Ok... Where do I start??
There is no way I can even begin to tell the story of this past weekend, so I'll just stick to the highlights.
Laura and I got along just fine in our hotel room. I actually didn't get to see Todd all that much till after the game. Friday night we went out, Saturday I was so hungover I had to sleep most of the day. Then Saturday we went out again, but I didn't drink. Then SUNDAY!!! Laura and I got up and got dressed. I put on Todd's jersey and put my hair in 2 low pigtails. Todd actually stopped by our room before the team left. I gave him a thank you card that said, "Thank you from the bottom of my butt..." on the outside, and "...Cuz it's a lot bigger than my heart" on the inside. Lol. Then I wrote a message inside telling him how much I appreciate everything he's done for me, and how much it means to me, and what a great friend he is. I told him that he's one of the most genuine, kind-hearted, caring people I know and that he deserves all the awesomeness that comes his way. He laughed at the funny message and thanked me for the card. So I know he liked it. Then I had him sign my jersey! Now it's worth milllllllions!! MUAHAHHAAA! jk..
After Todd left, we went to the tailgate party where we met up with Brendan, Andrew and Nico, Reese's boyfriend. Nico is from South Africa, and he has red hair and a cool accent. Lol. Anyway, so the tailgate was awesome, and there was TONS of food! From there we took buses to the stadium, with a police escort! It was so cool! They shut down the whole freeway for us! Once we got to the stadium, we walked around, bought programs and looked at the merchandise. It was literally like a fairgrounds out there. They had carnival rides, and games, and exhibits...it was nuts! When we got inside the stadium, Laura separated from the rest of us, since she was sitting with Todd's parents. Me and the 3 guys had seats by ourselves in a different section.
So the game was awesome, Todd had a very dramatic play! It was considered a turning point in the game! The halftime show was pretty cool I guess. I mean, I like The Who but I'm not a crazed fan or anything. Oh, and it was a little weird hearing the name "Peyton" over the loudspeaker so many times! Lol. After the game, we were all exhausted, and we piled back on our buses to head back to the hotel.
Andrew and I sat together, and inevitably ended up talking about Laura. Apparently Todd tried to break up with her a week ago, and she went apeshit. I guess she almost didn't even go to Miami! Andrew thinks Laura is completely nuts and that Todd needs to hurry up and dump her, because the longer he waits, the crazier she gets. So apparently, all the body language I've been reading from Todd has been spot on. It's not just all in my head!! Lol. And apparently, I'm not the only one who feels like Laura isn't right for Todd.
When we finally got back to the hotel, I rushed up to the room and jumped in the shower. Laura wasn't back yet, but she'd arrived by the time I got out. I dried my hair, and stuck it up rollers, and had started on my makeup by the time she got out of the shower. Then we rushed to finish getting ready. Me with my sparkly black shoes, and purple strapless dress, and she in a black drapey dress.
Then we headed to the ballroom.
The party was insane! There were 2 live bands (FAMOUS bands), an open bar, food, and tons of celebrities there! Reese and I chummed up, because Laura proceeded to get shamefully drunk. Both of us were kind of giving her sideways glances. Todd was off mingling with the other players, so none of us really saw him for the first hour. Then we all regrouped out by the bar, quite by accident. By this time, Laura was fucked 3 times towards the weekend. She had gone completely batty!! First, she walked up to me and slurred, "If Todd ever looks over here, or even notices me, will you take a picture of us?"
I gave her a startled, wide-eyed look and then grabbed Todd's arm.
"TODD! Picture!" I said as he whipped around. I quickly snapped their photo.
Then 10 minutes later, Laura walked over to me again and said, "Ohmygoshh...Todd's so over me. Hey, if we don't know each other next week, I just want you to know that I'm glad we kind of bonded and...and I know you'll always be friends with Todd since you guys are like...BFFs but I just want you to know that I'm glad we met and keep Todd humble, and..." She went on like this for a while.
I glanced at Todd nervously, hoping he wasn't hearing any of this, since he was standing like a foot away! Reese gave me a look like she'd already gotten the spiel. Then we both dragged Laura off to the bathroom. She continued to go on like this, apparently to each of Todd's friends. Reese tried talking some sense into her.
"Girl you need to get yourself together!! Do you see me and Nico?? Just ignore him! Act like it doesn't bother you!"
"It doesssnt matter... He'ssssgonna break up with mmeeeanyways." She slurred.
Reese and I exchanged meaningful looks.
"What are you talking about!" I said, "Snap out of it! We're at a Superbowl party, come on, let's go." And we left the restroom.
Laura wondered off somewhere after that, so Reese and I went to find the guys. We spent the rest of the night, chasing down people and taking photos, and drinking. And overall, we had an amazing time! When the party came to a close, we all decided we wanted Denny's. Lol. So all 7 of us headed downstairs to get a cab.
We were having trouble finding a cab that would fit 7 people, and were thinking we may have to take 2, when a limo pulled up. I mean, we were on a street corner, it wasn't like this limo was trying to pick us up. But Nico and Todd ran up to the window and asked the driver,
"Hey! How much to drive us all to Denny's?"
"Well how much are you wanting to spend?" The driver asked.
"Just tell us how much." Nico said.
"Uh...20 bucks?"
"SOLD! COME ON GUYS!"
So we all piled into the limo to head to Denny's. Lol. How fucking random is that? Straight out of a scene from The Hangover. Lol. There was even an open bottle of champagne in the limo, which we drank. Lol.
When we got there, Laura went straight to the bathroom, and Reese followed. They were in there for quite a long time. All the guys kept looking at me and saying, "There's only one person at this table who can go in there..."
"I am not going in there! I know what's going on in there, and I'm sorry but I'm not going in there." I said.
When they finally came back, Laura looked red-faced. Reese sat down across from me and rolled her eyes. We took videos of our random, funny, drunken conversations at the table, and Todd bought us all breakfast. Lol. It was a wonderful nightcap.
Then we took separate cabs home, since me, Todd and Laura were going back to the hotel, and the rest of them were going to Reese and Nico's place. In the cab, Todd put his arms around both of us to keep us warm. It was freezing outside!
Then Todd came up to our room, instead of going to his. That felt a little awkward, but hey...we were all drunk so whatever. Todd got on the side of the bed that was on the inside, next to the lamp, which is in between the 2 beds, i.e. closest to me, and Laura threw a mini-fit about that.
"What are you doing?? You know I sleep on this side of the bed!"
"Uh...no you don't."
"Ok....."
I pretended not to hear them and rolled over.
Next thing I knew, it was morning.
