feel like I was up to doing my best.
Then FB shows up with his friends, and literally will not leave me alone. I mean I was working the waitress well, so it wasn't even really my job to be helping the customers. They had other bartenders for that. But he's ordering rounds of EIGHTEEN SHOTS from me!! Ugh. Then he told Amanda and Melissa that he was "taking me out on a date" tomorrow. Which was so not true. Thank God for Evan! He was there too, and I grabbed him and quickly engaged him in a conversation so FB would leave me alone. FB and his crew didn't leave till close.
I saw Jake The Door Guy on my way to work, and he hardly said 2 words to me. Then after work, he came over to hang out, and he was all, "Hey lover!" and gave me a hug! I think the guy might have multiple personalies.
At the end of the night, while we were cleaning, Frank shows up, completely pants-shitting drunk. I mean, it was ridiculous. And he was talking shit to me for no reason! First he told me, "Fuck you, you fat bitch. Shut your mouth." I almost laughed at that, because it was a rather hypocritical comment.
But then later, he slapped me in the face!!! YEA! I was entering credit card tips on the computer, and minding my own business, and he walks up and says, "Stop looking at me like that!"
"Like what?" I asked.
"The way you're looking at me!" He slurred.
"I can look at you however I want." I said. I was really not in the mood to deal with him after the crappy night I'd had.
"I'll slap you in the face." He threatened.
"No you won't." I said, not even looking at him, and continuing to do credit cards.
Then he slapped me!! And not lightly either. I turned around and slapped him 3 times harder.
"Don't fucking slap me!" I said to him. I was so pissed!
And he laughed.
Then he started talking to Ali, saying that I'm a horrible photographer, and that as much as I try, I'll never be good at it. Normally, I wouldn't have let any of this bother me, but I just got off my period, I'm tired, sick, sore, and at the end of my rope, so this was just the straw that broke the camels back, ya know? I wanted to cry, but I would never do that at work. So I threw down my bar towel, and went to the back bar, to get away from him.
Nick was back there cleaning. I told him I was mad and I needed him to come eat with me after work so I could cry on his shoulder. Lol.
So we went and ate late night Mexican food at some 24 hour joint, and exchanged stories. I told him about Frank, and FB, and he told me about his psycho ex calling and listening to his voicemails.
Oh, and I feel like I have to state for the record, Nick is an awesome guy. He's not out to get into anyone's pants, and he totally respects me. He knows I'm not romantically interested in him either, so he wouldn't try to "cock block" me with Jake. What he told me is what he honestly believes to be true. And I know I can trust him.
Moving on....
Friday night was Blinn's birthday. And I forgot to mention in my last post, he has tried to make out with me twice in the past 4 days! I mean, both times he was drunk, but still... I wouldn't let him kiss me though, because 1) I was sober and 2) I'm not going to end up like Valerie!
I had to take him home after work on Thursday night, because he was wasted and his brother had his car. So that was the first time he made a move. And then Friday, a buncha people went over to his place for his birthday after work, and he started kissing my neck in front of like 3 other people!!! Omg so embarrassing! But it's ok, cuz nobody knows about what happened between us before. Except Alyssa and Bethany. And I know they won't tell anyone. But it kinda makes me wonder if he's actually interested in me, or if he's just drunk. He's always telling me I smell good, and sniffing me. Literally!
Well, sorry this post hasn't been very...detailed, but like I said, I'm exhausted! And I'm really looking forward to getting in bed and reading a book!
Thanks for reading!
Demetri Of The Day:
"The straw is a great invention. You can drink without using your wrists. The straw is your friend until you lose eye contact with the straw. Then he will betray you and make you look like an idiot. I have to pull the straw aside and be like “What the hell do you think you’re doing? The last time I checked, you were right by my mouth. What are you doing on the other side of the glass? I don’t need you; you’re a luxury!
The ice is even worse. When there’s liquid in there, yeah it’s fine; it’s like a pool party. “Hey we’re keeping everything cool.” I’m talking about when I get to the bottom and it’s just me and the ice. I’m like, ok just one of you. Come on I just want something to chew on; come on. And the ice is like, “Hold…hold…everybody now!”"
We were short a bartender, and of course, it was insanely busy. Not to mention, I'm getting sick again, and I've just been so exhausted. My back was aching the whole night, and I just didn't feel like I was up to doing my best.
Then FB shows up with his friends, and literally will not leave me alone. I mean I was working the waitress well, so it wasn't even really my job to be helping the customers. They had other bartenders for that. But he's ordering rounds of EIGHTEEN SHOTS from me!! Ugh. Then he told Amanda and Melissa that he was "taking me out on a date" tomorrow. Which was so not true. Thank God for Evan! He was there too, and I grabbed him and quickly engaged him in a conversation so FB would leave me alone. FB and his crew didn't leave till close.
I saw Jake The Door Guy on my way to work, and he hardly said 2 words to me. Then after work, he came over to hang out, and he was all, "Hey lover!" and gave me a hug! I think the guy might have multiple personalies.
At the end of the night, while we were cleaning, Frank shows up, completely pants-shitting drunk. I mean, it was ridiculous. And he was talking shit to me for no reason! First he told me, "Fuck you, you fat bitch. Shut your mouth." I almost laughed at that, because it was a rather hypocritical comment.
But then later, he slapped me in the face!!! YEA! I was entering credit card tips on the computer, and minding my own business, and he walks up and says, "Stop looking at me like that!"
"Like what?" I asked.
"The way you're looking at me!" He slurred.
"I can look at you however I want." I said. I was really not in the mood to deal with him after the crappy night I'd had.
"I'll slap you in the face." He threatened.
"No you won't." I said, not even looking at him, and continuing to do credit cards.
Then he slapped me!! And not lightly either. I turned around and slapped him 3 times harder.
"Don't fucking slap me!" I said to him. I was so pissed!
And he laughed.
Then he started talking to Ali, saying that I'm a horrible photographer, and that as much as I try, I'll never be good at it. Normally, I wouldn't have let any of this bother me, but I just got off my period, I'm tired, sick, sore, and at the end of my rope, so this was just the straw that broke the camels back, ya know? I wanted to cry, but I would never do that at work. So I threw down my bar towel, and went to the back bar, to get away from him.
Nick was back there cleaning. I told him I was mad and I needed him to come eat with me after work so I could cry on his shoulder. Lol.
So we went and ate late night Mexican food at some 24 hour joint, and exchanged stories. I told him about Frank, and FB, and he told me about his psycho ex calling and listening to his voicemails.
Oh, and I feel like I have to state for the record, Nick is an awesome guy. He's not out to get into anyone's pants, and he totally respects me. He knows I'm not romantically interested in him either, so he wouldn't try to "cock block" me with Jake. What he told me is what he honestly believes to be true. And I know I can trust him.
Moving on....
Friday night was Blinn's birthday. And I forgot to mention in my last post, he has tried to make out with me twice in the past 4 days! I mean, both times he was drunk, but still... I wouldn't let him kiss me though, because 1) I was sober and 2) I'm not going to end up like Valerie!
I had to take him home after work on Thursday night, because he was wasted and his brother had his car. So that was the first time he made a move. And then Friday, a buncha people went over to his place for his birthday after work, and he started kissing my neck in front of like 3 other people!!! Omg so embarrassing! But it's ok, cuz nobody knows about what happened between us before. Except Alyssa and Bethany. And I know they won't tell anyone. But it kinda makes me wonder if he's actually interested in me, or if he's just drunk. He's always telling me I smell good, and sniffing me. Literally!
Well, sorry this post hasn't been very...detailed, but like I said, I'm exhausted! And I'm really looking forward to getting in bed and reading a book!
Thanks for reading!
Demetri Of The Day:
"The straw is a great invention. You can drink without using your wrists. The straw is your friend until you lose eye contact with the straw. Then he will betray you and make you look like an idiot. I have to pull the straw aside and be like “What the hell do you think you’re doing? The last time I checked, you were right by my mouth. What are you doing on the other side of the glass? I don’t need you; you’re a luxury!
The ice is even worse. When there’s liquid in there, yeah it’s fine; it’s like a pool party. “Hey we’re keeping everything cool.” I’m talking about when I get to the bottom and it’s just me and the ice. I’m like, ok just one of you. Come on I just want something to chew on; come on. And the ice is like, “Hold…hold…everybody now!”"
Friday, February 22, 2008
No More Fantasies
I recently decided to drop all notions about me and Jake The Door Guy. I'm the type of person that always gives people the benefit of the doubt. I look for the good in people. And while that may sound like a nice quality, it usually turns out to be more of a problem than anything. And in the case of Jake The Door Guy, I feel like this is one of those situations.
Nick and Jake have been kind of hanging out recently. And he knows about my little crush. And the other day while we were closing the bar together, we had a little conversation about him.
Nick: Hey, can I be completely honest with you about something, without you getting mad, or thinking that I'm trying to cock block you or something??
Me: Um...sure...?
Nick: If you're looking for a relationship, or anything serious, Jake isn't your guy. I mean if you just wanna goof off and mess around or whatever, then go for it. But seriously? He's just out to fuck.
Me: What?? How do you know that?
Nick: Because! I've spent a lot of time with him the past few days, and it's just the way he acts, the things he says... Actually, he's been tryin' pretty hard to get into Tina's pants.
Me: TINA!?! Ew! Why do all the guys like her!? I don't get it.
Nick: I dunno...cuz she's cute. But she's got lots of baggage. But guys seem to like crazy girls I guess?
Tina is the girl I used to work with at the last bar. And I really didn't want her to get a job with me, because frankly, I'm not a big fan of hers. And now apparently all the guys like her. (i.e. The Albanian, Jake The Door Guy, and a couple other bartenders) It drives me crazy! She just recently got divorced! And by recently, I mean...I don't even think the papers are finalized yet. And she's only 22! And I know for a fact that she and The Albanian are already sleeping together. ((huff!)) Anyways, so I decided, right then and there, to stop fantasizing about Jake and I, because I'm not going to delude myself.
Friend Boy keeps calling and texting me. He apparently can't seem to take a hint. I mean I feel kinda bad, but I have to cut the cord. Ya know? I'm not gonna lead him on. But it's really starting to get kind of annoying.
Last night, I had off work, so me, Melissa and Amanda went out. In the end it was just me and Melissa though, cuz Amanda went home early since she had work the next morning. We went into the shot bar, and of course Jake The Door Guy was there. I was cordial towards him, but disinterested. And I'm pretty sure he noticed. And it wasn't like I was doing it on purpose to get his attention either! I just...don't wanna bother getting to know someone if they're only going to disappoint me. If I wasn't interested in him romantically, then getting to know him wouldn't be a big deal. But I know me, and that's never going to happen. So we had a pretty low-key night, just hanging out and stuff. Then we went over to my bar, and ran into Frank, who pretty much attached himself to us, because he has a thing for Melissa. Well, all he did, all night, was talk shit about Nick! And it was really pissing me off, because Nick is a great guy, and a great friend to me. And Frank was making him sound like some dog, who just chases after girls for sex, etc. etc...which is totally not Nick! And when I would defend him, Frank would just say, "You don't know Nick as well as I do! I've known him for 2 years...blablabla..."
"Yea, but you and Nick aren't friends! There's a difference. I actually talk to Nick on the phone, and hang out with him and stuff. And he's not the way you say he is." I protested.
Ugh. I hate it when people bash others, just to make themselves look better. And that's exactly what Frank was doing to try to impress Melissa. He's so transparent...
Anyways, when Melissa and I got back to my car to go home for the night, there was a piece of pizza smeared all over the windshield of my brand new, freshly washed car!!! And I was parked over in the shot bar's parking lot, right next to The Albanian.
"It was Jake!" Melissa exclaimed, "His truck used to be right behind you."
"What an ass!" I said.
"You shoulda put that pizza on his car. Too bad he's gone already," Melissa said, "send him a text."
So I did.
"Thanks for the pizza, I was hungry!" I wrote.
"You're welcome!" he wrote back. An admission?
"You're a douchebag! Putting pizza on peoples' cars..." I wrote.
He didn't respond.
But this morning, I woke up with 2 texts from him. The first one said. "I didn't put pizza on your car." And the second one said, "5:30 in the morning?!?"
I wrote back, "What happened at 5:30 in the morning?"
Jake: You texted me. Or I just got it at 5:30?
Me: You just got it at 5:30. I sent it at like 2:15.
Jake: Oh. What ev! Loser.
Me: I'm not a loser. YOU'RE a loser.
Jake: Nice one.
Me: Lol. I was just trying to level down a bit so you wouldn't feel too intimidated by my dazzling wit.
