I don't know if I can do this. I miss Daniel. WHY do I miss him so much??? Why can't I just forget about him?! He's a jerk, and a waste of my time. And yet...I still love him.
Brady and I went on our first date tonight. It was nice to finally meet him in person. He's really nice and I like him and everything, but...I just can't help but think about Daniel. Everything Brady and I talked about made me think of him. It's like a virus! And it's spreading and I can't make it stop!
I dunno if I'm ready for this. Dating.
I thought it would be a good distraction. And it seemed like a good idea at the time... I thought I was doing so much better, I thought I was moving on...but it seems like all I've really done is bury him, deep inside of me. But he's still very much there, just waiting to resurface when I'm feeling most vulnerable.