Things with FB had been going so well. Our date went great, we hung out all day Friday, and made plans for Superbowl Sunday. He said he wanted to take me to a museum. And we'd also planned on going to the same Superbowl party. But then, Sunday rolls around, and I don't hear a thing from him. Not to mention he didn't call me at all on Saturday either, although he did text. But a text does not constitute a phone call. Well, I waited and waited Sunday, because I didn't know how I was gonna make plans, and then finally, at like 5, he calls...to cancel. He said he was tired, and burned out, and wanted to stay home and rest because his first day of work was Monday. Which would have been acceptable, except that 2 of his guy friends were over there playing Guitar Hero when I was on the phone with him. I was really upset about him bailing on me, since that pretty much ruined my plans for the whole day. And I'm sure he could tell I sounded not quite like myself on the phone. He told me to call him later. Which I did, because I decided, maybe he just needed a little convincing to come out with everyone. But he didn't answer. As usual. He seriously never answers my phone calls. I mean he pretty much calls me every day, but when he does, he never mentions my calls or texts, so it's like...I never called or texted! And I dunno what to make of that.
So today, I was just really pissed, and hurt, and doubtful. I mean, I hope this doesn't have anything do to with fucking Valentine's Day. I seriously hate Valentine's Day. It's just relationship jeopardy. Ugh. So I went and met up with Bethany at my work. A bunch of people were hanging out there for the Superbowl. Including Jake, the (not so new anymore) door guy who I happen to think is smokin' hot. And so, I started talking to him, and flirting, obviously. And he was actually having a real conversation with me. About like...what he's looking for in a girl and stuff, and how he actually wants to have a girlfriend. Blabla... And the funny thing was, everything he was describing was pretty much...well me! And I'm not being conceited! But he said he wants a challenge, not a pushover. Not someone who will be all about him and just do whatever he says, but someone who will talk back. Someone who's fun and not afraid to speak her mind. Etc etc... So I'm not really sure why he was telling me this, but then Bethany walked up and he was like, "I can't talk to you about this in front of her." And when I asked why, he just said, "I dunno...because I just...trust you."
How weird is that??
He ended up inviting me to hang out with him and his friend afterwards, and I got his number. But then he just went home, so we didn't hang out. And now I'm just really depressed about FB because I really like him and I don't want things between he and I to be over before they've even really started. I just don't know what to think. And I can't deal with him blowing me off and not answering my phone calls, but I dunno how to tell him that. So...I'm pretty much screwed. And I refuse to call him. Even if he calls me, I'm not gonna answer till like the second or third time he calls, because this is bullshit. I don't think I deserve this. ((sigh))
Why do guys have to make the simplest things so complicated?
I like you. You like me. What's so hard about that??? Maybe I should leave a note in his locker...
P.S. I can't believe the Patriots lost. Gay...
Demetri Of The Day:
"The digital camera is a great invention because it allows us to reminisce. Instantly. Puh chuck; 'Look at us! We were so young. Standing right there. Wow, where does the minute go?'"