Monday, December 29, 2008

Happier Holidays

Christmas was crazy and wonderful all rolled into one! Brandon and I had so much fun with my Dad's family on Christmas Eve. Everyone loved him, and he was quite the social butterfly! Jenna says she can see why I like him, and that he's "totally my type".
Which each day that goes by, all I can think about is how perfect he is! Well, perfect for me that is. ((sigh)) I just...love him!
New Year's Eve is only a day away, and I think I might tell him how I feel. I have to work New Year's Eve, and Brandon was supposed to too, but he got taken off the schedule because we had too many bartenders signed up to work, and he lost on account of seniority. But he's still gonna be there with me, and I'm still gonna get my kiss at midnight, so I'm not worried. He promised me he wasn't going to drink too much. He's pretty bummed that he's not getting to work. It's gonna be a really good money night, as always. 
Then, after New Year's Eve, it'll be time to start thinking about Sophie's wedding! I can't wait! It's gonna be so much fun! Brandon and I are driving up to New Orleans together on Thursday, and I'm gonna be staying till the following Tuesday. Brandon is going to fly home Sunday night, and Taryn from work is gonna be flying in Saturday night. So Taryn and I are gonna party it up for a few nights after Brandon leaves. It's definitely gonna be a crazy week. But crazy in a good way I hope!
I'm still not really sure where Brandon and I are staying though, or where Oliver is going to fit into the picture. My mom said something about a hotel that allows dogs with a $50 deposit, but I haven't heard anything from her since. And I doubt my parents are going to condone us staying in the same room. But we might anyways. Ha! We'll see...
Well, Bethany and I are about to go catch a late movie, so I gotta go! I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Being Sick Is Boring

Alright, being sick for 3 days and sitting on the couch doing nothing has finally worn on me. I'm so bored!!! And I'm not sleepy enough to go to bed! Grrrrr... At least I'm feeling better though. I was supposed to work tonight, but I got my shift covered yesterday, just in case. I finally went to the grocery store today. My fridge was practically empty, but now it's pretty well-stocked. ((sigh))

So today I got a great surprise from Izzie. She's pregnant!!! I mean she's told me before that she was having baby mania, but her husband wasn't ready to start a family so I didn't think they'd be getting pregnant anytime soon, but...I guess they changed their minds! And I'm so happy for them. Because, unlike Cecilia and Rob, Izzie and Derek are a little more prepared to have a baby. Especially relationship-wise. 
It's so strange that all my friends are starting families and stuff... I feel so behind! I mean everyone I is either in a serious relationship, married, or pregnant! At least I have Brandon. I mean, I'm catching up, right? Lol. But seriously, at this point, I can really see myself with him...indefinitely. Even my mom keeps asking me if I'm falling in love with him. But it's too soon to say it. And no, I'm not playing games. Not at all. This is not something I'm going to take lightly, and that's why I haven't told him. Because I want to be sure, without a shadow of a doubt, that he is someone I can really trust, and someone that I really love. I mean with Daniel...I rushed everything and look how that turned out! So I'm not going to tell him I love him, until he says it first.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve! Well, technically it's today, but I don't count it as tomorrow until I've gone to sleep for the night. I can't believe it's Christmas already! I can't wait to spend the next 2 days with Brandon and my family, opening presents, watching the 24-hour marathon of A Christmas Story, eating, drinking, and being merry! ((sigh)) I can't wait to give everyone their presents. Evan and I exchanged gifts yesterday. I got him a "Vandelay Industries" t-shirt, since we're both big Seinfeld fans, and he got me a digital photoframe keychain. I got Brandon a new wallet (since he lost his), 2 t-shirts, and a hat. Not as cool as a Playstation 3, but hey...I wasn't supposed to be getting him anything for Christmas! 
I have nothing to wear tomorrow night. Hmmm... I guess I'm gonna have to make one more shopping trip tomorrow. Ugh...
Well, I'm back to my TV show.

Merry Christmas Everybody!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

The Whole Package, Just In Time For Christmas

Wow, that last post was my 200th! Woohoo!
So I can't believe it's almost Christmas already! I finally finished all my shopping yesterday, and I just wrapped the last 2 presents this morning. I wrapped all my presents in purple and silver. They look really pretty! ((sigh)) I'm so relieved to be done with shopping. No more battling traffic or driving around for hours looking for parking. Ugh...
It's nice to be able to just sit back and relax and not have to worry about anything. Not to mention I'm sick, again! Every time the weather changes, which is like...every other day in Houston. So I plan on spending the whole day on my couch, in my PJ's, wrapped up in blankets with a cup of hot tea, and plenty of movies. Sounds nice, huh???