Jake: True dat.
I didn't respond, but 5 minutes later, he's calling me!
Me: Hello?
Jake: Hey what are you doing?
Me: Um...uploading the pictures from that party at Blinn's the other night. What's up?
Jake: I didn't put pizza on your car! When you sent me that message that said thanks for the pizza, I didn't know what you were talking about, I just said you're welcome.
Me: Haha, yea I thought that was an admission!
Jake: No, it really wasn't me.
Me: Well...I really wish I knew who it was! Cuz it was smeared all over my window, and not many people know I have a new car.
Jake: Well I'm sorry about that. You're lucky it didn't ruin your paint.
We chatted for a bit longer. The whole time I was trying to figure out why he was calling me. He couldn't just be calling to chat, could he? I totally don't get him! He told me he hates his job at the gym, and we talked about what jobs we want and stuff... Then finally his other line was beeping and he said he had to go.
"I'll see you tonight!" he said.
"Ok, bye." I said and hung up.
Hmmm...
Demetri Of The Day:
“I like when good things happen to me, but I wait two weeks to tell anyone because I like to use the word ‘fortnight.’”
Nick and Jake have been kind of hanging out recently. And he knows about my little crush. And the other day while we were closing the bar together, we had a little conversation about him.
Nick: Hey, can I be completely honest with you about something, without you getting mad, or thinking that I'm trying to cock block you or something??
Me: Um...sure...?
Nick: If you're looking for a relationship, or anything serious, Jake isn't your guy. I mean if you just wanna goof off and mess around or whatever, then go for it. But seriously? He's just out to fuck.
Me: What?? How do you know that?
Nick: Because! I've spent a lot of time with him the past few days, and it's just the way he acts, the things he says... Actually, he's been tryin' pretty hard to get into Tina's pants.
Me: TINA!?! Ew! Why do all the guys like her!? I don't get it.
Nick: I dunno...cuz she's cute. But she's got lots of baggage. But guys seem to like crazy girls I guess?
Tina is the girl I used to work with at the last bar. And I really didn't want her to get a job with me, because frankly, I'm not a big fan of hers. And now apparently all the guys like her. (i.e. The Albanian, Jake The Door Guy, and a couple other bartenders) It drives me crazy! She just recently got divorced! And by recently, I mean...I don't even think the papers are finalized yet. And she's only 22! And I know for a fact that she and The Albanian are already sleeping together. ((huff!)) Anyways, so I decided, right then and there, to stop fantasizing about Jake and I, because I'm not going to delude myself.
Friend Boy keeps calling and texting me. He apparently can't seem to take a hint. I mean I feel kinda bad, but I have to cut the cord. Ya know? I'm not gonna lead him on. But it's really starting to get kind of annoying.
Last night, I had off work, so me, Melissa and Amanda went out. In the end it was just me and Melissa though, cuz Amanda went home early since she had work the next morning. We went into the shot bar, and of course Jake The Door Guy was there. I was cordial towards him, but disinterested. And I'm pretty sure he noticed. And it wasn't like I was doing it on purpose to get his attention either! I just...don't wanna bother getting to know someone if they're only going to disappoint me. If I wasn't interested in him romantically, then getting to know him wouldn't be a big deal. But I know me, and that's never going to happen. So we had a pretty low-key night, just hanging out and stuff. Then we went over to my bar, and ran into Frank, who pretty much attached himself to us, because he has a thing for Melissa. Well, all he did, all night, was talk shit about Nick! And it was really pissing me off, because Nick is a great guy, and a great friend to me. And Frank was making him sound like some dog, who just chases after girls for sex, etc. etc...which is totally not Nick! And when I would defend him, Frank would just say, "You don't know Nick as well as I do! I've known him for 2 years...blablabla..."
"Yea, but you and Nick aren't friends! There's a difference. I actually talk to Nick on the phone, and hang out with him and stuff. And he's not the way you say he is." I protested.
Ugh. I hate it when people bash others, just to make themselves look better. And that's exactly what Frank was doing to try to impress Melissa. He's so transparent...
Anyways, when Melissa and I got back to my car to go home for the night, there was a piece of pizza smeared all over the windshield of my brand new, freshly washed car!!! And I was parked over in the shot bar's parking lot, right next to The Albanian.
"It was Jake!" Melissa exclaimed, "His truck used to be right behind you."
"What an ass!" I said.
"You shoulda put that pizza on his car. Too bad he's gone already," Melissa said, "send him a text."
So I did.
"Thanks for the pizza, I was hungry!" I wrote.
"You're welcome!" he wrote back. An admission?
"You're a douchebag! Putting pizza on peoples' cars..." I wrote.
He didn't respond.
But this morning, I woke up with 2 texts from him. The first one said. "I didn't put pizza on your car." And the second one said, "5:30 in the morning?!?"
I wrote back, "What happened at 5:30 in the morning?"
Jake: You texted me. Or I just got it at 5:30?
Me: You just got it at 5:30. I sent it at like 2:15.
Jake: Oh. What ev! Loser.
Me: I'm not a loser. YOU'RE a loser.
Jake: Nice one.
Me: Lol. I was just trying to level down a bit so you wouldn't feel too intimidated by my dazzling wit.
Jake: True dat.
I didn't respond, but 5 minutes later, he's calling me!
Me: Hello?
Jake: Hey what are you doing?
Me: Um...uploading the pictures from that party at Blinn's the other night. What's up?
Jake: I didn't put pizza on your car! When you sent me that message that said thanks for the pizza, I didn't know what you were talking about, I just said you're welcome.
Me: Haha, yea I thought that was an admission!
Jake: No, it really wasn't me.
Me: Well...I really wish I knew who it was! Cuz it was smeared all over my window, and not many people know I have a new car.
Jake: Well I'm sorry about that. You're lucky it didn't ruin your paint.
We chatted for a bit longer. The whole time I was trying to figure out why he was calling me. He couldn't just be calling to chat, could he? I totally don't get him! He told me he hates his job at the gym, and we talked about what jobs we want and stuff... Then finally his other line was beeping and he said he had to go.
"I'll see you tonight!" he said.
"Ok, bye." I said and hung up.
Hmmm...
Demetri Of The Day:
“I like when good things happen to me, but I wait two weeks to tell anyone because I like to use the word ‘fortnight.’”
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Roller Coaster
Thursday night around 7ish, Friend Boy called me.
"Are you ready??" he sounded excited.
"Yep! Should I start heading in your direction?"
"Yea, sounds good. Just give me a call when you're pulling into the gate." he said.
"Ok. Give me at least 30 minutes to get over there, cuz I dunno what traffic's gonna be like."
"Ok. See ya soon!"
And that was that. So I got to his place, and we each had a glass of wine, and chatted while we waited for our cab. He told me I looked pretty, which made me blush profusely. Then our cab finally arrived, and we were off to the city! FB is very outgoing, I noticed. He struck up a conversation with the cab driver on our way, and tipped him generously. The first bar we went into was an Irish pub. There weren't very many people there, but we sat down at the bar, ordered a couple beers and just...talked! We talked about our friends, and family, and the craziness that was last weeked... Then FB got up to go to the bathroom, and Bethany called.
"Hey! Guess what!?" I said.
"What?"
"I'm on a date with a guy you might know!"
"WHAT?? WHO!?" she asked.
I told her his name, remembering that they both went to the same high school.
"Oh my god! That's crazy! I remember him! Well, I don't wanna interrupt your date. Ya'll have fun, and call me tomorrow!" she said.
"Ok, I definitely will!" and we hung up the phone.
When FB came back from the bathroom, we decided to head to the bar across the street, which was another Irish pub. But that's what he had said he wanted to do: go to some pubs.
We ended up sitting at the bar next to a young guy from England. And FB, being so friendly, struck up a conversation with him too! Before long, we were all taking shots, and talking about soccer. Apparently Friend Boy was an avid soccer player for 18 years. Hot...
So I definitely had a buzz going by this point, but I was trying to play it cool, and we were just enjoying ourselves talking. Then around 11, we went to The Flying Saucer, which is famous for its one hundred plus taps. I got my favorite "beer", Lindeman's Framboise. A raspberry flavored Belgian beer, which is served in champagne flute. Then FB asked if I wanted to play some darts. I warned him that I'm horrible, and could possibly impale someone, but he just laughed and said he wanted to teach me. So we went over to the dart boards, and he was explaining to me how to play cricket, and I must have been giggling or something, because he stopped, looked at me, and then just suddenly kissed me!
"Sorry...I just had to do that." he said.
I smiled. And kissed him some more.
So we played a couple rounds of cricket, and I lost, dismally. Lol. But it was still fun.
"You know, if we had been playing shuffleboard, I woulda totally kicked your ass!" I said.
"You like shuffleboard?" he sounded surprised.
"I love it!" I exclaimed.
"Well where can we go that has shuffleboard? Let's find a place!"
So FB asked went to ask the bartender where the nearest bar was with shuffleboard, and we decided to make that our next destination. But as it turns out, we never made it there! As we were driving past Reef, FB mentioned he liked that place.
"Really? I know one of the bartenders, we should go!" I said.
So the cab dropped us off there instead. But when we got inside, there wasn't a person in sight! So we took shots, and decided to walk a couple blocks over by where my work is, and a few other bars. We talked while we walked, and it was pleasantly cool outside. We we got to my work, I decided we should go in there, since I was drunk. Lol. I hadn't been inside that building since Blinn suspended me, but I figured since Mr. S. called me, it wouldn't be a bad idea to make an appearance. It was already 1 am anyways. So we went inside, and Mr. S. gave me a hug, and Blinn gave me a high five, and Nick yelled, "Olive juice!" Haha. We had some more shots, and this is where things start to get fuzzy. I know we stayed there till close, and then took another cab back to his place. Then we made out a lot, until we passed out. At one point, things started to go too far, and I had to stop him. Because I definitely wasn't gonna sleep with him when we were both hammered.
Friday morning, FB woke up at 7 am! Neither of us knows why, but since we were up, we talked some more, and kissed some more...and I just couldn't stop myself this time. He was just so...amazing! And I wanted more of him! And it was great. Almost a relief actually. Then we slept for another couple of hours, woke up, and did it again! Haha.
On a side note, Charlotte sent him a text first thing in the morning that said something along the lines of, "Hope you have a great day today!" What the hell?? Is she seriously trying to get with him, now that he and I are...whatever we are! Ugh... Well back to the story...
"I'm gonna make you a badass breakfast!" he said, "With eggs, and green peppers, and tomatoes, and onions, and bacon..."
"Wow...I am pretty hungry." I said.
And he totally brought me breakfast in bed! And he even cut up fresh pineapple slices! It was delicious. Absolutely hit the spot. We lounged around in bed, and cuddled and watched TV for a while longer. Then around 2:30, I got up to leave. He made a pouty face.
"I wish I could stay longer, but my friend's birthday celebration thing is tonight. And I should probably make an appearance at home before I head over to her place."
"Oh, what are you guys gonna do tonight?" he asked.
"I'm not sure exactly yet. I know we're going to dinner, and then we'll be out in midtown. I just don't know where yet cuz Cecilia hasn't told me what she wants to do."
"Well, you should give me a call when you find out, and maybe we can meet up later. Cuz I'm gonna be out with the boys for sure."
"That sounds great! You guys should totally come hang out with us." I said.
"Ok, yea. Just let me know." he said.
Then he walked me to the parking garage, and gave me kiss goodbye.
"I had a great time last night." he said between kisses.
"Me too." I smiled and kissed him again.
Then we said our goodbyes and I got in the elevator. ((swoon))
I called Melissa on my drive home to dish. Then I called Bethany. Lol.
Then Evan called and asked if I wanted to go eat sushi with him. And since I was starving, I readily agreed. So I went home, got all my stuff together, and a few shirts for Cecilia to chose from, and headed to the restaurant to meet Evan. The sushi was excellent, and Evan and I talked about our dates. He had one on Thursday night too, but apparently his didn't go as well. It turned out his "date" already had a boyfriend! Lol. I called FB around 6:30 to tell him what our plans were, but he didn't answer. So I hung up and sent him a text that said: Hey, our plans are to meet at El Patio at 9 and then head over to Rocbar. So hopefully I'll se you! Give me a call if you wanna meet up.
After sushi, I went over to Cecilia's to get ready. We goofed off as we fixed our hair and put on makeup. She tried on like 8 shirts, and finally decided on one of her own. Then after some running around to pick up Cecilia's friends, we finally headed out to midtown! By this time, I was starting to fret about FB because I had never heard anything back from him! My first reaction in these situations is always to freak out, and overanalyze everything. Like, is he ignoring me? Does he not like me anymore? I shouldn't have slept with him! He thinks I'm a slut! Maybe he was only after sex! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
Cecilia told me to chill out and stop worrying about it, but I just couldn't. My mind was somewhere else all night. ((sigh)) I called Melissa while I was in the car, and she said that FB had called one of his guy friends, and that they were going to Rocbar. So why didn't he text me back?? Ugh...
