Tuesday, May 24, 2016


I wanted to blog yesterday, but my laptop charger stopped working and I was trying to save my computer battery before I went and bought a new one. Anyway...birthday weekend was a huge success! Lauren and Bethany and I went out for brunch, then some day drinking, and I finished the night off by getting together with Chris, and having some mind blowing bday sex. His flight got in at 5pm ON MY BIRTHDAY so it worked out perfectly. This weekend coming up should be a good one too, because Kyle will be back in town, and he says he's taking me out for a late birthday dinner. We've been texting all day. And I keep telling myself that I am NOT going to sleep with him. I mean it's been 2 years since I've seen him, so what's the rush? Maybe I can actually squeeze a few dates out this guy, who knows? All I know is, it seems like I'm actually having my needs met in the sex dept right now, and I want more than that. So I'm going to give Kyle a shot.
Speaking of the sex dept, that guy I hooked up with from Austin a couple weeks ago, the half Chinese really beautiful one with the longish hair? He texted me the other day asking me when I was coming to Austin and we were chatting for a bit. He made some comment about us sleeping in "my bed" and I was like, "Uh, what about YOUR bed? You're the one who lives in Austin, not me."

And he said, "Nah, I never let people sleep in my bed." RED FLAG!

So I said, "Why? Do you have a thing for bedwetters or something?" Trying to keep it light.

"Haha, no, it just always causes trouble."

"Trouble? What kind of trouble? Doooo you sleep in a cardboard box? Have voyeurs for roommates? Are you married? Wtf??"

"I do have 2 roommates, ya. And no, I'm not married, but I do have a gf."

"You're joking, right?"

"I don't lie."

"Well you failed to mention that when we met. That's considered a lie of omission. Now you're saying you wanna hook up again?? Clearly, something isn't right in your so-called relationship. Perhaps you should spend some time figuring that out instead of cheating on your gf. Because I don't want any part of that."

"That's fine, I respect that. I'm not trying to do anything you're not comfortable with. It's a long distance thing, and she's weird, but it is what it is."

This went on for a while, him basically making up excuses, and trying to convince me that it's okay for him to cheat, and me trying to explain that while maybe he thinks it's ok, I do not, and it's totally not cool that he made me a party to his cheating without even telling me! Then he was like, "Ok well you don't have to be so mean about it" and I was basically like, "HA! I'm not going to apologize for what I said. I was just being honest. You're the one who is in the wrong, not me."
After that I fell asleep, because it was late. He sent me like 3 more texts saying I should just let it go and not be mad cuz that will make me miserable. ((Eye roll)) What a dolt! Ugh. I'm not even mad really, I'm just so disgusted. I guess now I have to flat out ask every guy I meet if he's actually single!? And I'm really surprised that after my initial reaction of disapproval, he continued to text me as if he either cares what I think, or he still thinks he has a chance of hooking up with me. In fucking September!
I seriously don't understand dudes... I mean he is younger than most of the guys I date/hook up with, but I knew going into it that it was just a one night thing, I wasn't expecting anything else. Certainly not that he'd end up having a girlfriend! ((Sigh))

I made sure to ask Chris if he was single the other night. He gave me a weird look and confirmed that he is, in fact single. What a relief.


Anonymous said...

I'm kinda confused as to what your upset about. I mean you met a guy out drinking had sex with him that night and *gasp* he treats you like a booty call, wanting to hook up again and still keep his gf. Sure he didn't tell you but did you tell him about Chris? Your sleeping with someone else too, yeah he's not your bf, but still... I'd say take it as a compliment ( he thought you were good in bed and wanted seconds) and move on.
You can't be a party to the type of behavior your exhibiting and get self righteous about other people not having virtuous qualities. Seems rather silly to be honest.
Sorry I know u hate when people kinda "put you down" that's not my intention I just thought I'd be honest. This post confused me.

Anonymous said...

This confused me as well! I been reading since day one and my "gut" has always been you always over think = everything with "dating" or whatever you want to call it. Well, let me back that up. I mean in "meeting a guy" or "texting/call one you never met". From there, you seriously "over think" anything you do with "anyone" you might like = "friends" "sex once" "friends with benefits". Gut feeling again after all these years:

1) You're a sweet person
2) Loving
3) Go beyond for your real friends ( always have and been burned)
4) You have great qualities a lot will never have
5) Hard and ambitious worker
5) Overbearing
6) Think way to much into a future way before "date/whatever" after initial meeting/testing/phone
7) You're scaring 95% of them off

How do I know? I am an over thinker as well. However, I got married met the love of my life at age 15 1/2 in church (first time he ever came) I said to my bbf "I am gonna marry him someday" and I did at almost shy of 4 days of age 19.

We've been married at the end of March now 41 years. I was never overbearing/analyzing back then. Now that's changed a bit. I don't over analyze our relationship, I over analyze almost 50% of everything else!! Happens to most of us females at one point or another.

When you meet someone "just let it happen" think to yourself hey that was fun, and roll with it. Calm down and take control of "you're "brain". You're a wonderful person and take it easy and if you do, you will "find the love of your life". I am confident you will, you're smart, funny, exciting, but you're brain trying to "control" each thing you do with anyone you meet seems to just mess it up.

I like you a lot and yes I am female so I understand a lot and grew up fast. I was way more responsible back then yes even at age 15-35. It will happen just don't over think anything with all the men/boys/whatever you have met!!!!!!!! :)