When I got back to Houston, I was exhausted, and now I'm coming down with something, since I haven't really slept in 4 days, and I spent all that time drinking and partying. Lol.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about Todd and Laura. I mean, I feel so bad for Todd, because clearly he doesn't want to be in that relationship anymore, but she makes it so difficult for him to get out! And I really wanted to talk to him about it, just as a friend, cuz you know, she could have really embarrassed him at that party Sunday night with her crazy talk and boozing. Ugh. But I just didn't wanna say something to Todd and have him think I was being catty, or that I had an ulterior motive. Because even though I do like him, I really just want him to be happy. And I can tell he's not happy with Laura. So last night I sent Andrew a Facebook message.
"Hey, so have you talked to Todd yet? About the whole Laura had a case of the crazies on Sunday night thing??"
I figured, since they're close, and Andrew feels the same way I do, that they had probably talked about it. This morning, he wrote me back. They broke up.
They broke up.
Todd is single!! Let's just hope it's for good this time.
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The Perfect Dress
Man you guys, let me tell you how much I was hoping that maintenance guy would show up at midnight and add some excitement to my life! I just loooooooooove the drama!!
((chuckle))
Anyways, I didn't get a chance to go to my leasing office yesterday, since I was meeting with a new photography client. But I definitely will today! I'm not gonna bother with the police. As rude as they were, I can definitely withstand a little bullying. As for the maintenance guy though?? What it boils down to is, he knew I was there, since my deadbolt was locked, and I'm sure he knew I was sleeping, and he was definitely TRYING to wake me up, which is completely uncalled for. He should left me alone after I didn't answer the door the first time. And that's what I'm going to YELL to my apartment managers. Ugh.
Anyways, other than that little incident, my weekend was pretty good! Saturday during the day, I went to Taryn's apartment and raided her closet for dresses. She had a couple cute ones, but none of them were like...The One. But she told me to bring them anyways. Then we went out to lunch, which was nice. She's one of my only single friends these days, so we can relate to each other.
While we were hanging out Todd called!
"Hello?"
"Hey Peyton, I have some good news!" He said.
"Really? What???" I asked, my heart pounding.
"I was able to get you a comped room at our hotel."
"WOW! Seriously???"
I couldn't believe my luck! I'd been wondering how I was gonna manage to get around if I stayed with my mom's cousin. She lives about 30 minutes from the stadium, which is a pretty expensive cab ride.
"Yea! They were only giving the extra rooms out to the players who were married, but one of my teammates is good friends with guy who's in charge of booking the rooms, and he managed to pull some strings."
"Omg thanks, Todd! That's so awesome!"
"No problem! You and Laura will be sharing a room."
Uh oh! I thought, The bomb drops... But I didn't let on how weird that might be, I just thanked him profusely. I don't even care about that! I mean, I like Laura, she's a nice girl, and I have nothing against her personally. I just don't think she's right for Todd! But we get along, and it's going to be fun regardless.
So Saturday night, I worked at the Washington bar. Taryn and I were actually scheduled at the same time, so we carpooled! :)
Go green! Working there was really awesome though. It was a nice change of scenery. The prices and computer system are different, but I picked up on everything right away. It was fast paced, so I wasn't bored, and the night went by quickly, and we made great money!! Just what I need for Miami!!
Sunday morning, I woke up earlier than I'd planned, but I had a lot of stuff to do so I just decided to roll with it. First stop? The mall. As much as I was dreading walking around The Galleria, I just had to find the perfect dress! As I was getting ready to go, Laura called.
"Hey Peyton!! Are you excited?! We're roomies!"
"I know! I am excited! It's gonna be so much fun!"
We chatted about the weekend, our flights, and what to wear. I told her I was about to head to the mall to find something. She expressed that she had no clue what she was going to bring. So I offered to bring along some extra dresses, just in case she wanted to borrow something.
The mall was actually not that bad. I perused through Macy's pretty quickly, found some cute stuff, but nothing that really stood out. Then I headed to French Connection, where I found the perfect dress! Not only is it purple, my favorite color, but it was marked down, and 50% off!! And it fit perfectly! I'll post pictures when I get home.
I also got the perfect accessories to go with it. Black sequined pumps with a matching black sequined clutch. Now, all I need is jewelry, and I'll have the perfect ensemble for the post-game players party on Sunday. I'm so excited!!!
After the mall, I headed over to my aunt's house in Spring. My grandparents were in town, along with my Aunt Josie and her kids. So it was kind of like a mini-family reunion. We had dinner, played catch-up and watched the Grammy's. Then I finally went home, exhausted, and well...you know the rest of the story.
My lash extensions appointment got canceled yesterday cuz apparently a bunch of girls dropped out of the program. I was pretty disappointed but...oh well. She said she'd keep me in her appointment book for next time.
Well, it's back to work! Busy busy busy!!
((chuckle))
Anyways, I didn't get a chance to go to my leasing office yesterday, since I was meeting with a new photography client. But I definitely will today! I'm not gonna bother with the police. As rude as they were, I can definitely withstand a little bullying. As for the maintenance guy though?? What it boils down to is, he knew I was there, since my deadbolt was locked, and I'm sure he knew I was sleeping, and he was definitely TRYING to wake me up, which is completely uncalled for. He should left me alone after I didn't answer the door the first time. And that's what I'm going to YELL to my apartment managers. Ugh.
Anyways, other than that little incident, my weekend was pretty good! Saturday during the day, I went to Taryn's apartment and raided her closet for dresses. She had a couple cute ones, but none of them were like...The One. But she told me to bring them anyways. Then we went out to lunch, which was nice. She's one of my only single friends these days, so we can relate to each other.
While we were hanging out Todd called!
"Hello?"
"Hey Peyton, I have some good news!" He said.
"Really? What???" I asked, my heart pounding.
"I was able to get you a comped room at our hotel."
"WOW! Seriously???"
I couldn't believe my luck! I'd been wondering how I was gonna manage to get around if I stayed with my mom's cousin. She lives about 30 minutes from the stadium, which is a pretty expensive cab ride.
"Yea! They were only giving the extra rooms out to the players who were married, but one of my teammates is good friends with guy who's in charge of booking the rooms, and he managed to pull some strings."
"Omg thanks, Todd! That's so awesome!"
"No problem! You and Laura will be sharing a room."
Uh oh! I thought, The bomb drops... But I didn't let on how weird that might be, I just thanked him profusely. I don't even care about that! I mean, I like Laura, she's a nice girl, and I have nothing against her personally. I just don't think she's right for Todd! But we get along, and it's going to be fun regardless.
So Saturday night, I worked at the Washington bar. Taryn and I were actually scheduled at the same time, so we carpooled! :)
Go green! Working there was really awesome though. It was a nice change of scenery. The prices and computer system are different, but I picked up on everything right away. It was fast paced, so I wasn't bored, and the night went by quickly, and we made great money!! Just what I need for Miami!!
Sunday morning, I woke up earlier than I'd planned, but I had a lot of stuff to do so I just decided to roll with it. First stop? The mall. As much as I was dreading walking around The Galleria, I just had to find the perfect dress! As I was getting ready to go, Laura called.