We had some excellent blue margaritas at El Patio. Alyssa and her boyfriend, and Jenna and one of her guy friends met up with us there. Then we all headed over to Rocbar. As soon as I walked in the door, I couldn't stop looking for him. I wasn't even intentionally doing it! I just wanted to know if he was there. But he wasn't...
Alyssa and Cecilia were wasted by midnight. Lol. But I was still distracted about FB. I texted Melissa and asked where they were, and she said they were at the shot bar. "Is FB with you?" I text back, but never got a response.
At 1 am, we all went over to my bar, because Cecilia had never been there and wanted to check it out. When I got to the front door, sexy Mr. P. was standing there, and he gave me a funny smirk.
"Sooo how did that work out for you last night??" he asked sarcastically.
"Uh...great." I said, not really sure what he meant...exactly.
"Where is he?" he asked.
"I don't know!" I said.
"Oh, he didn't call?" Mr. P. grinned sardonically.
"What?! I'm not having this conversation with you!" I spluttered.
Mr. P. laughed, "Well maybe we should have a chat about that later." he joked.
I grabbed Cecilia and we went inside. I made a beeline for Nick to ask him what the hell Mr. P. was talking about. Nick busted out laughing.
"Dude, you and that guy were like...making out in front of everybody last night!"
OHHHH NOOOOOOOO.
"WHAT!? Omg, seriously!? That's so embarrassing..."
Nick laughed again, "Yea, everybody was watching."
"Great. That's the last time I bring a date in here! I'm never gonna hear the end of this!" I wailed.
My night just seemed to be getting worse. Bethany was working, and I told her about FB not calling.
"I'm seriously gonna be devastated if he's blowing me off." I said.
"Well...I wouldn't worry about it yet. I mean you saw him this morning. If he doesn't call you within 3 days, then it's off. But give him 3 days." she said.
I sighed. I hate waiting!
"What time are you going to the party on Sunday?" I asked, changing the subject.
"I think we're gonna try to leave around 4:30. Do you wanna ride with us?" she asked.
"Yea that would be great! Cuz I have no idea where this place is."
"Ok, just meet at my house around 4."
"Ok, I'm excited!" I said.
The lights were already on, and everyone was leaving at this point, so Cecilia gave me a hug, and she and Rob (her husband) left together, followed by Alyssa and her boyfriend. So I went outside (in the freeeezing cold! I left my coat in the car so I wouldn't have to carry it) to start walking to my car.
Then John approached. "Do you need me to drive you home?" he asked, halfway joking.
"No, not today! I'll be ok." I laughed.
"Well do you want me to walk you to your car?" he persisted.
"You don't have to," I said, "I mean...aren't you still technically working?"
"Yea, but this is part of my job." he assured me.
"Ok. Well let's walk fast, cuz I'm freezing!"
"Well here, take my coat." he took it off and put it around my shoulders.
"Thanks." I said.
When we got to my car, I offered to drive him back to work, and he accepted. As soon as I turned on the car, Gillet Of 20 Fingers' "Does anybody wanna have sex tonight?" started blaring on the stereo.
"Uh..." I laughed, embarassed. "Yea...Cecilia left her CDs in my car."
"Nice." he said.
The drive took about 2 minutes, so there wasn't much more talking. He thanked me for the ride, and then I left. I had been hoping to spend the night at FB's again, so it was pretty disappointing to drive all the way home.
((sigh)) I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow, but when I woke up this morning, all my feelings of anxiety, and worry came rushing back ten-fold.
I still haven't heard from Friend Boy. Melissa said he was out with them at the shot bar last night, but I never got her text. She also told me that Charlotte and 2 of her friends spent the night at his place last night. Which, isn't exactly unusual considering they crashed there last week. And I'm not really threatened by Charlotte, because honestly, she's short and chubby, and I know he's not into her. But...what if this means he's not into me??
I mean, we had such a great time Thursday night, and I really really like him. It's scary. I hate putting myself out there, because this always seems to happen to me. I mean I know it may be too early to tell yet but...I just have this feeling. And he and I had talked about going back to Drake again tonight, and now...I just don't know.
((Sigh))
What do I do?? What do I think???
Demetri Of The Day:
"I like to do crafts. I work quite a bit with glitter, but don’t worry I make tough stuff, like daggers and skulls. The thing about glitter is, if you get it on you, prepare to have it on you forever, because glitter doesn’t go away. Glitter is the herpes of craft supplies. It’s like, 'Oh great, here comes the sun; flare up!'"
"Are you ready??" he sounded excited.
"Yep! Should I start heading in your direction?"
"Yea, sounds good. Just give me a call when you're pulling into the gate." he said.
"Ok. Give me at least 30 minutes to get over there, cuz I dunno what traffic's gonna be like."
"Ok. See ya soon!"
And that was that. So I got to his place, and we each had a glass of wine, and chatted while we waited for our cab. He told me I looked pretty, which made me blush profusely. Then our cab finally arrived, and we were off to the city! FB is very outgoing, I noticed. He struck up a conversation with the cab driver on our way, and tipped him generously. The first bar we went into was an Irish pub. There weren't very many people there, but we sat down at the bar, ordered a couple beers and just...talked! We talked about our friends, and family, and the craziness that was last weeked... Then FB got up to go to the bathroom, and Bethany called.
"Hey! Guess what!?" I said.
"What?"
"I'm on a date with a guy you might know!"
"WHAT?? WHO!?" she asked.
I told her his name, remembering that they both went to the same high school.
"Oh my god! That's crazy! I remember him! Well, I don't wanna interrupt your date. Ya'll have fun, and call me tomorrow!" she said.
"Ok, I definitely will!" and we hung up the phone.
When FB came back from the bathroom, we decided to head to the bar across the street, which was another Irish pub. But that's what he had said he wanted to do: go to some pubs.
We ended up sitting at the bar next to a young guy from England. And FB, being so friendly, struck up a conversation with him too! Before long, we were all taking shots, and talking about soccer. Apparently Friend Boy was an avid soccer player for 18 years. Hot...
So I definitely had a buzz going by this point, but I was trying to play it cool, and we were just enjoying ourselves talking. Then around 11, we went to The Flying Saucer, which is famous for its one hundred plus taps. I got my favorite "beer", Lindeman's Framboise. A raspberry flavored Belgian beer, which is served in champagne flute. Then FB asked if I wanted to play some darts. I warned him that I'm horrible, and could possibly impale someone, but he just laughed and said he wanted to teach me. So we went over to the dart boards, and he was explaining to me how to play cricket, and I must have been giggling or something, because he stopped, looked at me, and then just suddenly kissed me!
"Sorry...I just had to do that." he said.
I smiled. And kissed him some more.
So we played a couple rounds of cricket, and I lost, dismally. Lol. But it was still fun.
"You know, if we had been playing shuffleboard, I woulda totally kicked your ass!" I said.
"You like shuffleboard?" he sounded surprised.
"I love it!" I exclaimed.
"Well where can we go that has shuffleboard? Let's find a place!"
So FB asked went to ask the bartender where the nearest bar was with shuffleboard, and we decided to make that our next destination. But as it turns out, we never made it there! As we were driving past Reef, FB mentioned he liked that place.
"Really? I know one of the bartenders, we should go!" I said.
So the cab dropped us off there instead. But when we got inside, there wasn't a person in sight! So we took shots, and decided to walk a couple blocks over by where my work is, and a few other bars. We talked while we walked, and it was pleasantly cool outside. We we got to my work, I decided we should go in there, since I was drunk. Lol. I hadn't been inside that building since Blinn suspended me, but I figured since Mr. S. called me, it wouldn't be a bad idea to make an appearance. It was already 1 am anyways. So we went inside, and Mr. S. gave me a hug, and Blinn gave me a high five, and Nick yelled, "Olive juice!" Haha. We had some more shots, and this is where things start to get fuzzy. I know we stayed there till close, and then took another cab back to his place. Then we made out a lot, until we passed out. At one point, things started to go too far, and I had to stop him. Because I definitely wasn't gonna sleep with him when we were both hammered.
Friday morning, FB woke up at 7 am! Neither of us knows why, but since we were up, we talked some more, and kissed some more...and I just couldn't stop myself this time. He was just so...amazing! And I wanted more of him! And it was great. Almost a relief actually. Then we slept for another couple of hours, woke up, and did it again! Haha.
On a side note, Charlotte sent him a text first thing in the morning that said something along the lines of, "Hope you have a great day today!" What the hell?? Is she seriously trying to get with him, now that he and I are...whatever we are! Ugh... Well back to the story...
"I'm gonna make you a badass breakfast!" he said, "With eggs, and green peppers, and tomatoes, and onions, and bacon..."
"Wow...I am pretty hungry." I said.
And he totally brought me breakfast in bed! And he even cut up fresh pineapple slices! It was delicious. Absolutely hit the spot. We lounged around in bed, and cuddled and watched TV for a while longer. Then around 2:30, I got up to leave. He made a pouty face.
"I wish I could stay longer, but my friend's birthday celebration thing is tonight. And I should probably make an appearance at home before I head over to her place."
"Oh, what are you guys gonna do tonight?" he asked.
"I'm not sure exactly yet. I know we're going to dinner, and then we'll be out in midtown. I just don't know where yet cuz Cecilia hasn't told me what she wants to do."
"Well, you should give me a call when you find out, and maybe we can meet up later. Cuz I'm gonna be out with the boys for sure."
"That sounds great! You guys should totally come hang out with us." I said.
"Ok, yea. Just let me know." he said.
Then he walked me to the parking garage, and gave me kiss goodbye.
"I had a great time last night." he said between kisses.
"Me too." I smiled and kissed him again.
Then we said our goodbyes and I got in the elevator. ((swoon))
I called Melissa on my drive home to dish. Then I called Bethany. Lol.
Then Evan called and asked if I wanted to go eat sushi with him. And since I was starving, I readily agreed. So I went home, got all my stuff together, and a few shirts for Cecilia to chose from, and headed to the restaurant to meet Evan. The sushi was excellent, and Evan and I talked about our dates. He had one on Thursday night too, but apparently his didn't go as well. It turned out his "date" already had a boyfriend! Lol. I called FB around 6:30 to tell him what our plans were, but he didn't answer. So I hung up and sent him a text that said: Hey, our plans are to meet at El Patio at 9 and then head over to Rocbar. So hopefully I'll se you! Give me a call if you wanna meet up.
After sushi, I went over to Cecilia's to get ready. We goofed off as we fixed our hair and put on makeup. She tried on like 8 shirts, and finally decided on one of her own. Then after some running around to pick up Cecilia's friends, we finally headed out to midtown! By this time, I was starting to fret about FB because I had never heard anything back from him! My first reaction in these situations is always to freak out, and overanalyze everything. Like, is he ignoring me? Does he not like me anymore? I shouldn't have slept with him! He thinks I'm a slut! Maybe he was only after sex! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
Cecilia told me to chill out and stop worrying about it, but I just couldn't. My mind was somewhere else all night. ((sigh)) I called Melissa while I was in the car, and she said that FB had called one of his guy friends, and that they were going to Rocbar. So why didn't he text me back?? Ugh...
We had some excellent blue margaritas at El Patio. Alyssa and her boyfriend, and Jenna and one of her guy friends met up with us there. Then we all headed over to Rocbar. As soon as I walked in the door, I couldn't stop looking for him. I wasn't even intentionally doing it! I just wanted to know if he was there. But he wasn't...
Alyssa and Cecilia were wasted by midnight. Lol. But I was still distracted about FB. I texted Melissa and asked where they were, and she said they were at the shot bar. "Is FB with you?" I text back, but never got a response.
At 1 am, we all went over to my bar, because Cecilia had never been there and wanted to check it out. When I got to the front door, sexy Mr. P. was standing there, and he gave me a funny smirk.
"Sooo how did that work out for you last night??" he asked sarcastically.
"Uh...great." I said, not really sure what he meant...exactly.
"Where is he?" he asked.
"I don't know!" I said.
"Oh, he didn't call?" Mr. P. grinned sardonically.
"What?! I'm not having this conversation with you!" I spluttered.
Mr. P. laughed, "Well maybe we should have a chat about that later." he joked.
