Boy, has it been an interesting weekend... But before I get into this weekend, let me tell you about Wednesday night. Cecilia had to cancel on me for our plans to go to the rodeo. Her deadbeat ex husband told her he couldn't watch their daughter, and she wasn't able to find a sitter. So I invited her friend, Alex, to come. Alex and I were both bridesmaids in Cecilia's wedding, and since we're both 2 of Cecilia's closest friends, we know and like each other. She's tons of fun, actually. So anyways, I still had 2 extra tickets, and I'd posted something on Facebook about them, hoping someone would want them. So the day of the show, Boston texts me, asking if I still had an extra ticket. And without thinking, I told him he could come with us. That is, without thinking about the fact that Dave was gonna be there, and we were planning on meeting up at the Carnival. And Boston was so gung-ho about it, that I couldn't bear to tell him no.
Oh well, I thought, how bad could it possibly be?
So Alex met me at my place after work, and then we drove my car to the bar and parked. Boston picked us up at the bar, and drove us to the lightrail. One we got to the carnival, I met up with Dave. I was expecting to see him fully decked out in cowboy uniform, but strangely, he was wearing the same Nike tennis shoes that he always wears, every time I see him. Alex immediately started referring to him as, Tennis Shoes. Lol. I could tell Boston felt a little weird, cuz it was obvious that me meeting up with Dave was...more than just a casual friendship type thing. But what can ya do? So I left Boston in Alex's very capable hands, while Dave and I went to go ride the Tilt-A-Whirl, which turned out to be tons of fun! In retrospect, it's a good thing that I went with Alex instead of Cecilia, because she's so outgoing and fun, and she'll talk to anyone. She acted as if she'd known the guys her whole life, even though she'd just met them that night. So it was great, and we had a blast.
When it was time for us to head inside and take our seats for the show, we all walked in together. Dave came up with us to our seats, even though he was sitting a level above us, with his sister. We walked around for a bit, and then parted ways. Dave mentioned that he might come back down for a song or 2 later. So we grabbed some snacks and sat down. Boston actually left for a while to go say hi to some friends, but he came back towards the end of the show. Dave never ended up coming back down.
When the show ended, Boston asked if we wanted to go to the Rodeo bar for a bit, but I had to say no, since I needed to get up early the next day. And there's no such thing as going for "just one drink" when it comes to the rodeo. Better safe than sorry!
Boston looked really disappointed, so Alex and I told him to go ahead. It was about 10:45; we could just walk or get a cab back to the bar from the lightrail. He hesitated, but in the end, he went to the bar, and we headed to the lightrail.
Well the line to actually get on the lightrail was ridiculous!! We stood there for like 45 minutes in a huge, hot, crowd of people, and we were both dying of thirst, and aching feet. So by the time we got off the lightrail, it was already midnight. We didn't see any cabs around, and it was foggy as hell outside. So we started walking. Alex kept saying she was afraid of getting mugged, because of the recent spike in crime in the area. That was when we realized we had walked 4 blocks in the wrong direction. Ugh... I usually have a good sense of direction, but the lightrail completely threw me off. So we turned around and started walking back.
"I can't believe Boston just left us to fend for ourselves at midnight in the middle of midtown!" Alex said.
"I know! I'm texting him right now, 'I hate you. We are no longer friends'." I laughed.
A car full of shifty looking individuals stopped and offered us a ride, which obviously, we declined. Then, a strange man on a bicycle kept riding past us, back and forth, back and forth... By this time, Alex and I were both a little more than nervous. Finally, when we were about a block away from the car, we saw a cab, which we grabbed anyway, since our feet were hurting so bad. When we got to my bar, we went inside to get a couple bottles of watter for our parched lips, and there was Boston!! Already there, sitting at the bar, drinking a beer! Both of us were irate.
"Well LOOK who's here!" Alex said, drawing my attention to him.
"What the hell!?" I yelled at him.
"I got a ride, I thought you guys would have been back already!" He said defensively, with 'GUILTY' written all over his face.
"I texted you!" I said, "Do you realize how far we had to walk!? It's midnight, and it's foggy, and we were being followed by creepers in cars and on bicycles! You could have at least called to make sure we made it back!"
"I'm sorry! Don't be mad!" He said.
"Oh, I'm mad!" I said, and Alex and I stormed out.
And instantly, my Dave vs. Boston situation was solved. Not that there ever really was a situation. But it gets better...
The next morning, Boston texted me again, "You can't be mad at me."
