Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Do My Friends Suck?

My 30th birthday is in 2 weeks. In late January, I planned a trip to New Orleans to celebrate, and invited 10 friends of my closest friends. Of course my sister is coming, but only like 5 more said they would come. And in the last week, all of them have bailed on me. Every one except my sister, and Bethany, who already lives in New Orleans. Some friends I have.
Why does my birthday have to suck every year?! WHY!? I mean I expect it to suck, cuz it always does, but this year is my 30th, and I wanted it to be special, and I wanted to spend it with my friends. And I mean, New Orleans is driving distance from Houston, so it's not that big of a deal. And of course Taryn tells me she can't go, when she's in Puerto Rico, with her new boozy bestie, who I'm not a fan of. Ugh. She can go to fucking Puerto Rico, but she can't come to New Orleans for her supposed best friends birthday?! She's known about this since JANUARY!!
I'm just so upset!!
Is this normal?? Because I know that I'm a good friend. I don't flake on people. I never forget birthdays. I sent cards, and buy prezzies and throw fucking surprise parties! Why do none of my friends ever do stuff like that for me!? Is that too much to ask? Seriously. Is it?

Thursday, May 1, 2014


Have you ever felt such a heightened state of emotional awareness that it's like you're drunk on your own feelings? At the flip of a switch you could be laughing maniacally or sobbing hysterically, depending which way the wind blows?? Well it's officially my birth month now. I'm turning 30. Good things are happening, but also bad things. And I'm not really sure what I should freak out about first. WHY IS THERE NO WINE HERE??? Heh...Hehe...Hehehehheheeeeeee((SOB!))