I grabbed Cecilia and we went inside. I made a beeline for Nick to ask him what the hell Mr. P. was talking about. Nick busted out laughing.
"Dude, you and that guy were like...making out in front of everybody last night!"
OHHHH NOOOOOOOO.
"WHAT!? Omg, seriously!? That's so embarrassing..."
Nick laughed again, "Yea, everybody was watching."
"Great. That's the last time I bring a date in here! I'm never gonna hear the end of this!" I wailed.
My night just seemed to be getting worse. Bethany was working, and I told her about FB not calling.
"I'm seriously gonna be devastated if he's blowing me off." I said.
"Well...I wouldn't worry about it yet. I mean you saw him this morning. If he doesn't call you within 3 days, then it's off. But give him 3 days." she said.
I sighed. I hate waiting!
"What time are you going to the party on Sunday?" I asked, changing the subject.
"I think we're gonna try to leave around 4:30. Do you wanna ride with us?" she asked.
"Yea that would be great! Cuz I have no idea where this place is."
"Ok, just meet at my house around 4."
"Ok, I'm excited!" I said.
The lights were already on, and everyone was leaving at this point, so Cecilia gave me a hug, and she and Rob (her husband) left together, followed by Alyssa and her boyfriend. So I went outside (in the freeeezing cold! I left my coat in the car so I wouldn't have to carry it) to start walking to my car.
Then John approached. "Do you need me to drive you home?" he asked, halfway joking.
"No, not today! I'll be ok." I laughed.
"Well do you want me to walk you to your car?" he persisted.
"You don't have to," I said, "I mean...aren't you still technically working?"
"Yea, but this is part of my job." he assured me.
"Ok. Well let's walk fast, cuz I'm freezing!"
"Well here, take my coat." he took it off and put it around my shoulders.
"Thanks." I said.
When we got to my car, I offered to drive him back to work, and he accepted. As soon as I turned on the car, Gillet Of 20 Fingers' "Does anybody wanna have sex tonight?" started blaring on the stereo.
"Uh..." I laughed, embarassed. "Yea...Cecilia left her CDs in my car."
"Nice." he said.
The drive took about 2 minutes, so there wasn't much more talking. He thanked me for the ride, and then I left. I had been hoping to spend the night at FB's again, so it was pretty disappointing to drive all the way home.
((sigh)) I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow, but when I woke up this morning, all my feelings of anxiety, and worry came rushing back ten-fold.
I still haven't heard from Friend Boy. Melissa said he was out with them at the shot bar last night, but I never got her text. She also told me that Charlotte and 2 of her friends spent the night at his place last night. Which, isn't exactly unusual considering they crashed there last week. And I'm not really threatened by Charlotte, because honestly, she's short and chubby, and I know he's not into her. But...what if this means he's not into me??
I mean, we had such a great time Thursday night, and I really really like him. It's scary. I hate putting myself out there, because this always seems to happen to me. I mean I know it may be too early to tell yet but...I just have this feeling. And he and I had talked about going back to Drake again tonight, and now...I just don't know.
((Sigh))
What do I do?? What do I think???
Demetri Of The Day:
"I like to do crafts. I work quite a bit with glitter, but don’t worry I make tough stuff, like daggers and skulls. The thing about glitter is, if you get it on you, prepare to have it on you forever, because glitter doesn’t go away. Glitter is the herpes of craft supplies. It’s like, 'Oh great, here comes the sun; flare up!'"
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Downhill
Today went downhill.
I had to get up super early to feed my horse, and it was all cold and rainy. Then I had to run some errands after that and by the time I got home, I had to go back to the barn again because the farrier was coming. Well there happens to be this really despicable woman named Kim, who keeps her 2 horses in the stalls across from mine. And she was there for the farrier too apparently. Well I already had Details out and waiting in the aisle, and I had washed his legs because they were all muddy from being out in the pasture, and I didn’t want Ricky (the farrier) to get mud all over his pants. Well, Ricky was about 15 minutes late, but as soon as he pulled up I went to greet him. Then as he was getting his stuff out, I grabbed Details from his stall so I could tie him up for Ricky. But the stupid fat woman had purposely led her horse out first and literally cut in front of me! Ugh. I figured I’d let that one slide, so I walked him out to graze while we waited. Then as soon as he finished, I led him up to get trimmed and Kim goes,
“Um, excuse me! My horses are first, and I have another one so you’re just gonna have to wait.”
And she said it so rudely, that even Ricky looked at me with wide eyes.
“Well, I have a class tonight-” I started to say before I was interrupted.
“Well I’m glad for you, but I have a sick husband at home.” She snapped.
I pointedly rolled my eyes and sighed.
“Thanks for understanding.” I said sarcastically.
WHAT A BITCH! I mean what the hell does this lady have against me anyways?! The whole time her second horse was getting his feet trimmed, I just kept thinking of all the things I wanted to say to her, and how much I wanted to strangle her till her eyes popped out of her fat frizzy head!
But I never got my chance to say anything to her, because she left too quickly. And I was all worked up to it and everything! I’m a pretty confrontational person, and rarely do people speak to me that way and get off the hook. I like to defend myself. Especially when it catches people off guard. But since I never got the chance to get it off my chest, I left still feeling angry and frustrated. Then I was almost late for photography class cuz of that stupid bitch. UH!!
And all day I kept hoping Friend Boy would call, but he didn’t. :(
And now I’m worried that maybe he’s not interested in me! But I dunno, I might just be overreacting. Melissa says I’m being negative, but I like to think of it as being realistic! Preparing myself for disappointment. ((sigh))
Why do guys always have to make us wait?? But I refuse to call him. Or text him. I just won’t! I’m trying to play the game with strategy this time, because this is a guy I could actually see myself with, and I don’t wanna screw it up by appearing desperate.
Anyways, as soon as I got home from class, I realized I'd left my new coat sitting on the back of the chair! As if things couldn't get any worse...
Then Alyssa texted me. She just found out about my suspension. So apparently everyone at work thinks I’m stealing shit. And that just doesn’t sit well with me. I am not that person!! And I don’t want to be perceived that way!
So I called Nick. And I told him I’m really thinking about quitting. He whined, and said, “NOOOOOOOOOO! You can’t quit! Olive juice!”
Olive juice means 'I love you' in Nick language. Lol. It’s kind of an inside joke between the 2 of us. He said he thinks they might lift my suspension early, and he’s gonna check my schedule for me on Wednesday. Then he asked me if I was going to the employee party on Sunday.
“NO! Of course not!” I said, “That would just be too weird. And it really sucks too, cuz I was really looking forward to it.”
“NOOOOOOOOO!! You HAVE to go!” he begged, “Come on, I know it might be a little awkward, but…who cares?!”
“A little awkward is definitely an understatement. I’m not going.”
Nick sighed, “What if they put you back on the schedule??”
“Well, unless they put me back on, or unless I hear something from one of the managers before then, I’m not going. And I’ve already e-mailed Mr. P. I’ve said my bit. I’m done. They have to call me for me to go to that party.”
Nick seemed genuinely disappointed that I’m not going. AS AM I! I’ve been looking forward to that party since November. Seriously. ((sigh)) But I can’t just show up at that party. No way! I don’t even wanna show my face in the bar! And that for sure puts a kink in me and Alyssa’s plans for Cecilia’s late 21st birthday bash. Oh well. We’ll just go somewhere else.
I really hope Friend Boy calls me tomorrow. Cuz I sure could do with some cheering up after this taxing day.
Demetri Of The Day:
“I think vests are all about protection. You know what I mean? Like a lifevest protects you from drowning, and bulletproof vests protect you from getting shot, and the sweatervest protects you from pretty girls. ‘Leave me alone. Can’t you see I’m cold just right here?’”
I had to get up super early to feed my horse, and it was all cold and rainy. Then I had to run some errands after that and by the time I got home, I had to go back to the barn again because the farrier was coming. Well there happens to be this really despicable woman named Kim, who keeps her 2 horses in the stalls across from mine. And she was there for the farrier too apparently. Well I already had Details out and waiting in the aisle, and I had washed his legs because they were all muddy from being out in the pasture, and I didn’t want Ricky (the farrier) to get mud all over his pants. Well, Ricky was about 15 minutes late, but as soon as he pulled up I went to greet him. Then as he was getting his stuff out, I grabbed Details from his stall so I could tie him up for Ricky. But the stupid fat woman had purposely led her horse out first and literally cut in front of me! Ugh. I figured I’d let that one slide, so I walked him out to graze while we waited. Then as soon as he finished, I led him up to get trimmed and Kim goes,
“Um, excuse me! My horses are first, and I have another one so you’re just gonna have to wait.”
And she said it so rudely, that even Ricky looked at me with wide eyes.
“Well, I have a class tonight-” I started to say before I was interrupted.
“Well I’m glad for you, but I have a sick husband at home.” She snapped.
I pointedly rolled my eyes and sighed.
“Thanks for understanding.” I said sarcastically.
WHAT A BITCH! I mean what the hell does this lady have against me anyways?! The whole time her second horse was getting his feet trimmed, I just kept thinking of all the things I wanted to say to her, and how much I wanted to strangle her till her eyes popped out of her fat frizzy head!
But I never got my chance to say anything to her, because she left too quickly. And I was all worked up to it and everything! I’m a pretty confrontational person, and rarely do people speak to me that way and get off the hook. I like to defend myself. Especially when it catches people off guard. But since I never got the chance to get it off my chest, I left still feeling angry and frustrated. Then I was almost late for photography class cuz of that stupid bitch. UH!!
And all day I kept hoping Friend Boy would call, but he didn’t. :(
And now I’m worried that maybe he’s not interested in me! But I dunno, I might just be overreacting. Melissa says I’m being negative, but I like to think of it as being realistic! Preparing myself for disappointment. ((sigh))
Why do guys always have to make us wait?? But I refuse to call him. Or text him. I just won’t! I’m trying to play the game with strategy this time, because this is a guy I could actually see myself with, and I don’t wanna screw it up by appearing desperate.
Anyways, as soon as I got home from class, I realized I'd left my new coat sitting on the back of the chair! As if things couldn't get any worse...
Then Alyssa texted me. She just found out about my suspension. So apparently everyone at work thinks I’m stealing shit. And that just doesn’t sit well with me. I am not that person!! And I don’t want to be perceived that way!
So I called Nick. And I told him I’m really thinking about quitting. He whined, and said, “NOOOOOOOOOO! You can’t quit! Olive juice!”
Olive juice means 'I love you' in Nick language. Lol. It’s kind of an inside joke between the 2 of us. He said he thinks they might lift my suspension early, and he’s gonna check my schedule for me on Wednesday. Then he asked me if I was going to the employee party on Sunday.
“NO! Of course not!” I said, “That would just be too weird. And it really sucks too, cuz I was really looking forward to it.”
“NOOOOOOOOO!! You HAVE to go!” he begged, “Come on, I know it might be a little awkward, but…who cares?!”
“A little awkward is definitely an understatement. I’m not going.”
Nick sighed, “What if they put you back on the schedule??”
“Well, unless they put me back on, or unless I hear something from one of the managers before then, I’m not going. And I’ve already e-mailed Mr. P. I’ve said my bit. I’m done. They have to call me for me to go to that party.”
Nick seemed genuinely disappointed that I’m not going. AS AM I! I’ve been looking forward to that party since November. Seriously. ((sigh)) But I can’t just show up at that party. No way! I don’t even wanna show my face in the bar! And that for sure puts a kink in me and Alyssa’s plans for Cecilia’s late 21st birthday bash. Oh well. We’ll just go somewhere else.
I really hope Friend Boy calls me tomorrow. Cuz I sure could do with some cheering up after this taxing day.
Demetri Of The Day:
“I think vests are all about protection. You know what I mean? Like a lifevest protects you from drowning, and bulletproof vests protect you from getting shot, and the sweatervest protects you from pretty girls. ‘Leave me alone. Can’t you see I’m cold just right here?’”
Sunday, January 6, 2008
The Accident
Ok I just got home from work, and I have to write about this now because by morning, the details will be fuzzy!
Well first, let me start off by saying, the photoshoot this morning went great! I got a lot of really awesome shots, and I know we'll both be happy with them. It was fun too!
Ok, now before I can get to the real story, I have to tell you guys what happened last night. I was in a pretty good mood at work, just doing my thing and having a good time. And in pops The Model. Of course. He always has to show up and ruin my night!! Well, he and his friend ordered a round of drinks, and when they came back for round 2, I said, "Do you guys want shots?" And I gestured as if to take a shot, because I was trying to talk to them over a loud crowd, and usually body language helps. But The Model shook his head and made a face.
"Oh come on!" I teased him, "Don't be a wimp!"