"Yes I can. And I am." I wrote.
Boston: Why??
Me: You KNOW why! You left us at the rodeo, cuz you said you wanted to go to Happy Trails, or whatever the hell that bar is, but really you just wanted to hook up with those slores, and Alex and I ended up walking like 10 blocks through midtown in the middle of the night, in the fog!
Boston: I guess that wasn't very gentlemanly of me, but A) They weren't slores, they were friends, and they offered me a ride, and B) you went to the rodeo to meet up with another guy and C) it's called The Hideout, and you can't go to the rodeo without going to The Hideout!
Me: A) I didn't go to the rodeo "to meet up with another guy", I didn't even know he was going to be there until earlier that day, and B) WTF does that have to do with anything!!???
Boston: A) I guess it doesn't have to do with anything...
Me: Bottom line, you shouldn't have left us, but whatever. Now that I got that off my chest, I'm over it.
Boston: Ok.
So clearly, Boston was jealous. ((Sigh)) And apparently it's no secret around the bar that he likes me, either.
That night, Melissa and I went to see Avatar 3D. She had never seen it, and I really wanted to watch it again. Btw, I can't remember if I wrote about how Melissa and I talked and worked out everything about our argument. Did I?? If not, I'll fill you guys in. But anyways, she was 30 minutes late to the movie cuz she got lost! Ugh... And THEN I left my stupid phone in the movie theater and someone stole it! So I've been all weekend without a phone. Which has realllly sucked, but I should be getting my replacement in the mail today.
So now, let me get to this weekend...
On Friday when I got home from job #1, I had a Facebook message from Dave. He wanted to get together that afternoon, cuz he was going to San Antonio for the weekend. But obviously, I couldn't hang out since I had yet to go to job #2. So when I walked out my door to head to the door, I noticed I had a note clipped to my door.
??
"Pam-
I have wanted to get to know you since the first day I met you. I know this may seem weird, writing you a note instead of talking to you in person, but I didn't know how else to do it. I live in apartment __ and I would really like to take you out to dinner Sweety. I think that your beautiful and I would love to get to know you. My number is ____, please call me anytime.
-Nick"
First of all...who the f*ck is Pam!? It took me a minute to figure out WHO it was that had written this note, and initially I thought, This guy must have the wrong apartment! But then I realized who it was...
This guy that used to live in my courtyard, but he moved to a different apartment in the complex. I've said hi to him a few times while walking Jasper, cuz he used to always stand outside his apt and smoke. But this guy is like....30-35, and he lives with his father in a 2 bedroom apartment! Not to mention he thinks my name is PAM, he has absolutely NO GAME, he clearly can't spell for shit, he's obviously a chain smoker, and he isn't even remotely attractive! Ugh... I shoved the note in my purse and left for work.
I showed it to some of my coworkers while we were counting money at the end of the night, and we all had a good laugh about it. Unfortunately, I left that note sitting on the table.
The next day, I woke up around 1pm, and went to let the dog out. I had already put his leash on, and I opened the door and was still inside the door, grabbing my keys, when I noticed Nick standing out there, in his old spot, in front of his old apt, smoking.
!!!
I yanked Jasper back inside and quickly shut the door. Jasper wasn't happy about that, but I crouched down on the floor and peaked through the blinds. It was apparent that Nick had seen me open and close the door, as he was staring up in my direction. Dammit! I sat there in front of the window for a while, waiting for him to leave, but he wouldn't budge. So finally I just went back to my room. Thirty minutes later, I finally let the dog out.
I had 2 more photoshoots on Saturday, which went well! I did the shoot near some railroad tracks over by Ben's house. He and Summer actually drove by while we were out there, and I chatted with them for a bit. They were getting ready for a ski trip. Lucky...
Anyway, Saturday night as I was leaving for work, I found another note on my door. I didn't even open this one, I angrily shoved it into my purse again, and hurried out to my car, hoping Nick wasn't watching me from a window somewhere. When I got in the car, I opened it.
"Pam-
I know this is not a great way to ask someone out, but I just feel this is the way to ask you, for some reason. Feel free to text me about any thing. I would love to get to know you better, Sweety. [555-555-5555 Nick] Anytime. If u want me to leave u alone, let me know, either way please. I've wanted to get to know you since the first time I saw you. You are so beautiful and you seem to have a great personaility. Text me.
?
-Nick
P.S. I'm not stopping until you talk to me"
UUUUUUGGGGGHHHH!!!