"Hey Peyton!! Are you excited?! We're roomies!"
"I know! I am excited! It's gonna be so much fun!"
We chatted about the weekend, our flights, and what to wear. I told her I was about to head to the mall to find something. She expressed that she had no clue what she was going to bring. So I offered to bring along some extra dresses, just in case she wanted to borrow something.
The mall was actually not that bad. I perused through Macy's pretty quickly, found some cute stuff, but nothing that really stood out. Then I headed to French Connection, where I found the perfect dress! Not only is it purple, my favorite color, but it was marked down, and 50% off!! And it fit perfectly! I'll post pictures when I get home.
I also got the perfect accessories to go with it. Black sequined pumps with a matching black sequined clutch. Now, all I need is jewelry, and I'll have the perfect ensemble for the post-game players party on Sunday. I'm so excited!!!
After the mall, I headed over to my aunt's house in Spring. My grandparents were in town, along with my Aunt Josie and her kids. So it was kind of like a mini-family reunion. We had dinner, played catch-up and watched the Grammy's. Then I finally went home, exhausted, and well...you know the rest of the story.
My lash extensions appointment got canceled yesterday cuz apparently a bunch of girls dropped out of the program. I was pretty disappointed but...oh well. She said she'd keep me in her appointment book for next time.
Well, it's back to work! Busy busy busy!!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Have To Know
Well I got several guesses about who Todd is on my last post. And I didn't make any of these comments public. Mainly because I don't want to give the people who aren't trying to guess any ideas, but I don't want the people who are guessing to think that by not posting their comments, I'm confirming their guess is correct. I'm not going to confirm, or deny anything.
But I am going to the Superbowl!! I'm so excited!!! I wish I could tell you guys more, and tell you who I'm rooting for, but I just can't risk it. All you need to know is, I'm super excited!! I've never been to Miami! I leave next Friday after work, and I'm coming back Tuesday. Todd called me last night, and was like, "Make sure you stay till at least Monday cuz there's gonna be a ridiculous party at the hotel after the game!"
And of course, I will be there! I asked him who else was going, and he said Brendan and Andrew will be there, along with his parents, and his brother, Pete. I love Pete! He's so much fun. And after years of buying him alcohol, he's finally 21 and can party with us! Todd didn't mention if Laura was going though, which I think is weird. Does that mean she's not going?? I'm just going to operate under the assumption that she is going for now, because...I mean why wouldn't she?? The only reason I can think of for her not going is that she's in nursing school, and they have clinicals and she can't miss class. And with the game being on a Sunday night, she would have to head back to Texas right after the game. So who knows?? We'll see I guess.
I really need to get some hot stuff to wear when I'm in Miami. What do people wear there? I don't wanna look ridiculously out of place. I mean, I know it's like a party town, and definitely a bit more glitzy than Houston, but they have the same weather as us, so most of the stuff I have should be fine. But I still wanna get at least one new dress. I'm gonna look today after work. I was supposed to hang out with Taryn, but then Bethany texted me at 1:30am, saying she took the night off so "we can do something!" and I've suddenly lost my urge to go out. Plus, I really need to save $. My Superbowl ticket costs 500 bucks. Not exactly loose change... So aside from a new dress, I don't wanna be frivolous with my money this week. Maybe I'll just make up some excuse about being too tired, or not feeling good or something. ((sigh)) I woke up late this morning, and I look like ass anyways, so it's not like I can meet Taryn for Happy Hour like we'd planned anyway. I would have to go home and shower, etc... And I just don't feel like it.
So for the past few days, I keep replaying this conversation in my head that Melissa and I had a couple weeks ago. We were eating breakfast in a cafe, the morning after Todd's playoff game, and we were talking about Todd, and she said, "Are you in love with him?"
And I just stared at her, and my throat constricted, and I...I didn't know what to say. It was weird, I mean my eyes even started to water, and I have NO IDEA why. But I had to collect my thoughts and myself before I could answer. And I avoided her eyes and gave her some nonchalant answer, like, "How can you know you're in love with someone you've never even kissed?"
But the way she looked at me it was like she already knew the answer to that question, she just wanted me to say it.
Sometimes Melissa is alarmingly perceptive. ((Sigh))
I don't know how to classify my feelings for Todd. They're just so...mixed up. I mean, I've known him practically my entire life. He's always been there. He's my best friend. I remember when he was in first grade, with huge glasses, buck teeth, and the highest singing voice in the children's church choir. And I remember in high school, when he was 5 feet tall, shorter than me! And scrawny, and dorky, and he was like this cute little kid that would follow me around. Not that I was anyone to be admired. I was just as big of a dork back then as he was.
But then he changed. We changed. He started to grow up, got his first girlfriend. And I was really happy for him. And I was engaged at the time, and the 4 of us would hang out together at his parents house, play pool, go swimming. Then I went away to school, became single again, he went away to school, started going out with Laura. I went through asshole after asshole, and every time I would go home for the holidays, and see Todd, and he was like a breath of fresh air. Same morals, same innocent, bright outlook. And I would talk to him about my latest guy, latest party, and ask him about his life. And he would tell me about his girlfriend, and talk about football. We could talk about anything, just like best friends do.
And then before I knew it, he was...he was this man! Tall, handsome, broad shouldered... The kind of man you look at and say to yourself, "As soon as I get over my bad boy phase, I'll find a guy like him. And we'll get married and have a family."
The kind of man that every girl's mother wishes she would marry. The kind of man that every girl's father respects and trusts. The kind of man who is selfless, and kind, and warm. The best kind of man. The best kind of friend.
And when I realized this, it was just so...sudden. I mean all those years I knew him, and I watched him grow into this man, but I just never thought...
Until it occurred to me one day, that he is everything I have always wanted. And yet, he's still all of those things that he was. Dorky, little, naive, scrawny, and admiring. He just grew up.
((Sigh))
Now that he's in the NFL it's almost harder. Because he has so many more things for people to covet. Fame and money... But I don't really care about those so much. I mean it's cool, don't get me wrong. But it's almost like an elephant in the room. The room, being our friendship. Because I feel like...like I don't want him to think I'm like that. I hope he knows. But even asking him for a Superbowl ticket, I feel kind of guilty. And if he and Laura do break up in the off season, what then???
If I pursue him, will he think I'm only doing it because of what he's become??
And what if I don't pursue him? Will I miss out on my chance?
What if he and Laura don't break up at all??
I just...I have to know. I have to know what this is. What I'm feeling. Am I in love with Todd??
But I am going to the Superbowl!! I'm so excited!!! I wish I could tell you guys more, and tell you who I'm rooting for, but I just can't risk it. All you need to know is, I'm super excited!! I've never been to Miami! I leave next Friday after work, and I'm coming back Tuesday. Todd called me last night, and was like, "Make sure you stay till at least Monday cuz there's gonna be a ridiculous party at the hotel after the game!"