The Model shook his head, "You're a lush!" he said with a huge stupid grin on his face.
"What?!" I said. It took me a second to actually understand him.
"You're a lush!" He repeated. At first, I just thought he meant because I take shots with my favorite customers, as do all the other bartenders. But then I realized what he was really implying, and it started to piss me off.
"If I'm a lush, then you're a lush!" I retorted.
But he just shook his head as if to say "no way".
"It's not like I was trying to get you to buy me a shot!" I clarified. He never got a chance to respond because I got called away. But the more I thought about what he said, the madder I got. Where does he come off saying that to me!? I mean how many times have I hooked him up with free drinks?! What the hell do I need him to buy me shit for?! I work there! If I really wanted to get fucked up on the job, it wouldn't be that hard. Oh, I was so mad!
"He's an asshole, I don't know why you even still talk to the guy." Nick said after I vented to him about what happened.
"Well...I don't know either! But I can't help myself!"
Later, The Model's friend came back and said anytime I wanted a shot, he'd take one with me.
"Well, I was offering to buy you guys a shot, not suggesting you buy me one. Why does (The Model) have to be a dick about it??"
"I dunno...because he's Princess [insert The Model's name here]!" he answered.
I laughed, "Wow, I think I might actually use that one."
Ugh. So I was pissed about that for most of the rest of the night, until he left.
Then tonight at work, everything was going along like usual, except that I was keeping my eyes peeled for The Model. But he never showed, thank God. Anyways, John came in around 1 am, totally obliviated! I mean really...he was so drunk. However, I didn't realize this right off the bat, because he puts on a pretty good front. But when I went to go talk to him, I teasingly gave him a push on the shoulder, and he fell over backwards and hit his head on a stool!!! Mr. S. had to call the paramedics because his head was bleeding everywhere! It was terrible! For about 15 minutes, I felt so horrible... I mean I thought I'd killed John! The look on his face when we helped him up and Mr. S. dragged him into the back room... It wasn't good. And I just had to go back behind the bar and keep working! But I couldn't concentrate on anything else, and I was so worried about him, and I just felt so bad! Finally we turned on the lights for last call, and I ran into the back to see how he was doing. He was sitting on an empty beer keg with a rag and a bag of ice on his head. He has kind of long hair, so I bent over and lifted up his hair.
"John...?? I'm sooooo so so so sorry! Please forgive me! I didn't mean to knock you over! Are you ok???" I asked.
He looked up at me with a sheepish, drunken grin.
"Don't worry about it..." he said.
"Well...is there anything I can do for you? Do you need some water? I'll go get you some water." I immediately ran out and got him an Ozarka.
He was standing up when I got back.
"I'm so sorry John!" I hugged him. He kinda laughed.
"It's ok...really. I'm fine." he slurred.
"Well I owe you big! I'll buy you a steak dinner! Anything you want!"
"All you have to do...is watch the Harry Potter movies with me." he said deliriously.
"What? OK! Sure! We can watch all 5 of them! I'll give you all 5 of them!"
"No, you don't have to give me them. Just me and you. Watch them." he said. He clearly had stars in his eyes.
"Ok John. No problem." I felt a little better when I walked back to the bar. If he felt well enough to flirt with me, then he would eventually be fine. I offered to drive him home, since clearly he was in no shape to drive. Gavin and I went and picked up his car and put it in the parking lot. Then he and I helped John into the car.
"Call me if you get lost. I know how to get to his house." Gavin said, "You have my number, right?"
"Yea. I'll definitely give you a call if he passes out again." I said.
So I drove John home. It was a little strange under the circumstances. I tried to keep him talking so that he wouldn't pass out. He has a habit of doing that even when he hasn't hurt his head. When we got to his driveway I asked him if he needed help into the house.
"Sure, if you want." he said.
"Um...ok I'll help you." I felt responsible for him! And the last thing I wanted was for him to get all the way home, and then trip out my car door and crack his head on the curb!
So we got out of the car, and he seemed to be fine on his own, but he put his arm around me anyway. Then he started skipping. Yea! Skipping!
"Ok John, I guess you'll be fine on your own then. Just make sure you turn on the lights when you get inside so you don't trip." I teased.
"Do you have to work tomorrow?" he asked.
"Nope!"
"Well then do you wanna hang out a while?"
I sighed. "Not tonight. I can't cuz my parents are out of town, and I gotta feed all the animals and stuff."
"Ok, well goodnight Peyton."
"Goodnight John."
I wasn't lying about the parents being gone thing. They left for Florida yesterday. But as I drove off I started second guessing myself. Maybe I should have stayed? I dunno... I mean, I do like John, and he's a nice, smart guy (who tends to drink a little too much every once in a while, but who doesn't?) and he has a lot going for him. He's a good guy. But...he's not the guy for me. And I'm tired of wasting my time. And why should I waste his? Maybe I'm thinking too long term but, hey. What would be the point? I already know it wouldn't work out. Plus, I still get butterflies when I talk to Gavin. Especially today in the car. He gives really good hugs. ((blush))
Well...that's my story!
And I still have to watch 5 movies with John.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I don't like grouper fish. Well, they're okay. They hang around star fish. Because they're grouper fish."
Well first, let me start off by saying, the photoshoot this morning went great! I got a lot of really awesome shots, and I know we'll both be happy with them. It was fun too!
Ok, now before I can get to the real story, I have to tell you guys what happened last night. I was in a pretty good mood at work, just doing my thing and having a good time. And in pops The Model. Of course. He always has to show up and ruin my night!! Well, he and his friend ordered a round of drinks, and when they came back for round 2, I said, "Do you guys want shots?" And I gestured as if to take a shot, because I was trying to talk to them over a loud crowd, and usually body language helps. But The Model shook his head and made a face.
"Oh come on!" I teased him, "Don't be a wimp!"
The Model shook his head, "You're a lush!" he said with a huge stupid grin on his face.
"What?!" I said. It took me a second to actually understand him.
"You're a lush!" He repeated. At first, I just thought he meant because I take shots with my favorite customers, as do all the other bartenders. But then I realized what he was really implying, and it started to piss me off.
"If I'm a lush, then you're a lush!" I retorted.
But he just shook his head as if to say "no way".
"It's not like I was trying to get you to buy me a shot!" I clarified. He never got a chance to respond because I got called away. But the more I thought about what he said, the madder I got. Where does he come off saying that to me!? I mean how many times have I hooked him up with free drinks?! What the hell do I need him to buy me shit for?! I work there! If I really wanted to get fucked up on the job, it wouldn't be that hard. Oh, I was so mad!
"He's an asshole, I don't know why you even still talk to the guy." Nick said after I vented to him about what happened.
"Well...I don't know either! But I can't help myself!"
Later, The Model's friend came back and said anytime I wanted a shot, he'd take one with me.
"Well, I was offering to buy you guys a shot, not suggesting you buy me one. Why does (The Model) have to be a dick about it??"
"I dunno...because he's Princess [insert The Model's name here]!" he answered.
I laughed, "Wow, I think I might actually use that one."
Ugh. So I was pissed about that for most of the rest of the night, until he left.
Then tonight at work, everything was going along like usual, except that I was keeping my eyes peeled for The Model. But he never showed, thank God. Anyways, John came in around 1 am, totally obliviated! I mean really...he was so drunk. However, I didn't realize this right off the bat, because he puts on a pretty good front. But when I went to go talk to him, I teasingly gave him a push on the shoulder, and he fell over backwards and hit his head on a stool!!! Mr. S. had to call the paramedics because his head was bleeding everywhere! It was terrible! For about 15 minutes, I felt so horrible... I mean I thought I'd killed John! The look on his face when we helped him up and Mr. S. dragged him into the back room... It wasn't good. And I just had to go back behind the bar and keep working! But I couldn't concentrate on anything else, and I was so worried about him, and I just felt so bad! Finally we turned on the lights for last call, and I ran into the back to see how he was doing. He was sitting on an empty beer keg with a rag and a bag of ice on his head. He has kind of long hair, so I bent over and lifted up his hair.
"John...?? I'm sooooo so so so sorry! Please forgive me! I didn't mean to knock you over! Are you ok???" I asked.
He looked up at me with a sheepish, drunken grin.
"Don't worry about it..." he said.
"Well...is there anything I can do for you? Do you need some water? I'll go get you some water." I immediately ran out and got him an Ozarka.
He was standing up when I got back.
"I'm so sorry John!" I hugged him. He kinda laughed.
"It's ok...really. I'm fine." he slurred.
"Well I owe you big! I'll buy you a steak dinner! Anything you want!"
"All you have to do...is watch the Harry Potter movies with me." he said deliriously.
"What? OK! Sure! We can watch all 5 of them! I'll give you all 5 of them!"
"No, you don't have to give me them. Just me and you. Watch them." he said. He clearly had stars in his eyes.
"Ok John. No problem." I felt a little better when I walked back to the bar. If he felt well enough to flirt with me, then he would eventually be fine. I offered to drive him home, since clearly he was in no shape to drive. Gavin and I went and picked up his car and put it in the parking lot. Then he and I helped John into the car.
"Call me if you get lost. I know how to get to his house." Gavin said, "You have my number, right?"
"Yea. I'll definitely give you a call if he passes out again." I said.
So I drove John home. It was a little strange under the circumstances. I tried to keep him talking so that he wouldn't pass out. He has a habit of doing that even when he hasn't hurt his head. When we got to his driveway I asked him if he needed help into the house.
"Sure, if you want." he said.
"Um...ok I'll help you." I felt responsible for him! And the last thing I wanted was for him to get all the way home, and then trip out my car door and crack his head on the curb!
So we got out of the car, and he seemed to be fine on his own, but he put his arm around me anyway. Then he started skipping. Yea! Skipping!
"Ok John, I guess you'll be fine on your own then. Just make sure you turn on the lights when you get inside so you don't trip." I teased.
"Do you have to work tomorrow?" he asked.
"Nope!"
"Well then do you wanna hang out a while?"
I sighed. "Not tonight. I can't cuz my parents are out of town, and I gotta feed all the animals and stuff."
"Ok, well goodnight Peyton."
"Goodnight John."
I wasn't lying about the parents being gone thing. They left for Florida yesterday. But as I drove off I started second guessing myself. Maybe I should have stayed? I dunno... I mean, I do like John, and he's a nice, smart guy (who tends to drink a little too much every once in a while, but who doesn't?) and he has a lot going for him. He's a good guy. But...he's not the guy for me. And I'm tired of wasting my time. And why should I waste his? Maybe I'm thinking too long term but, hey. What would be the point? I already know it wouldn't work out. Plus, I still get butterflies when I talk to Gavin. Especially today in the car. He gives really good hugs. ((blush))
Well...that's my story!
And I still have to watch 5 movies with John.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I don't like grouper fish. Well, they're okay. They hang around star fish. Because they're grouper fish."
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Get A Date in 2008
New Years Eve was bittersweet. Melissa and I went shopping for outfits that morning, but then she came down with a fever and had to go home! So I was worried she wasn't going to make it out! She also confessed to me while we were shopping, that Jake, the new door guy, asked for her number, and she gave it to him!
"Are you mad?? I'm so sorry! I know you think he's hot! I was wasted!"
"No, I don't care..."
I said that because it was my first reaction, and because my mind was a bit preoccupied with The Model, but later I realized, I DO care! That sucks! How come all the guys I'm interested in are never interested in me?! But it's not Melissa's fault she's so likeable. ((sigh)) Anyways, I found a really pretty black sequined halter to wear to work.
When I got home from shopping, my mom said she and my aunt Jessica wanna set me up with my 14-year-old cousin, Noelle's, riding instructor's son. (That's a mouthful, I know!) But apparently he's 27, he has a good job, he rides horses, he's really hot, and he speaks French! He's tall with wavy black hair...sounds dreamy! Only problem is, they live in Louisiana! But Jessica says he works out of Houston, so we'll see. I told them to commence with the set up. What have I got to lose??
Well, I spent the next few hours showering, getting ready and fixing my hair. I was almost late for work because I took so long! When I got there, Melissa, Amanda and them were already there, and they stuck me in the back bar, which sucked! Lately they've been putting me up front, now that I have more seniority, and I guess I've proven myself. So I hate going back in the other bar. It's stuffy and small, and you can't see anyone! So my night started off pretty crappy. Plus, there was no sign of The Model. But after about an hour and half, they sent me back up to the front! So that was a turn for the best! Once I got up there, it was about 11, and I took several shots! Management was being a lot more lenient on our drinking since it was a holiday, and all the employees were drinking! Ali and I were working side by side, and she and I have started to become friends! She likes working with me up front cuz she says I'm the only one who can keep up. :)
So we had a pretty good time. Then, as midnight started to creep up, I began to get anxious. There was still no sign of The Model!