So on Christmas Eve, Brandon and I are driving down to my parents house to go to church, and then we're all going to my aunt's house for our annual Christmas Eve lasagna dinner. We're Italian, what can I say?? It's the first family function that I'm bringing Brandon to. He's a little nervous, but I told him not to worry, because the last guy I brought to Christmas Eve Lasagna was The Psycho, and everyone hated him. So he'll practically be wearing a halo in comparison. Lol. And I'm really glad he's coming. We haven't been able to spend as much time together lately because he's a procrastinator, and just started his Christmas shopping, and he's been busy "running errands" the past week.
We kind of got into it the other day cuz he keeps "warning me", that starting in January, he's not gonna have as much time to hang out with me, because he's gonna start training for his golf tournament. And I know that golf is really important to him, and he wants to go pro and all this stuff, but he acts like I'm going to keep him from that or something. And I keep telling him that I understand, and I'm glad he has goals, and I'm supportive of his goals, etc... But sometimes he can just be so...incorrigible! And it's like he argues just for the sake of arguing! So we argued about that. Actually, it was more like a debate. Because he wasn't mad at me, and I wasn't mad at him, I was just frustrated, ya know? Because he kept trying to drive home this point that he had already made! I mean, hello!? Preaching to the choir here! ((sigh!))
He apologized to me later that day. He said it was his fault, and he was the one that started it all, and sometimes he can just be stubborn. Duh! But of course I told him not to worry about it. He's impossible to stay mad at. You know, always taking responsibility for his actions and sincerely apologizing. ;)
It's nice.
And he always tells me how lucky he is to have me, and that I'm special. :) It makes me smile just thinking about it. He stayed here the last 2 nights, but I did have to spend 3 lonely, cold nights alone this week. And I don't think he's staying here tonight either. Last night at work, he worked security, and I was bartending, of course, and apparently there was a swarm of girls following him around all night. Lol. Have I mentioned how hot my boyfriend is?? Cuz he's super effing hot. ((sigh))

Speaking of super effing hot, I saw The Model again on Friday. He was with Mitchell of course. They came up and ordered a couple drinks, and Mitchell opened a tab. I said hi to them but it was different for me this time. Seeing The Model, all I could think about was how he'd turned into this arrogant, selfish, douche. And how sad it is that he's not the person he used to be. Mitchell came back up to the bar twice, but I didn't see The Model again. Meh... Oh well. Maybe, just maybe, I'm really over him for good this time. Now that I have a super sexy, wonderful boyfriend who's made me realize you can have the whole package. You just have to be patient, and wait for the right guy to come along.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Playing Catch Up

So, there are a couple things I forgot to mention over the last couple weeks and I should probably jot them down quickly, just in case they are of any later importance.

1. The Model texted me over Thanksgiving asking if I was working. I didn't respond. I did, however, run into him a couple days later when I was out with Bethany. Our exchange was not initiated by me, and I made sure to keep it brief. Go me!

2. This past Saturday I went down to Galveston for a motorcycle rally with Alyssa and her boyfriend Russ. And I rode with John. Brandon was totally cool with it, of course, and I asked him before I agreed to go. John kind of just called me out of the blue, and asked if I wanted to ride with him. I told him I needed to check with Brandon first, just so the boundaries were clear, and he said that was fine. So Brandon was all for it and told me to have fun, so I went! And I did. It was only slightly awkward. Hehe.

3. I still have not seen Daniel, even once, since we broke up. And this past Saturday (same day as the motorcycle rally) was Russ's birthday. Alyssa set up a birthday dinner for him, and I told her that Brandon and I would both be there. And in the back of my mind, I knew that Daniel would be there. But we ended up not going because I got home so late from the rally, and Brandon had completely forgotten about the dinner, and neither of us were really prepared to go. Plus we both had to work, so we just chilled at home.
Confrontation avoided.

