Birthdays and Lawsuits.

Last night, Sierra invited me to hang out with her and Sheila, 2 waitress/bartenders from my last job. They were meeting up at my old bar. So I went up there to meet them, and there was Brandon, with another one of my old coworkers, Tom. Melissa had a friend staying in town with her for the weekend, so it ended up being the 6 of us for the night. And we had a lot of fun actually. We found a chill, low key spot to hang out, and posted up there for the night. I was a little nervous at first, because Brandon was drinking, but he was taking it easy, and everything was cool. I wanna say it's almost as if things have gone back to the way they were, with Brandon and I, except that we're not boyfriend and girlfriend. But we still talk, and joke and laugh, and enjoy each other's company. It just never goes any further than that. No pressure. It's kinda nice actually. I didn't think it could possibly be this easy.

At the end of the night, we all ended up back at my old bar, since we all took one car. And we were just sort of hanging out while it was closing up. I could tell Brandon didn't wanna leave until I was ready to leave. And to be honest, I didn't wanna leave unless he was leaving. So were kinda just there, in limbo for a while. But it was cool. Gavin was there, working, and we were all just kind of bullshitting.

Then finally, I said I was ready to call it a night. So we all walked outside.

"Hey, are you going to Taryn's party tomorrow?" Brandon asked as I reached my car.

"Yea, of course. Are you??" I asked. I was surprised he even knew about it.

"Yea I mean, some of my friends are going, and they invited me so...I was thinking I'd go."

"Oh. Ok well then I guess I'll see you tomorrow." I got in my car and drove off.

While I was driving home, Brandon called me. I guess he just wanted to chat while he drove.

"You're ok to drive, right?" I asked, recalling all the beers he'd had.

"Yea, I'm fine. I just...gotta go home, cuz I'm playing golf tomorrow and I took my clubs out of my car so, I don't have any of my stuff."

It was so weird hearing him say that, cuz that's something he would have said when we were together, after I asked him if he was staying the night. Except I hadn't asked him if he was staying the night. But maybe he thought I wanted him to. And I kinda did. But I'm sticking to my rules.

"Ok..." I said.

We talked until I pulled into my apartment complex. Then I told him I was home and letting him go. And that was it!

He sent me a text a few minutes later that said he just wanted to let me know that he made it home, and goodnight.

Maybe we can be friends. I mean, I realize this is totally not a normal friendship, because there's that anticipation there. It's like we both know where it's gonna lead eventually, we just...don't know how long it'll take us to get there. But I kind of like it that way. It adds excitement, and mystery. And we're hanging out in groups, instead of just the 2 of us, so it's really casual.

Tonight is gonna be super fun! A huge group is meeting at this super nice restaurant for Taryn's birthday. And then we're going out for drinks afterwards. I got this amazing dress to wear! It's not too dressy, but it's cute, and sexy, and perfect for dinner and cocktails. I can't wait to wear it! And Brandon's gonna be there, so he'll actually get to see me in it!!

So lately, I've been so busy blogging about Brandon, that I haven't really had a chance to talk much about work. Things were getting a lot better for a while, but in the last week, it's taken a major nosedive. I HATE Justin, the main guy who runs the place. He's such a cocky asshole. He's one of those people who feels like they have to control everyone around them, and I can't stand that. He treats all his employees like they're his subjects!

On top of that, they take money out of our tips every night to pay the managers, which is illegal! And now they keep giving me all these really shitty shifts. I'm only working one day this week! At 10 o'clock! I can't afford to work four hours a week! How the hell am I supposed to pay my bills!? So I'm already looking for a new job. And as soon as I find one, I'm gonna slap Justin with a lawsuit! That's right. I've already spoken to a lawyer about them stealing money from us, and I can totally win. And it's not even about the money, it's about the fact that they treat all of us bartenders, especially me, like we're so easily replaceable, and they don't give a shit about us! And that's not fair, or right. So I'm getting even. Plus, I figure, at least this way, I'll be helping out Bethany, and Summer, and Tara. I'm really gonna miss working with them though. :(

The good news is, because I'm off so many days this week, I get to hang out with Todd! He's getting in town tonight. It's their biweek or something like that, so he doesn't have a game this weekend. AND Jenna's coming in town too. She's staying with me this weekend and all 3 of us are going out Friday. I'm just gonna have to be really frugal! But I can do it. My bills for this month are already paid.

Well, I gotta go hit the gym and the shower and start getting ready for Taryn's party! Wish me luck~!

Bear With Me...