Nick told me that if he saw him kissing another girl, he'd punch him in his face. I told him he would do no such thing! But he said he just doesn't wanna see me cry. Awwe! That is probably the sweetest thing he's ever said to me.
Well, midnight came and went...no Model, no kiss.
My night went back to being shitty. And it was so insanely busy, that we ran out of well vodka, Absolut vodka (which is our call), and all our glasswear! It was absolute chaos!! So I was trying to get caught up making waitress tickets, and serving shots in pint glasses, when I looked up and there he was, in all his beauty and magnificence!
"Hey Peyton!"
I flushed immediately, partly cuz of the alcohol, and partly cuz of the way he looked at me.
"Oh..." I stammered, "Hey! Where have you guys been!"
"We were hanging out with the family for a little bit."
I made The Model and Mitchell some shots, which we all took, and the night got a little better. ;)
I kept a closer watch on him than I should have probably, to see if he was with any girls, but I didn't notice any. Still no New Years Kiss for me though. :(
The rest of the night was rather monotonous. Most of the employees were drunk by the end of the night. We made really good money though. I went home feeling placated, but lonely. ((sigh)) And I'm pretty sure The Model has already gone back to New York.
Well at least he didn't do anything to piss me off.
I'm really excited about my photoshoot with Amy this Saturday! Amanda is letting us use her room because she's got a great bedroom set! I've been looking at boudoir pics all week to get ideas. I want them to be kind of like 50's pin-up style; tasteful, but sexy.
Well, I guess what I need to start focusing on now is finding a job, and getting a date! Any suggestions?
Mitch Of The Day:
"I saw a billboard for the lottery. It said, "Estimated lottery jackpot 55 million dollars." I did not know that was estimated. That would suck if you won and they said, "Oh, we were off by two zeroes. We estimate that you are angry.'"
"Are you mad?? I'm so sorry! I know you think he's hot! I was wasted!"
"No, I don't care..."
I said that because it was my first reaction, and because my mind was a bit preoccupied with The Model, but later I realized, I DO care! That sucks! How come all the guys I'm interested in are never interested in me?! But it's not Melissa's fault she's so likeable. ((sigh)) Anyways, I found a really pretty black sequined halter to wear to work.
When I got home from shopping, my mom said she and my aunt Jessica wanna set me up with my 14-year-old cousin, Noelle's, riding instructor's son. (That's a mouthful, I know!) But apparently he's 27, he has a good job, he rides horses, he's really hot, and he speaks French! He's tall with wavy black hair...sounds dreamy! Only problem is, they live in Louisiana! But Jessica says he works out of Houston, so we'll see. I told them to commence with the set up. What have I got to lose??
Well, I spent the next few hours showering, getting ready and fixing my hair. I was almost late for work because I took so long! When I got there, Melissa, Amanda and them were already there, and they stuck me in the back bar, which sucked! Lately they've been putting me up front, now that I have more seniority, and I guess I've proven myself. So I hate going back in the other bar. It's stuffy and small, and you can't see anyone! So my night started off pretty crappy. Plus, there was no sign of The Model. But after about an hour and half, they sent me back up to the front! So that was a turn for the best! Once I got up there, it was about 11, and I took several shots! Management was being a lot more lenient on our drinking since it was a holiday, and all the employees were drinking! Ali and I were working side by side, and she and I have started to become friends! She likes working with me up front cuz she says I'm the only one who can keep up. :)
So we had a pretty good time. Then, as midnight started to creep up, I began to get anxious. There was still no sign of The Model!
Nick told me that if he saw him kissing another girl, he'd punch him in his face. I told him he would do no such thing! But he said he just doesn't wanna see me cry. Awwe! That is probably the sweetest thing he's ever said to me.
Well, midnight came and went...no Model, no kiss.
My night went back to being shitty. And it was so insanely busy, that we ran out of well vodka, Absolut vodka (which is our call), and all our glasswear! It was absolute chaos!! So I was trying to get caught up making waitress tickets, and serving shots in pint glasses, when I looked up and there he was, in all his beauty and magnificence!
"Hey Peyton!"
I flushed immediately, partly cuz of the alcohol, and partly cuz of the way he looked at me.
"Oh..." I stammered, "Hey! Where have you guys been!"
"We were hanging out with the family for a little bit."
I made The Model and Mitchell some shots, which we all took, and the night got a little better. ;)
I kept a closer watch on him than I should have probably, to see if he was with any girls, but I didn't notice any. Still no New Years Kiss for me though. :(
The rest of the night was rather monotonous. Most of the employees were drunk by the end of the night. We made really good money though. I went home feeling placated, but lonely. ((sigh)) And I'm pretty sure The Model has already gone back to New York.
Well at least he didn't do anything to piss me off.
I'm really excited about my photoshoot with Amy this Saturday! Amanda is letting us use her room because she's got a great bedroom set! I've been looking at boudoir pics all week to get ideas. I want them to be kind of like 50's pin-up style; tasteful, but sexy.
Well, I guess what I need to start focusing on now is finding a job, and getting a date! Any suggestions?
Mitch Of The Day:
"I saw a billboard for the lottery. It said, "Estimated lottery jackpot 55 million dollars." I did not know that was estimated. That would suck if you won and they said, "Oh, we were off by two zeroes. We estimate that you are angry.'"
Thursday, December 20, 2007
My Big Mistake
Ok, now that I've finally finished writing about NY, I have a lot of catching up to do! So here goes...
My first week back, I worked, obviously. And I seriously needed to after all the money I had spent! Oh, and we have a hot new door guy! His name is Jake. Well, on that first Sunday, I worked from 4 to 10. And afterwards, I stayed and had a couple drinks with Valerie. I know, totally random, since we have been known to butt heads in the past. But hey, I'm all about second chances, and she and I were having fun! We sat and played Photohunt on the little computer for a couple hours! Then, this weird guy named Lane came up and starting talking to us. If I had been by myself, I would have totally just ignored him, but Valerie kept talking to him! So I thought maybe she was interested or something. When we got tired of playing the game, we got up to walk around a little bit, and who do I see?? Billy. He's always been notorious for getting really drunk on Sundays. Anyways, he mentioned to me that he and his crew were going to this new bar, Zeppelin, that had just opened up. So after they left, I asked Valerie if she wanted to go check it out. She said, she'd be down, but she didn't have any cash on her. I told her not to worry, I'd spot her the cash and she could just pay me back later that night after we picked up our tips. So Valerie and I, and Lane, headed over to Zeppelin.
It was an ok bar I guess, but not one that I'd frequent. It was just too dark! I mean you couldn't even see anyone's faces! We had a couple rounds of shots, which I paid for, and danced and goofed off for a while. We were all having a pretty good time. I saw Billy too...making out with some ugly chick. Weird...
But then, around 1:30, Valerie came up to me and said, "Dude...we need to get outa here. Like, now. Something's about to go down."
I looked around. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary.
"What do you mean?" I asked her.
"I dunno...we just need to leave. There's somethin' shady going on!"
"Um...ok, we can leave if you want but...I seriously don't think anything bad is about to happen."
Valerie must have been a lot drunker than I took her to be! She was acting so strange! I mean there was literally nothing happening at this bar. There were probably only about 35 people in there. So we walked outside, and Lane is asking me who's going to drive Valerie home, because we had all driven separately.
"Well, we're going back to our bar, so she should be fine for just the couple blocks. You drive behind her and she can follow me. That way we can watch her." I said.
For some reason, Valerie didn't know how to get back to work, even thought it was only about 2 blocks away. So she wanted to follow me. So we're driving along, and everything is fine. Then we turn onto the street where work is, and I guess she suddenly realized where we were. And as I was turning into the parking lot, she floored it and sped off! What the hell!? She owes me money!
I tried calling her to see what the deal was, but she didn't answer!
So Lane and I are standing in the parking lot, awkwardly, alone.
"Well...uh...I'm just gonna go in and pick up my tips." I said.
"Well, what about your friend? Do you know where she lives? Is she gonna be ok?" he asked.
"I dunno what is up with her! To tell you the truth, tonight was the first time I've ever hung out with her, so I don't know. And she's not answering her phone."
"Oh. Well ok then..." Awkward pause... "So can I call you sometime?" And there it was! The clincher!
"Um...sure!" I said in a falsely sweet voice. "Gimme your number."
I programmed it in as "Don't Answer", quickly said goodbye to him, and high-tailed it inside.
Nick was cleaning the bar, and Blinn and Mr. S. were hanging out. Blinn must have been out drinking with his brother, because as soon as I sat down, he told Nick to make us shots! I told Nick and Blinn what happened with Valerie, and they both agreed that it was very weird!
So while I was waiting for my money, Blinn and I decided to play a game of poker at the electronic table. And 3 games and several shots later, I was up 200 bucks! Blinn was out of control! Haha, he never gets beat! And I usually never have such great luck! It was crazy. But then we decided to play one more game, double or nothin' and I lost. So I had to give him back his 200 bucks. But oh well! At least I didn't lose any money!
By this time, Mr. S. and Nick were finished closing down the bar, so it was time to get outa there. But Blinn still wanted to play poker, and I had just started to get a buzz going, so I wasn't ready to turn in either! So we decided to head over to Blinns house for a couple more games. Blinn and The Albanian are cousins, and they had just moved into a new town house a few blocks away from work. It wasn't even furnished yet. And Mr. S. wanted to check it out, so he came with us. And let me tell you, this house is sooooooo nice! Three stories, with a garage, and all hard wood floors. It's beautiful! And huge! And I was having fun running around in my socks. Haha! Well, Mr. S. didn't stay long, and I don't think we ever got around to playing any more poker...
Blinn poured us each a glass of red wine, and we toured the house. Then we went out to his balcony and just talked...for what seemed like hours! And I was totally drunk by this point so I have no idea what we talked about.
But uh...eventually we ended up making out. And this is where things start to get realllllllly fuzzy! Because I know we messed around a little, and we were both totally wasted! It was just one of those really sloppy, drunken, thoughtless things! I ended up passing out on his futon/couch, which was incidentally the only piece of furniture in the place. And Blinn must have fallen asleep on the floor. Because the next morning, I woke up, dazed and confused, and he was in the corner by the window curled up in the fetal position on the floor. Lol.
Well, let me tell you what my first thoughts were upon waking: !@#$!%&!(%*!&#*#%*&!%^!!!!!!
Yea...
And my second thoughts? "I gotta get the hell outa here before he wakes up!"
So, as quietly as I could, I crept over to the counter, grabbed my purse, then my shoes, and started to walk towards the stairs.
Then he woke up.
"Uh...I tried not to wake you. I'm just gonna...go." I said awkwardly.
He mumbled something unintelligible. I half-ran down the stairs and out to my car. I wasn't even sure exactly where I was! But it didn't take me long to get my bearings. I was still in a state of shocked disbelief at what I had done!
What was I gonna do when I saw him at work next week??
Would he tell anyone?
What if everyone finds out??
Is it gonna be weird between us now?
What does he remember?
How should I act??!!
All these things were flashing through my mind so fast, and I think I was starting to have heart palpitations. I picked up my phone and called Alyssa. The only person at work I knew I could trust with a secret this big.
"OMG PEYTON ARE YOU SERIOUS!?" she said after I told her. "You didn't sleep with him, did you??"
"NO! Of course not. I'm just so...ashamed! I mean...what do I do!?"
She sighed. "Well...nothing I guess. I mean, do you like him?"
"NO! I mean, I'm not even really attracted to him! I've never even thought of him in that way! I dunno how it happened Alyssa, we were sooooo wasted! I can't even remember..."
"Well, then just act like nothing happened. I mean, he's not gonna say anything to you about it."
"I hope you're right. You cannot tell anyone!"
"I won't! I promise."
Oh g's...what have I gotten myself into??
Mitch Of The Day:
"I was going to stay overnight at my friend's house - he said, "you'll have to sleep on the floor." Damn gravity! You don't know how bad I wanted to sleep on the wall."
