Tuesday, April 3, 2012


I literally spent most of today trying NOT to think about what happened with Bill last night, and then visibly cringing every time I did. Ugh... I mean that was like the most disappointing and awkward sexual experience of my entire life. I'm sure some day I'll be able to look back on it and laugh, but now I just keep thinking about how I was there, in that moment, thinking about how I didn't want to have sex with him! And I still don't know why I did! I just remember thinking that I had to, because I mentioned sex in a text message to him, and I didn't wanna come off as a tease. So I felt like, "I'm here and I have to go through with it." Ugh...I definitely was too drunk to have been making those kinds of decisions.  o need to lecture me either. Trust me, I've been punishing myself all day.
Lessons learned?

1) I DO NOT have to have sex with anyone if I don't want to! No matter what I said!
2) If I'm not really into him, don't sleep with him! It's not going to improve the situation!
3) Don't have sex with anyone new after a day of drinking

So there ya have it folks. Let's all try and learn something from my horrible experience.


Anonymous said...

you clearly werent ready to sleep with someone new...it's not going to make u forget what just happened.....but this is over dramatized it seems because this sexual encounter was bad.....separate the two!

Anonymous said...

I've been there. The regret is the worst part. Ah well, at least now you know not to waste any more time on him.. haha.