I think that's about it for playing catch up. Ummm...in other news, I've been really worried lately about my job, and my finances, and my lack of medical insurance. ((sigh)) I definitely need to go to the dentist, for one. I'm starting to get a toothache, which is not normal for me. Cuz I have good teeth! So I'm worried I might have a cavity or something, and I don't wanna end up with a root canal! I mean that's definitely worst case scenario, but still.... I'm paranoid. And the other thing is, Brandon's been talking lately about his job, and his 401k, and it's just made me realize that I'm so behind! I don't have a 401k! I can't even go to the freakin' dentist! I'm not set up for life at all! I need a job. A real job with paid vacation, and benefits, and opportunities. But I still have no clue what I wanna do, or what I have to offer. And it really sucks.
At least my relationship is going well. Brandon is really great. When we got in that fight last week, he was just so apologetic, and sincere.... And I mean, he definitely has his flaws, but unlike all the other guys, he takes responsibility for his mistakes! He doesn't try to get away with anything. He's honest. He admits when he's wrong, and then he immediately tries to correct his mistakes. And I just love that about him.
Question: Sometimes he calls me "My Love" and I'm not really sure how to interpret that... Any ideas?
He's never told me he loves me, except once when he was wasted. And he made sure to include "as a person" at the end of it. Lol.
But I think I do love him. In fact I know I do. At least, I'm starting to. I'm not trying to rush things though, so I wanna make sure before I tell him. And it would be nice if he said it first.
I just can't get enough of him. He's so...wonderful. I mean, I feel like I've won the boyfriend lottery!
Well, I'm about to pass out. My bed is calling...

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

"Normal" Is Pretty Great

The next day Brandon apologized profusely after I told him what had happened. He said he thought it was his sister putting lipgloss on him, and that he pretty much had no idea what was going on; he was on "autopilot", as he put it. He also told me he's lucky to have me and that I have nothing to worry about as far as those other girls are concerned. And he assured me that it would never happen again. Of course I did tell him that if I ever see that blond bitch again, I will not show her the courtesy of being nice.
And then I gave him shit about for the rest of the day, but it was mostly just playful teasing, and I promised I wouldn't bring it up again after one day of berating him. Haha.
So things are back to normal again, and I'm actually glad for that. Because these days, "normal" is pretty great.
Saturday was pretty much awful since I had to get up early and go to work after the miserable night I'd had Friday. But the good part was that I was off by 5, and Brandon had spent the better part of his day sitting at my bar. Turns out he lost his wallet the night before. Ha! Karma's a bitch, ain't it? Lol.
So Saturday night, I went with Brandon to his dad's house to watch the De La Hoya/Pacman boxing match. It was brutal, btw. It was the first time I'd ever met his dad and his fiance, and I was a little nervous. But everything went well, other than the boxing match. Lol. We were planning on going out afterwards, but by the time we got back to my place, it was already 1am and we were both spent. So we stopped at CVS, picked up some ice cream and settled ourselves on my couch for the night. It was wonderful. :)
On Sunday, I didn't have to work until 7, so Brandon and I spent most of the day together, but unfortunately, he wasn't going to be able to spend the night again. I was doomed to a night alone in my bed, shivering. He always keeps me so warm at night! I call him my personal space heater. I guilted him about it just a little, but he had laundry and cleaning to do, and these days he doesn't get to spend a lot of nights in his own bed, so I let it go.
Work was incredibly long and boring, and I was planning on just going home and watching It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia till I fell asleep afterwards. But when I got home and walked into my bedroom, I turned on the lights and was startled to find Brandon fast asleep in my bed. :)
I was so surprised, and so happy at the same time, and I just thought...I love him.
He had been so adamant about staying at his place, because he had a lot of stuff to do, and he didn't wanna have to drive all the way back, and he needed his rest, etc... But there he was! In my bed. ((sigh)) And in that moment, nothing could have made me happier.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Nobody's Perfect

