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Thursday, August 30, 2007

Baby Presley!!!

Omg Cecilia had the baby around midnight last night. I was working, so I couldn't be there, but I jumped up outa bed this morning and dashed over to the hospital. Her name is Presley and she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen!!!
I mean seriously, most newborns kinda look like aliens, but she is just...so dainty and feminine and absolutely breath-taking!! It's so weird how you can fall in love with a baby so quickly! So I am now Aunt Peyton. :D :D
I spent most of today in the hospital with Cecilia, her husband Rob, and the baby. She's sooo quiet! Even when her diaper had to be changed, she hardly fussed at all!
So I'm really excited about Baby Presley, she's absolutely adorable!
In other news, Vette Guy called me last night as I was pulling into work! What are the chances huh?? He was driving back from McAllen, which is about 5 hours away from here. Another business trip, for modeling this time. Since I was just getting to work, I could only talk to him for like 5 minutes, but he said we should get together tomorrow (now today).
And believe it or not, I just got off the phone with him! He's on his way to some meeting for another fashion show, but he said it should only last about 30 minutes and then he's gonna call me. Soooo...we'll see. I'm really trying not to put ANY eggs in this basket. And my good friend Izzie is in town, so if he bails, I've still got plans to go out with her and Megan. Megan's wedding is in about a week. I'm thinkin maybe, just maaayyybe, if all goes well with Vette Guy, I might ask him to go with me. I hate going to weddings solo. It totally sucks. But I'm not sure things between Vette Guy and I are even at that point yet, or if they will be in a week. Actually, I doubt it. But hey, it's just an idea.
So wish me luck tonight!!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I like rice. Rice is great if you're hungry and want 2000 of something."

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

The Good and The Bad

This is going to be the worst weekend ever.
I'm scheduled to work Saturday night. Yea, the night of the Incubus show, that I have really badass tickets for. UGH. I'm so disappointed. It doesn't look like I'm going to get my shift covered either. The other night at work, Gavin was hanging out drinking, and kept bringing up the concert. I know he was just messing with me but it just REALLY SUCKS! Mark said he would do everything he could to try and get me off, but he's scheduled to manage that night, so it's not looking good.
The other reason it's gonna suck??
The Model. He and Mitchell will be in town this weekend for a wedding in their family. And of course, they're gonna be at my bar. It's pretty much Mitchell's favorite place to go. So I'm gonna have to sit there and watch as girls throw themselves at The Model, and there won't be anything I can do about it. I never heard a word from him since the incident. What a complete fucking asshole. ((Sigh))

I do have some good news to report though. Cecilia was admitted to the hospital yesterday so they could induce her into labor. Something about her blood pressure... But I went straight there after work last night and she's doing fine. I hung out with her for like 5 hours. They had her hooked up to an IV and everything in the antepartum wing, while she waited for a room to open up in the labor and delivery area. She's there now, and they already gave her the pill. The doctor's gonna check to see if she's dilated at all in about....45 minutes! I have to work at 9 tonight, but hopefully something will happen before then and I won't have to miss it! I've been texting her all day to make sure she's doing ok. It's gonna be so exciting when her baby is born!! I can't wait!

Oh, and I've been meaning to mention that things at work with The Albanian and I have just gone totally back to normal. It's almost like we never kissed! But I'm totally ok with that. I just didn't want things to get awkward. And as for Vette Guy, I asked him if everything he'd told me was true, or if he was just saying what he thought I wanted to hear. He said he was being honest, but he's just not sure if he's ready for anything yet, and that "only time will tell". He also said he "better get to see me this week". I told him he better call me then. But I have yet to hear from him.
I'm SO over playing games with him. I'm just pretty much indifferent at this point. No word yet on the job in NY either. Oh, and just to clear something up, Vette Guy isn't moving anywhere! He just had a business trip.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I wanna hang a map of the world in my house. Then I'm gonna put pins into all the locations that I've traveled to. But first, I'm gonna have to travel to the top two corners of the map so it won't fall down. "