Sunday was one of the best days I've had in a looooong time!
First of all, I made bank on Saturday night! I mean, serious bank. And then finally, on Sunday, I was off! WOOHOO!
So Bethany came over around 5 and picked me up after a long morning of sleeping in and relaxing. Then we went up to work to watch football, eat and drink. We smoked on the way there, so we were both extra happy by the time we got there. Haha.
We hung out with some coworkers and regulars and just chilled, but it was so nice to not have to stress out about anything, ya know? And then of course, John showed up. He pretty much always goes up there to watch football on Sundays. Anyway, Mr. S. and Misty showed up around 8, and Gavin and John and us were all sitting at a table with Mr. S.'s roommate and one of his friends. Then Bethany had to leave to go to a movie with Tug. So she brought me back home so I could get my car. But when I got back up to my bar, everybody was gone!
Sierra, one of the waitresses, and now officially Gavin's girlfriend, told me they walked over to the pub down the street. She told me she'd walk over with me as soon as she finished doing her checkout. She and I had never really hung out before, but I get along with pretty much everyone so I figured what the hell! So we walked over there to find Gavin and John playing Buck Hunter. Then Gavin got a call from Blinn saying that he and his brother Don, and Don's girlfriend Christy (who used to date Rusty btw...small world!), and Frank wanted us to come hang out with them at another bar a couple blocks over. So Gavin and John rode with me back to work to close our tabs, and Sierra headed over there.
So, we all met up, the drinking commenced, Blinn pretty much paid for everything! He kept ordering us all shots! Lol. But again, we had a blast, and of course, we ended up back at our bar afterhours.
By this time I was prrrrretty fucked up. And Don was wasted and chasing me around the bar! His girlfriend had left earlier since she had to get up early, and I had never seen Don so drunk in my life. It was kinda weird actually! Well, the details are a little fuzzy, but at one point John and I ended up in the bathroom, in the dark, wrestling. Lol. Which led to more kissing. :)
Then him and 3 other male coworkers ended up over at my apartment... They drank all my booze and ate half my fridge too!! Those bastards... Anyway, John spent the night. He had left his car up at work and ridden with me. I'm not sure why. But there was no more kissing. In fact, we just slept. Didn't even touch! Just like before...how strange. Hm...
So this morning I had to get up and drive him back to his car. He asked me if I liked motorcycles while we were in the car. And he must have already known the answer to that, because I know he's seen me on the back of Daniel's Ducati. ((Longing sigh...)) ANYWAYS, I told him yes. Then he asked if I'd like to go for a ride, and I said, "DUH!"
He has a bike.
HOT.
But I think it's a Harley, not a crotch rocket.
I'm sorry this post is so disjointed by the way... It's just that I'm trying to remember everything that happened, and since I was drunk at the time, it's kind of hard to remember what's important and what isn't. Anyways...

My mom came over this morning and I drove her to the doctor. We were there for a couple of hours. She has to decide by tomorrow if she wants to do chemotherapy or not.
I really don't know what to think! I mean its a 24 week treatment plan, the first 12 weeks of which she'll be tired, nauseated, and puking. Oh, and bald! And there's only a 7% chance it will even work!! Which sucks! But on the other hand, better safe than sorry. It's just...such a major sacrifice! Ugh...
Anyways, my mom and I spent the rest of the day together. We went out for sushi and then did some shopping. It was fun actually. I'm so relieved that my relationship with my mom is getting better. Now that I've moved out, we don't argue about money anymore, and it's just...a better situation all together. I mean, we can actually enjoy each other's company.
She's coming back tomorrow because she has another appointment at the same time. So we're gonna go look at wigs. I think it might be fun actually! Lol.
Bethany and Tugg and I went and saw Choke tonight.
I liked it.
They didn't.
I read the book.
They didn't.
That's my advice.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention! The Boy. Ali's boyfriend's cousin. Lol, that's such a mouthful! I'll call him... TDH. Which stands for, Tall Dark & Handsome. ;)
He texted me all day long! And we have plans to hang out this Thursday night! I'm getting off at 9, and we're gonna go out, get some drinks and get to know each other. He's been asking me question after question after question... It's kind of nice actually! You know, that he actually is interested to know things about me other than what I look like naked.
Omg, Oliver is running in his sleep! SO CUTE!
Haha sorry! Anyways, so I'm really excited about our date on Thursday! I'll keep you guys posted! And again, sorry if this post was confusing or hard to keep up with!