And of course, I will be there! I asked him who else was going, and he said Brendan and Andrew will be there, along with his parents, and his brother, Pete. I love Pete! He's so much fun. And after years of buying him alcohol, he's finally 21 and can party with us! Todd didn't mention if Laura was going though, which I think is weird. Does that mean she's not going?? I'm just going to operate under the assumption that she is going for now, because...I mean why wouldn't she?? The only reason I can think of for her not going is that she's in nursing school, and they have clinicals and she can't miss class. And with the game being on a Sunday night, she would have to head back to Texas right after the game. So who knows?? We'll see I guess.
I really need to get some hot stuff to wear when I'm in Miami. What do people wear there? I don't wanna look ridiculously out of place. I mean, I know it's like a party town, and definitely a bit more glitzy than Houston, but they have the same weather as us, so most of the stuff I have should be fine. But I still wanna get at least one new dress. I'm gonna look today after work. I was supposed to hang out with Taryn, but then Bethany texted me at 1:30am, saying she took the night off so "we can do something!" and I've suddenly lost my urge to go out. Plus, I really need to save $. My Superbowl ticket costs 500 bucks. Not exactly loose change... So aside from a new dress, I don't wanna be frivolous with my money this week. Maybe I'll just make up some excuse about being too tired, or not feeling good or something. ((sigh)) I woke up late this morning, and I look like ass anyways, so it's not like I can meet Taryn for Happy Hour like we'd planned anyway. I would have to go home and shower, etc... And I just don't feel like it.
So for the past few days, I keep replaying this conversation in my head that Melissa and I had a couple weeks ago. We were eating breakfast in a cafe, the morning after Todd's playoff game, and we were talking about Todd, and she said, "Are you in love with him?"
And I just stared at her, and my throat constricted, and I...I didn't know what to say. It was weird, I mean my eyes even started to water, and I have NO IDEA why. But I had to collect my thoughts and myself before I could answer. And I avoided her eyes and gave her some nonchalant answer, like, "How can you know you're in love with someone you've never even kissed?"
But the way she looked at me it was like she already knew the answer to that question, she just wanted me to say it.
Sometimes Melissa is alarmingly perceptive. ((Sigh))
I don't know how to classify my feelings for Todd. They're just so...mixed up. I mean, I've known him practically my entire life. He's always been there. He's my best friend. I remember when he was in first grade, with huge glasses, buck teeth, and the highest singing voice in the children's church choir. And I remember in high school, when he was 5 feet tall, shorter than me! And scrawny, and dorky, and he was like this cute little kid that would follow me around. Not that I was anyone to be admired. I was just as big of a dork back then as he was.
But then he changed. We changed. He started to grow up, got his first girlfriend. And I was really happy for him. And I was engaged at the time, and the 4 of us would hang out together at his parents house, play pool, go swimming. Then I went away to school, became single again, he went away to school, started going out with Laura. I went through asshole after asshole, and every time I would go home for the holidays, and see Todd, and he was like a breath of fresh air. Same morals, same innocent, bright outlook. And I would talk to him about my latest guy, latest party, and ask him about his life. And he would tell me about his girlfriend, and talk about football. We could talk about anything, just like best friends do.
And then before I knew it, he was...he was this man! Tall, handsome, broad shouldered... The kind of man you look at and say to yourself, "As soon as I get over my bad boy phase, I'll find a guy like him. And we'll get married and have a family."
The kind of man that every girl's mother wishes she would marry. The kind of man that every girl's father respects and trusts. The kind of man who is selfless, and kind, and warm. The best kind of man. The best kind of friend.
And when I realized this, it was just so...sudden. I mean all those years I knew him, and I watched him grow into this man, but I just never thought...
Until it occurred to me one day, that he is everything I have always wanted. And yet, he's still all of those things that he was. Dorky, little, naive, scrawny, and admiring. He just grew up.
((Sigh))
Now that he's in the NFL it's almost harder. Because he has so many more things for people to covet. Fame and money... But I don't really care about those so much. I mean it's cool, don't get me wrong. But it's almost like an elephant in the room. The room, being our friendship. Because I feel like...like I don't want him to think I'm like that. I hope he knows. But even asking him for a Superbowl ticket, I feel kind of guilty. And if he and Laura do break up in the off season, what then???
If I pursue him, will he think I'm only doing it because of what he's become??
And what if I don't pursue him? Will I miss out on my chance?
What if he and Laura don't break up at all??
I just...I have to know. I have to know what this is. What I'm feeling. Am I in love with Todd??
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I Got The Blues
Alyssa and Russ had an engagement party and didn't even invite me. I mean, wtf!?? I've been friends with both of them since they first got together. It's not enough that she excluded me from the wedding party, but now she's excluding me from her engagement party??
I'm really, really hurt. She hasn't even called, or Facebooked me or anything. I'm almost at the point where I just wanna be like, "Fuck it" and delete her phone number, delete her from my FB friends, just...completely write her off. Because that's obviously what she's done to me.
How can people be like that??
My mom says I depend too much on my friends, and I should rely more on my family. I'm starting to think she's right. I just don't get it. I thought friends were supposed to be there for each other, no matter what. But apparently, I'm the only one who views friendship that way. You really can't count on anyone these days. No one but yourself. And that's just plain sad.
I mean, I still count Cecilia as one of my best friends, even though we hardly ever see each other. But I still see her as being in my wedding, if I ever get married. And she says the same of me. I wish Cecilia and I could hang out more. I really miss her. But she lives like an hour away, and has a daughter, and I work so much... ((sigh)) I wish I could ask her to the Superbowl. But she wouldn't be able to go anyways... She recently got laid off at her job, so I doubt she has money to blow, and then of course there's her daughter. But she's the hugest Colts fan. Lol. Seriously. So I know it would be lots of fun if she came with me. Ahhh, wishful thinking... I already decided I'm gonna ask my Dad anyway. Which reminds me, after I talk to Todd tonight, I have to call Law School. Should I let him give me an answer first, or should I just tell him I'm taking my Dad before he even says anything? He's pissin' me off, seriously. Izzie says his reluctance is because he thinks I like him, like him, and he's afraid I'll assume, or expect things if he comes. FUCKIN' STUPID! OMG. Get over yourself. I wish I could tell him that. But it's not even worth it.
Things with Bethany and I are starting to get back to normal...sort of. I mean I'm getting over it. But I don't think things will ever be the same as they were between us, because I kind of feel like I've finally seen her true colors. And my opinions of her have sort of...warped. She's very selfish. And I don't like that.
But anyway, I think I was just fed up with her before, but now that she's over her drama, I can talk to her without getting so frustrated I wanna scream. We went to the movies last night, with Ali. We saw It's Complicated. I didn't really wanna see that movie, but it's the one Ali picked, and I actually really liked it! It was hilarious! The kids were horrible actors though. And Jim from The Office seemed like he was trying a little too hard. Poor guy. He will always just be Jim from The Office.