Sunday, August 26, 2007

The Return of Vette Guy

On Friday night, as soon as I got to work, I got a text from Vette Guy asking what I was doing. I told him I was working, and that he should come visit, and he said he would! So I was really distracted at work, thinking he could walk in at any moment! I had my phone sitting behind the bar on the back counter, so I could briefly glance at it every once in a while to see if he'd texted me. Well, after about an hour, I looked back and my phone was gone!! My manager took it away because I wasn't supposed to have it behind the bar! Gay... So my night went downhill from there. And of course, Vette Guy never showed.
Finally, at the end of the night when we were counting tips, I got my phone back and I had 3 texts from him. The first one was asking if I could get him out of the long line, the second one said "I'm leaving" and the last one said something along the lines of, "I guess you had better options...hope you have a good night".
((sigh))
Well I immediately texted him back, and explained what happened. I wasn't really expecting a response though, cuz it was like 3:30 am. But on my drive home, he called me. He wanted me to go hang out with him in the hot tub, and he was obviously drunk. I told him not tonight, I was too tired, it was late, and I was already on the other side of town. Then he proceeded to get mad, because he "doesn't like being turned down"! Well tough titties, maybe he should get turned down once in a while!
So on Saturday, I called him around 4 in the afternoon to see if he even remembered talking to me. He admitted that he was indeed drunk the night before, and that he really wanted to see me. So I told him that Melissa and I, and some friends, were going out and he should meet up with us later. And he said definitely.
Well we went to my work, as usual, (as if I don't get enough of that place) and Frank was working. He gave us all a round of free drinks, and we hung out for a little while. Then we decided to check out the new bar around the corner, since I hadn't been there yet. At this point, I still had not heard from Vette Guy, so I was beginning to think he'd be another no-show. Well we headed next door, got in VIP since I bartend around the corner, and we got a free round of shots from Billy, who was working! In case you don't remember, Billy is the cutie I met on the bus to and from the employee outing last week. Then I got a text from Vette Guy asking where I was. So we had to rush back over to my work to meet him. And I have to say, he was lookin' fine in a baby blue and white striped button down, with the top 3 buttons undone! I gave him a hug, he told me I looked amazing, and we caught up for a little bit. Then we went our separate ways. Me and my friends headed back next door, and he went to meet up with his friends somewhere down the street. But he promised to call me later. I wasn't gonna hold my breath.
Well, later rolls around, the bars are closing, Melissa and her boyfriend (yes, boyfriend! She's crossed over to the dark side...) left together, and Vette Guy is actually calling me! He wanted me to come and meet him somewhere. I offered to pick him up, because he had ridden with his friends. So I went and got him and we began the drive to his place. This is where it gets interesting...
I don't know how we got on this topic, but we actually talked about our feelings! I was giving him a hard time about only hearing from him once a month before he goes MIA, and he said something like, "Whatever, it's not like you even notice or miss me!" I refuted him and told him I definitely notice! And I said, "Look, it's obvious that you're not looking for a girlfriend" but he interrupted me with "Actually...I am."
Me: Well then...why are you playing games with me? You obviously don't think that I'm girlfriend material. So why bother?
VG: No, it's just that you scare me. How can you, who I've only just met, break through my walls so easily? It's like I already feel too comfortable with you, and I'm not gonna let myself get hurt.
Me: ((jaw drops)) What?? You can't protect yourself forever you know. Everybody get's hurt. That's just life.
VG: Well I've been really screwed over, had my heart taken away from me and stomped on, and I'm not gonna let that happen again.
Me: ((sigh)) Well me too...but I guess I just wear my heart on my sleeve. Everytime you protect yourself, I'm the one who gets hurt.
VG: Nuh uh! You don't even care about me!
Me: What!? Of course I do! Look...the last relationship I was in, sucked too. And I do like you and I'm obviously attracted to you...
VG: Well I am obviously very attracted to you too!
Me: Well you really did hurt me when you gave me that whole excuse about us wanting different things. I'm tired of playing games. And that just sounded like BS to me.
VG: I just didn't think you seemed like you were that into me.
Me: Well you're wrong.

I don't remember the rest, and there was definitely more to that conversation, but I can't remember every minute detail. I think we changed the subject after that. Anyways, we'd been sitting in the car in his parking garage talking for a while now. I don't really know if we've come to some sort of agreement, or what. But before I left, he kissed me and said, "Gimme a shout tomorrow, babe."

Now it's the next day, and I'm thinking...what if that was just another one of his lines?? Or another excuse??? I don't know! I am pretty gullible. Although I found out he wasn't lying about going to London... So I don't know. Does he really like me?? Or was he just trying to get me to sleep with him?

Mitch Of The Day:
"I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're going and hook up with them later."

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Loose Ends

Evan and I hung out the other night, and things were just...weird. I mean it was like neither of us knew exactly how to act, or if the other was thinking yes, no, maybe? So I said "Evan...I think maybe it would be easier on both of us if we just stayed friends" and he agreed. We've just been friends for way too long, and I don't know how else to act with him! So, friends it is.

I'm still waiting to hear about the job in New York City. I want it sooooooo bad! I mean, I know I need to get my life together. I feel like I'm falling in a black hole, and I don't wanna get stuck. And moving to a new city, with a blank slate is just what I need. I hope...

Ok, I know I said I wasn't gonna do this, but I just can't keep my mouth shut! If you're going to comment on my page, please don't patronize me or talk to me like I'm a dirty slut. Because I'm not. I don't sleep around. In fact, the only guys I've ever blogged about sleeping with, are The Model, and Vette Guy. And The Model is an enigma in itself... I would freakin' marry the guy if he asked me! I think every girl has that one guy that they will always go back to, no matter what has happened in the past. And he is that guy for me. Not because he's a model...because he's him! He's fun, and goofy and crazy, and before all the drama went down, he was someone I could just be myself with. Because we didn't have any pretenses. We were just friends...with benefits! As for Vette Guy...he was definitely a mistake, but I really liked him, and I thought it was going somewhere. And nobody is perfect! So why do people have to be so judgmental? I never thought I could receive so many hurtful comments from people just because I wrote something, and I was being honest about it. I wasn't relieved that The Albanian and I didn't have sex. I did not want to sleep with him. I wrote "and no clothes came off" to emphasize the fact that there was passion, but also innocence. So some of you may have misrepresented me in your comments. I'm not asking any of you to like me, and I'm not trying to win anyone's favor. I'm just chronologging my experiences in 20-something life for my own amusement. And I'm learning from my mistakes. Oh, and please don't start comment wars on my page either! As fun as those are to read, they get out of hand pretty quickly.
So if you're enjoying my blog, and you have some advice for me, good or bad as long as you're not bitching me out, then go ahead and comment. Otherwise, seriously?? No one's forcing you to read this. If you're so disgusted by me, then don't.