This weekend I opened both Friday and Saturday, so I had my nights off to go out and do as I pleased! Well on Friday, Brandon and I went out with his sister, Summer, and her boyfriend, Dave. We hit a couple of bars and we were having a really good time.
I stopped drinking around 12:30 because I had to work Saturday at 10am, and I knew I was gonna have to drive both Brandon and myself home. Well, Summer's boyfriend, Dave, likes to go shot happy a lot! So he kept buying us all rounds of shots. I kept setting mine on the bar, or handing them out to random people, but Brandon kept drinking. So he was pretty drunk by the time we got to the shot bar, which ended up being our last stop.
When we got there, Brandon ran into a couple of girls that he and his sister knew growing up: a blond and a brunette. The brunette seemed cool enough, but the blond was totally giving me bitch vibes. And I'm not the type to get all catty on girls. Most girls just don't like me. I dunno if it's cuz I'm confident and sarcastic, or if it's cuz they're intimidated by me, or jealous, but girls who don't know me, usually just hate me right off the bat. It sucks. And this was one of those girls. So I was just ignoring her and talking to some friends. But then I turn around and I see her putting lipgloss on my boyfriend and giggling! I immediately grabbed him by the arm and swung him around to face me. He had a blank, drunk look on his face that pretty much said he had no idea what was going on.
"Hey babe! Want some lip gloss??" He slurred as he wiped some of it onto my lips.
I wiped it off right away with the back of my hand.
"No. And will you stop flirting with other girls and close your tab so we can go?" I said irritably.
"I'm just waiting for my credit card." He said.
So I sighed and resolutely turned around.
I asked the bartender to give me his tab, but he told me that Brandon had already closed out. So I turned to walk back over to Brandon, and what do I see but him slapping the brunette's ass! She was standing up on a podium, and her butt was about at eye level with him.
But that was it for me. I was soooo fucking pissed. Without saying a word, I stormed out of the bar and walked over to my bar to close my tab over there.
Bethany was working and she could tell I was upset. I told her what happened and why I had left. "Well what did you say to that stupid blond??" She asked.
"Nothing! I just told him to stop flirting with other girls."
"You should have said something to her. I would have!"
"Well, it's too late now. Whatever... When he sobers up tomorrow, we're definitely having a talk about this." I said.
Bethany empathized with me, and then I headed back over to the shot bar to see if Brandon was ready to go. I almost left him there, I was so mad, but I didn't want him driving in the state he was in, so I went back.
He was still there with his sister when I got there. The 2 sluts were gone.
"Hey Beautiful!" He said when he saw me.
"Are you ready?" I asked impatiently."Yea, let's go." He said, and he took my hand and started leading me outside.
As soon as we were out the door I stopped.
"By the way, I'm really pissed off at you right now." I said.
"What?!" He immediately went from blissfully drunk, to pissed and belligerent.
I brushed passed him and continued walking to the car, assuming he was behind me, but when I turned around, he was gone!
I ran back inside and asked around if he anyone had seen him come back in. No one had. So I went out to the parking lot where his truck was park, just in time to see him driving away!
I freaked out and ran after him. Turns out he was just moving his car to a more remote area of the parking lot so that he could take a leak.
"You can't drive." I said to him as he unzipped, "And you can't leave your car there either. You'll get towed."
"I don't care! You wanna be mad at me for no reason? Fine. Don't worry about me." He rambled on...
I sighed.
"Fine. I'll move it for you." I snatched his keys out of his pocket and got in his truck. I moved it to a parking spot where I knew it would be safe for the night. When I got out of the truck, he was gone. Again!
So I called him.
"Where are you??" I asked frantically when he picked up.
"I'm walking home." He said.
"You can't walk home. You live like an hour away! Just come back to the bar and I'll drive you."
"No! I'm not coming all the way back there!"
The conversation went on like this for quite some time and I was getting nowhere. Now I was just standing outside, in the cold, almost in tears.
That was when Tom walked up. Tom is a mutual friend and coworker, who just happens to be one of Brandon's good friends, and he's a really nice guy.
"Peyton? What's wrong??" He asked as soon as he saw me.
I just shrugged and the tears started coming. Tom hurried over to me.
"What happened??" He asked again.
I hung up the phone."It's Brandon... I don't know where he is. He's drunk and he took off on me and he said he's walking home."
"What!? He can't walk home, he'll never make it all the way out there!"
"I know!" I said, "But that's what he said."
"I'll go find him. Don't worry. Just wait here." He said, and he got in his car and drove off.
I sat on the curb and put my head on my knees.
How could this be happening?? I thought.
It seemed like forever till they came back. Brandon was passed out in the passenger seat of Tom's car.
"He was on the side of the highway!" Tom said, "I don't even know how he made it that far."
He woke him up and practically put him inside my car.
"Where are my keys? I can drive!" He said.
"No way dude." Tom said. "No way you're driving. Your truck will be fine here. You can get it tomorrow."
"Thanks Tom." I said, "I owe you one."
"Don't worry about it." He said.
And we drove off.
We sat in silence for a couple minutes, then finally I couldn't hold it in anymore.
"Don't you wanna know why I'm mad??" I asked.
He mumbled something unintelligible.
"Look. If you wanna go out and have a good time and act like you're single, that's fine. But you don't need to have a girlfriend if you're gonna do that. Because I will not be made a fool of, and I will not be disrespected like that."
"What are you talking about?" He asked.
"Uhhh, I'm talking about you smacking girls' asses and letting them put lipgloss on you." I stated.
"Fine. I'm a horrible boyfriend. You can leave me if you want."
"Shut up. You're not gonna play the guilt card on me. That's not going to work. Look, I know that you're wasted, and I'm probably not gonna get anywhere with this tonight, but I just wanna say what's on my mind right now while I'm still feeling this way. Because what you did really hurt my feelings."
He didn't respond to that, but when we got to my apartment he tried to walk the opposite direction.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"To my truck." He said.
I almost laughed. "Your truck isn't here, remember? You're staying with me."
"Oh." He said.
When we got inside he immediately went to the couch.
"I'll just sleep here tonight, since you hate me." He said.
"No, you won't. You're coming to bed. Come on."
I grabbed him by both his arms, and though he put up a good fight, I finally dragged him into the bedroom. He got in bed and almost immediately passed out. I took his jeans and his t-shirt off him and then got ready for bed myself.
Once I finally got in bed, I just wanted to cry. I took Oliver out of his cage and snuggled with him for a little bit till I felt better.
Then I rolled over and looked at the boy laying next to me. He looked so beautiful, so innocent and vulnerable, and so peaceful. And so easily he hurt me. ((Sigh))
I guess every relationship has it's downs and it's flaws. I mean, I can't expect perfection out of him.

