Friday, February 28, 2014

Twitter Confusion

Hello All!

Sorry for the Twitter spam. Yes, that is me! I'm Sherri. Lol. I actually have no idea how I did that, and I did not mean to do it. I wasn't PLANNING to out myself, but there ya have it folks. Lol. I freaked out for a second, and considered trying to pretend it wasn't me, but you guys have been reading my blog for years now, and I don't think I actually know any of you personally, so what's the harm?? I've considered posting more personally before, so I guess this just made up my mind for me. I would still appreciate a certain level of anonymity, so I probs will keep my Twitter account for personal use only. Anyway, I don't actually "tweet", I mostly just use Twitter to follow TV shows/Celebs.
As far as this blog goes, I was glad to be getting back into it, but now I'm feeling a little freaked out! I just spill so much stuff on here, about so many people, and up until now, I didn't have to worry that any of those people would find out what I say/think/write about them. And now I kind of do have to worry a little about that. So I might have to rethink the blogging thing now, but...we'll see. Your feedback would be greatly appreciated in this matter, but I just ask that you all respect my privacy, and the privacy of my friends/family, since you probably know some of their deepest darkest secrets!! But hey, at least now I can start posting pics? Maybe?? Lol.


I said it!! MY REAL NAME!

Thursday, February 20, 2014


I took my dog baby to get his teeth cleaned today. Poor thing. He's been out of it ever since I picked him up from the vet! (The anesthesia) But he's been super cuddly since I brought him home. Poor baby.
Not a lot going on this week really. Just the usual work, piano lessons, work, sleep, run errands... No upcoming Tinder dates on the horizon right now either. And John has been playing it cool with me. Come to think of it, maybe I wasn't reading too much into things before when I thought he was weirded out because I told him about my disaster date. He's hardly spoken to me since! Granted, he's a busy guy, and he just got back to the states from his business trip, and he had to drive from Houston to Louisiana after that. But still...you go from being totally hot and heavy on the phone one day, to just nothing the next. Something must be up. Right?
I was just leafing through a magazine and I stopped to smell this cologne sample inside and I immediately thought about how I miss being with a guy, and loving the way he smells. And just...inhaling his scent, drinking it in. And the way it makes me feel when I catch a whiff of it when he's not around. Scents are so powerful, it's weird. Even now I still associate certain scents with Brazil, and even the Ex Fiance. Ugh, sometimes I wish I could stop making those connections and just forget all the memories those smells bring up.
Wow, I'm rambling. Well, I just wanted to check in. Sorry I've nothing exciting to report. Here are some fun Frozen gifs. Lol. I LOVE this movie.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

My Drunk Date

Well I guess I was gonna have to write about this sooner or later, so I'd rather do it now. My date last night started off great. He ordered and Uber car, and asked me if I would like him to pick me up, which was very nice of him and unexpected. So I said sure, why not. It was pretty easy to talk to him, although there were a couple of awkward silences. But the biggest problem is that I think he may be a raging alcoholic. I had two drinks. TWO. DRINKS. He had eight beers and a snifter a Grand Marnier. He was on his third beer when I was only halfway done with my first drink. I asked him if he normally drinks so fast, or if he was just nervous or something. I can't remember what he said. But the drunker he got, the louder, more attention-seeking and weird he got. Seriously, he kept randomly standing up and singing and dancing, and then loudly apologizing to all the people around us who were starting (rightfully so). The third or fourth time he went to the bathroom, he came back with two rolls of toilet paper down his shirt. WTF!? Of course this caught the attention of even more people. Also, he kept asking me to take pictures of him doing all these weird things! And then he wanted me to send him the pictures. ((rolling my eyes))
Then some random girl came over and asked if she could take our picture! When I asked her why she said she just wanted a picture of us because it was our first date, and she though that was "nice". Then she hugged me and whispered that she hopes I don't go out with him again, because I seem really nice, and I'm too pretty for him, and he's a crazy, drunk loser. Ugh... Then he started getting all googly-eyed at me, and I'd be trying to have a conversation with him and he'd interject with, "God you're so beautiful. Why are you so beautiful. You have no idea how much I just wanna make out with you right now."
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. So after two and a half hours of watching him getting progressively more wasted, I said I was tired and ready to go home. He left the waitress less than 10%, even though he told me he used to bartend. I slipped her another $10 as we were leaving. Good thing I checked to make sure he took care of her! Then he insisted we split a cab, and he wouldn't let me pay, which again, was nice, but at that point, no amount of chivalry could have made up for the rest of the night. He sent me two more text messages that night, probably while he was still in the cab.

1) "You got me!"
2) "Why are you so attractive?"