G's I hope I don't have to do that again...

ANYWAYS . . .
Cecilia's baby shower is this Saturday. Her cousin and I are hosting it. I can't wait, it's gonna be so much fun! I've never really been a baby crazy type person, but I really can't wait till she has her baby! Cecilia is my first really good friend to have one. I was talking to her on the phone yesterday, and I told her she HAS to call me as soon as she goes into labor! She promised I'd be the first one she calls (besides her husband) and that I can be there in the delivery room if the doctors let me. I've seen horses give birth, but never a person. Lol, and I dunno how similar that is, but I'm looking forward to it actually! I told her she might decide she doesn't want me in there with her, but she said "Whatever, bitch! You better show up with some Starbucks!" Hahaha! I so love her! I've missed her too, being pregnant and all. But we're gonna go have some girl time today. I have some shopping to do so she's gonna come to Target with me. And tonight, Melissa and I are gonna have dinner at Friday's before I have to go to work.
So today will be a great day for girl bonding!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I would imagine if you could understand Morse Code, a tap dancer would drive you crazy."

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Aftermath

Last night Jenna and I decided to go visit Alyssa at work. We had just sat down with our first drink, when Frank walked up. He joined our table and chatted with us for a bit, but I could tell there was something he wasn't saying.
My first thought? "OMG he knows about me and The Albanian!"
They're best friends, DUH! Why didn't I think of this???
((Sigh))
Well, I was right in assuming The Albanian had told him, but I guess it's not too bad! I talked to Frank today to get the inside scoop. He said The Albanian is not regretful or any of that, he's just "whatever". So I guess I can be "whatever" too. It's kind of a relief actually.
But why is it so hard to find a connection?? I mean, as much fun as I'm having, I just wanna have someone to come home to at the end of the night. Is that so much to hope for??
And for all you haters out there, I don't see any harm in kissing! At least I'm not sleeping around. That's all I'm gonna say about that.
Anyway, Jenna's all gung-ho about moving to NY with me. It's kinda funny actually. But I'm glad she wants to come too, cuz then I won't be completely alone in a huge foreign city! And we would most likely have to share a 1 bedroom apartment, but...that's ok. We're family!
Ok, I don't think I've ever mentioned this before, but I have 4 kittens living in my bedroom. Lol. My cat had them a couple months ago and they're all running around like little terrors!! I swear, they get into everything.

I've gotta work tonight, but at least I don't have to sweat it about seeing The Albanian. He'll be at the Shinedown concert with Frank. Well, I'm off to go get ready!

Mitch Of The Day:
"It's very dangerous to wave to people you don't know because what if they don't have a hand? They'll think you're cocky. "Hey look what I got! I'm gonna go...pick somethin' up.'"

Monday, August 20, 2007

"Work And Play, Are Never Ok, To Mix The Way We Do"

So last night, Evan was at Sophie's graduation party. I had totally forgotten that he was gonna be there! And it was mostly family and stuff, so I could totally tell he was feeling a little out of place. I tried to hang out with him and stuff, but I kept getting sucked into conversations with aunts and uncles and various other relatives. But, I guess, overall, things weren't that awkward. Except that I knew what both of us were thinking...
Well, around 8:15, Evan said he was ready to go, and so was I since I had to be up at work by 9 to catch the party bus. So I drove him to his car, and I was halfway hoping he would, I dunno, kiss me or something! But he didn't. And then I left. ((sigh))
I was late for the bus, and Frank kept calling and asking how close I was. I was probably going like 90mph down the freeway trying to make it on time! But we ended up having to wait on some other girl too, so it was all good. The bus was awesome! I sat behind Frank, in front of Gavin, diagonally across from The Albanian, and next to this really cute guy I'd never met, who introduced himself to me as Billy. Turns out he works at the new bar that just opened around the corner. It was almost overwhelming! I didn't know which guy to flirt with! Haha.
So I flirted with all of them!
When we got to the pool hall, we were like the only people there. Granted, there was about 30 of us, so it didn't matter! We all got drinks and I mingled for a while. Alyssa and her boyfriend showed up about an hour later, and I hung out with her. I talked to Gavin a little bit, but not as much as I would have liked. We took some shots, and talked about the upcoming Incubus show. I still don't know who I am gonna go with!! I'm almost freaking out...((huff!))
Then I had a long conversation, and some shots with Billy, and he's really sweet and kinda hot too. ;) He told me to come into his bar this weekend, which I just might!
Well, at some point, I ended up sitting and chatting with Frank and The Albanian. And that's where I stayed for most of the rest of the night. Except when we briefly went to the dance floor to watch Mark bust some of his moves. SO HOT. Haha.
Then after a while, Mr. P. (one of the owners) rounded us all up to get back on the bus and start headin' back. I ended up in the seat next to Billy, who kept falling asleep, and I kept hitting him to wake him up. Haha! But even though I was sitting next to him, I was still talking to Frank and The Albanian. So when we got back to our work, we decided to go eat! Me and a former employee named John, rode to the restaurant in The Albanian's car. We ate at this really awesome Greek restaurant! Frank ordered for me and I don't even know what it was, but it was delicious! Gavin showed up at the restaurant too, along with DJ (he's our DJ on weekends so that's what I'm calling him). I went and sat next to them for a little while, but again...I'm just not gettin any vibes from Gavin, so I think it's pretty much hopeless.

