Annnnd yet another one of my friends has gotten married. My good friend Dan from college. He was always that dorky, irresponsible, perpetually single guy that you never thought would end up married.
Married.
On Sunday.
((Sigh))
I am happy for him, I mean, as goofy as he was back then, he's a good guy. I just...can't help but wonder if I'll ever get married, and how long I'm gonna have to wait around. ((Sigh))
I mean I love Brandon, and he's the best boyfriend I've had yet, but I know he's not thinking about marriage. And I don't think he will anytime soon.
Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm sitting around, pining, and planning my dream wedding in my head or anything. Just every once in a while, I see someone's wedding photos, or you know, another one of my married friends pops out a baby, and I just wonder if my life will ever get past this...plateau.
Did I mention that Izzie had her baby?? I really need to get up to Austin and see them!
Anyways, I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. I'm at a point in my life where this transitional phase needs to end, but I don't know how to make the next step forward. I think I know which direction I wanna go it, but how??? Practically nobody's hiring right now!
And every time I do a job search, if I manage to find an open position, the description is filled with all this...technical jargon that I can hardly understand! How am I supposed to know if I'm qualified if I can't even understand what the job position is??? ((SIGH!)) It's so frustrating.
I want to move on with my life. I'm tired of being a college graduate with nothing to show for it. I'm tired of bartending. I'm tired of living in an apartment, with no savings, and living paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired of living this...bachelor's lifestyle. I'm not even a bachelor!!
I'm a smart girl, I have a degree from a great university, I'm attractive, and outgoing, and I want a real job, and I want to get married before I turn 30!!!
Are any of my readers in their 30's? Have any of you been where I am, felt the way I'm feeling, and gotten through this?? Does anybody have some sound advice for me?? Cuz I could really use it.
Showing posts with label New Baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Baby. Show all posts
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Baby Presley!!!
Omg Cecilia had the baby around midnight last night. I was working, so I couldn't be there, but I jumped up outa bed this morning and dashed over to the hospital. Her name is Presley and she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen!!!
I mean seriously, most newborns kinda look like aliens, but she is just...so dainty and feminine and absolutely breath-taking!! It's so weird how you can fall in love with a baby so quickly! So I am now Aunt Peyton. :D :D
I spent most of today in the hospital with Cecilia, her husband Rob, and the baby. She's sooo quiet! Even when her diaper had to be changed, she hardly fussed at all!
So I'm really excited about Baby Presley, she's absolutely adorable!
In other news, Vette Guy called me last night as I was pulling into work! What are the chances huh?? He was driving back from McAllen, which is about 5 hours away from here. Another business trip, for modeling this time. Since I was just getting to work, I could only talk to him for like 5 minutes, but he said we should get together tomorrow (now today).
And believe it or not, I just got off the phone with him! He's on his way to some meeting for another fashion show, but he said it should only last about 30 minutes and then he's gonna call me. Soooo...we'll see. I'm really trying not to put ANY eggs in this basket. And my good friend Izzie is in town, so if he bails, I've still got plans to go out with her and Megan. Megan's wedding is in about a week. I'm thinkin maybe, just maaayyybe, if all goes well with Vette Guy, I might ask him to go with me. I hate going to weddings solo. It totally sucks. But I'm not sure things between Vette Guy and I are even at that point yet, or if they will be in a week. Actually, I doubt it. But hey, it's just an idea.
So wish me luck tonight!!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I like rice. Rice is great if you're hungry and want 2000 of something."
I mean seriously, most newborns kinda look like aliens, but she is just...so dainty and feminine and absolutely breath-taking!! It's so weird how you can fall in love with a baby so quickly! So I am now Aunt Peyton. :D :D
I spent most of today in the hospital with Cecilia, her husband Rob, and the baby. She's sooo quiet! Even when her diaper had to be changed, she hardly fussed at all!
So I'm really excited about Baby Presley, she's absolutely adorable!