Speaking of The Office, I should probably get back to work. Any advise about Alyssa??
I'm really, really hurt. She hasn't even called, or Facebooked me or anything. I'm almost at the point where I just wanna be like, "Fuck it" and delete her phone number, delete her from my FB friends, just...completely write her off. Because that's obviously what she's done to me.
How can people be like that??
My mom says I depend too much on my friends, and I should rely more on my family. I'm starting to think she's right. I just don't get it. I thought friends were supposed to be there for each other, no matter what. But apparently, I'm the only one who views friendship that way. You really can't count on anyone these days. No one but yourself. And that's just plain sad.
I mean, I still count Cecilia as one of my best friends, even though we hardly ever see each other. But I still see her as being in my wedding, if I ever get married. And she says the same of me. I wish Cecilia and I could hang out more. I really miss her. But she lives like an hour away, and has a daughter, and I work so much... ((sigh)) I wish I could ask her to the Superbowl. But she wouldn't be able to go anyways... She recently got laid off at her job, so I doubt she has money to blow, and then of course there's her daughter. But she's the hugest Colts fan. Lol. Seriously. So I know it would be lots of fun if she came with me. Ahhh, wishful thinking... I already decided I'm gonna ask my Dad anyway. Which reminds me, after I talk to Todd tonight, I have to call Law School. Should I let him give me an answer first, or should I just tell him I'm taking my Dad before he even says anything? He's pissin' me off, seriously. Izzie says his reluctance is because he thinks I like him, like him, and he's afraid I'll assume, or expect things if he comes. FUCKIN' STUPID! OMG. Get over yourself. I wish I could tell him that. But it's not even worth it.
Things with Bethany and I are starting to get back to normal...sort of. I mean I'm getting over it. But I don't think things will ever be the same as they were between us, because I kind of feel like I've finally seen her true colors. And my opinions of her have sort of...warped. She's very selfish. And I don't like that.
But anyway, I think I was just fed up with her before, but now that she's over her drama, I can talk to her without getting so frustrated I wanna scream. We went to the movies last night, with Ali. We saw It's Complicated. I didn't really wanna see that movie, but it's the one Ali picked, and I actually really liked it! It was hilarious! The kids were horrible actors though. And Jim from The Office seemed like he was trying a little too hard. Poor guy. He will always just be Jim from The Office.
Speaking of The Office, I should probably get back to work. Any advise about Alyssa??
Monday, January 25, 2010
Resolutions
Well everything ended up working out fine with my bartending job. Here is my final draft that I sent to Mr. S. and Mr. P.:
I'm sending this email to you guys so that I can discuss something that may or may not have gone unnoticed. I enjoy working at [my bar] and believe that for the most part you guys take care of us and watch out for us in good intentions. However, I have requested not to work on Sundays because Sundays are my only day off to RELAX and do things that I really need take care of, that I'm not able to do during the week. However, I am scheduled for this Sunday at 2. I do realize that there are 2 specific games this weekend that will contribute to a busier than normal Sunday, and I will work, and not complain. I just hope that when scheduling was done, it was taken into account that some of us do work Monday morning and will need to be out at an earlier time prior to the games being completed.
Secondly, I would like to bring to your attention the fact that I would really like the opportunity to pick up a shift or 2 at one of the other bars. Mr. S., I have tried asking you about this several times, but you're always too busy, or I get brushed off, or completely ignored. Am I being punished for something?? Because it's starting to feel that way. I mean, look at the facts: Ali, Aaron, Brandon, Sierra and Taryn ALL pick up shifts at the other bars. And 2 of those people haven't even been working for this company as long as I have. I just don't get it. Maybe this has just never occurred to you before, so I'm bringing it to your attention. I mean, I work hard, I'm always on time, I don't no call/no show, which is more than I can say for a lot of people that are currently working at [-]. I understand that business is not as busy as in previous years, however I'm now back to getting 10pm shifts every Saturday. I know I have a day job now, but so do Ali and Aaron. And their shifts don't seem to be suffering.
I mean, obviously I want to work at [-], and I enjoy it; you all are like my second family. If that was not the case, I would have quit when I started this new job. And I don't know if you guys realized this, but I'm looking at working 65 hours this week, with NO day off.
Anyways, my whole point to this email is, I just kind of feel like I've been swept under the rug. And I just don't want to be filed away with those who are new and incapable. So if somebody could please give me some answers, I would really appreciate it.
Thanks,
Peyton
Mr. P. wrote back almost immediately, and his response was exactly what I was hoping for. Here it is:
When you left those couple months, you lost all seniority! You are now bottom of the barrel, and we will continue to treat you like garbage, since you now work for [insert new job here]. Haha. I am of course kidding. Yes I will move you around on occasion. Kind of just forgot about it. The 10pm's are because we know you have a day job, and figured you wanted to keep this part-time, so the less hours the better. Thanks for working this Sunday, we need everyone, and don't worry, we will get the day job people out as soon as possible.
Anything Else Harry Potter?**
Thanks,
Mr. P
**Harry Potter is one of the many nicknames Mr. P. has given me. Lol. I don't think an explanation is necessary.
Anyways, he and I bantered back and forth via email for a while, but I'm glad I brought that to his attention, because next Saturday, I'm working at the Washington bar! Yay! Finally! It'll be a nice change of scenery! I just need to go over there sometime this week and familiarize myself with their computer system.
As for my day job, it's been reallllly busy! We have all these new projects to work on. And by we, I mean Veronica and I. So at least I have someone to help me! And just to clarify, I do my job here, and I do it well. I don't fuck around all day. It just seems that I manage my time a lot better than my boss does. He's inexperienced in his current position. I mean he's nice and everything he's just kind of...vague. I mean Veronica has only been here a couple weeks and she's already noticing it! He assigns us tasks, but doesn't fully explain what it is he wants done! So half the time we're just like....uhhhh...??? You know?? So when I made that comment in my last post about him asking me where were on a project, the reason I couldn't give him an adequate answer is because never told us we had to do anything else! He asked us to make a spreadsheet, we made it, then he never said anything else about it! So me and Veronica thought that was it!
Anyways, just thought I'd clarify.
And now, for the moment you've all been waiting for...
The Superbowl.
Not sure sure if I'm going yet, but I'm going to call Todd on my way home from work. I don't wanna count my chickens before they hatch, but things are looking up!! :D
That's all I can say for now.
As for Law School, I don't think I'm gonna take him if I do go. He's just too...wishy washy. I mean if he really wanted to go, he'd be all over it. And he's not. He's just...I dunno. I think I'm gonna take my Dad. Maybe. I mean I know he'd love to go, it's just....I'm gonna be partying, and staying out till all hours of the night, and what if I meet a guy or something??
