Monday, August 19, 2013
Musings
I often wonder when it happened. When my life changed so much. If I could pinpoint the exact moment, or even just the day, when I would wake up and my life would be so different. All my friends married with kids, my life on a completely new and strange path, the unknown always so inevitable, and yet also somehow inviting. I used to hate change. I was afraid of it. I liked the comfort of knowing what to expect. But now I hate to think that everything will be the same for me. Sometimes I feel like I've been living in a time capsule. A place where I stay the same, and everything and everyone around me keeps moving forward, growing older, changing. But I don't feel any different on the inside really. It's like I blinked and everything around me just shifted. I used to get really melancholy about it; take it personally, as if I'd been left behind. Now though...it's like I'm on the side of the highway. I see the cars passing me by, and I acknowledge them, but I don't really give them that much thought. Because I was never actually in any of those cars. I haven't really been left behind. I chose to get off the ride. Didn't I? Did I choose this? I guess I don't really know. I guess it doesn't really matter, because no matter how I got here, here I am.
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Where ever you are in life is exactly where you are suppose to be.
My momma always tells me that when I am lost or confused about what to do or how to handle a situation.
I've been reading your blog for years and I can see how majorly different you are now compared to the 23 year old who started this blog. I think that sometimes you get stuck in the idea that you are frozen in place just because you don't have a husband and/or kids. Or maybe just a significant other since you've said you aren't sure you wanna get married. But the bright side, all those people you envy....probably envy you as well because you have the freedom to go anywhere and do anything anytime you want. I know I envy that.
The saying "the grass is always greener" has a point.
So to wrap up my longwinded comment....I have always enjoyed your blog so if you do decide to do a different blog, I'd like to see it =) but if not, I do think it's a cool idea to post your pic and let us put a face to the blog that a lot of us have read over the years.
Kelly
I can relate to this so much. We are about a year apart in age (I'm older), and everything around me seems to have changed so quickly.
Nail. Head. This: "Sometimes I feel like I've been living in a time capsule. A place where I stay the same, and everything and everyone around me keeps moving forward, growing older, changing."
Thanks for sharing your musings. Makes me feel like there are other chicks out there who are on the same side of the road I am.
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