Sorry it's been a while since I've written. It's been a pretty hectic week.
First, I want to address some of the comments you guys have given me. I really appreciate everyone's advice and helpful anecdotes. But I think maybe I've been...I dunno. I don't wanna say harsh, because I know some of you think I make too many excuses for Brandon, but you all have to keep in mind that these are my thoughts. And obviously, they can be pretty one-sided, and biased. Sometimes what I think one day, and what I think the next day, are completely different! Brandon and I have been having a rough patch, obviously. And one reader pretty much hit the nail on the head with her comment. Brandon has been really overwhelmed, and we're still learning to find a balance in our relationship. But the good news is, it's getting better!
Today was our 6 Month Anniversary! And it was absolutely amazing. Brandon came over right after work. We had plans to go out to dinner at 7:30. I was still getting ready when he came over. I finished getting dressed, in a gauzy white skirt, and purple button-up halter, and then I walked into the living room, to find a beautiful bouquet of tulips on my coffee table in a pretty diamond shaped vase. I couldn't believe it! I mean I wasn't expecting flowers, or anything like that! Just a nice dinner and some quality time. So I was totally floored by the flowers. They smell amazing and they look so pretty in my living room! They really brighten everything up. And I smile every time I look at them. I thanked him with several smooches and then we headed out the door.
We went to a quaint, little Italian restaurant in the neighborhood. It's very picturesque with it's white linen table clothes, and the porch style patio with trees leaning over it. We sat outside, ordered a bottle of wine and had a wonderful meal. After we finished, we were both feeling a little tipsy, and a little frisky ;) so we decided that a couple more cocktails were in order. Next stop, a little brewhouse down the road.
As we were driving there, Brandon got really quiet. I looked over at him, and he turned to me and said,
"Peyton, I know everything sucks right now, and I'm sorry. It's probably gonna suck for the next couple of months. But I just hope that you'll stick around, because when this is all over, things will be different. If you just wait it out, I promise it will be worth it."
I sighed, "Well, don't worry. Cuz I'm not going anywhere yet."
He made another comment about reaping benefits and I teasingly asked him if this included lots of gifts. He laughed and said if I stick around long enough, there will definitely be gifts. He's such a sweetheart. I know he may not be the perfect boyfriend, but what matters to me is that he cares, and he tries.
After our next few drinks, we finally decided to go home. I mean I couldn't wait to get his clothes off, and from the comments he was making, I could tell neither could he.
As soon as we got the door unlocked, he whisked me in the bedroom and we had the most amazing sex we've had in a long time! Although, I must say, our sex life has also dramatically improved in the last week. Ever since I confronted him about the tickling thing, it seems he's made a mental note to get over it, and ever since, we've been busy getting busy!
Unfortunately, he couldn't spend the night tonight, but I can't complain after the dreamy evening we had! I'm really starting to feel like I can be optimistic about things between Brandon and I. And I can honestly say that I'm happy. I'm content. I'm happy and content with Brandon. All it needed was a little more communication. And maybe a little more sex... ;)