Boy Drama

I've been spending so much time at Daniel's, that I've hardly even had the opportunity to sit down at a computer!
Austin last weekend was...ok. I mean there were just too many people, all wanting to do their own thing, and it ended up being more stressful trying to cram everything in, than it was fun! But during the day, Shane, Izzie and I did go to the greenbelt for a swim, and that was a blast! Shane's new house is awesome, and I like her roommates too. Shane and Izzie got into a little tiff on Sunday because Shane didn't want Izzie to bring her husband to brunch. Sometimes, Shane can just be really...bitchy! I mean, I dunno how else to put it. But I felt really bad for Izzie, cuz she really wanted to hang out, but she had already spent the whole day with us the day before, and her poor husband just wanted to spend some time with her! But Shane made her feel unwelcome, so she ended up not coming. I talked to Izzie about it on Monday, as I was driving home, and I apologized to her and told her I wished she would have come.
I ended up going over to Daniel's and I've spent every night there so far! And we've been having so much fun! Tuesday after work, he took me for a ride on his Ducati. OMG! It was AMAZING! Talk about a major turn-on...
We went to a couple bars to meet up with his friends, and then on our way home, I asked him to stop by my work to see if they had put up the new schedule yet. Well, they hadn't, but as I was walking back out, Gavin and Sierra were standing outside, and Daniel was sitting on the bike, in the parking lot, with the engine running, just waiting for me.
"Wow, that guy sure has on some tight pants!" Gavin said, and laughed.
I stopped, turned around, and looked at him, incredulously.
"Jealous much?" I said, and walked off.
Since when did he become the authority on fashion!? He doesn't even know how to dress himself! Seriously! And Daniel is actually a pretty good dresser, thank you very much! Not to mention, he wasn't wearing tight pants. At least not any tighter than a normal pair of jeans. He was sitting on a bike! Ugh... I just couldn't believe that. Seriously.
But whatever, I rode off into the night on a motorcycle with a hot guy, while he got to the stand there and watch with his annoying, 20 year old girlfriend. Ha!

Wednesday, Daniel and I went out again to meet his friends, and we had a minor disagreement about his smoking habits. Basically, he got kinda drunk, but I didn't since I was driving, and he just kept smoking and smoking! And I hate that! Plus he was kind of ignoring me, and I don't know any of his friends. So I was getting irritated. Then when we were in the car, driving to the next place, he asked me what was wrong.
"Well, you know I don't like smoking, and if you're actually trying to quit, that's fine. But I don't understand why you have to do it in front of me!"
"I can't believe you right now." He said.
"Why not?? You knew from the beginning that I can't stand smokers. And I'm sorry if I feel like I shouldn't have to lower my standards for anyone. I mean, not to sound cocky or anything, but other guys do ask me out."
"Oh so you're just settling for me then??"
"NO. I'm not. I really like you, which is why this bothers me so much!" I protested.
"Let me out of the car." He said. We were in the middle of the street.
"What? No!" I said, and locked the doors.
"Just let me out. I can walk from here."
"No you can't. How will you get home? I'm not letting you out."
"I'll find a ride, just let me out!"
"Seriously??? Are you really getting this dramatic on me right now? Why can't you just talk to me?"
"Because. I have nothing to say to you." He said. And then he got out! (We were at a red light.)
So I turned the car around, and ended up parking it in some random person's driveway and literally chasing him. So ridiculous...
In the end, we talked and worked it out, but I still haven't forgotten his dramatics. I mean, he apologized to me that night, and then again the next morning. And he admitted he was pretty drunk, but who wants to deal with that kind of drama!? I thought I graduated from high school. ((sigh))

Employee Party

Sunday morning, well afternoon, technically, I reluctantly crawled out of Friend Boy's bed.
"Where are you going?" he asked.
"Ahhhh...I have to get up! It's 2 o'clock." I sighed.
"Let's go to the zoo today!" FB sat up in bed.
"Awe, I really wish I could! But today is the staff party for work. In fact, I have to go all the way home, shower and get my stuff together, and then drive all the way back over here by 4! I'm riding with Bethany."
Coincidentally, Bethany lives literally right down the street from FB.
"Oh yea...I forgot about the party. You must be excited! I won't keep you in bed then."
So we got dressed and went into the living room. Amanda, Charlotte and 2 of the guys were still there. They were all very thankful for the breakfast we brought them! I chatted with them for a little bit, and then FB walked me to the parking garage.
"I had a lot of fun last night, despite all the drama." he said as he took my hands in his.
"Me too." I smiled.
"Let's hang out again soon." he said, "Sooner than later."
"Sounds good to me." I couldn't stop grinning.
He kissed me goodbye and I then got into the elevator.