In other news, Vette Guy called me last night as I was pulling into work! What are the chances huh?? He was driving back from McAllen, which is about 5 hours away from here. Another business trip, for modeling this time. Since I was just getting to work, I could only talk to him for like 5 minutes, but he said we should get together tomorrow (now today).
And believe it or not, I just got off the phone with him! He's on his way to some meeting for another fashion show, but he said it should only last about 30 minutes and then he's gonna call me. Soooo...we'll see. I'm really trying not to put ANY eggs in this basket. And my good friend Izzie is in town, so if he bails, I've still got plans to go out with her and Megan. Megan's wedding is in about a week. I'm thinkin maybe, just maaayyybe, if all goes well with Vette Guy, I might ask him to go with me. I hate going to weddings solo. It totally sucks. But I'm not sure things between Vette Guy and I are even at that point yet, or if they will be in a week. Actually, I doubt it. But hey, it's just an idea.
So wish me luck tonight!!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I like rice. Rice is great if you're hungry and want 2000 of something."
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The Good and The Bad
This is going to be the worst weekend ever.
I'm scheduled to work Saturday night. Yea, the night of the Incubus show, that I have really badass tickets for. UGH. I'm so disappointed. It doesn't look like I'm going to get my shift covered either. The other night at work, Gavin was hanging out drinking, and kept bringing up the concert. I know he was just messing with me but it just REALLY SUCKS! Mark said he would do everything he could to try and get me off, but he's scheduled to manage that night, so it's not looking good.
The other reason it's gonna suck??
The Model. He and Mitchell will be in town this weekend for a wedding in their family. And of course, they're gonna be at my bar. It's pretty much Mitchell's favorite place to go. So I'm gonna have to sit there and watch as girls throw themselves at The Model, and there won't be anything I can do about it. I never heard a word from him since the incident. What a complete fucking asshole. ((Sigh))
I do have some good news to report though. Cecilia was admitted to the hospital yesterday so they could induce her into labor. Something about her blood pressure... But I went straight there after work last night and she's doing fine. I hung out with her for like 5 hours. They had her hooked up to an IV and everything in the antepartum wing, while she waited for a room to open up in the labor and delivery area. She's there now, and they already gave her the pill. The doctor's gonna check to see if she's dilated at all in about....45 minutes! I have to work at 9 tonight, but hopefully something will happen before then and I won't have to miss it! I've been texting her all day to make sure she's doing ok. It's gonna be so exciting when her baby is born!! I can't wait!
Oh, and I've been meaning to mention that things at work with The Albanian and I have just gone totally back to normal. It's almost like we never kissed! But I'm totally ok with that. I just didn't want things to get awkward. And as for Vette Guy, I asked him if everything he'd told me was true, or if he was just saying what he thought I wanted to hear. He said he was being honest, but he's just not sure if he's ready for anything yet, and that "only time will tell". He also said he "better get to see me this week". I told him he better call me then. But I have yet to hear from him.
I'm SO over playing games with him. I'm just pretty much indifferent at this point. No word yet on the job in NY either. Oh, and just to clear something up, Vette Guy isn't moving anywhere! He just had a business trip.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I wanna hang a map of the world in my house. Then I'm gonna put pins into all the locations that I've traveled to. But first, I'm gonna have to travel to the top two corners of the map so it won't fall down. "
I'm scheduled to work Saturday night. Yea, the night of the Incubus show, that I have really badass tickets for. UGH. I'm so disappointed. It doesn't look like I'm going to get my shift covered either. The other night at work, Gavin was hanging out drinking, and kept bringing up the concert. I know he was just messing with me but it just REALLY SUCKS! Mark said he would do everything he could to try and get me off, but he's scheduled to manage that night, so it's not looking good.
The other reason it's gonna suck??
