Going Home

Get this...
I sorta forgot to arrange for an airport pickup for my flight back, so I posted a bulletin on myspace. You know, just to see if anyone would be able to come get me. GUESS WHO RESPONDED?!??

...JOHN! How weird is that??? I mean, things between him and I have definitely cooled off since our sleepovers. Absolutely nothing ever came of it. So I dunno...but he did offer to pick me up! Now I just don't know what to think. Hmm... Why can't guys just come out and tell you when they're interested?!

Anyways, I've been having so much fun here! Today, the family went to Universal Studios. It was fun, but exhausting! All that walking around...sheesh! But Sophie and I rode every single roller coaster and I got some pretty great pics! It was awesome. Now I can barely keep my eyes open.

In other news...remember Andrew?? My friend from high school that I ran into at the club a while back, and he's friends with Hot Dereck??
Well...he's expressed interest in me several times, and in the past I've always just blown him off because he's younger than me. Buuuut...now I'm starting to have second thoughts. I mean, we message a lot on myspace, and he always says the sweetest things to me! Like, when he was warning me about Hot Dereck, he told me that I was better than that and that I deserved someone who would appreciate me because I am a "prize". Lol. I can't help but giggle at that. Anywho...he's definitely a hottie, I'm just really apprehensive about the age thing. I mean it's only 2 years but...still. It's a pretty monumental 2 years if you ask me! And I know for certain that if I was to go there, it wouldn't be for keeps, ya know? Cuz I really want a guy who's older and who's got it together and stuff. Andrew's just....fun! So what's wrong with having a little fun? ((Sigh)) I'm starting to lose it maybe. I dunno... Maybe it's all the lack of sleep.

New York is in just FIVE more days!!! I can't believe it!
I haven't talked to Shane a whole lot since the Austin incident but...hopefully that won't happen again.
Oh, and as for Izzie, don't be too hard on her guys. I mean I know it wasn't her place to call me out like that, but we'd both been drinking, and I know she was just looking out for her friend. Izzie is seriously one of the most loyal people I know! We just lose sight of what's important sometimes.

Oh well! I really need to get to bed!
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I use the word totally too much. I need to change it up and use a word that is different but has the same meaning. "Mitch, do you like submarine sandwiches?" "All-encompassingly!'"

The Sunshine State

Well things in Florida are going pretty good so far! The drive up with my parents was pretty grueling but...I'm flying back, so that's a relief! Sophie, her boyfriend Brent, and I all went to go get my tattoo last night buuuut, I ended up not getting it because the guy basically said he couldn't do what I wanted. ((sigh)) So frustrating. But I might try at it again when I get back from NY. It's probably not a good idea for me to get it right before I go there anyways, since I'll have to take good care of it.
But anyways, we spent the day at Animal Kingdom and we just got back from swimming with my younger cousins at their hotel. So it's been a pretty exhausting day! Plus I've been on this diet for the last 6 days and it's been HELL! I pretty much can't eat anything but lettuce, tuna, and plain oatmeal. But I'm taking the day off tomorrow since it's THANKSGIVING!! You're supposed to have a binge day once a week anyways, right??
But the diet is totally working!! I can already tell! And I've lost 5 pounds!
Well, Sophie and I are about to watch a movie and go to bed, but I just wanted to give everyone a little update.
I hope everyone has a GREAT Thanksgiving tomorrow!
Love you all!

Mitch Of The Day:
"A friend said he wanted to show me a picture of when he was younger. Every picture is of you when you were younger. "'Here's a picture of me when I'm older.' 'Son of a bitch. Let me see that camera.'"

Save The Drama For Your Mama!

Hey guys! Thank you all so much for all your wonderful comments!! It's so great to know that I still have readers! The advice was great too; it really made me feel better!

So today, I'm leaving for Florida!! I'm so excited! Sophie and I are gonna have a blast, I know it. We're gonna go get my tattoo, go hit the town at night, shop (I'm sure), and on Friday we're going to Disney World!! Then I'll be back in Texas for 4 days before NEW YORK!!!!!! So that's what's goin' on with me right now. I'm bringing my laptop with me, but don't be surprised if I have no time to write.