When the waitress came, The Albanian told me he'd already taken care of my tab, which I scolded him for! But he's a sweetheart. Then we got back in the car to head back to work and get our cars. The Albanian asked me if I would be ok to drive back home. I told him I probably would, but I wasn't sure if I'd make it without any gas. I hadn't had time to fill up on my way, and all I had was cash! So he just pulled a U-turn in the middle of the street and announced that he was taking John and I back to his apartment. He warned us that it was a small efficiency apartment, and all he had was one bed and a futon. I laughed and called the bed!
The apartment was adorable! Small, but very cozy and neat. I jumped on the bed as John pulled out the futon. The Albanian got us some water and turned on the TV. By the time I was under the covers, John was already snoring! So The Albanian gets in bed next to me and we just started chatting away. About nothing and everything...work, jobs, school... Then I started teasing him about how drunk he was up at work a couple nights ago. I was totally joking but he was like, "What!? What did I do??"
"Ohhh, I'm not telling!" I replied coyly.
"Come on, just tell me! I don't want the people at work to think I'm an idiot! I mean I am their manager ya know..."
"Who cares?! Do you know how many times I've made an idiot out of myself at work!?" I rolled my eyes at him.
"Yea well, I didn't do anything that bad! I didn't kiss anyone!" he teased.
"Yea yea...well you did something equally embarassing! I think we're probably even!" I lied.
"Oh nooo we're not. We're definitely not even." he protested.
"How do you figure? You don't even know what you did! What is it you're thinking would make us even?" I asked innocently.
"This would make us even." he said as he pulled my face to his and planted a knee-buckling kiss on me. Well, it would have been knee-buckling if I'd been standing. And once we started kissing...omg. It was almost like he was nervous...or surprised at his own actions maybe. I could feel the charge in his lips; it was like he was shaking! And we just...made out. For a while. It was so awesome, and yet so innocent. He was a total gentleman. I mean he's definitely not prude! But when I would casually push his hand in a different direction from where he was originally headed, he wouldn't try it again. And it was definitely passionate. And no clothes came off!
I'm getting goosebumps right now, and my heart's probably beating a mile a minute just thinking about it!
At one point I told him we should stop, because I wasn't sure how much longer my self-control was gonna hold up. So we eventually fell asleep. Then this morning he took John and I back to our cars, and it was like it had never happened! I'm not sure if I want to pursue this now, or if I wanna give Evan a chance, or what. Both of them are really sweet, really good guys. Not douche bags at all. But, I also have major issues with both of them. Evan is a good friend, and The Albanian is too much like my ex. ((Sigh))
Well I kind of wanted to feel things out with The Albanian, so I sent him a text as I was driving home that said thanks for everything last night, I really appreciate it. And his responses were so...detached, it was almost irksome! He just said, "No problem."
Then I wrote, "Well we're definitely even now ;)"
His response: Yes sure.
My response: I'm not trying to freak you out or anything...
He never wrote back again.

WTF??
Does he regret kissing me? Does he think of it as a drunken mistake? Does he just not wanna go there because he's technically my superior at work? Is he embarassed?? Ashamed??? AHH!!
I'm so confused...

Mitch Of The Day:
"My friend said to me, "You know what I like? Mashed potatoes." I was like, "Dude, you have to give me time to guess. If you're going to quiz me you have to insert a pause.'"

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Boy...Friends??

Friday was so much fun! I picked up Sophie from the airport, and we went straight to the spa to get pedicures. I caught her up on all my boy drama, while we relaxed and got our toes painted. Then I went home and got ready for work.
Friday, Sophie went to work with my mom, and I went to the mall to get something to wear. I bought Sophie a new top and a pair of shoes, because I knew she most likely wouldn't have anything appropriate to wear out to midtown. I also got myself a sexy new black top. Sophie loved the outfit I picked out for her! When she got home, I was already ready to go, so I made her sit while I did her hair and makeup. She looked absolutely fabulous when I was done!
We met up with Melissa at Friday's for dinner and cocktails. I ran into an old friend from high school while I was there too! We'll call him The Thespian because he was all into theater and acting back then. He invited me to a housewarming party he was throwing Saturday, and we exchanged numbers, and flirted a little bit. So Friday's was fun, as always, although Sophie and Melissa were already heavily buzzed by the time we left. So not fair!
Well we got downtown, and headed to Rocbar, which happens to be one of my favorite spots. They play the most kickass music! The bartender bought us our first round of drinks, and then we ended up getting free shots from somewhere...it was awesome! Evan and some of his friends met us up there after about an hour. We also saw three girls from the last season of The Bachelor!! I totally got pictures with them, and then we all danced on top of the tables. Over all it was a total blast! By the end of the night though, I was the drunkest one! So Evan offered to drive Sophie and I home. He had ridden with one of his friends, so he didn't have a car.
Sophie invited him to spend the night since he didn't have a way back to his place either way. And that's when things got a little crazy... I dragged him into my room, I don't even really know what I was thinking! And we're laying in my bed, talking about who knows what, and he says, "I'm debating whether or not I should make a move."
I giggled, and before I knew it, we were making out.
And not too long after that, the clothes started coming off...
AH! Just thinking about it makes me feel...I dunno! I can't even explain it! We didn't have sex, which is good, because I'm trying to behave. But the weird thing is, I've just never really thought about Evan that way. I mean we've known each other since junior high school, and we've always been good friends, but we've never kissed, or anything! So when I woke up at like 7 am, naked, I figured it would be a good idea to get dressed and go to Sophie's room. It would only be a matter of time before one of my parents poked their heads in the door. It was a bit awkward, but no one was any the wiser. ((whew!))
I confessed to Sophie that we kissed, but I didn't give her any details. SHE thinks I should go out with him. And I dunno, I mean...I love Evan! I really do, but...do I really wanna go there??
I've done nothing but think about it since it happened, and he told me he feels really bad about everything because I was so drunk and all. But he was drunk too. Just not as much as me! And he said he thinks I'm "effing sexy as hell" :D I couldn't help but be flattered!
Ok. So yesterday, Vette Guy and I had plans. But by 4 o'clock I still hadn't heard from him! And I was starting to wonder... Then I get a text at 4:30 that says,

