Musings

I often wonder when it happened. When my life changed so much. If I could pinpoint the exact moment, or even just the day, when I would wake up and my life would be so different. All my friends married with kids, my life on a completely new and strange path, the unknown always so inevitable, and yet also somehow inviting. I used to hate change. I was afraid of it. I liked the comfort of knowing what to expect. But now I hate to think that everything will be the same for me. Sometimes I feel like I've been living in a time capsule. A place where I stay the same, and everything and everyone around me keeps moving forward, growing older, changing. But I don't feel any different on the inside really. It's like I blinked and everything around me just shifted. I used to get really melancholy about it; take it personally, as if I'd been left behind. Now though...it's like I'm on the side of the highway. I see the cars passing me by, and I acknowledge them, but I don't really give them that much thought. Because I was never actually in any of those cars. I haven't really been left behind. I chose to get off the ride. Didn't I? Did I choose this? I guess I don't really know. I guess it doesn't really matter, because no matter how I got here, here I am.

Apologies!

Sorry about those ads guys, those were not posted by me. At least not intentionally... I joined polyvore recently and I think it automatically posts things I look at to blogger. So I will have to update those settings.
Unfortunately I don't have much to write about. School is starting back up in 2 weeks and I'm dreading it sooooo bad!!! I'm taking an extra class since it's my last semester and I'm just gonna be so busy and boring. No social life for me. ((Sigh)) But the end is nigh!! I can't wait.
I have been toying with the idea of either ending this blog, or changing it into something different, or just starting a new blog all together. As you all know, I don't really post anymore. I just don't feel like I have enough exciting things to blog about anymore. No boys, no drama, nothing that makes for a super exciting read. I guess that's part of growing up. I can't complain about the no drama part anyway.
But I think if I do end the blog, I may reveal myself. Post a picture maybe...? That could be a bad idea though. If the wrong people were to come across my blog and know it was me, I could seriously offend somebody. But I'm almost in a place where I just don't care! Lol.
I feel like things are about to get really shaken up in my life. Once I finish school I mean. I'm going to do some traveling. And I'm going to move back to Houston. And Taryn and Carrie and I are talking about getting a house together! I guess I should mention that Taryn and her fiancé broke up. He dumped her, the asshole. So her and Carrie got an apartment together.
But anyway....everything is good here. Sorry again for the weird ad posts, and....maybe check back with me in a month or so.