My first week back, I worked, obviously. And I seriously needed to after all the money I had spent! Oh, and we have a hot new door guy! His name is Jake. Well, on that first Sunday, I worked from 4 to 10. And afterwards, I stayed and had a couple drinks with Valerie. I know, totally random, since we have been known to butt heads in the past. But hey, I'm all about second chances, and she and I were having fun! We sat and played Photohunt on the little computer for a couple hours! Then, this weird guy named Lane came up and starting talking to us. If I had been by myself, I would have totally just ignored him, but Valerie kept talking to him! So I thought maybe she was interested or something. When we got tired of playing the game, we got up to walk around a little bit, and who do I see?? Billy. He's always been notorious for getting really drunk on Sundays. Anyways, he mentioned to me that he and his crew were going to this new bar, Zeppelin, that had just opened up. So after they left, I asked Valerie if she wanted to go check it out. She said, she'd be down, but she didn't have any cash on her. I told her not to worry, I'd spot her the cash and she could just pay me back later that night after we picked up our tips. So Valerie and I, and Lane, headed over to Zeppelin.
It was an ok bar I guess, but not one that I'd frequent. It was just too dark! I mean you couldn't even see anyone's faces! We had a couple rounds of shots, which I paid for, and danced and goofed off for a while. We were all having a pretty good time. I saw Billy too...making out with some ugly chick. Weird...
But then, around 1:30, Valerie came up to me and said, "Dude...we need to get outa here. Like, now. Something's about to go down."
I looked around. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary.
"What do you mean?" I asked her.
"I dunno...we just need to leave. There's somethin' shady going on!"
"Um...ok, we can leave if you want but...I seriously don't think anything bad is about to happen."
Valerie must have been a lot drunker than I took her to be! She was acting so strange! I mean there was literally nothing happening at this bar. There were probably only about 35 people in there. So we walked outside, and Lane is asking me who's going to drive Valerie home, because we had all driven separately.
"Well, we're going back to our bar, so she should be fine for just the couple blocks. You drive behind her and she can follow me. That way we can watch her." I said.
For some reason, Valerie didn't know how to get back to work, even thought it was only about 2 blocks away. So she wanted to follow me. So we're driving along, and everything is fine. Then we turn onto the street where work is, and I guess she suddenly realized where we were. And as I was turning into the parking lot, she floored it and sped off! What the hell!? She owes me money!
I tried calling her to see what the deal was, but she didn't answer!
So Lane and I are standing in the parking lot, awkwardly, alone.
"Well...uh...I'm just gonna go in and pick up my tips." I said.
"Well, what about your friend? Do you know where she lives? Is she gonna be ok?" he asked.
"I dunno what is up with her! To tell you the truth, tonight was the first time I've ever hung out with her, so I don't know. And she's not answering her phone."
"Oh. Well ok then..." Awkward pause... "So can I call you sometime?" And there it was! The clincher!
"Um...sure!" I said in a falsely sweet voice. "Gimme your number."
I programmed it in as "Don't Answer", quickly said goodbye to him, and high-tailed it inside.
Nick was cleaning the bar, and Blinn and Mr. S. were hanging out. Blinn must have been out drinking with his brother, because as soon as I sat down, he told Nick to make us shots! I told Nick and Blinn what happened with Valerie, and they both agreed that it was very weird!
So while I was waiting for my money, Blinn and I decided to play a game of poker at the electronic table. And 3 games and several shots later, I was up 200 bucks! Blinn was out of control! Haha, he never gets beat! And I usually never have such great luck! It was crazy. But then we decided to play one more game, double or nothin' and I lost. So I had to give him back his 200 bucks. But oh well! At least I didn't lose any money!
By this time, Mr. S. and Nick were finished closing down the bar, so it was time to get outa there. But Blinn still wanted to play poker, and I had just started to get a buzz going, so I wasn't ready to turn in either! So we decided to head over to Blinns house for a couple more games. Blinn and The Albanian are cousins, and they had just moved into a new town house a few blocks away from work. It wasn't even furnished yet. And Mr. S. wanted to check it out, so he came with us. And let me tell you, this house is sooooooo nice! Three stories, with a garage, and all hard wood floors. It's beautiful! And huge! And I was having fun running around in my socks. Haha! Well, Mr. S. didn't stay long, and I don't think we ever got around to playing any more poker...
Blinn poured us each a glass of red wine, and we toured the house. Then we went out to his balcony and just talked...for what seemed like hours! And I was totally drunk by this point so I have no idea what we talked about.
But uh...eventually we ended up making out. And this is where things start to get realllllllly fuzzy! Because I know we messed around a little, and we were both totally wasted! It was just one of those really sloppy, drunken, thoughtless things! I ended up passing out on his futon/couch, which was incidentally the only piece of furniture in the place. And Blinn must have fallen asleep on the floor. Because the next morning, I woke up, dazed and confused, and he was in the corner by the window curled up in the fetal position on the floor. Lol.
Well, let me tell you what my first thoughts were upon waking: !@#$!%&!(%*!&#*#%*&!%^!!!!!!
Yea...
And my second thoughts? "I gotta get the hell outa here before he wakes up!"
So, as quietly as I could, I crept over to the counter, grabbed my purse, then my shoes, and started to walk towards the stairs.
Then he woke up.
"Uh...I tried not to wake you. I'm just gonna...go." I said awkwardly.
He mumbled something unintelligible. I half-ran down the stairs and out to my car. I wasn't even sure exactly where I was! But it didn't take me long to get my bearings. I was still in a state of shocked disbelief at what I had done!
What was I gonna do when I saw him at work next week??
Would he tell anyone?
What if everyone finds out??
Is it gonna be weird between us now?
What does he remember?
How should I act??!!
All these things were flashing through my mind so fast, and I think I was starting to have heart palpitations. I picked up my phone and called Alyssa. The only person at work I knew I could trust with a secret this big.
"OMG PEYTON ARE YOU SERIOUS!?" she said after I told her. "You didn't sleep with him, did you??"
"NO! Of course not. I'm just so...ashamed! I mean...what do I do!?"
She sighed. "Well...nothing I guess. I mean, do you like him?"
"NO! I mean, I'm not even really attracted to him! I've never even thought of him in that way! I dunno how it happened Alyssa, we were sooooo wasted! I can't even remember..."
"Well, then just act like nothing happened. I mean, he's not gonna say anything to you about it."
"I hope you're right. You cannot tell anyone!"
"I won't! I promise."
Oh g's...what have I gotten myself into??
Mitch Of The Day:
"I was going to stay overnight at my friend's house - he said, "you'll have to sleep on the floor." Damn gravity! You don't know how bad I wanted to sleep on the wall."
Monday, November 5, 2007
Dry Spell?
Not sure if I mentioned this before, but Shane is definitely coming to NYC with me and Evan! I'm sooo excited! And relieved...! I'll actually have a girl to go shopping with. And on top of that, she recently met this surgeon, who lives in NY, and has a boat house on the Hudson, and he's offered to put us up for 2 nights!! How perfect is that?! AH! She and I have been chatting on the phone about this trip non-stop since she decided to go. It's gonna be amazing!
I'm also making another trip to Austin this week. I have off Thursday and Friday for some reason, so I decided to take advantage of it and finally hit 6th on a weekend night! It's gonna be a blast!
I don't have much else to write about. I'm going through another bookworm phase. I'm currently right smack in the middle of 2 books. I dunno why, but every once in a while, I just get this crazy itch to read, and that's pretty much all I do in my spare time!
As for Hot Dereck, I've decided to actually follow my instincts (and your advice!) and stay away from him. He's just all around bad news. And how am I gonna find the man of my dreams if I keep flirting with disaster?!
The week before Thanksgiving, I'm going to Orlando to visit Sophie. The whole family is getting together at my uncles house for Thanksgiving dinner. He lives about 45 minutes outside the city. BUUUUUUUUUT...Sophie and I are going to get tattoos! Well, I'm for sure getting one, but she's not certain if she's ready. The last time I was in Austin, I doodled this really unique looking star on my wrist with black eyeliner. I almost went and got it done while I was there, but Sophie convinced me to wait so we could go together. And I've been redrawing it on every day since, so that I can really get used to the idea of having something permanantly on my body. I don't have any tats yet, but I'm excited!!
I'm starting to think the whole thing between John and I was totally bogus. I dunno what to make of any of it. He's just so...absent. Nick says he's just "weird". Whatever... Perhaps I'm just going through a dry spell. ((sigh))
Sorry this post was so totally boring. Hopefully I'll have more for you guys next time!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I want to ride in a cold air balloon. "This isn't going anywhere!""
I'm also making another trip to Austin this week. I have off Thursday and Friday for some reason, so I decided to take advantage of it and finally hit 6th on a weekend night! It's gonna be a blast!
I don't have much else to write about. I'm going through another bookworm phase. I'm currently right smack in the middle of 2 books. I dunno why, but every once in a while, I just get this crazy itch to read, and that's pretty much all I do in my spare time!
As for Hot Dereck, I've decided to actually follow my instincts (and your advice!) and stay away from him. He's just all around bad news. And how am I gonna find the man of my dreams if I keep flirting with disaster?!
The week before Thanksgiving, I'm going to Orlando to visit Sophie. The whole family is getting together at my uncles house for Thanksgiving dinner. He lives about 45 minutes outside the city. BUUUUUUUUUT...Sophie and I are going to get tattoos! Well, I'm for sure getting one, but she's not certain if she's ready. The last time I was in Austin, I doodled this really unique looking star on my wrist with black eyeliner. I almost went and got it done while I was there, but Sophie convinced me to wait so we could go together. And I've been redrawing it on every day since, so that I can really get used to the idea of having something permanantly on my body. I don't have any tats yet, but I'm excited!!
I'm starting to think the whole thing between John and I was totally bogus. I dunno what to make of any of it. He's just so...absent. Nick says he's just "weird". Whatever... Perhaps I'm just going through a dry spell. ((sigh))
Sorry this post was so totally boring. Hopefully I'll have more for you guys next time!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I want to ride in a cold air balloon. "This isn't going anywhere!""
Monday, October 1, 2007
Anticipation
Omg Saturday night was so much fun! After work, a bunch of us stayed to play poker again. I didn't get home till 10 am Sunday!! It was me, Mr. S (owner/GM), Misty (bartender and Mr. S's girlfriend), Blinn (owner/manager and The Albanian's cousin), Gavin, Dustin (sort of new door guy), John (door guy who stayed at The Albanian's the night we made out), Nick (bartender who always spreads rumours), Johnny (acoustic guitarist on weekends), and Ali (bartender). Like all those descriptions?? Hehe.
We closed the bar down pretty quickly, surprisingly. And since I've been sick lately, I wasn't gonna drink. I usually have 1 pint of cider while we're counting money. But when we left the back bar, Nick and the door guys were setting up the poker table. So I gave in and poured myself a beer.
I bought in, and stayed in for most of the night, which was awesome, but I eventually lost to Blinn. We even took shots last night! And that's saying something, because we usually stick to the strict beer only policy after hours. But Mr. S and Gavin were shooting whisky, and then Misty and Ali wanted shots, and it all just kind of showballed from there!
And John was flirting with me the entire night! Running his fingers through my hair, and telling me I smelled good...lol. It was quite strange! I mean...he knows about me and The Albanian. I guess he doesn't care? I have noticed that he seems to have taken an interest in me lately. The other day he asked me what I like to do for fun, and what I do on my nights off. He's a really sweet guy though. I like John!
So when we finally went out to the parking lot to leave, he asked, "So what are you doing today?"
"Going home and sleeping till work probably!" I said as I got in my car.
"Well, do you wanna go see a movie, or go out to dinner or something?"
"Well...I have to work at 7, so I doubt I'll have time! I'm only getting like 5 hours of sleep as it is. But...why don't you give me your number, and I'll call you if I wake up?"
So he did. Granted, he was pretty drunk...at least I think he was. It's kinda hard to tell with him. I obviously didn't call him today though. I mean I literally woke up, went to feed my horse and got ready for work. But I'm thinking about calling him tomorrow. I mean, he's really nice, and cute! I always say he looks just like the Prince Charming in Shrek II. SERIOUSLY. Long blonde hair and all. But he's not a metrosexual or anything! Haha. He used to be in the marines. So maybe I will go out with him. We'll see...
I am SO excited about going to New York!! I convinced Sophie to go; I'm gonna buy her a plane ticket, since Evan is buying mine. It's gonna be a blast!!! I invited Melissa and Rikki, she's always been a globe trotter. So hopefully some more people will come, but you know how people are. Nobody ever wants to commit!! Either way, it will still be fun.
I have so much stuff to do tomorrow! I haven't been to the bank in weeks and I've been walking around with like a thousand dollars cash in my wallet! I also need to go get a new drivers license because I lost mine on me and Billy's first date. At least I can take a new picture. My old one was terrible!