The Model. He and Mitchell will be in town this weekend for a wedding in their family. And of course, they're gonna be at my bar. It's pretty much Mitchell's favorite place to go. So I'm gonna have to sit there and watch as girls throw themselves at The Model, and there won't be anything I can do about it. I never heard a word from him since the incident. What a complete fucking asshole. ((Sigh))
I do have some good news to report though. Cecilia was admitted to the hospital yesterday so they could induce her into labor. Something about her blood pressure... But I went straight there after work last night and she's doing fine. I hung out with her for like 5 hours. They had her hooked up to an IV and everything in the antepartum wing, while she waited for a room to open up in the labor and delivery area. She's there now, and they already gave her the pill. The doctor's gonna check to see if she's dilated at all in about....45 minutes! I have to work at 9 tonight, but hopefully something will happen before then and I won't have to miss it! I've been texting her all day to make sure she's doing ok. It's gonna be so exciting when her baby is born!! I can't wait!
Oh, and I've been meaning to mention that things at work with The Albanian and I have just gone totally back to normal. It's almost like we never kissed! But I'm totally ok with that. I just didn't want things to get awkward. And as for Vette Guy, I asked him if everything he'd told me was true, or if he was just saying what he thought I wanted to hear. He said he was being honest, but he's just not sure if he's ready for anything yet, and that "only time will tell". He also said he "better get to see me this week". I told him he better call me then. But I have yet to hear from him.
I'm SO over playing games with him. I'm just pretty much indifferent at this point. No word yet on the job in NY either. Oh, and just to clear something up, Vette Guy isn't moving anywhere! He just had a business trip.
Mitch Of The Day:
"I wanna hang a map of the world in my house. Then I'm gonna put pins into all the locations that I've traveled to. But first, I'm gonna have to travel to the top two corners of the map so it won't fall down. "
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Loose Ends
Evan and I hung out the other night, and things were just...weird. I mean it was like neither of us knew exactly how to act, or if the other was thinking yes, no, maybe? So I said "Evan...I think maybe it would be easier on both of us if we just stayed friends" and he agreed. We've just been friends for way too long, and I don't know how else to act with him! So, friends it is.
I'm still waiting to hear about the job in New York City. I want it sooooooo bad! I mean, I know I need to get my life together. I feel like I'm falling in a black hole, and I don't wanna get stuck. And moving to a new city, with a blank slate is just what I need. I hope...
Ok, I know I said I wasn't gonna do this, but I just can't keep my mouth shut! If you're going to comment on my page, please don't patronize me or talk to me like I'm a dirty slut. Because I'm not. I don't sleep around. In fact, the only guys I've ever blogged about sleeping with, are The Model, and Vette Guy. And The Model is an enigma in itself... I would freakin' marry the guy if he asked me! I think every girl has that one guy that they will always go back to, no matter what has happened in the past. And he is that guy for me. Not because he's a model...because he's him! He's fun, and goofy and crazy, and before all the drama went down, he was someone I could just be myself with. Because we didn't have any pretenses. We were just friends...with benefits! As for Vette Guy...he was definitely a mistake, but I really liked him, and I thought it was going somewhere. And nobody is perfect! So why do people have to be so judgmental? I never thought I could receive so many hurtful comments from people just because I wrote something, and I was being honest about it. I wasn't relieved that The Albanian and I didn't have sex. I did not want to sleep with him. I wrote "and no clothes came off" to emphasize the fact that there was passion, but also innocence. So some of you may have misrepresented me in your comments. I'm not asking any of you to like me, and I'm not trying to win anyone's favor. I'm just chronologging my experiences in 20-something life for my own amusement. And I'm learning from my mistakes. Oh, and please don't start comment wars on my page either! As fun as those are to read, they get out of hand pretty quickly.
So if you're enjoying my blog, and you have some advice for me, good or bad as long as you're not bitching me out, then go ahead and comment. Otherwise, seriously?? No one's forcing you to read this. If you're so disgusted by me, then don't.
G's I hope I don't have to do that again...
ANYWAYS . . .