Friday, December 5, 2008

You Know What I Love?

The other day I was wasting time on myspace and I ended up on Brandon's page, wondering if he'd changed his status. So I scrolled down, and noticed that it still said single. But it didn't bother me at all! He probably either hadn't gotten around to it, or wasn't sure if I wanted him to change it or not. I mean, mine still said single too.
So you know what I did?
I went to my page, and changed my status to "in a relationship". And I didn't give it another thought!
A couple days later, I noticed he changed his too.
And we never had to have that stupid myspace relationship argument. Daniel totally freaked about it when I changed my status for him! What a jerk...
I love being in a drama-free relationship. It's so refreshing!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Dinner For Two!

Well my Thanksgiving was anything but relaxing! Hours of driving, getting up early every morning, running around all day... ((Whew!)) Now that I think about it, no wonder I've been so exhausted since I got back! But it was great seeing my family, and Sophie and Brent, and Brent's family. But it's also good to be home. I really missed my alone time! And I really missed Brandon too, of course. It's hard to sleep without him.
My apartment is a total disaster! There's nothing worse than coming home from vacation to a messy apartment! And I've hardly had any time to clean either. But that's what I plan on doing all day tomorrow since I have the day off.
Yesterday, I went to the golf course with Brandon and some of our coworkers. They played in a tournament; I rode around in the golf cart. Haha. It was also the coldest day of the year, and I now have a cold! I can't stop sneezing! But the tournament was fun! We mostly just drank and smoked doobies. Lol. But Brandon is very serious about his golf, and he played well. It was cool to finally watch him.
Tomorrow I'm planning to cook him dinner for the first time, you know as soon as I get my apartment clean. But I'm thinking salmon, with some steamed broccoli and dinner rolls. I need to think of something good for dessert too. Oh, and I'm gonna make some hot buttered rum! Mmmm...I just hope we made some money at work tonight so I can afford to buy all this stuff!
So needless to say, things with Brandon are still going great! It's still very solid. He calls me "babe", and "sweetheart", and I finally went over to his place! His house is really nice, and his bed is wayyy more comfortable than mine! Lol, but it's like almost an hour away! Ugh... So I dunno how often I'm gonna make that drive. Anyways, I think I'm gonna hit the hay. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!