So with all that going on, I don't wanna be sharing a hotel room with my DAD. And I can't really afford to get one by myself. There's still the option of staying with Reese and her boyfriend. But she hasn't said anything to me about it since that weekend, and I feel kind of awkward asking. I mean cuz I don't know her that well. But we'll see...
Well that's all I have time for today. Back to work!
I'm sending this email to you guys so that I can discuss something that may or may not have gone unnoticed. I enjoy working at [my bar] and believe that for the most part you guys take care of us and watch out for us in good intentions. However, I have requested not to work on Sundays because Sundays are my only day off to RELAX and do things that I really need take care of, that I'm not able to do during the week. However, I am scheduled for this Sunday at 2. I do realize that there are 2 specific games this weekend that will contribute to a busier than normal Sunday, and I will work, and not complain. I just hope that when scheduling was done, it was taken into account that some of us do work Monday morning and will need to be out at an earlier time prior to the games being completed.
Secondly, I would like to bring to your attention the fact that I would really like the opportunity to pick up a shift or 2 at one of the other bars. Mr. S., I have tried asking you about this several times, but you're always too busy, or I get brushed off, or completely ignored. Am I being punished for something?? Because it's starting to feel that way. I mean, look at the facts: Ali, Aaron, Brandon, Sierra and Taryn ALL pick up shifts at the other bars. And 2 of those people haven't even been working for this company as long as I have. I just don't get it. Maybe this has just never occurred to you before, so I'm bringing it to your attention. I mean, I work hard, I'm always on time, I don't no call/no show, which is more than I can say for a lot of people that are currently working at [-]. I understand that business is not as busy as in previous years, however I'm now back to getting 10pm shifts every Saturday. I know I have a day job now, but so do Ali and Aaron. And their shifts don't seem to be suffering.
I mean, obviously I want to work at [-], and I enjoy it; you all are like my second family. If that was not the case, I would have quit when I started this new job. And I don't know if you guys realized this, but I'm looking at working 65 hours this week, with NO day off.
Anyways, my whole point to this email is, I just kind of feel like I've been swept under the rug. And I just don't want to be filed away with those who are new and incapable. So if somebody could please give me some answers, I would really appreciate it.
Thanks,
Peyton
Mr. P. wrote back almost immediately, and his response was exactly what I was hoping for. Here it is:
When you left those couple months, you lost all seniority! You are now bottom of the barrel, and we will continue to treat you like garbage, since you now work for [insert new job here]. Haha. I am of course kidding. Yes I will move you around on occasion. Kind of just forgot about it. The 10pm's are because we know you have a day job, and figured you wanted to keep this part-time, so the less hours the better. Thanks for working this Sunday, we need everyone, and don't worry, we will get the day job people out as soon as possible.
Anything Else Harry Potter?**
Thanks,
Mr. P
**Harry Potter is one of the many nicknames Mr. P. has given me. Lol. I don't think an explanation is necessary.
Anyways, he and I bantered back and forth via email for a while, but I'm glad I brought that to his attention, because next Saturday, I'm working at the Washington bar! Yay! Finally! It'll be a nice change of scenery! I just need to go over there sometime this week and familiarize myself with their computer system.
As for my day job, it's been reallllly busy! We have all these new projects to work on. And by we, I mean Veronica and I. So at least I have someone to help me! And just to clarify, I do my job here, and I do it well. I don't fuck around all day. It just seems that I manage my time a lot better than my boss does. He's inexperienced in his current position. I mean he's nice and everything he's just kind of...vague. I mean Veronica has only been here a couple weeks and she's already noticing it! He assigns us tasks, but doesn't fully explain what it is he wants done! So half the time we're just like....uhhhh...??? You know?? So when I made that comment in my last post about him asking me where were on a project, the reason I couldn't give him an adequate answer is because never told us we had to do anything else! He asked us to make a spreadsheet, we made it, then he never said anything else about it! So me and Veronica thought that was it!
Anyways, just thought I'd clarify.
And now, for the moment you've all been waiting for...
The Superbowl.
Not sure sure if I'm going yet, but I'm going to call Todd on my way home from work. I don't wanna count my chickens before they hatch, but things are looking up!! :D
That's all I can say for now.
As for Law School, I don't think I'm gonna take him if I do go. He's just too...wishy washy. I mean if he really wanted to go, he'd be all over it. And he's not. He's just...I dunno. I think I'm gonna take my Dad. Maybe. I mean I know he'd love to go, it's just....I'm gonna be partying, and staying out till all hours of the night, and what if I meet a guy or something??
So with all that going on, I don't wanna be sharing a hotel room with my DAD. And I can't really afford to get one by myself. There's still the option of staying with Reese and her boyfriend. But she hasn't said anything to me about it since that weekend, and I feel kind of awkward asking. I mean cuz I don't know her that well. But we'll see...
Well that's all I have time for today. Back to work!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
C'est La Vie
You guys are kind of cracking me up, doing all this research to find out who Todd is. But let me just set something straight. I have taken a lot of measures to keep his identity secret. Changed dates, names etc... So even if you think you're sure you know what team he plays for, you're most likely wrong. And even if you DO figure it out, (which, you probably could, if you were really thorough) I will neither confirm, nor deny. I mean, think about it. The consequences of someone figuring out who Todd is could be catastrophic! It could get leaked to the press, or he could find out about it and read my blog, and read all the stuff I secretly think about him and his relationship with Laura, or Laura could read it and decide she really does hate me... I mean, it just...wouldn't be good. Plus, I just... I respect Todd, and I don't want to exploit him in any way. Sometimes I panic about this stuff, cuz I honestly never expected his team to be so good. I mean to say I didn't anticipate it would come all the way down to the Superbowl! And on the one hand, I think it would be so much easier, if I could just say what team he plays for, but then you would all somehow figure out which player he is, and some rude, inconsiderate anonymous person would post his picture, or something, and all hell would break loose. Todd is my best friend, ok? I don't want to put our friendship at stake because of a blog. I will stop blogging if this gets out. That's how seriously I'm taking this.
So, moving on!
I actually had a long phone conversation with Law School last night. Last week, we made a deal, that if he would let me come over and use his washer/dryer, I'd do his laundry for him too. Lol. So we had plans to do laundry last night. But he was still stuck at work at 7:30pm, and I was already in my PJ's, eating dinner. Around 10, I was in bed with a book, when he called.
"Peyton."
"Yyyyyes?"
"I'm so sorry I took so long. I just got home! We're trying to buy out this company, and it's just taking forever, and my boss told me I was gonna have to stay late."
"You're a workaholic, ya know that? I sure hope you like your job."
"I love my job! It's just...very time consuming."
"Well that's good. I wish I could say that same..."
