Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Getting Fed Up

Today I had to do a photoshoot up at work, for a promotion they're doing for private football parties. Cameryn had posted a bulletin in the back telling anyone who was interested to show up at 4 in their favorite team's jersey.
So as soon as I pulled into the parking lot, the first thing I saw was Brandon's car.
You've got to be fucking kidding me! I thought, What is he doing here???
So I went inside and started setting up my equipment, and I immediately texted Cameryn.
"I don't mean to be annoying, but could you please send Brandon home, cuz I just can't stand the sight of him right now"
About 10 minutes later, Cameryn came out of the office.
"What happened??" She asked.
"Oh, you didn't hear?"
"....No..." She said.
"Well, Brandon broke up with my on Friday because he said he's not physically attracted to me...he's coming. I'll tell you about it later."
"I'm sorry!" She mouthed silently.
The next 2 and a half hours were absolutely miserable. I mean...I can't stand to look at him, let alone take pictures of him! Ugh...
He even had the gall to come up to me and say, "What's up Peyton?"
I did not respond, look at him, or acknowledge him at all, whatsoever.

After the shoot, Cameryn asked me what the story was her. I told her everything as I packed up my things.
She asked if I'd talked to any of our mutual friends, and if anyone had any insight.
"No, I mean it's not like this is the first time he's done this. It's always about him."
"If it had been me, I probably would have laughed in his face." Cameryn said.
"Yea, well...I wish I could have done that."
"Well...he cant just not be attracted to you, or he wouldn't have wasted his time with you in the first place." She said.
"That's what I thought, but apparently he's a really good faker."
I finished packing up my things and left immediately afterwards.
I still can't believe he had the audacity to show up to my shoot. Knowing I was gonna be taking those pictures! Is he trying to torture me?!? I mean wtf?!
Melissa's birthday is Labor Day Weekend. I'm taking a much needed trip to Austin.


Anonymous said...

so? you work together. you knew this would happen. it's kind of one of the down falls of dating a co-worker. you set yourself up for it. in the same way that it was "your" shoot it was for "his" work place. eventually you two have to grow up and stop avoiding each other or crying every time you see one another. sorry if i'm being harsh, but the whole "wahh brandon" stuff is getting old. it's like the 5th time he's dumped you. get over it. get over him. get under someone else.

HEATHER said...

it sounds like time away will def do you some good. you need to just stay away from brandon b/c obviously he's not the person for you and you can do so much better! you'll find someone who is nice and sweet and actually wants you to show them affection like a normal person :o).

Peyton said...

When you like someone, you like someone. It's not something you can control. Besides, when Brandon and I first started talking, I didn't know he was going to be working with me. But yea, now...it sucks.
And as for the photoshoot, it was a complete volunteer basis. And he volunteered KNOWING I'd be there. Not to mention, I don't see how that could even be convenient for him, considering he lives like 30 minutes away.
That's why I was "wahh brandon" about it.
I'm sorry if I'm annoying you. I'm hurting, and this just happens to be my outlet. So I stand by my words, as they are mine to write.

Anonymous said...

Hi Peyton,

Hang in there ok? As you know work stuff will happen and to be very honest he isn't going away.

You said at end of previous post, you wish Brandon was here. In this one, you said you couldn't stand to see his face. Which is it?

As for the Anon posting, I too an an Anon for many reasons (stalkers for one). You have two options:

1) Accept people's comments (good or bad) as you encourage the Anon check at the bottom or

2) Get rid fo the Anon under the identity.

Make sense?

Anna said...

Hi Peyton,

I am sorry you are going through a shitty time. Please ignore the rude anonymous poster. I don't see why anyone would choose to read your blog if it annoys them...Believe me, I have had my heart broken before by men who weren't worthy, and it sucks! But I do believe that if you keep moving forward, the pain will subside and you will find a new relationship that is much more satisfying.

I know the economy is bad right now, but this could be the perfect time to focus on your career goals. What did you major in at college? Even if you can't find full time work in your field right now, maybe you could start doing some intern or volunteer hours to build up your resume, that could lead to full-time work when the economy improves.

Also, I always find it helpful to try to focus on new hobbies or activities when going through a break up. Maybe you could find a fun class to take, or something? It would be a way to meet people who don't know Brandon!