I decided to just...stop trying. Just for a day or 2. See what happens. So...yesterday, I didn't call him. All day. He sent me a text at 4:40 that said, "Hey what's up!"
I didn't respond. I was holding my ground.
All day. He never called.
Today, I did the same thing.
At 5 o'clock, he sent me a text, same as yesterday, "Hey what's up!"
I waited 20 minutes, and then I figured I better respond, or he'll think I'm mad at him.
So I just said, "Hey."
"What are you doing?"
I waited another 20 minutes.
"Just got out of the shower."
And he never wrote me back! And he never called!
WTF?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM!?!! WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR TEACHING GUYS HOW TO BE GOOD BOYFRIENDS, BECAUSE WHOEVER YOU ARE, YOU MUST HAVE MISSED BRANDON!!!!!
((Sigh)) I'm so stressed out, about work, and money, and everything right now, and I could really use a shoulder to lean on, an ear to listen, and he's not even there! And he doesn't even seem to notice, let alone care that we haven't seen or spoken to each other AT ALL in 2 days.
I don't like this. I don't like it at all.
You wanna know who was there for me, who listened, who responded right away to my text??
He's been more of a boyfriend lately than Brandon!
It's just not fair. I'm in love with a guy who's been holding out on me because he's afraid to verbally affirm his feelings? Because he believes emotions are sign of weakness? Because he's too lazy to put the effort into our relationship? Because he takes me for granted? Because he's so absorbed in golf, that he doesn't have two shits to spare for me??
I don't know.
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!