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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Phase I: Infatuation

Rusty.
I've spent this entire past week with him. It's like I can't get enough of him! And it all started with his show. I went to watch him play, and it was like he became this...this amazing, talented, superhot, smart guy, who I can't help but desire. But then off stage, he's goofy and dorky and kind of shy. And I love it!
He's stayed over here a couple times, and I've stayed with him a couple times. Our dogs love each other too, so that makes things easier.
He wrote this entire song yesterday! Music, lyrics and all, and recorded it and played it for me today and it was...beautiful! Amazing! Ridiculously impressive. And it's not like I'm hero worshipping him or anything, it's just that I have so much respect for him, as a fellow musician. I guess... and I like him!!
I mean he's sooooo nice! He's really sweet to me all the time, and he's always telling me he likes me. I mean, it's just everything! It's the way he looks at me. The way he kisses me on the cheek when we're out. The way he kisses me on the shoulder when we're laying on the couch, watching a movie. The way he likes to hold my hand. The way I always wanna be near him. The way when we're apart, all I think about is the next time I'm gonna see him. The way he sings. The way he makes me completely forget about everything when we're together. The way he always wears those silly black dress shoes with everything. Lol. ((Sigh))
And apparently he tells all his friends about me, because every time I meet one of them, they mention how much they've heard about me. And I almost feel bad, cuz I haven't really told anyone we've been hanging out. I mean, after all the forewarning, and all the stuff people have told me about him, I just feel stupid telling people that we're dating. I dunno why, it's dumb.
But anyways...
I'm just trying to figure out if what I'm feeling is something real. I mean it's all so sudden! And none of it makes sense really.
So, how do you ever know? Is it love? Or just infatuation?

3 comments:

Just me said...

Well, all I have to say is, be careful. Not just with your heart but his too.

I know you said before that you didn't see anything serious before with him so be very careful to make sure he's not just a rebound. That happened to me after my 'first love' and I broke up. I started dating this guy and we were great for about a month....that's when I realized that he was nothing more than a rebound. It really sucked too because I hurt him pretty badly.

So, my advice would be to take it extremely slow so you can truely see how you feel for him.

Also....if it's true what people say about Rusty(hate to say it but kinda like daniel) then I don't want you to get burned twice in a row. I hope that doesn't happen to you again though!

remember......Nice and slow wins the race girl!

Good luck!!

Anonymous said...

Chill girl.. you fall in deep very quickly.

Ashley said...

Right now its probably infatuation, but that doesn't mean it can't be something more later. This time, though, try to take it slow with your emotions and watch out for yourself. He sounds awesome, though, so have fun too! Just don't have a repeat of the Daniel episode!