I drove like a bat out of hell all the way home. I got ready faster than ever! Although I didn't bother putting on makeup since I figured I could just do that in the car. When I got to Bethany and Tugg's apartment, we loaded up the car and headed out. They brought their 2 dogs too, because they didn't wanna leave them overnight. But they're small dogs, and they were really good in the car. The drive was about 45 minutes, and I told Bethany all about the drama with Charlotte from the night before. She was pretty shocked to hear about her behavior.
Finally we got there! We had 10 cabins and an activity hall reserved at a KOA campground in Conroe. A lot of people were already there, throwing a football around, playing music inside, talking and eating. Shortly after we got there, Alyssa, Jayme, and another one of the waitresses named Sierra, arrived. I was so glad to see Alyssa! We didn't do anything noteworthy for the first couple of hours. Just drank, goofed off and hung out. I brought my camera so I was running around everywhere taking pictures! Gavin mentioned he thought it was "so cool" that I take pictures. He used to do photojournalism in high school. I wasn't really drinking that much because all they had was beer, and daiquiris. I guess they figured bringing liquor to an event full of bartenders would be a bad idea. Lol. So at one point, I followed Mr. S., Gavin, Mark, and one of the guys from this band that plays at our work, into one of the cabins. They immediately lit up a pipe and started smoking. Lol. I know Gavin used to smoke a lot of pot, but he had to quit when he joined trade school. Apparently he couldn't resist. I took a couple hits, and that was all I needed to get a buzz! Then FB texted me and asked how the party was going. I told him it was going great and that I just smoked some pot, and he responded with, "Awesome! You should eat some Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream! That always goes great afterwards."

Alyssa, Jayme and Sierra left around 12:30, and by this time, about half of the people were gone. And Gavin had kinda taken to sticking by my side. Flirting? Hard to tell with him, but how typical! I was probably flirting back, consciously or not. I was feeling prettttty happy! And he kept making joking comments, that I could tell were half-way serious like, "Let's make out!" and, "Hey, I got the keys to an empty cabin!", and "Take me now!"
I mean I know he was just kidding, but I could tell there was a little truth in them. Bethany, Nick, Gavin and I went out in search of Mr. S.'s brother, Able, who had supposedly passed out on someone's couch. Well, we ended up in Gavin's cabin, and we were all sitting around talking. But then Nick and Bethany got up to leave suddenly, and it was just Gavin and I in the cabin.
"Well, I guess we should go..." I said, standing up.
"Yea.." he said awkwardly. We both walked towards the door at the same time, and he stood there in front of it for a second. And we had one of those really pregnant moments, where even though it only lasts a couple of seconds, it feels like ages. And all these thoughts were going through my mind. He was looking at me as if he wanted to kiss me. And I could tell he was thinking about it. And I just kept thinking, Is he going to kiss me? Should I kiss him back? I don't know if I want to. I really like Friend Boy... but then...I kinda do wanna kiss him.
Well, he must have seen the uncertainty written on my face because he abruptly turned and opened the door, and we walked out in silence. It's a good thing too because I really do like FB, and Gavin is just so...confusing! I mean the only time he lets loose is when he's either been drinking, or smoking. And you can just tell that he was one of those nerdy guys in high school, who suddenly turned hot, and didn't know how to act around girls. And he's still kind of like that! So he never knows when to make a move. And I also know that there's something sort of going on with him and Sierra, and I don't wanna get in the middle of any more work drama!
But he still hung around pretty close to me for the rest of the night. And he made me sit next to him while everybody was playing poker. Around 2:30 am though, I got really sleepy and announced that I was going to bed. So I went to the cabin that Bethany and Tugg and I were sharing, and pulled out the couch bed. At about that time, Bethany and Tugg showed up too, and went to their bedroom. I passed out pretty quickly, but was woken up by my phone ringing. It was Gavin! I didn't answer. Then he sent me a text, "Where are you? Are you alive?" Again, I didn't respond. He probably wanted me to go to his cabin with him, and I am not the bar slut! I know Valerie is, and her reputation definitely proceeds her! Not to mention, she's pretty much a bitch to everybody. But that's beside the point. I didn't answer him because I knew it would be a bad idea, and because I was exhausted.
However, I had an awesome time at the party, and I'm really glad I went! It was great to see everybody in a non-work environment and just hang out. Plus I got, hundreds, yes hundreds, of awesome pictures! So overall, the night was a success!
I spent the next 2 days recuperating from my hectic weekend. I have a date, a real date, with FB tonight! He just texted me that he wants to take me out to dinner before I go to work tonight. :) So all is well in that department. And I'm really looking forward to our date! Thanks for tuning in! I'll keep you all updated.

Demetri Of The Day:
“I wonder what the most intelligent thing ever said was that started with the word ‘dude.’
‘Dude, these are isotopes.’
‘Dude, we removed your kidney. You’re gonna be fine.’
‘Dude, I am so stoked to win this Nobel Prize. I just wanna thank Kevin, and Turtle, and all my homies.’”