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Well I haven't seen or spoken to Adam since that night, so clearly, that's over. Chris is still in California, ugh... Not a whole lot has been going on, actually. I'm fostering a 3 week old kitten who needs bottle feeding, and that's about all the excitement I've got right now! The kitten is really cute though. He's tiny with HUGE eyes and teeny nose, and a cute little pot belly. Lol. Anyway, I did have a one night stand with a really hot guy in town from Austin a couple weekends ago. He's half Chinese, half white, with shoulder length hair, and he's gorgeous. But of course, he doesn't live here. I might see him again though, because Bethany's bachelorette party is gonna be in Austin, and I mentioned it to him. We exchanged numbers, but haven't talked since I dropped him off at the airport the next morning. So we'll see.
I've been texting on and off with this guy, Kyle, I met here in NOLA on my 30th bday. I briefly mentioned him in my blog 2 years ago. We met on my bday, and really hit it off, and exchanged numbers. We texted back and forth for quite a while, but I went back to Chicago, so it fizzled after a while. But we've texted here and there over the past 2 years, and it's picked up a bit more recently. We actually haven't even seen each other since the night we met. He was in flight school for a while, and now he's...well I dunno where he is exactly. In Louisiana, but not in New Orleans. I have a feeling we may see each other soon though. I hope so anyway. There's a lot of chemistry there.
Ok enough about guys. Sophie is moving in when my roommate's lease is up and I'm really excited! We have all these plans. We're gonna paint and redecorate, and throw a party! And it'll be nice having her around. Although we haven't actually lived together since we were both under our parents' roof. I think it'll be good though. We (generally) travel well together, so I think we'll live well together.
My birthday is coming up again in a couple weeks. I can't believe I'm gonna be 32. I feel like I should have accomplished so much more by this point. ((Sigh)) It's probably gonna be an uneventful birthday. I'm gonna do brunch with Bethany and Lauren, just the 3 of us, since my cousins will be out of town, and Carrie and Taryn both have too much going on to make the trip up from Houston, apparently.
Anyway, I guess that's it really. Hopefully things get more exciting around here soon!

All Work and No Play...

Well it turns out Taryn lost the baby. She was having problems, and when she went in for an ultrasound, there was no heartbeat. The baby had stopped developing. So she had to have surgery. Even though I am relieved for her in the sense that she wasn't prepared for a baby, I'm also really sad, and worried about her. The same thing happened to Jenna this past summer, and she was devastated. Granted, she and Justin have been trying to have another baby for a while, and that wasn't her first miscarriage. I just know it can sometimes take a while for it to sink in. But Taryn seems to be doing fine. She and Dahmer are apparently still together (ugh) and she says he's been great, but now that they don't have a baby coming, we'll see how long that lasts...

I've been keeping busy with work, but I'm awfully lonely here most of the time. Other than my family, and Bethany, I don't know anybody here, and my job isn't exactly conducive to making friends, which is unfortunate. Somehow I gotta get myself out there and meeting people. Any ideas? Oh yea, I've also adopted a cat, so my transition into full-blown cat lady is finally beginning. Although I must say, I'm not a cat person. I mean I adopted for the right reasons, and Jasper seems to enjoy having some company when I'm gone. His fascination with Hobbes (cat) is infinite. But Hobbes and I haven't really...bonded. And sometimes he's mean to Jasper for no reason, which pisses me off. Like, Jasper will be laying on the bed, minding his own business, then Hobbes will jump up and bite him! For no reason! And then Jasper jumps down cuz he's scared, the big baby. Any of you cat people have experience with this? How long does it take to feel bonded with a cat?? I mean, I love all animals, don't get me wrong, I just feel like I've learned something about myself. And that is that I am not a cat person. But he's mine now and it's not like I'm going to take him back to the shelter just because we haven't totally hit it off. Maybe it will get better with time? ((Sigh))

Well I'm heading to Houston for Thanksgiving this year. I get to meet Dad's new girlfriend. Yay. (Can you sense the sarcasm?) Other than that, I don't really have much news. God, when did my life become so...boring?!

Idle Chatter

Well I don't have too much to report, but it's another late night/early morning for me, and I can't sleep. So I figured I'd do some rambling. Well I've just realized that most of my friends are already pregnant with baby #2. ((Sigh)). So that's...depressing.
Also, is it not weird that all my serious boyfriends got married and then started having kids in the order that I dated them?? That's totally weird, right??
Ugh...

Anyway, our staff trip last week was really fun. Of course we all played Truth or Dare the first night as if we were all in high school. Hahaha. But it was hilarious, and my lips are sealed! Lol. And overall it was just a fun, relaxing trip. I drove Ronnie's parents car on the way home, cuz Ronnie was too tired to drive. And that was really nice too, cuz I enjoy driving, but since I don't have a car here in Chicago, I never get to drive. Not to mention, Ronnie's parents drive a Lexus :)

I'm going to Austin in a week too! And I'm sooooooooo excited about that! Hopefully something exciting will happen whilst I am there.

Also, I recently decided that the next guy I hook up with will not be just a hookup. I'm going to be completely celibate until I'm in a relationship. And with the way things are looking, that could be a very, very long time. So let's hope I don't go insane meanwhile. School starts right after I get back from Austin, and up until recently I've been really dreading it. But now I'm actually kind of looking forward to it, if only cuz it means I won't be spending so much time alone, and bored. I really need to get out of the house more. I've been such a homebody this summer. Mostly cuz I'm always trying not to spend any money, although I usually end up failing at that anyway.
My semester is going to be very busy this time around, because I'll be taking all studio classes, Monday through Thursday, and they all go from 9am to 4pm, with 1 hour for lunch. So I'm gonna have to try and turn around my sleep schedule before then. I'm hoping my trip to Austin will do that for me, since Izzie is an early riser.