"Hey u..hope u hada good wk! i hav2go 2 england n tha mrnin and my bro just got back frm rangr training..can we get 2gthr when i get back?"

((sigh)) I should have known. I deliberated in my mind for a while about what I was going to reply, and if I was going to reply. I finally wrote, "I'll think about it."
His response was, "Umm ok..or not"
I said, ";) have fun in england you turd."
I decided to go with the flippant, idontreallycarethatyou'reblowingmeoff attitude. We'll see how that works out.
So I called up The Thespian to let him know I'd be at his party.
Which turned out to be really lame, and he kept hitting on me the entire night! Ugh. Not to mention I was exhausted from lack of sleep as a result of my little trist with Evan. So I tried my hardest to get the hell out of there. Now I have a persistant and very annoying admirer. ((sigh)) I dunno what I'm gonna do about him.
But as I was driving home from The Thespian's party, I just kept thinking about Evan. And what's the worst that could happen if we tried dating?
Well for one, it could go terribly wrong and I could lose his friendship...
But maybe it could be great! I mean he's a funny, sweet guy!
But everytime I try to cross that line with one of my friends, I start to feel weird and uncomfortable about it. And I've never been uncomfortable around Evan before. I don't wanna start now!
Well, I sent him a text at like 3 am that said, "What if, maybe, I liked you?"
I got his response this morning: "Get out! ((Elaine shoves Jerry)) I'd be shocked...I'm not really a model Peyton."
AAAWWWEE!! And I loved how he put the Seinfeld allusion in there! It made me laugh, and we both totally love Jerry. ((sigh))
WHAT DO I DO!?

Sophie's graduation party is tonight, followed by the work outing. I'll post again tomorrow.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I was at this casino minding my own business, and this guy came up to me and said, "You're gonna have to move, you're blocking a fire exit." As though if there was a fire, I wasn't gonna run. If you are flammable and have legs, you are never blocking a fire exit."

Friday, August 17, 2007

New Beginnings?

Sophie's here!! YAY! We're hittin' the town tonight and I literally cannot wait! I'm gonna dress Sophie up and do her makeup. She's never been one for getting dolled up, but tonight, she will be! It's Friday's at 8 for dinner with Melissa n' company, and then heading to midtown for some party time!
Tomorrow is my date with Vette Guy. Melissa says maybe he likes me, but he's insecure and doesn't know how to act around me or something, which is why he tries so hard to impress me... I dunno. I guess I won't really know what's going on till tomorrow night. But I know what's not gonna happen!
I don't even know where we're going. He better not be planning on taking me back to that same restaurant as last time! He needs to get creative. I'm gonna try to get him to take me roller skating. Haha!
Anyways, last night was relatively uneventful, as usual. ((sigh)) I think Gavin has started seeing someone or something. He never hangs out after work anymore, and he just doesn't seem...interested like he did before. And I don't seem to be getting anywhere on that front. So, I give up. I'm moving on.
Speaking of moving on...I may have a job opportunity in New York City. And I'm really considering taking it. I mean...I really want to move out of my parents house, I know I don't want to stay in Texas forever, and what exactly am I doing?? I'm just...floating. ((sigh)) The thing is, I've made new friends here, and I like my job, even though it's just bartending part-time. I was planning on keeping my bartending job even once I did get a real job. Just because it's fun! But I think I seriously might look into this job. I would be someone's personal assistant. I don't know any details yet. My best guy friend Todd's mom works for BP as like the head hauncho's secretary. So she has a lot of connections. And someone she used to work with, told her about this job. So she told me yesterday she's going to get in touch with him and try to find out some details. I know it doesn't really have anything to do with my degree, but I don't care. I just want a job that has benefits, that I enjoy. And I think I could enjoy this. Especially living in NY! I'm such a city girl! And that would definitely make some great blog entries... So we'll see.
Sunday is the Annual Summer Employee Outing! We're all taking a charter bus fully stocked with alcohol to this Texas country concert. I've never really been a huge fan of country, but I am a huge fan of friends and booze! Haha. It's gonna be so much fun, I can't wait! Sophie's graduation party is that night at 6 though, and we're supposed to meet at work at 9, so I'm gonna be cutting it close! But, I cannot miss this!! Sophie doesn't mind anyways, she's got friends to catch up with here.
Anyways, I'm gonna try my hardest to post more, it's just that I don't always have anything interesting to write! So I usually wait until I have enough dirt to post a new entry.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I saw a human pyramid once. It was totally unnecessary."

