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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Time Heals All Wounds...Physical and Otherwise

Apparently some of you are now passing judgement on me about the painkillers. And let me just say, until you've been in an abusive relationship, you have no room to talk. I'm not a pill-popper, or a druggie.
I'm 23 years old, I'm single, and I don't owe anything to anyone. I'm trying to enjoy the young years of my life while I can, and for the most part, I'm doing it responsibly. I know what happens when you mix painkillers and alcohol. That's why I only took half of one. And it was a vicoprofen, NOT a vicodin. So it's not as potent. We all have our own ways of dealing with depression and/or anxiety. Not to say that my ways of dealing are the best, but hey...if you don't like me, DON'T READ MY FUCKING BLOG AND KEEP YOUR RUDE ASS COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.

((huff))

Now I got THAT off my chest...my ankle is healing...slowly. Haha. I've been layin low and keeping ice on it. Alyssa is finally back from Cali and she's starting her new job today at none other than...MY BAR!! I got her a job cocktailing right before she left. So I'm really glad she'll be there to give me her expert opinion on the 2 dudes I'm currently crushing on. Haha.
Frank called me yesterday to make sure I was "still alive". He really is a sweetheart! I would never date him though, he's totally not my type. He's more like a...big brother type figure, if ya know what I mean. But I ended up talking to him on the phone for like an hour. He reassured me, that while I may be trying to block out the memories of Monday night, it really wasn't that bad, and I didn't make a scene. "You're one of us now!" he said. Haha... He just moved into a new apartment, and DUN DUN DUN!!! he needs a roommate! He's doing some work on it right now, but says it'll be ready in a couple months. Which would be PERFECT! I was thinking to myself I'd much rather live with a guy than a girl. All my girl roommates in the past have been unbearable. And guys are so much less drama! So hopefully in a couple of months, I'll have a little cash saved and I can move out, finally.
Also, I talked to May yesterday. She called and I figured it had been about a week, so I'd answer.
"Finally!" she said, "You can stop being mad at me now Peyton! You're my friend no matter what, so you're stuck with me!"
To which I replied, "Well stop being so flaky and I'll keep being your friend! I hope you learned your lesson!"
She assured me, she has learned her lesson. Apparently she had a complete meltdown the other day, resulting in a moment of clarity, during which she discovered she had completely lost touch with reality while dating her ex. Got behind in school, finances, work, friends, etc... So she's trying to get back on her feet now. Good for her I say!! I'm glad she's back.
Well, I'm working tomorrow at 10. I really hope I'm back on my feet by then, or else I'm screwed!!
Melissa and I are supposed to hang out Friday night, sans guys! Now that we're both rid of Mitchell and The Model. Haha! We've really bonded over that experience! Ugh...

Mitch Of The Day:
"I think Big Foot is blurry, that's the problem. There's a large out-of-focus monster roaming the countryside."

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I just read over all of your comments, and I don't understand why you're so angry. It looks like people were just telling you to be careful about taking pills while drinking. I mean, yeah, one person said she wasn't a fan of you most likely, but there's no reason to yell at the people that were just makings ure you were being safe.

Peyton said...

I deleted some.
:D

the goddess said...

yeah.... the first part of that blog just shocked me... :( ah... i see... i had hoped to see it so i can kick their asses... :) hehehe! anyway, hope your ankles feeling better now and that you didn't break your supercute high heels. :P but at least you're honest. keep it up gurl! :)

Chrissy said...

I totally understand where you're coming from! If people don't like what they're reading then they shouldn't keep reading this blog anymore! I look forward to reading this (you kind of remind me of me). Keep up the good posts!!!!!

Just me said...

You kick ass girl! That's the best additude you can have when doing these types of things(blogs)....that people can either like it or get over it! I, for one, love it!

Anonymous said...

Love this blog.......I agree whoever doesnt have anything good to say about this shouldn't read it.........my gosh just keep your nasty comments to yourself.....but you know we all are going to tell you to be safe...haha we dont want anything happening to you!!

Jess said...