Well I guess I'm gonna watch another episode of Breaking Bad and then attempt to get some sleep! I'm on season 3. Think I can catch up before season 5 is over??

Is Anyone There??

So who's been to check out the new blogger on Cosmo.com?? I'm not sure I'm digging this new chick as much as K, but I'm gonna keep reading before I judge... Either way, it's totally fiction. No one is 24, fresh out of college, and has that good of a job these days. ((Sigh)) But hey, it's nice to fantasize.

Anyway...
Matt and I have plans to hook up again this weekend. So that should be fun. So far today has been one of the most boring days of my life. I actually don't have anything to do for the next 2 days. No family or friends coming in town, no work, no doctor/dentist appointments. I guess this will give me no excuses to not practice piano. I'm starting lessons back up next Tuesday.
Sophie and I had a nice relaxing day together yesterday. We went to the beach, lunch/cocktails, and then to the movies to see Brave. Which was great btw! I highly recommend it. And we rode our bikes everywhere, so my legs and ass are really feeling it today. Lol.
Last night when I got home, I was talking to my mom on the phone and I realized that I don't think I'm ever going to get married. And I'm not all that worried about it. And it worries me that I'm not worried about it. Lol, wtf?? It's just that I've been single for so long, and I'm not meeting anyone, and I don't really know how to meet anyone. And it's not for lack of trying! It's just...I gave the whole online dating thing a shot, and that was a bust, I'm not trying to pick up guys in bars, I usually look like crap when I go to the grocery store so...where does that leave me? I've pretty much just given up on looking. I mean if casual sex with Matt is all that's in the cards for me right now, I'll take it. At least it's drama free, right?
I'm in a place where I've accepted my life the way it is, and while I may never be completely satisfied, at least I'm happy. And who knows if I'll stay in Chicago forever. I might only be here for another year or two. If I move though, it's definitely gonna be New Orleans. That oughta be fun, right? Hahaha. We'll see...

Anyway, sorry the blog has been so bland lately, but my life isn't always exciting. I just hope you all are still reading!

STIR CRAZY!

THAT'S WHAT I AM!!
For one, I'm bored. I'm broke. And I'm dieting. So that pretty much eliminates EVERYTHING I can do that's fun.

And second??
SECOND???????


BILL STILL HASN'T CALLED. WTF????

He said he wanted to get together, that he wanted to take me out on a date. Like a real date! Not like, "hey let's sit at your place and drink beer cuz I don't have a job or any money huh huh."
Ugggghhhhhh.....

I need to get out of my own head BAD. I can't wait for Wednesday!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Misery Does NOT Love Company

I've tried calling Nicole several times and that bitch doesn't answer. Go figure. And I'm not going to text her, leave a voicemail, or facebook her, because who knows who she'll show it to! That 2-faced git... I blocked her from facebook, and everything already. Ughh...

Anyway, I don't know what I'm gonna do if I don't find a job soon. I'm already running low on cash, and I cannot make it another week without a job. I'm so miserable, and stressed out right now, it's not even funny. Even Tymo and Jenni have noticed how down in the dumps I've been. It's just...I have no job, no classes right now, not very many friends, and no money to go out and do things. I'm just stuck at home, wallowing in my own misery.

I'M GOING INSANE!!!!!

I just keep telling myself that my improv class starts next week, and hopefully I'll meet some people there. At least I'll have something to do! Did I mention that I signed up for improv classes at the improv theater?

Disappointing Day

This morning, I was woken up by my phone ringing. Normally, I wouldn't answer, but it was Bethany, and I hadn't talked to her in a while, so I picked up. By the end of the conversation I was wishing I'd stayed asleep. ((Sigh))
She was calling to "forewarn" me that she might not be in town when I'm Houston in a couple weeks for Jenna's wedding. Because she just has to go see her boyfriend play baseball in whatever God-forsaken town his minor league team plays in. It's not like she doesn't go see him almost every fucking weekend! I'm just so pissed. I mean, every time I tell her to come visit me, she's always saying she can't because she has to use her vacation time to go see Tony, because her entire life suddenly revolves around him. Plus she missed my birthday last year for this exact same reason, and she's been telling me constantly how much she misses me, and she's known for MONTHS that I'm going to be in town in April, and now she's probably not even gonna be there. If she goes, I'm gonna be really pissed. Like...monumentally pissed. I don't even like Tony. He's so...desperate for attention, and immature and dramatic. And aggressive. He's always getting drunk and trying to start fights. Ugh... Bethany's just wasting her time and money flying to see him all the time.

On top of that, Sophie and I had plans to have dinner and go to the comedy show tonight, and she had to cancel because she got some really sad news. She and Brent's cat has a brain tumor. He's an old cat, but Brent has had him for like 10 years, so they're both pretty upset. Totally understandable. I'm sad too, and he's not even my cat. But it still sucks because I feel like I haven't seen Sophie in so long, and we finally had some solid plans, but of course they fell through. So here I am on my only night off with nothing to do but watch movies and feel sorry for myself. Blaaaaahhhhh...