So here's the latest dish... Izzie is in town this week for Thanksgiving, obv. And we went out on Friday, and had a really good time. Well, on our drive home she said, "So...what do you think of Megan as a bartender?"
"Why do you ask?" I raised one eyebrow suspiciously. Megan and Izzie are really good friends.
"I'm just curious!" Izzie insisted.
"Well...I mean, I don't really ever work the same shifts as her. She opens and I close. We usually only see each other as I'm getting there and she's leaving." I said.
"So, you haven't worked with her at all??" Izzie sounded skeptical.
"Well, yea I have a couple of times..." I answered hesitantly.
"Ok, well...what do you think of her as a bartender?"
"Uhhh...well she's very thorough. You know, when she opens, she always makes sure everything gets done, and she never hesitates to ask people questions when she doesn't know something."
"Oh. Well...Megan thinks you don't like her very much because of something you told Rikki on the phone." Izzie finally said.
"WHAT!?"
"Well Rikki told Megan that you said she wasn't as good of a bartender, and that's why she gets the opening shifts."
"Noooooo, I said she gets the opening shifts because number one, no one else wants to work those, and she does. Number two, that was exactly the reason they hired her, was to work those shifts. And number three, she doesn't have any full volume experience. I mean they weren't just gonna throw her to the dogs on a busy Saturday night! They always put people where they're gonna feel most comfortable." I explained.
"Well, I mean, you don't think she could work those shifts if she wanted to?? I've worked with Megan, and I know she could handle it! She only works the opening shifts because she WANTS to, not because that's what they're making her work." Izzie protested very defensively.
"I know! I'm not saying she sucks or anything, and it has nothing to do with how I feel about Megan, or my opinions, it's just...WORK!"
"Well, do you not think she's as good of a bartender as everyone else that works there??"
"I just know that she doesn't have as much experience! So it would be more of a struggle for her to work on a really busy night."
By this time, I was getting irritated. I mean it wasn't fair that I was being attacked for being truly honest and diplomatic about something. I love Megan! But Izzie continued to argue...
"Dude, she could totally work just as well on a busy night as she does during the day! I worked with her at Salt Grass, and I've seen her work under pressure!"
"Izzie...I hate to sound cliche, but restaurant bartending and BAR bartending are 2 totally different ball games! Different pace, different atmosphere, different clientele, different drinks! You can hardly compare the two! Like I said, I love Megan, and I do not, by any means think she sucks. She just doesn't have the same level of experience as the rest of us! She's still new. And I'm sure if she worked a few busy night shifts, she would start to get the hang of it, and be fine. They just don't need any more people for those shifts right now!"
I stood my ground because I don't think I did anything wrong! Rikki and I were having a private telephone conversation, which I honestly didn't believe she would go blabbing to Megan about. And Rikki specifically asked me why Megan and I never work together, and I told her. End of story. G's...

"Well, the thing is, Megan is really sensitive, and she doesn't like to admit it. And she came to me and told me she doesn't think you like her very much because of what you told Rikki. So I just think you should clear that up with her." Izzie replied.
"Well...what the hell am I supposed to say to her!? "Hey Megan, I don't think you suck."!?!?"
"I don't know...just ask her opinion on your bartending or something! That way she thinks you value her opinion as a bartender."

((sigh)) Do we ever leave the drama behind??

And you know what's funny!? When I got to work yesterday at 4, Alyssa ran up to me and said, "Thank GOD! We (the waitresses) can finally start getting our drinks on time!"
And when I asked what she was talking about she said, "Well...I love Megan and all, but she's just really slow."

POINT. IN. CASE!!!!

I have this incredible urge to run to Izzie and say, "I told you so!" but I'm sure she would just relay that back to Megan and then I'd be back at square one again so...I'm just glad to know that I was right!

On a lighter note, Bethany and I went and saw Mr. Magoriums Wonder Emporium last night after work. I was very....odd. But we had fun, just us girls! :)

Well, that's all folks! I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Keep giving me your advice and messages! I love you all!!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I hate turkeys. If you go to the grocery store, you start to get mad at turkeys. You see turkey ham, turkey bologna, turkey pastrami. Somebody just needs to tell the turkeys, "Man, just be yourselves!" I already like you, little fella. I used to draw you. If you had a couple of fingers missing, you would draw a really messed-up turkey. That turkey was in an accident!"

My 50th Post!!

Is anyone even still reading my blog?? If you are, I'd love to hear from you!