I didn't respond, for obvious reasons. Then at 8 o'clock this morning he sent me this: "Fuck...I'm sorry. No excuses, I'm just a douchebag :/ "

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!! WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?!! Is this really what dating is like now?! SERIOUSLY!?!?! I'm not sure I want any part of this. John texted me this morning too, to tell me his plans to come here have to be "postponed" because he got another work assignment that starts on the 18th. ((Sigh)) What a waste of a bikini wax.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Date Tomorrow

Omg. I have a date tomorrow.With a guy that's even hotter than Richard! We just started chatting this afternoon, and our conversation lasted all night! I ended up getting off around 11 and we were still talking so I said, "I don't wanna sound too forward, but I just got off work and I'm about to go have a beer. Would you like to join? If you can't, it's not big deal, just thought I'd throw that out there."
And he said he would if he wasn't already in his PJ's, but suggested we go out for beers later this week, beers on him, to be precise! And I told him I'm working this weekend so then he suggested we go out tomorrow! So it's settled. Date with superhotguy tomorrow at 8. Let's hope this one doesn't cancel on me...

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Remember Richard?

Well he blew me off. Again. Said he "completely forgot!!" and he's just getting home from work, and he's coming off like a total flake but really he's not! Ugh. Why do I even bother with these things? It's a bunch of shite. I tried to be calm, and unemotional in my response. All I said was, "I understand, and that's fine, but I have to tell you it's kind of an inconvenience for me when we make plans and they get canceled that day." He, of course, never responded. So I guess that's the end of that.
I've been pissed off about it for the last 5 hours. I don't understand what I did wrong! But I guess it's better this way. He obviously is a flake, and a douche on top of that. So it's better I find out now, than after I've gone on a few dates with him. I just thought...Ugh, it doesn't matter what I thought. I definitely won't be talking to him again.
As for John, he's been unusually radio silent as well. I didn't hear from him today at all. I dunno, maybe it really isn't unusual. We used to go for months at a time without talking to each other. It's only recently we've been starting having conversations that span over days. I wonder if he's changed his mind about coming to visit. Meh. I'm sure I'll hear from him sooner rather than later. He's never been the type to play games. Like seriously. He's very direct, almost to the point of awkwardness at times.
Anyway, I had a piano recital on Sunday. I just played some old stuff since none of my new pieces are ready yet. But I played Claire de Lune, and this girl started crying! It was such a strange feeling. I mean she had an emotional connection to the song that had nothing to do with me; it was her late mom's favorite piece. But still, I've never made anyone cry before with my playing. It was very rewarding and also kind of awkward. I didn't know if I should comfort her or something? Lol. Overall, I feel good about the performance though, despite the fact that I wasn't as prepared as I normally like to be.

Well I guess I'm out of dish. I'll be back later this week.

Friday, February 7, 2014


So sorry about all the blog picture problems. Apparently it's a glitch with Blogger. Cuz my pictures didn't used to do that. Anyway, it should be fixed now. So onto more exciting things...
Richard and I have reschedule for Monday. And conversations between John and I have been heating up quickly. Not in a sexual way though, surprisingly. Well, a little, but that's not what I mean. I suggested he come visit, not really thinking he'd take me seriously, but I think he actually might come. Like...in 2 weeks. I dunno if I should be excited or worried. I mean, what if he comes and it just sucks? Or what if he comes and we hook up, but then that's just it for our friendship? Or what if he comes and its amazing, but then I don't get to see him again for who knows how long? And what about Richard? I guess that shouldn't even be an issue right now considering I haven't even met him yet. But... ((sigh)) I'm a little out of sorts right now. Ananda dragged me out to the bar after work tonight cuz she was having a row with her...sexy buddy, and she wanted to blow off some steam. So now I'm good and tipsy, and of course I've been texting John. Maybe that's my problem. Or maybe it isn't? I do wanna see him... Eventually this texting thing will fizzle out anyway, might as well see if there's anything to it, right??

Thursday, February 6, 2014

I'm Back! For Real This Time...

I just decided that I am going to recommit to this blog. I'm going to try to post AT LEAST once a week, even if nothing is going on, so that I can get my readership back up. I like knowing that there are people out there listening to what I have to say, even if I can't really communicate with them directly. It's also really nice to have subjective opinions on things. And I think I might actually have some things to talk about. So I'm just gonna dive in!

Well, I graduated from art school. Yay!! I'm seriously so glad it's over. My last semester was terribly stressful. Ugh. And I've even booked a couple weddings this summer! One in Florida, and one in Mexico - how cool is that?? Anyway, I'm now in, what I believe to be, my last few months living in Chicago. I'm just working, and I'm taking piano lessons again. And I'm trying to get back into the dating game. You guys, it's been over a year since I've slept with anyone. I've practically been revirginized. Lol. But that's not really what I'm after, I just wanna have somebody to do things with! Sex would be a perk, obviously, but I've gone so long without it at this point I may as well just continue being celibate for the sake of my dating sanity.

