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Monday, March 31, 2008

Breakup Blues

((sigh)) I miss BJ.
But I can't call him. He doesn't wanna talk to me.
He did write me a message on myspace last night though. I'll paste.

Well,
Now that I am at least a little less aggravated, let me take a second to explain how I feel. Mainly I was just a little hurt because obviously you don't feel comfortable in a relationship with me and that's fine. We are two totally different people after all. I mean obviously I am apparently a stupid frat boy with no redeeming qualities. Anyway I can't really just go back to being your friend so yeah sorry about that. Really I just wanted to tell you it was fun while it lasted and I probably will be done being angry by the end of the night. Well I hope all works out well for you and your parents ease up off you because all in all your not doing bad.
Bye,
BJ

Way to drive the knife in. Now I feel incredibly horrible, and guilty too. I mean, I shouldn't feel that way, because I did the right thing!
Right?

8 comments:

DDgirl said...

break-ups always suck...

Anonymous said...

follow your heart girl!!..... :0)

Anonymous said...

It kinda sounds like you need a break from men for a while. Seriously though, take some time to just really figure out what you want. It isn't fair to the guy when you beg him for a commitment and then freak out when he gives in. Which is kinda what this sounds like. You wanted him to be totally devoted to you and then when he exhibited that behavior you sorta wigged out and left him. We've all been down that road where we thought we really liked someone and then realized later we don't. I give you credit for realizing it early and being honest about it.

Anonymous said...

I guess all I can say is that I am disappointed in you Peyton. You were thoughtless in your behavior toward him, and had roles been reversed you would have been pissed, hurt and amazed. Look at how you do the things to others that you talk about having had done to you. It's unfortunate really. You need to grow up.

Anonymous said...

The right thing would of been not to lead him on in the 1st place. Being in a relationship should NOT be this hard! If you even have a hint of doubt, then don't take things to the next level! But don't string the guy along either. It seems to me you want what you can't have. You say you like a guy then when he shows some interest in you, you change your mind. As for your comment about the height of him and his member, your right, that was shallow. I think you did BJ a favor by ending things. You need to figure out what you want before you even start getting close to another guy or you'll never find your Mr. Right like you someday want to meet. Who knows, maybe you already had him and let him go?

K said...

Ok, don't listen to the other commenter about the height and member thing... it isn't shallow, it's a fact. And the fact is those are things you can't get past. They MAY be things you can get past if you are really in love with the person, but you weren't there with BJ. However, I do agree with the others... you really shoudln't have gotten involved in the first place and/or told him you wanted to be his gf. But I think you are realizing that, since you said you need to start thinking about the consequences of your actions more. Definitely take a break for awhile!!

Anonymous said...

take a moment and think before you leap into something with the next guy......and stop thinking the grass is always greener elsewhere....you might be actually missing out on something because you are constantly second guessing yourself.

Anonymous said...

you gotta do what's best for you.......i feel bad for the guy but its not like you were in love with him....once you start putting a guy before you thats when its trouble