Go Ahead And Judge...

I had a long talk with Sophie about the Todd situation. She says that Todd has never really been a go-getter when it comes to girls. I mean his last girlfriend's mom set them up, and it took him months to even gather up the courage to talk to the girlfriend he had before her. So she said that I'm definitely gonna have to make the first move. She suggested that I just wait till the next time he's in town, and ask him out on a date. She also said it'll probably be awkward at first, but that's just a risk I'm gonna have to take.
And as it turns out, I talked to Todd yesterday, and he said that he'll probably be coming into town the Saturday after Halloween, just for the night because his brother's birthday is that following Monday. So I just might have an opportunity to see him. He said he'd definitely call me when he got into town, but work is gonna be insane that weekend, so we'll see.

In other news, guess who's back in the picture?
If you guessed Brandon, then you're correct.
Last night after work, I went over to Tipsy to meet up with Bethany and Tug and a couple other coworkers. Well, as it turned out, practically our entire bar, including all 3 managers/owners were there! So it was like a huge work party. We had a blast too! And of course, Brandon was there, since he is now a coworker too. He bought me a couple shots and we hung out a little. His sister Summer was there, and she asked me about us. You know, what was going on and all. She said that he told her he really likes me, and he thinks I'm super cool, but he just doesn't want it to get weird with us working together.
"When did he tell you this?" I asked.
"Just today!" She said.
"Oh...how weird. I seriously thought he just wasn't into me or something."
"No no! Not at all! My brother is just...different than most guys. He's really picky about the girls he talks to, and he takes things really slow." Summer explained.
So that gave me something to think about.
So Brandon and I hung out casually for the rest of the night. I mean, obviously, I didn't wanna give my coworkers any ideas since that's something we are apparently both concerned about.
After the bars closed, a small group of us went over to this guy Sean's house. It was me, Blinn, Brandon, Bethany, Mr. S., and Tug. Sean used to work with Mr. S. and Mr. P. last year before his bar shut down, but I don't really know him.
So anyways, we all went over there and had a few beers before we decided to call it a night. Brandon and Blinn had ridden with me over to Sean's, but Bethany offered to drive Blinn home since I "had my hands full" with Brandon. So Brandon and I drove back over to the shot bar, where his car was parked. But he was definitely too drunk to drive, so I moved his car for him to our work parking lot. Then he came home with me.
We ate sandwiches and then got in bed and started talking. I told him that I talked to his sister, and I asked him to be straight forward with me. And he basically told me the same thing that Summer did. He just didn't want things at work to get weird, and he didn't want me going around telling people he was an ass or something.
"Well why would I tell anyone that? Are you planning on dicking me over or something?"
"No! I just...this is what I mean. I don't want it to get to that point where things are weird."
"Look. If, and when you start bartending, I am going to treat you exactly the same way I treat all the other bartenders. I don't want people at work knowing about my personal business any more than you do. Trust me. I'd rather them not know anything at all. So it's not going to be weird. I'm not that girl. I'm not a drama queen."
"Ok well good then. We're on the same page."

And then we started kissing... And one thing led to another, and before I even knew what was happening, he was undressing me, and I was pulling his shirt off... Omg he has the sexiest chest. I couldn't stop running my hands over it.
Well we had sex.
There. I said it.
And don't bother posting the nasty comments, because I didn't have to tell you we did it! I could have totally left that information out, but I figured you guys would probably like something nasty to read once in a while...
And considering the fact that we were both drunk, it was pretty good sex! I mean, we were both so uninhibited! There was none of that weird awkwardness like when we kissed for the first time. It was just so...natural. I wanted him, he wanted me, and we both went to bed satisfied.
And we cuddled. :)
I mean afterwards, we were both just kind of lying there, panting, and staring at the ceiling and then he said, "Come over here.", and he gestured to his side, and I curled up next to him with one arm around him and it was just so...easy. Comfortable. Nice.
But I'm not gonna lie, I did feel a pang of guilt when Todd popped into my head.
But, distractions, right?? That's what I need, isn't it??
I mean I'm not sure if this whole Brandon thing will last, or even if it will work out at all, but I do know that he makes me happy. At least for now. And apparently, all I can have at the moment is right now.
I'm not talking about Mr. Right Now, I'm talking about living in the moment.
That doesn't mean I'm gonna go sleeping with Joe Schmoe every time I get drunk, I just mean...it felt good to just let go, and give over to my more carnal senses for once, without over analyzing everything. I guess because I've sort of come to the realization that as long as I'm realistic about everything, and as long as I don't get my hopes up too much, I can still be happy, even if I'm not with Mr. Perfect (aka Todd).
And guess what else??
He asked me out on a date! A real date. Tomorrow night. Dinner. 8 pm.
And I'm nervous! Because I mean, it's been so long since I've been on a real date! I think the last real date I had was with Vette Guy. Ugh...
I just don't want it to be awkward. Especially after last night...
((sigh!))
So, I slept with Brandon last night, and I have date with Brandon tomorrow night. Lol. That is a little backasswards, but I'll take it!

Speaking of dates, TDH is still texting me! Today he asked me if he was gonna have to beg. I told him he was more than welcome to beg if he thought that would convince me. Ha!
What a tool. Taryn, one of my friends at work, suggested I make a date with him and then purposely stand him up. I laughed, but I don't think I could really be that mean.