We talked for about an hour. About work, personality tests, and football. Lol. Twas an interesting conversation! I told him how I almost asked him to go to the game with me this past weekend, and he just about ripped me a new one. Lol.
"Well you had mentioned you were gonna be busy all weekend, and I needed somebody to commit to the trip right then!" I defended myself.
"Well you still should have asked! I would have cleared my weekend for that!" He said.
"Hmm well sorry!"
Then he asked me if I was going to the game this weekend, and I explained to him how Todd offered, but that I needed to save my money and days off for the Superbowl, if they go.
"You're going to the Superbowl??" He asked, "How are you gonna get tickets for that!?"
"Todd, DUH." I said. "You wanna go?"
"Uh...YEA, that would be so fucking awesome. Free tickets?"
"No, half price. And my sister has first dibs, but now she's not sure if she's gonna be able to make it so...if you wanna go, you better start thinkin' about it."
"Well..how long do I have to think about this? Cuz seriously, that would be kickass."
"Well, if they win this weekend's game, I'm gonna buy a plane ticket to Miami ASAP."
"Hmmm...ok."
"But Sophie has first dibs!" I reminded him.
"Ok yea that's cool."
Our conversation was very relaxed, and normal. Just like it used to be. Which was quite a relief. And also why I blurted out "wanna go to the Superbowl?" Because if I had been overanalyzing everything he said, like I was doing last week, I never would have asked him. But at this point, we're back to just being friends, which really is a weight off my shoulders, cuz I don't have to worry about things being weird. And I think it would be pretty cool if he came to the Superbowl with me. I mean, no drama, that's for sure!
Speaking of drama, Bethany has finally noticed that I've stopped making any attempts to talk to her. And it's not like I've been giving her the cold shoulder or anything I just...got fed up. Ya know? I needed a break. But I finally talked to her yesterday, on my way home from work, and she asked me about my trip and everything. I still haven't told her how I've been feeling, but we're gonna try to get together for dinner soon, so I guess I'll bring it up then. I also had a Facebook comment from Summer saying "HEY! I MISS YOU!" when I got home. I wonder if she and Bethany had a conversation about me recently??
Izzie is coming into town this weekend, and she wants to get together for a meeting about the ad agency, and honestly, I really don't want to. I mean, I don't live in Austin, I don't know the market area there, and I really don't have anything to contribute to these conference calls and meetings! It just feels like a waste of my time! And that's just one more thing I have to do this week. One less day of relaxing, which if you recall, I only get like...1 and a half! ((Sigh)) And of course, I don't wanna tell Izzie any of these things, cuz she's my friend, and I don't wanna hurt her feelings, or make her feel like this whole business plan is a waste of time, it's just.... She seems to think this whole thing is just going to liftoff! Just with a snap of her fingers. And it's not. It's going to be a long time before we get a real client base and start making any profits. And she keeps talking about me moving to Austin and it's like...I can't just quit my job and uproot my whole life for something like that! I wouldn't do that unless A) it was a sure thing or B) I was really depressed and/or frustrated with my life and on impulse decided to pack everything and go.
And B is kind of the way I was feeling when Izzie and I first started discussing this business. I mean, Brandon and I had just broken up, I was lonely, and at a new job where I didn't know anybody, I mean... you know!
I'm not saying I don't wanna do the ad agency anymore, cuz I do! I just don't wanna make any sacrifices for it at this time, because I just don't think that would smart at this point. But...here I am, having a meeting with Izzie on my day off, and I know I'm just gonna wish I was sleeping. ((Sigh)) C'est la vie...
So, moving on!
I actually had a long phone conversation with Law School last night. Last week, we made a deal, that if he would let me come over and use his washer/dryer, I'd do his laundry for him too. Lol. So we had plans to do laundry last night. But he was still stuck at work at 7:30pm, and I was already in my PJ's, eating dinner. Around 10, I was in bed with a book, when he called.
"Peyton."
"Yyyyyes?"
"I'm so sorry I took so long. I just got home! We're trying to buy out this company, and it's just taking forever, and my boss told me I was gonna have to stay late."
"You're a workaholic, ya know that? I sure hope you like your job."
"I love my job! It's just...very time consuming."
"Well that's good. I wish I could say that same..."
We talked for about an hour. About work, personality tests, and football. Lol. Twas an interesting conversation! I told him how I almost asked him to go to the game with me this past weekend, and he just about ripped me a new one. Lol.
"Well you had mentioned you were gonna be busy all weekend, and I needed somebody to commit to the trip right then!" I defended myself.
"Well you still should have asked! I would have cleared my weekend for that!" He said.
"Hmm well sorry!"
Then he asked me if I was going to the game this weekend, and I explained to him how Todd offered, but that I needed to save my money and days off for the Superbowl, if they go.
"You're going to the Superbowl??" He asked, "How are you gonna get tickets for that!?"
"Todd, DUH." I said. "You wanna go?"
"Uh...YEA, that would be so fucking awesome. Free tickets?"
"No, half price. And my sister has first dibs, but now she's not sure if she's gonna be able to make it so...if you wanna go, you better start thinkin' about it."
"Well..how long do I have to think about this? Cuz seriously, that would be kickass."
"Well, if they win this weekend's game, I'm gonna buy a plane ticket to Miami ASAP."
"Hmmm...ok."
"But Sophie has first dibs!" I reminded him.
"Ok yea that's cool."
Our conversation was very relaxed, and normal. Just like it used to be. Which was quite a relief. And also why I blurted out "wanna go to the Superbowl?" Because if I had been overanalyzing everything he said, like I was doing last week, I never would have asked him. But at this point, we're back to just being friends, which really is a weight off my shoulders, cuz I don't have to worry about things being weird. And I think it would be pretty cool if he came to the Superbowl with me. I mean, no drama, that's for sure!
Speaking of drama, Bethany has finally noticed that I've stopped making any attempts to talk to her. And it's not like I've been giving her the cold shoulder or anything I just...got fed up. Ya know? I needed a break. But I finally talked to her yesterday, on my way home from work, and she asked me about my trip and everything. I still haven't told her how I've been feeling, but we're gonna try to get together for dinner soon, so I guess I'll bring it up then. I also had a Facebook comment from Summer saying "HEY! I MISS YOU!" when I got home. I wonder if she and Bethany had a conversation about me recently??
Izzie is coming into town this weekend, and she wants to get together for a meeting about the ad agency, and honestly, I really don't want to. I mean, I don't live in Austin, I don't know the market area there, and I really don't have anything to contribute to these conference calls and meetings! It just feels like a waste of my time! And that's just one more thing I have to do this week. One less day of relaxing, which if you recall, I only get like...1 and a half! ((Sigh)) And of course, I don't wanna tell Izzie any of these things, cuz she's my friend, and I don't wanna hurt her feelings, or make her feel like this whole business plan is a waste of time, it's just.... She seems to think this whole thing is just going to liftoff! Just with a snap of her fingers. And it's not. It's going to be a long time before we get a real client base and start making any profits. And she keeps talking about me moving to Austin and it's like...I can't just quit my job and uproot my whole life for something like that! I wouldn't do that unless A) it was a sure thing or B) I was really depressed and/or frustrated with my life and on impulse decided to pack everything and go.