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

A Girl Can Only Dream...

Last night I had the most amazing, most vivid dream about Gavin! We kissed, of course, and it was incredible! And then I woke up. ((sigh)) And now I'm as impatient as ever to kiss him for real! We didn't do anything Saturday night! I'm starting to think this is never going to happen. GRRR!!! Maybe I should just be patient and let the pieces lie where they fall. Not like I have any other options at this point...
So, Vette Guy called me again today. I finally answered and he's taking me out to dinner Saturday night. ((sigh)) Probably a bad idea but it's not like I have anything else going on... And I know what you're thinking and I'm NOT gonna sleep with him! I just need to go on a good date!
My sister, Sophie's coming into town Thursday! I can't wait! She'll only be here a few days but it'll be enough time for us to have some sisterly bonding time.
Friday night, Melissa, Sophie and I are going out. Saturday night is my date. Sunday night, employee outing! Another opportunity to hang out with Gavin, but I'm not holding my breath.

Mitch Of The Day:
"I can whistle with my fingers, especially if I have a whistle."

Saturday, August 11, 2007

DiZzY...

Well...I have kind of a lot to write, and hardly any time to do it, so here goes.

Thursday
Melissa's little sister Dee's 21st birthday celebration. We started early at Friday's with dinner and mojitos, then headed to midtown, to my bar, of course! We had a blast, and I had a little too much to drink. Eric The Skeaze showed up, and I ended up making out with him again. ((sigh)) Old habits die hard I guess. Oh well. No harm done. Said a brief hello to Gavin on my way in, but didn't have much opportunity to talk to him after that. Poo.

Friday
Frank asked me to dinner. Yea. Ugh. So much for my new roommate. I could be overreacting though, tell me what you think! He texted me Friday afternoon to see if I was working. I told him yes, at 10. Then he replies, "Want to go get something to eat before we go to work?"
I told him I didn't have time, which was true, even though I would have made up an excuse regardless. So...yea. Don't know what to make of that one.
Also, my phone had died because I'd forgotten to put it on the charger when I got home Thursday. So when I turned it back on, naturally I had texts and voicemails waiting. I had a voicemail from someone who sounded familiar but I couldn't quite place it...
"Hey it's me. I was just wonderin' if you wanted to come hang out by the pool. So...gimme a shout whenever you get this. Late."
I pressed the call-back button.
OMG. It was VETTE GUY!!
WTF?! What is he thinking calling me and saying, "hey it's me" like I just know who the hell "ME" is!? Like we just chatted over cocktails yesterday! Ugh. I did NOT call him back.
So when I got to work, I was the floater, which means they kept sending me back and forth between the 2 bars, depending on who was busier.
So I did something kind of out of character last night. I gave my number out to a guy at the bar. The only reason I can come up with as to why I did that is because he just looked like someone I wouldn't normally go for. And maybe I should give some someone different a chance. Someone that I wouldn't normally go for. So we'll see...
Gavin was there, drinking. He got off at 9. I chatted with him a little bit, but I didn't have much down time and stupid Nick (another bartender) runs up in the middle of our conversation and says, "Gosh Peyton! I know you wanna make out with Gavin and all, but why don't you get to work!?"
He is SUCH an instigator!! And he loves to spread rumors. I know he's just messing around, but still, he's totally ruining my game!! Not that I had any to begin with, but hey... ((sigh))
So I kind of kept my eye on Gavin through out the night, hoping he'd stay till after hours so we could all drink and hang out. I saw a couple of girls flirting with him, and it looked like he was flirting back, but then I'd come back and he'd be back with his boys. So I dunno...
At one point, I saw him writing something down on a piece of paper, which I could only assume, was his phone number which he was going to give to one of those girls, but I never caught him in the act. Lol, am I a total stalker or what!? I just really don't wanna miss my chance, ya know?? So he stayed till after we closed, and I was closing out credit cards. And by the time I'd finished, he was gone. ((sigh)) My hopes were dashed, yet again.

I checked my voicemail again while we were counting tips. Vette Guy called again!! That's twice in one day! Two more times than he's tried to contact me in like...the last three months! What could he possibly want?! I'm still not going to call him back.

Anyways... I'm SO clueless as to how to go about this Gavin situtation.! I don't even know if he's still remotely interested in me! There's still tonight though, so we'll see... He'll be working till close, and so will I, and most likely, drinking will ensue.
Wish me luck!!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I wish I could play little league now. I'd be way better than before."