Cecilia's baby shower is this Saturday. Her cousin and I are hosting it. I can't wait, it's gonna be so much fun! I've never really been a baby crazy type person, but I really can't wait till she has her baby! Cecilia is my first really good friend to have one. I was talking to her on the phone yesterday, and I told her she HAS to call me as soon as she goes into labor! She promised I'd be the first one she calls (besides her husband) and that I can be there in the delivery room if the doctors let me. I've seen horses give birth, but never a person. Lol, and I dunno how similar that is, but I'm looking forward to it actually! I told her she might decide she doesn't want me in there with her, but she said "Whatever, bitch! You better show up with some Starbucks!" Hahaha! I so love her! I've missed her too, being pregnant and all. But we're gonna go have some girl time today. I have some shopping to do so she's gonna come to Target with me. And tonight, Melissa and I are gonna have dinner at Friday's before I have to go to work.
So today will be a great day for girl bonding!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I would imagine if you could understand Morse Code, a tap dancer would drive you crazy."
I'm still waiting to hear about the job in New York City. I want it sooooooo bad! I mean, I know I need to get my life together. I feel like I'm falling in a black hole, and I don't wanna get stuck. And moving to a new city, with a blank slate is just what I need. I hope...
Ok, I know I said I wasn't gonna do this, but I just can't keep my mouth shut! If you're going to comment on my page, please don't patronize me or talk to me like I'm a dirty slut. Because I'm not. I don't sleep around. In fact, the only guys I've ever blogged about sleeping with, are The Model, and Vette Guy. And The Model is an enigma in itself... I would freakin' marry the guy if he asked me! I think every girl has that one guy that they will always go back to, no matter what has happened in the past. And he is that guy for me. Not because he's a model...because he's him! He's fun, and goofy and crazy, and before all the drama went down, he was someone I could just be myself with. Because we didn't have any pretenses. We were just friends...with benefits! As for Vette Guy...he was definitely a mistake, but I really liked him, and I thought it was going somewhere. And nobody is perfect! So why do people have to be so judgmental? I never thought I could receive so many hurtful comments from people just because I wrote something, and I was being honest about it. I wasn't relieved that The Albanian and I didn't have sex. I did not want to sleep with him. I wrote "and no clothes came off" to emphasize the fact that there was passion, but also innocence. So some of you may have misrepresented me in your comments. I'm not asking any of you to like me, and I'm not trying to win anyone's favor. I'm just chronologging my experiences in 20-something life for my own amusement. And I'm learning from my mistakes. Oh, and please don't start comment wars on my page either! As fun as those are to read, they get out of hand pretty quickly.
So if you're enjoying my blog, and you have some advice for me, good or bad as long as you're not bitching me out, then go ahead and comment. Otherwise, seriously?? No one's forcing you to read this. If you're so disgusted by me, then don't.
G's I hope I don't have to do that again...
ANYWAYS . . .
Cecilia's baby shower is this Saturday. Her cousin and I are hosting it. I can't wait, it's gonna be so much fun! I've never really been a baby crazy type person, but I really can't wait till she has her baby! Cecilia is my first really good friend to have one. I was talking to her on the phone yesterday, and I told her she HAS to call me as soon as she goes into labor! She promised I'd be the first one she calls (besides her husband) and that I can be there in the delivery room if the doctors let me. I've seen horses give birth, but never a person. Lol, and I dunno how similar that is, but I'm looking forward to it actually! I told her she might decide she doesn't want me in there with her, but she said "Whatever, bitch! You better show up with some Starbucks!" Hahaha! I so love her! I've missed her too, being pregnant and all. But we're gonna go have some girl time today. I have some shopping to do so she's gonna come to Target with me. And tonight, Melissa and I are gonna have dinner at Friday's before I have to go to work.
So today will be a great day for girl bonding!
Mitch Of The Day:
"I would imagine if you could understand Morse Code, a tap dancer would drive you crazy."
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