And B is kind of the way I was feeling when Izzie and I first started discussing this business. I mean, Brandon and I had just broken up, I was lonely, and at a new job where I didn't know anybody, I mean... you know!
I'm not saying I don't wanna do the ad agency anymore, cuz I do! I just don't wanna make any sacrifices for it at this time, because I just don't think that would smart at this point. But...here I am, having a meeting with Izzie on my day off, and I know I'm just gonna wish I was sleeping. ((Sigh)) C'est la vie...
Monday, February 4, 2008
Superbowl Sunday
((sigh))
Things with FB had been going so well. Our date went great, we hung out all day Friday, and made plans for Superbowl Sunday. He said he wanted to take me to a museum. And we'd also planned on going to the same Superbowl party. But then, Sunday rolls around, and I don't hear a thing from him. Not to mention he didn't call me at all on Saturday either, although he did text. But a text does not constitute a phone call. Well, I waited and waited Sunday, because I didn't know how I was gonna make plans, and then finally, at like 5, he calls...to cancel. He said he was tired, and burned out, and wanted to stay home and rest because his first day of work was Monday. Which would have been acceptable, except that 2 of his guy friends were over there playing Guitar Hero when I was on the phone with him. I was really upset about him bailing on me, since that pretty much ruined my plans for the whole day. And I'm sure he could tell I sounded not quite like myself on the phone. He told me to call him later. Which I did, because I decided, maybe he just needed a little convincing to come out with everyone. But he didn't answer. As usual. He seriously never answers my phone calls. I mean he pretty much calls me every day, but when he does, he never mentions my calls or texts, so it's like...I never called or texted! And I dunno what to make of that.
So today, I was just really pissed, and hurt, and doubtful. I mean, I hope this doesn't have anything do to with fucking Valentine's Day. I seriously hate Valentine's Day. It's just relationship jeopardy. Ugh. So I went and met up with Bethany at my work. A bunch of people were hanging out there for the Superbowl. Including Jake, the (not so new anymore) door guy who I happen to think is smokin' hot. And so, I started talking to him, and flirting, obviously. And he was actually having a real conversation with me. About like...what he's looking for in a girl and stuff, and how he actually wants to have a girlfriend. Blabla... And the funny thing was, everything he was describing was pretty much...well me! And I'm not being conceited! But he said he wants a challenge, not a pushover. Not someone who will be all about him and just do whatever he says, but someone who will talk back. Someone who's fun and not afraid to speak her mind. Etc etc... So I'm not really sure why he was telling me this, but then Bethany walked up and he was like, "I can't talk to you about this in front of her." And when I asked why, he just said, "I dunno...because I just...trust you."
How weird is that??
He ended up inviting me to hang out with him and his friend afterwards, and I got his number. But then he just went home, so we didn't hang out. And now I'm just really depressed about FB because I really like him and I don't want things between he and I to be over before they've even really started. I just don't know what to think. And I can't deal with him blowing me off and not answering my phone calls, but I dunno how to tell him that. So...I'm pretty much screwed. And I refuse to call him. Even if he calls me, I'm not gonna answer till like the second or third time he calls, because this is bullshit. I don't think I deserve this. ((sigh))
Why do guys have to make the simplest things so complicated?
I like you. You like me. What's so hard about that??? Maybe I should leave a note in his locker...
P.S. I can't believe the Patriots lost. Gay...
Demetri Of The Day:
"The digital camera is a great invention because it allows us to reminisce. Instantly. Puh chuck; 'Look at us! We were so young. Standing right there. Wow, where does the minute go?'"
Things with FB had been going so well. Our date went great, we hung out all day Friday, and made plans for Superbowl Sunday. He said he wanted to take me to a museum. And we'd also planned on going to the same Superbowl party. But then, Sunday rolls around, and I don't hear a thing from him. Not to mention he didn't call me at all on Saturday either, although he did text. But a text does not constitute a phone call. Well, I waited and waited Sunday, because I didn't know how I was gonna make plans, and then finally, at like 5, he calls...to cancel. He said he was tired, and burned out, and wanted to stay home and rest because his first day of work was Monday. Which would have been acceptable, except that 2 of his guy friends were over there playing Guitar Hero when I was on the phone with him. I was really upset about him bailing on me, since that pretty much ruined my plans for the whole day. And I'm sure he could tell I sounded not quite like myself on the phone. He told me to call him later. Which I did, because I decided, maybe he just needed a little convincing to come out with everyone. But he didn't answer. As usual. He seriously never answers my phone calls. I mean he pretty much calls me every day, but when he does, he never mentions my calls or texts, so it's like...I never called or texted! And I dunno what to make of that.
So today, I was just really pissed, and hurt, and doubtful. I mean, I hope this doesn't have anything do to with fucking Valentine's Day. I seriously hate Valentine's Day. It's just relationship jeopardy. Ugh. So I went and met up with Bethany at my work. A bunch of people were hanging out there for the Superbowl. Including Jake, the (not so new anymore) door guy who I happen to think is smokin' hot. And so, I started talking to him, and flirting, obviously. And he was actually having a real conversation with me. About like...what he's looking for in a girl and stuff, and how he actually wants to have a girlfriend. Blabla... And the funny thing was, everything he was describing was pretty much...well me! And I'm not being conceited! But he said he wants a challenge, not a pushover. Not someone who will be all about him and just do whatever he says, but someone who will talk back. Someone who's fun and not afraid to speak her mind. Etc etc... So I'm not really sure why he was telling me this, but then Bethany walked up and he was like, "I can't talk to you about this in front of her." And when I asked why, he just said, "I dunno...because I just...trust you."
How weird is that??
He ended up inviting me to hang out with him and his friend afterwards, and I got his number. But then he just went home, so we didn't hang out. And now I'm just really depressed about FB because I really like him and I don't want things between he and I to be over before they've even really started. I just don't know what to think. And I can't deal with him blowing me off and not answering my phone calls, but I dunno how to tell him that. So...I'm pretty much screwed. And I refuse to call him. Even if he calls me, I'm not gonna answer till like the second or third time he calls, because this is bullshit. I don't think I deserve this. ((sigh))
Why do guys have to make the simplest things so complicated?
I like you. You like me. What's so hard about that??? Maybe I should leave a note in his locker...
P.S. I can't believe the Patriots lost. Gay...
Demetri Of The Day:
"The digital camera is a great invention because it allows us to reminisce. Instantly. Puh chuck; 'Look at us! We were so young. Standing right there. Wow, where does the minute go?'"
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