Anyways, it seems like a lot has happened since my last post, but not anything really worth writing about. Except that Shane and I got into a little tiff when I was in Austin. I'll start from the beginning.
Setting: 2 hot girls getting ready for a night out on the town in Austin.
Plot: Shane and Peyton head downtown hoping to meet some hot guys, and have a good time. Before long, they run into Tommy: your classic All-American, Ambercrombie lookin' guy. He's tall, blond, blue-eyed, and has a great smile. He's also funny, and goofy and outgoing. Naturally, Shane and Peyton both notice his charm. However, Tommy is very careful not to appear any more interested in one girl, than in the other. Well played. This conjures up feelings of jealousy, insecurity, and overall territorialness amongst the girls. As the night goes on, both Shane and Peyton vie for Tommy's attention.
But before long, Peyton begins to see past Tommy's pearly white smile, and hot body. She also begins to see past Shane's flirtatious gestures, and "sarcastic" (slightly demeaning) comments.
Break down: Tommy is yet another self-centered, self-gratifying, narcissistic douche bag, with too much money, and too many notches on his bed post. And Shane, although she is a great girl, has a tendency to surround herself with attractive girls, with the intentions of getting noticed by attractive boys. However, she turns into quite the green monster when any of that attention is directed at anyone other than herself.
So, as all the horrible memories of past douche bags are flashing through Peyton's mind, she begins to inwardly hyperventilate, and start looking for ways out of the situation, and away from Tommy!
Shane of course, continues to put up a fight. She "just wants to hang out with Tommy, not date him!" "He's just a really fun guy!" "He doesn't even compare to Dr. New York!"
But the excuses just keep on coming, and Peyton is becoming increasingly wary.
Finally, when the bar closes, Peyton manages to escape, with Tommy and Shane in tow of course. But now, Shane hopes Tommy will drive them to their car. Tommy, of course, obliges, and they all pile into his Porsche SUV. (Trust Fund Baby) Shane and Tommy exchange numbers, as Peyton stares out the window, seething.
As the girls are driving home, Shane continues to defend herself against her actions, even though she claims she did nothing wrong. And although Peyton wasn't opposed to throwing back one hot guy, she still felt slightly betrayed. After all, Shane has a "great doctor guy" in New York, in addition to the 4 other guys she is already dating. And it seemed to Peyton that Shane just wanted every eligible attractive male all to herself! Shane was very selfish indeed!
This really bothered Peyton, considering she's about to embark on a trip across the country with this girl! But maybe it was mostly the sting of losing. Losing a guy to a friend. Does that mean she's prettier? Maybe it's because she's skinnier...or because she's blonde? All these things were flying across Peyton's brain and she couldn't stop them. She just couldn't help feeling insecure...inferior. How does Shane play The Game so well??

Mitch Of The Day:
"I wear a necklace now because I like to know when I'm upside down."

Feed My Skeptic Side

Sometimes I am just filled with hope.
Hope for today, hope for tomorrow...

But, hope continues to let me down it seems.
Sometimes, all a person really needs is for someone to care.

I'm tired of waking up and feeling like maybe my life is a vacuous existence.
I need something, or someone to live for.
I don't mean "live" in the literal sense of the word.
I mean live, like really live.
To feel alive.

What do you do when your best just isn't good enough?

Why are people so selfish, and so afraid of taking chances?
It seems like every time I truly open up to someone, they hesitate- afraid.
Or they take advantage - selfish.

Is this what the world comes down to?
The Selfish and The Afraid.
Are you always going to look out for you, or just do what feels right?

I want to accomplish something meaningful.
Something I can be proud of.

And I want a kiss that is so real, I completely lose track of time and place.

I want change.
I need change.

Here ends my late night rant...

Dry Spell?

Not sure if I mentioned this before, but Shane is definitely coming to NYC with me and Evan! I'm sooo excited! And relieved...! I'll actually have a girl to go shopping with. And on top of that, she recently met this surgeon, who lives in NY, and has a boat house on the Hudson, and he's offered to put us up for 2 nights!! How perfect is that?! AH! She and I have been chatting on the phone about this trip non-stop since she decided to go. It's gonna be amazing!
I'm also making another trip to Austin this week. I have off Thursday and Friday for some reason, so I decided to take advantage of it and finally hit 6th on a weekend night! It's gonna be a blast!
I don't have much else to write about. I'm going through another bookworm phase. I'm currently right smack in the middle of 2 books. I dunno why, but every once in a while, I just get this crazy itch to read, and that's pretty much all I do in my spare time!

As for Hot Dereck, I've decided to actually follow my instincts (and your advice!) and stay away from him. He's just all around bad news. And how am I gonna find the man of my dreams if I keep flirting with disaster?!

The week before Thanksgiving, I'm going to Orlando to visit Sophie. The whole family is getting together at my uncles house for Thanksgiving dinner. He lives about 45 minutes outside the city. BUUUUUUUUUT...Sophie and I are going to get tattoos! Well, I'm for sure getting one, but she's not certain if she's ready. The last time I was in Austin, I doodled this really unique looking star on my wrist with black eyeliner. I almost went and got it done while I was there, but Sophie convinced me to wait so we could go together. And I've been redrawing it on every day since, so that I can really get used to the idea of having something permanantly on my body. I don't have any tats yet, but I'm excited!!

I'm starting to think the whole thing between John and I was totally bogus. I dunno what to make of any of it. He's just so...absent. Nick says he's just "weird". Whatever... Perhaps I'm just going through a dry spell. ((sigh))
Sorry this post was so totally boring. Hopefully I'll have more for you guys next time!

Mitch Of The Day:
"I want to ride in a cold air balloon. "This isn't going anywhere!""