So, you've all heard of Tinder by now, I'm assuming? Well even though I am very anti online dating, I saw my coworker, Ananda, using the app at work the other day, and I was looking over her shoulder, and we were both just kinda, "Oh, he's cute!" and "NOPE!" and it was funny and entertaining, so I decided to give it a shot. Well after about a month, and several matches, I never attempted to talk to anyone. That would just make it too...online datingish. And I'm against that. So I was like no, I'm just looking. But then this guy that I "liked" messaged me out of the blue, and I can't remember what he said exactly, but it was something that sparked my attention, and we got to talking. His name is Richard. And it turns out that Richard and I have a lot in common. He loves photography, he reads, he's even read Harry Potter! And, speaking of Harry Potter, he's from the UK, which means he has a sexy accent. Lol. And he's smart, and funny, and has a steady job. He's a biology teacher. All the things I'm looking for in a guy. But I'm not gonna lie, the whole I'mBritishandI'veReadHarryPotter thing really sealed the deal for me as far as he is concerned. Lol.
So for about a week we chatted on the app, and I was starting to get impatient, wondering if he was ever just going to ask me out! THAT is exactly the reason I don't like online dating. Because you invest all this time messaging each other back and forth, and you talk, and it's like you're getting to know each other, but your'e really not. And you're using up all the good first date conversations. And then when you finally do meet the person, if you don't like them, it's harder to cut ties, because you've already spent all this time chatting with them online! What it all boils down to, for me, is chemistry. I know right off the bat if I have chemistry with someone, but I can only determine that if I actually meet the guy in person! So I hate spending a lot of time chatting on the internet. It just feels like a waste to me. But then finally, on Superbowl Sunday, Richard asked for my phone number. I was out watching the game at a bar with Abbie and her girlfriend, Helen, when he finally asked what my week was looking like. So I told him I was free on Monday and Wednesday, but that Wednesday worked best for me. And he said something like, "Great, that works for me."
Monday we didn't talk all day, Tuesday I didn't hear from him either, and I was starting to wonder if I was going to, when I just said fuck it, and texted him. All I said was, "Hi!" And he said, "Hey! How was your day?" and we small talked for a minute and then I asked him if we were still on for tomorrow. He said, "Yea, I'm looking forward to it."
I suggested 8 o'clock because I had a piano lesson, but he said that was kinda late for him because he has work to do when he gets home from work. (Grading papers??) And he said maybe we could do it another day. But I told him I could manage 7 if that wasn't too late, and he said that should work. So we picked a place and that was that.
Well I had to get up extra early today to get ready, because I had errands to run, and then my 2 hour piano lesson (I have a performance Sunday) and then straight on to the date! So I had to plan ahead cuz I knew I wasn't going to have time to get ready after all that. So I painted my nails, curled my hair, picked out a nice, but casual, outfit and I was almost out the door when he texted me. He can't make it. He has a work meeting, and then still more work to do, so he doesn't have time, but can we reschedule?
I was so pissed right off the bat that I didn't text him back right away. I mean, I went to all that trouble for nothing! WTF?! Ugh. So I didn't text him back for like a half hour, then I just said, "Awe man, that sucks!"
Well after my piano lesson, I saw that he had responded saying he's sorry and he'd rather meet on a day when he's not so busy and he can relax. Whatever that means... So I asked him what days work best for him. Well, like FIVE HOURS later he finally replies with his schedule or whatever, and I texted him back shortly with mine. And then I think he went to sleep or something cuz I never heard back from him. Everything about it just makes me so frustrated and discouraged. Now I remember why I hate dating. Online dating specifically. But I'm not ready to give up on Richard yet, because...I like him. I think. We'll see. I hope he doesn't smoke or something.

Well, that's my Tinder story. So does anybody remember John? He's this guy I used to work with at the bar in Houston, and we've made out a few times. We never hooked up, but we've always had this incredible chemistry. So now he works for this huge international company doing like...geological engineering or some shit like that. He gets to travel all over the world, so I pretty much never know where he is. But we've kept in touch since I moved. He's one of the few people from the old bar that I kept in touch with actually. With the exception of my best friends, of course. It's weird though, we have these really long text message conversations while he's all over the world, doing science. Lol. That's what I call his work, because when he tried to explain it to me, it just sounded like a bunch of weird mumbo jumbo engineering jargon. Anyway, recently he featured in two of my dreams. Like two in one week, it was crazy. So I texted him to tell him about it. I was lost in some jungle and he basically saved me. Haha. He was in the marines in real life, so that's a believable story. But he said the dream made him really happy. :) He's so sweet. So I've been talking to him all night, since getting bailed on by my date, and it has definitely put me in better spirits. I wish we could have these awesome conversations in person instead of via text messaging. I often wonder if we'd even be having these conversations at all if I had slept with him way back when. Maybe there is something to this whole sexual abstinence thing... Ha!