Well I didn't care about the painkiller/alcohol mix. It's your life. But the way you reacted was overly bitchy. And I will quit reading your blog because of the way you just acted. You just lost yourself a lot of people who liked your blog, me included. You have a lot of growing up to do.....

Anonymous said...

I agree that you are shockingly immature for your age. Living with your parents but unable to save any money? Painkillers because you are nervous? Deleting blog comments that you feel are unflattering toward you? Give me a break! Your blog doesn't compare to Bedroom Blog and should not have been posted there as a suggestion.

Anonymous said...

I love your blog it reminds me of when I was your age...that sounds very grandmotherish huh? Well I'm not a grandmother just a 30 something mom who finds your blog funny and refreshingly honest about what it's like to be single and young.

mainegirl said...

Holy hell!! People sure do get worked up... I though the point of a blog was to get ideas out of your head- to give yourself a place to spiel... It's not fair to criticize someone about living with their parents either- have you looked at the economy lately? It's HARD to get a start, and harder to stick with it... I'm barely afloat!

Anonymous said...

Ahh yes mainegirl, but at least you are trying to float.. right? That's all i'm saying.

And as far as a blog's purpose being to get stuff out of your head.... the flipside of that is that posting a blog for the public to read opens you up and encourages feedback from that public. So.... if Payton didn't want to hear the opinions of others then she should have given public posting a little more thought before moving forward with it.

That's my opinion.

I don't feel that Peyton is a bad person, or a wrong person.. I just think that she has a lot of growing up to do. Yes, you are correct that this is her forum to vent and use as she wishes but she needs to realize what it looks/sounds like and in that process maybe some growth will happen for her.

Anonymous said...

OH MY GOD!!! you are all telling Payton to grow up? I think that the only ones that need to grow up are you guys. This is for entertainment purposes. And yes, she did make it public, but not to be critized by people, making her sound like she has a drug problem, and now she's so immature that ppl will stop reading the blog, and you even have something to say about where she lives. get over your selves.

she's young, she's having fun, and just because some of you might not agree with her, doesn't mean that you have to get all carried away and try to make her feel like crap.

peyton, please do not listen to these crazy ppl and keep blogging the way that you have been.

dee

Anonymous said...

I agree with both sides...
It is unfair to post rude or demeaning comments for this blog: if you dont like it, dont read it, simple as that. On the other hand, the people who do read this ARE entitled to their own opinions, whether they might come off not as accepting as others or not. Peyton would have known this when she opened up her life to the world. Thats why she has kept peices of anonymousity. SO. My point being, be careful how your comments might be read like after they are posted, respect other's opinions, and to the people responding to others comments rudely, you're just as bad!

Anonymous said...

Ok, this is her real story. It's not like she is writing a made up story like once in this life or Erica's blog or bedroom blog. This is what really goes on in her life and that means she can put anything on here that she wants.

I've written one for 2 years and some of mine sound goofy, serious, ridiculous, fun...whatever. It just depended on my mood. So people need to realize that everyone does shit that others don't approve of and if you don't like it then go away. I'm sure the people on here who have "disapproved" of peyton have had others disapprove of them somtime throughout their lives as well.

:^) Peyton, your blog rocks. Don't change a thing!

Robyn said...

Ha! People make me laugh.

Seriously, its your life, your blog, and you can do what you want with it. Forget the other people. They don't know you.

And seriously, whoever you are who keeps coming back and posting about how immature she is and how she needs to grow up, you clearly have some issues of your own to work out. For someone who doesn't like this blog, you certainly come around to it a lot. And for someone who is telling everyone else to be more mature (I'm assuming like yourself), you certainly enjoy picking fights. I think its just about time for you to check out your own life and make sure its in fine shape before getting after someone elses.

Mimi said...

holy crap... its just a blog. the world is not going to end... im giggling though... im in a similar situation as peyton..... it happens.. we all will get oever it eventually. and for preople to ay " well im not reading your blog anymore" kinda reminds me of.. " you're not coming to my birthday" haha! weve moved beyond high school to elementary.... i always wanted to be a kid again!!! wo hoo!!