I can't listen to music anymore.
Every song makes me think of him, or reminds me of him.
I flinch every time someone says his name.
My mom and I went and looked at some apartments today, and she really wanted to stop and eat at this one particular restaurant, which happens to be right across the street from his work. I almost had a panic attack. Seriously. My heart was racing, and my breaths were coming fast and shallow.
What is wrong with me?!
I hate feeling like he's angry with me, for any reason. It's unsettling.
And I miss him so much, that it's killing me.
Why won't he just email me, like last time.
Why won't he just miss me?
I don't know how much longer I can stand this before I start to come apart.