Well he blew me off. Again. Said he "completely forgot!!" and he's just getting home from work, and he's coming off like a total flake but really he's not! Ugh. Why do I even bother with these things? It's a bunch of shite. I tried to be calm, and unemotional in my response. All I said was, "I understand, and that's fine, but I have to tell you it's kind of an inconvenience for me when we make plans and they get canceled that day." He, of course, never responded. So I guess that's the end of that.
I've been pissed off about it for the last 5 hours. I don't understand what I did wrong! But I guess it's better this way. He obviously is a flake, and a douche on top of that. So it's better I find out now, than after I've gone on a few dates with him. I just thought...Ugh, it doesn't matter what I thought. I definitely won't be talking to him again.
As for John, he's been unusually radio silent as well. I didn't hear from him today at all. I dunno, maybe it really isn't unusual. We used to go for months at a time without talking to each other. It's only recently we've been starting having conversations that span over days. I wonder if he's changed his mind about coming to visit. Meh. I'm sure I'll hear from him sooner rather than later. He's never been the type to play games. Like seriously. He's very direct, almost to the point of awkwardness at times.
Anyway, I had a piano recital on Sunday. I just played some old stuff since none of my new pieces are ready yet. But I played Claire de Lune, and this girl started crying! It was such a strange feeling. I mean she had an emotional connection to the song that had nothing to do with me; it was her late mom's favorite piece. But still, I've never made anyone cry before with my playing. It was very rewarding and also kind of awkward. I didn't know if I should comfort her or something? Lol. Overall, I feel good about the performance though, despite the fact that I wasn't as prepared as I normally like to be.
Well I guess I'm out of dish. I'll be back later this week.