Friday, January 18, 2013


Well I figure since I've got the writing itch, I might as well get you guys a bit caught up. So right before my trip to Houston I sort of...texted Brazil. Lol. I was bored at work, and this REM song came on (his favorite band - seriously, he's obsessed in a really disturbing way) and I just....texted him, "Hey." And we talked. Long story short, he finally admitted to all that stuff with his ex, and he apologized. And I said I forgive him, and agreed to be friends. And then a couple days later, he texted me again, asking why I had texted him out of the blue, after last time, when I baited him and then went off on him. And I said, "Because I heard an REM song and it made me think of you."
I'm just gonna paste the convo instead of paraphrasing...

B: R U serious?
B: I honestly thought u were texting just to curse me again

Me: Well I can if you want me to

B: Oh really why would u do that? Do u still hold a grudge?*
*side note: I really hate typing in shorthand, but that's the way he texts! Ugh...

Me: No, but you keep bringing it up

B: I feel like the motive why you texted me is bs. Many times random things just like walking past [your bar] every day made me think of u, still I didn't text u...U heard a song? get real..

Me: You didn't text me because you knew I didn't want to talk to you. But it's true. I just heard an REM song. You don't have to believe me. What secret "Motive" could I possibly have??

B: I have no idea, thats why im asking. its been all very weird, since that day, u wanted me to say id like to hang out just to go off at me.. And then deleted me from facebook right after that, and then later on u texted me n ur cool if we became friends, it's just all very unexpected
 B: Do u understand why im intrigued?

Me: Is that what you are? I was mean to you before because I don't like it when people fuck with me. You came into [my bar] all brazen faced and bushy tailed, expecting me to act like nothing was wrong and it pissed me off, so I retaliated.
Me: But I'm actually a forgiving person and I believe in second chances. As long as people admit when they are wrong and apologize. So that is why I agreed to be friends.

B: So ur saying ur willing to give me a second chance? And I have no idea what u meant by brazen face and bushy tailed

Me: It means you came in here with your douche bag swagger. If you really must know...

B: Douche bag swagger? I was just there w my friend, n u didnt answer my question

Me: What question? Seems you don't like the answers I'm giving you.

B: Would you give me a second chance?

Me: I thought I made that clear when I said we could be friends? But that doesn't mean you can snap your fingers and we become besties or fuck buddies. Cuz I already have one of 
those, and just bc I said let's be friends, doesn't mean I trust you. That has to be earned.

B: Fair enough, just wanted to know where im standing
B: Are u seeing someone at the moment?

Me: Why?

B: Cause I am curious, and i dont want to interfere with ur business if u have one.. So, are u?

Me: No

And that was the end. He never wrote back after that. But shortly after, he refriended me on facebook, and I accepted. So then I left for Houston, yada yada, and today, I went back to work, and I posted on facebook for everyone to come see me at work tonight, and guess who shows up?? Brazil.
It was strange kinda. He's still the same, but I don't feel like I am. My sister was there too, so that kinda eased up the pressure on the situation. And she sat and talked to him while I was busy. After he left, she told me he kept making vague comments about how she must have heard so many terrible things about him... lol. He's still infuriatingly stubborn, and set in his ways, to the point where he might as well be wearing blinders. And he still wears that same cologne. And the weird thing is, when I got home tonight, I was taking my coat off, and I got a whiff of it. His cologne. And I just wanted to breathe it all in.


srob said...

Ugh. Brazil again. You can do so much better.

Anonymous said...

He sounds like nothing to be excited about. Find yourself a real man.

Ashley said...

This guy always comes across as being rude, even if he doesn't mean his comments that way. Ulterior motives? Really? You were just saying "Hey, we can be friends." Why did he get so suspicious? Weird.