I've also started a new work out regime. I'm gonna force myself to eat more healthy and work out at least 4 days a week because when I get to NY, I have to look fab! Especially if I'm gonna be seeing The Model. But, knowing him, and the luck I usually have when it comes to him, I'll be right down the street from his place and we still won't see each other. ((sigh)) I know I shouldn't get my hopes up regarding him like...ever, but it's New York. And the first thing that always comes to mind when I imagine New York is HIM. And I just wish things between The Model and I could go back to normal. Well...I definitely wish more than that, but you know what I mean!
Oh dear, it's 5:25 in the morning! I started this post as soon as I got home from work today, so I should probably get to sleep...what with all the crap I have to do tomorrow. Err...today.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I like cottage cheese. That's why I want to try other dwelling cheeses, too. How about studio apartment cheese? Tent cheese? Mobile home cheese? Do not eat mobile home cheese in a tornado."
We closed the bar down pretty quickly, surprisingly. And since I've been sick lately, I wasn't gonna drink. I usually have 1 pint of cider while we're counting money. But when we left the back bar, Nick and the door guys were setting up the poker table. So I gave in and poured myself a beer.
I bought in, and stayed in for most of the night, which was awesome, but I eventually lost to Blinn. We even took shots last night! And that's saying something, because we usually stick to the strict beer only policy after hours. But Mr. S and Gavin were shooting whisky, and then Misty and Ali wanted shots, and it all just kind of showballed from there!
And John was flirting with me the entire night! Running his fingers through my hair, and telling me I smelled good...lol. It was quite strange! I mean...he knows about me and The Albanian. I guess he doesn't care? I have noticed that he seems to have taken an interest in me lately. The other day he asked me what I like to do for fun, and what I do on my nights off. He's a really sweet guy though. I like John!
So when we finally went out to the parking lot to leave, he asked, "So what are you doing today?"
"Going home and sleeping till work probably!" I said as I got in my car.
"Well, do you wanna go see a movie, or go out to dinner or something?"
"Well...I have to work at 7, so I doubt I'll have time! I'm only getting like 5 hours of sleep as it is. But...why don't you give me your number, and I'll call you if I wake up?"
So he did. Granted, he was pretty drunk...at least I think he was. It's kinda hard to tell with him. I obviously didn't call him today though. I mean I literally woke up, went to feed my horse and got ready for work. But I'm thinking about calling him tomorrow. I mean, he's really nice, and cute! I always say he looks just like the Prince Charming in Shrek II. SERIOUSLY. Long blonde hair and all. But he's not a metrosexual or anything! Haha. He used to be in the marines. So maybe I will go out with him. We'll see...
I am SO excited about going to New York!! I convinced Sophie to go; I'm gonna buy her a plane ticket, since Evan is buying mine. It's gonna be a blast!!! I invited Melissa and Rikki, she's always been a globe trotter. So hopefully some more people will come, but you know how people are. Nobody ever wants to commit!! Either way, it will still be fun.
I have so much stuff to do tomorrow! I haven't been to the bank in weeks and I've been walking around with like a thousand dollars cash in my wallet! I also need to go get a new drivers license because I lost mine on me and Billy's first date. At least I can take a new picture. My old one was terrible!
I've also started a new work out regime. I'm gonna force myself to eat more healthy and work out at least 4 days a week because when I get to NY, I have to look fab! Especially if I'm gonna be seeing The Model. But, knowing him, and the luck I usually have when it comes to him, I'll be right down the street from his place and we still won't see each other. ((sigh)) I know I shouldn't get my hopes up regarding him like...ever, but it's New York. And the first thing that always comes to mind when I imagine New York is HIM. And I just wish things between The Model and I could go back to normal. Well...I definitely wish more than that, but you know what I mean!
Oh dear, it's 5:25 in the morning! I started this post as soon as I got home from work today, so I should probably get to sleep...what with all the crap I have to do tomorrow. Err...today.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I like cottage cheese. That's why I want to try other dwelling cheeses, too. How about studio apartment cheese? Tent cheese? Mobile home cheese? Do not eat mobile home cheese in a tornado."
Monday, September 3, 2007
Austin!
This post may be a bit cumbersome cuz Jenna and I are in the car on our way to Austin! I'm typing this on my blackberry. We're gonna hit 6th St tonight and float the river tomorrow if the weather permits. It feels so good to be getting out of town! I really needed this, and I am SO excited!
I had the worst weekend ever, just as expected. Mitchell and The Model showed up at my work Saturday night and they didn't even come to the back bar to say hi! I just happened to run into them on my way to the bathroom. The Model was overly nice, acting as if nothing happened. He hugged me like 4 times. But after work I found out from Nick that he gave his number to Kristin, the new cocktail waitress!! To be honest, I've been putting off writing this post so I wouldn't have to think about it. ((sigh)) I can't even begin to explain how much that hurt me. Will I EVER get over him??
Moving on...so phase one of moving out is complete! I've been keeping track of all the money I spend and earn and I know how much I can save. So I'm moving in with Frank! I'm actually really excited about it! I love Frank; he's so much fun and we get along really well.
As for Vette Guy, I'm done. Seriously. He just likes the chase and I'm tired of running. I'm genuinely losing interest in him now, which helps!
And hey, maybe I'll even get lucky and meet a hot guy in Austin! We'll see... And I'll definiely keep ya posted!
No Mitch today, sorry guys! I don't have the resources at the moment.
I had the worst weekend ever, just as expected. Mitchell and The Model showed up at my work Saturday night and they didn't even come to the back bar to say hi! I just happened to run into them on my way to the bathroom. The Model was overly nice, acting as if nothing happened. He hugged me like 4 times. But after work I found out from Nick that he gave his number to Kristin, the new cocktail waitress!! To be honest, I've been putting off writing this post so I wouldn't have to think about it. ((sigh)) I can't even begin to explain how much that hurt me. Will I EVER get over him??
Moving on...so phase one of moving out is complete! I've been keeping track of all the money I spend and earn and I know how much I can save. So I'm moving in with Frank! I'm actually really excited about it! I love Frank; he's so much fun and we get along really well.
As for Vette Guy, I'm done. Seriously. He just likes the chase and I'm tired of running. I'm genuinely losing interest in him now, which helps!
And hey, maybe I'll even get lucky and meet a hot guy in Austin! We'll see... And I'll definiely keep ya posted!
No Mitch today, sorry guys! I don't have the resources at the moment.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
DiZzY...
Well...I have kind of a lot to write, and hardly any time to do it, so here goes.
Thursday
Melissa's little sister Dee's 21st birthday celebration. We started early at Friday's with dinner and mojitos, then headed to midtown, to my bar, of course! We had a blast, and I had a little too much to drink. Eric The Skeaze showed up, and I ended up making out with him again. ((sigh)) Old habits die hard I guess. Oh well. No harm done. Said a brief hello to Gavin on my way in, but didn't have much opportunity to talk to him after that. Poo.
Friday
Frank asked me to dinner. Yea. Ugh. So much for my new roommate. I could be overreacting though, tell me what you think! He texted me Friday afternoon to see if I was working. I told him yes, at 10. Then he replies, "Want to go get something to eat before we go to work?"
I told him I didn't have time, which was true, even though I would have made up an excuse regardless. So...yea. Don't know what to make of that one.
Also, my phone had died because I'd forgotten to put it on the charger when I got home Thursday. So when I turned it back on, naturally I had texts and voicemails waiting. I had a voicemail from someone who sounded familiar but I couldn't quite place it...
"Hey it's me. I was just wonderin' if you wanted to come hang out by the pool. So...gimme a shout whenever you get this. Late."
I pressed the call-back button.
OMG. It was VETTE GUY!!
WTF?! What is he thinking calling me and saying, "hey it's me" like I just know who the hell "ME" is!? Like we just chatted over cocktails yesterday! Ugh. I did NOT call him back.
So when I got to work, I was the floater, which means they kept sending me back and forth between the 2 bars, depending on who was busier.
So I did something kind of out of character last night. I gave my number out to a guy at the bar. The only reason I can come up with as to why I did that is because he just looked like someone I wouldn't normally go for. And maybe I should give some someone different a chance. Someone that I wouldn't normally go for. So we'll see...
Gavin was there, drinking. He got off at 9. I chatted with him a little bit, but I didn't have much down time and stupid Nick (another bartender) runs up in the middle of our conversation and says, "Gosh Peyton! I know you wanna make out with Gavin and all, but why don't you get to work!?"
He is SUCH an instigator!! And he loves to spread rumors. I know he's just messing around, but still, he's totally ruining my game!! Not that I had any to begin with, but hey... ((sigh))
So I kind of kept my eye on Gavin through out the night, hoping he'd stay till after hours so we could all drink and hang out. I saw a couple of girls flirting with him, and it looked like he was flirting back, but then I'd come back and he'd be back with his boys. So I dunno...
At one point, I saw him writing something down on a piece of paper, which I could only assume, was his phone number which he was going to give to one of those girls, but I never caught him in the act. Lol, am I a total stalker or what!? I just really don't wanna miss my chance, ya know?? So he stayed till after we closed, and I was closing out credit cards. And by the time I'd finished, he was gone. ((sigh)) My hopes were dashed, yet again.
I checked my voicemail again while we were counting tips. Vette Guy called again!! That's twice in one day! Two more times than he's tried to contact me in like...the last three months! What could he possibly want?! I'm still not going to call him back.
Anyways... I'm SO clueless as to how to go about this Gavin situtation.! I don't even know if he's still remotely interested in me! There's still tonight though, so we'll see... He'll be working till close, and so will I, and most likely, drinking will ensue.
Wish me luck!!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I wish I could play little league now. I'd be way better than before."
Thursday
Melissa's little sister Dee's 21st birthday celebration. We started early at Friday's with dinner and mojitos, then headed to midtown, to my bar, of course! We had a blast, and I had a little too much to drink. Eric The Skeaze showed up, and I ended up making out with him again. ((sigh)) Old habits die hard I guess. Oh well. No harm done. Said a brief hello to Gavin on my way in, but didn't have much opportunity to talk to him after that. Poo.
Friday
Frank asked me to dinner. Yea. Ugh. So much for my new roommate. I could be overreacting though, tell me what you think! He texted me Friday afternoon to see if I was working. I told him yes, at 10. Then he replies, "Want to go get something to eat before we go to work?"
I told him I didn't have time, which was true, even though I would have made up an excuse regardless. So...yea. Don't know what to make of that one.
Also, my phone had died because I'd forgotten to put it on the charger when I got home Thursday. So when I turned it back on, naturally I had texts and voicemails waiting. I had a voicemail from someone who sounded familiar but I couldn't quite place it...
"Hey it's me. I was just wonderin' if you wanted to come hang out by the pool. So...gimme a shout whenever you get this. Late."
I pressed the call-back button.
OMG. It was VETTE GUY!!
WTF?! What is he thinking calling me and saying, "hey it's me" like I just know who the hell "ME" is!? Like we just chatted over cocktails yesterday! Ugh. I did NOT call him back.
So when I got to work, I was the floater, which means they kept sending me back and forth between the 2 bars, depending on who was busier.
So I did something kind of out of character last night. I gave my number out to a guy at the bar. The only reason I can come up with as to why I did that is because he just looked like someone I wouldn't normally go for. And maybe I should give some someone different a chance. Someone that I wouldn't normally go for. So we'll see...
Gavin was there, drinking. He got off at 9. I chatted with him a little bit, but I didn't have much down time and stupid Nick (another bartender) runs up in the middle of our conversation and says, "Gosh Peyton! I know you wanna make out with Gavin and all, but why don't you get to work!?"
He is SUCH an instigator!! And he loves to spread rumors. I know he's just messing around, but still, he's totally ruining my game!! Not that I had any to begin with, but hey... ((sigh))
So I kind of kept my eye on Gavin through out the night, hoping he'd stay till after hours so we could all drink and hang out. I saw a couple of girls flirting with him, and it looked like he was flirting back, but then I'd come back and he'd be back with his boys. So I dunno...
At one point, I saw him writing something down on a piece of paper, which I could only assume, was his phone number which he was going to give to one of those girls, but I never caught him in the act. Lol, am I a total stalker or what!? I just really don't wanna miss my chance, ya know?? So he stayed till after we closed, and I was closing out credit cards. And by the time I'd finished, he was gone. ((sigh)) My hopes were dashed, yet again.
I checked my voicemail again while we were counting tips. Vette Guy called again!! That's twice in one day! Two more times than he's tried to contact me in like...the last three months! What could he possibly want?! I'm still not going to call him back.
Anyways... I'm SO clueless as to how to go about this Gavin situtation.! I don't even know if he's still remotely interested in me! There's still tonight though, so we'll see... He'll be working till close, and so will I, and most likely, drinking will ensue.
Wish me luck!!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I wish I could play little league now. I'd be way better than before."
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