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Hope Is Dangerous

So last night, Evan and I went up to my work to visit Alyssa and sit in her section. I ended up staying longer than I'd planned, and drinking more than I'd planned. Haha! Frank met us up there too, and Mark was managing, so we all hung out for most of the night. Apparently, Mark used to belong to this traveling hip-hop dance group, and he knows all the choreographed dances to every Michael Jackson video ever! He refuses to dance for people, but he busted a couple moves last night, and all I have to say is: HOT.
I looooove a guy who can dance! SO sexy. Too bad he has a girlfriend. Haha...
Anyways, as I was checking my schedule, I couldn't help but notice that Gavin is working Thursday-Saturday. Which is good, cuz I'll be working Friday and Saturday, but bad because I won't get to see him till then, and I'm getting impatient!! I'm afraid he's going to totally lose interest if I don't get a move on. ((Sigh))
So last night was fun, I'm glad Alyssa's working there now. I'm going to suck her into the fold. Hahaha! We're supposed to meet for dinner tonight @ 8...I should probably get going actually.
This Thursday should be exciting. That new bar is opening and a buncha people are going. Melissa and her sister, Eric The Skeaze (I know...don't ask.), Frank and a bunch of people from work, Jenna, and possibly Alyssa. So I'm excited! And I'm sure I'll make a stop over at work to say hi to Gavin. ;)

Mitch Of The Day:
"I opened-up a yogurt, underneath the lid it said, "Please try again." because they were having a contest that I was unaware of. I thought maybe I opened the yogurt wrong. ...Or maybe Yoplait was trying to inspire me... "Come on Mitchell, don't give up!" An inspirational message from your friends at Yoplait, fruit on the bottom, hope on top. "

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Static

Unfortunately I don't have too much to write about tonight...
Work the past 2 nights was fun, but rather uneventful. We didn't go anywhere after hours last night because there was an employee meeting at 1 today, and I had to work too. Ugh...I got like NO sleep.
I have, however, decided I'm gonna go for Gavin. Alyssa said The Albanian totally reminds her of my ex. ((Sigh)) And I really don't wanna repeat all that.
There's a new bar opening around the corner on Thursday night. We all get passes, and I'm sure there will be more free booze. So I'm probably gonna go to that, since I'm actually OFF!
Melissa has a new boyfriend. Lol...I mean I guess you would say he's her boyfriend. But he seems really nice, so I'm happy for her. Mitchell is officially gone. And still no word from The Model.
((Sigh))
I can't believe my life has gone from so much drama, to absolutely nothing to report in like...a week. It's kinda crazy!
One thing I am pondering though...how do you get a guy that you work with to ask you out??
I mean, it's so easy to slip into that "hang out after work with everybody" routine. But I don't want that. I want dates. And door-opening. And chivalry. Not a lot, just a reasonable amount. I want to really date. So how do I get Gavin to take me out on a date???
I'm completely at a loss as to how to go about this. Especially since I don't work as closely with him. I mean, he's a door guy, and I'm a bartender. So I basically only see him when I'm getting to work, and then afterwards when we're drinking. IF we're drinking.
And that doesn't leave a lot of opportunity for flirting.
So what should I do? Any suggestions?

Mitch Of The Day:
"An escalator can never break. It can only become stairs. You would never see an "Escalator Temporarily Out Of Order" sign, just "Escalator Temporarily Stairs. Sorry for the...convenience. We can still get you up there.'"

Thursday, August 2, 2007

W-O-W!

Ok...for those of you that I may have offended, I'm sorry! That really was not my intention. I guess I kind of assumed, since you all KNOW about the horrible 3 days I just had, that you would understand my mood. Perhaps I was a bit snippish. Meh... Oh well.
But I've decided that the best thing for me to do, is just keep on writing, and basically disregard the comments as far as my blog is concerned. That doesn't mean I'm not going to read them, or listen to you guys. And I really do appreciate the advice. Believe me, I need it. That's one of the things I love about writing this blog, is getting the unbiased truth from people. However, I am no longer going to directly respond to anyone's comments in my blog. I'm not trying to become the Bedroom Blog with millions of readers or whatever, so if I lose a couple along the way, I'm not gonna cry about it. And if I get more readers, great! But seriously, it's just a blog.
And I really wish you all wouldn't FIGHT in the comments! Haha.
I know I can be incredibly immature, and I probably come off that way sometimes. But honestly, I am overall, a smart and together girl, who makes mistakes just like everyone else.
Perhaps I should go into a little more depth about my life. I told myself I wasn't going to do this, but perhaps it's necessary for you all to understand me a little better.
When my ex-fiance and I broke up, I had just finished my junior year of college, and I was happy and free, and all that. But my first mistake was getting sucked into a relationship I wasn't ready for, with a guy who definitely was not right for me. He had anger issues, he was incredibly insecure, immature, irresponsible...the works! I guess the reason I was initially attracted to him was because he was a "bad boy", and the complete opposite of my ex. I'm not gonna go into the gory details, but in the year and a half that I spent with him, he became jealous, possessive, controlling, and abusive. At first it was just snide remarks like, "you need to work out more", or "I don't like you hanging out with that guy".
Before I knew it, I had alienated all of my guy friends, and I had become deeply depressed. And to top it all off, I was in denial about everything. My parents hated him, so it become me and my boyfriend, versus my parents. All my friends told me he was an asshole, and even my sister warned me she thought he could become physically abusive, but I turned a deaf ear to all of it.
The biggest lesson I learned from that, is NEVER, NEVER ignore your friends and family. They're only trying to look out for you. And they want what is best for you. I stayed with The Psycho because about 9 months into our relationship, he joined the military, and I thought it might help him to grow up and learn to appreciate me. Through his training, it seemed like maybe there was hope, but when he came back, things were just worse. He would scream in my face, cuss at me, tell me to "shut the f- up", tell me I wasn't better than him, just because I went to college...and he would push me, restrain me when we fought, twist my arms till I had bruises... It makes me sick just thinking about it.
He never actually struck me, but there were several times, when I know he came close. His deal was, he just wanted to feel like he had absolute control over me. So he'd hold me down and scream in my face until I gave in.
And we fought constantly. Right before graduation, he began pressuring me to move across the country with him and be his "little wife". He wanted me to give up my friends, my family, my career...everything. I was sooo unhappy. I can't even begin to describe... And that was where the painkillers came in. When I got my teeth pulled, I needed them obviously, but when I was taking them, I just felt like I didn't care about my crazy boyfriend, or anything else. They just made me feel...happy! I never took them as a crutch, and I was never addicted to them. Just every once in a while when I was feeling really sad or lonely, I would take one and just go to sleep.
I finally broke up with The Psycho this past April. I told him our relationship was not healthy, and that I wasn't going to put up with his crap anymore. He threatened to kill himself. SO not fair to me. Especially after everything he had put me through. Leave it to him to be so selfish...
Obviously those were empty threats, but since breaking up with him, it was like having a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. I could talk to my friends again, I could do whatever I wanted! And I was happy to be moving back in with my parents actually, because I wasn't alone anymore, and I was surrounded by people who truly love me and care about me. I only just graduated in May, and I'm moving out in the next couple of months as soon as I get back on my feet. So I haven't been here too long.
As for guys, I'm trying not to settle. That's what I've always done in the past. I know it may not seem that way, but it's because as lonely as I get, and as much as I think I need a boyfriend, I don't want to rush into anything. And I'm starting to appreciate myself more, without a guy.
So I wanna date, I wanna go out with my friends, and I wanna get drunk and stupid sometimes! Haha.
This is the stuff of life.

Mitch Of The Day:
"My lucky number is 4 billion. That doesn't come in real handy when you're gambling. I'm gonna need some more dice...4 billion divided by 6, at least."

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Time Heals All Wounds...Physical and Otherwise

Apparently some of you are now passing judgement on me about the painkillers. And let me just say, until you've been in an abusive relationship, you have no room to talk. I'm not a pill-popper, or a druggie.
I'm 23 years old, I'm single, and I don't owe anything to anyone. I'm trying to enjoy the young years of my life while I can, and for the most part, I'm doing it responsibly. I know what happens when you mix painkillers and alcohol. That's why I only took half of one. And it was a vicoprofen, NOT a vicodin. So it's not as potent. We all have our own ways of dealing with depression and/or anxiety. Not to say that my ways of dealing are the best, but hey...if you don't like me, DON'T READ MY FUCKING BLOG AND KEEP YOUR RUDE ASS COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.

((huff))

Now I got THAT off my chest...my ankle is healing...slowly. Haha. I've been layin low and keeping ice on it. Alyssa is finally back from Cali and she's starting her new job today at none other than...MY BAR!! I got her a job cocktailing right before she left. So I'm really glad she'll be there to give me her expert opinion on the 2 dudes I'm currently crushing on. Haha.
Frank called me yesterday to make sure I was "still alive". He really is a sweetheart! I would never date him though, he's totally not my type. He's more like a...big brother type figure, if ya know what I mean. But I ended up talking to him on the phone for like an hour. He reassured me, that while I may be trying to block out the memories of Monday night, it really wasn't that bad, and I didn't make a scene. "You're one of us now!" he said. Haha... He just moved into a new apartment, and DUN DUN DUN!!! he needs a roommate! He's doing some work on it right now, but says it'll be ready in a couple months. Which would be PERFECT! I was thinking to myself I'd much rather live with a guy than a girl. All my girl roommates in the past have been unbearable. And guys are so much less drama! So hopefully in a couple of months, I'll have a little cash saved and I can move out, finally.
Also, I talked to May yesterday. She called and I figured it had been about a week, so I'd answer.
"Finally!" she said, "You can stop being mad at me now Peyton! You're my friend no matter what, so you're stuck with me!"
To which I replied, "Well stop being so flaky and I'll keep being your friend! I hope you learned your lesson!"
She assured me, she has learned her lesson. Apparently she had a complete meltdown the other day, resulting in a moment of clarity, during which she discovered she had completely lost touch with reality while dating her ex. Got behind in school, finances, work, friends, etc... So she's trying to get back on her feet now. Good for her I say!! I'm glad she's back.
Well, I'm working tomorrow at 10. I really hope I'm back on my feet by then, or else I'm screwed!!
Melissa and I are supposed to hang out Friday night, sans guys! Now that we're both rid of Mitchell and The Model. Haha! We've really bonded over that experience! Ugh...

Mitch Of The Day:
"I think Big Foot is blurry, that's the problem. There's a large out-of-focus monster roaming the countryside."