FUCKING CREEPER!!! WHAT THE HELL!???
And yes, he spelled personality wrong.
I'm definitely going to inform him how completely UNINTERESTED I am the next time I see him! I don't wanna call or text him, cuz I don't want him to have my number, and I haven't had a phone anyways. But omg...I have to look out the blinds before I leave my apartment now! ((Sigh))
I mean, I'm pretty sure he's harmless really. I don't want to get the apartment office involved or anything like that. I just want him to leave me alone! Jenna says I can go stay with her, now that she's all moved in. Lol. I also thought about convincing one of my guy friends to come over and act boyfriendly. But there's no way to guarantee Nick will see.
Anybody have any suggestions? Cuz I'm open to ALLLLL suggestions!
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Monday, March 15, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
What Gives
Wednesday night, while Cecilia and I were at the rodeo, Dave called. And of course I missed his call cuz I didn't hear my phone ringing. So with the ball being in my court, I called him back Thursday night. We chatted for about 40 minutes, he expressed his interest in getting together, and I invited him to hang out with Jenna and I on Sunday. When we got off the phone, I immediately called Jenna cuz she wanted all the details. Then while I was on the phone with her, he called me back!
"Hey, hold on. Dave's calling me again. I'll call you right back!" I said to Jenna.
"Ok."
"Hello?"
"Hey Peyton. It's Dave."
"I know." I laughed.
"Ok well just making sure you remembered. It's been so long since we've talked!"
"Haha, yea I remember. What's up?"
"Well, I was just thinking...would you like to get lunch tomorrow? I mean, do you get to leave for lunch?" He asked.
"Umm...you do know I work all the way on the north side of town, right?"
He hesitated. "Uhhh no, I didn't know that... Well, that's ok, I'm not really doin' anything."
"Ok, well...I don't usually leave for lunch, but I'm sure it wouldn't be a problem. Let me just double check with my boss tomorrow morning and get back to you though, cuz I wouldn't want you to drive all the way out there and have to eat by yourself!"
"Sounds good!"
So it was agreed. First date with Dave.
The next morning, I asked my boss as soon as he came in, and he said that was fine. I ended up being late to lunch though, because we had a meeting that went a little long. So when I finally got to the restaurant, Dave was already seated at a table. In his jeans, tennis shoes and checkered button up shirt. Hehe. Such a country boy...
Lunch went well. There wasn't really any awkwardness. We just talked and ate. He is very smart. He went to Penn State, and got his master's degree in nutrition. And he knows TONS of random medical facts. But I think it's kinda cool. I like a guy who's educated! But as far as the chemistry, I'm still not sure. I mean I don't want to force anything, or rush anything. And I just don't want to decide anything yet. I wanna really get to know him first. Which is exactly what I told Jenna when she asked me how it went. I mean I like him. He's smart, and nice, and he seems to have a goofy side, although I haven't been able to see it yet. I can tell from his Facebook. Lol.
So on Sunday, Jenna, Dave and I all met at the zoo. It was a little too overcast to be outdoors, but all the animals were out and about, so it was actually a great day for the zoo! And it's been almost too long since I've been. I brought my camera, of course, and took tons of photos. Dave seemed a little quiet, perhaps introspective? I dunno, I mean Jenna tells me he claims to be shy, but I don't see that. I mean he doesn't have a problem talking to people, he just...doesn't say much.
And of course Jenna and I are cracking jokes and acting fools, making the bears talk, and pointing out how small the lions' balls are. Hahaha. They really were quite small, considering he was a lion. And later I told Jenna that I was concerned that perhaps I'm too...wild for Dave. I don't mean that in a crazy or sexual way. I just mean...I'm a very outgoing, spontaneous, silly, out there girl! And he seems so calm and reserved. But then Jenna pointed out that his best friend is JAMES. Lol. I met James the same night I met Dave and he is without a doubt, certifiably, off the reservation, crazy. So that's a good point.
As we were getting ready to leave the zoo, Dave suggested we go grab a bite to eat, but Jenna turned us down, cuz she'd already promised she would have dinner with her parents. So he asked if I was still interested, and I said sure. He picked a place nearby that he'd heard about. It was an Italian bistro type restaurant, with a wine list as long as the Bible. But it was reasonably priced, good food. And once again, we had a nice meal, with no awkward silences. Afterwards, he walked me out to my car.
"So, what do you think? Do you wanna continue to get together and hang out or...?"
"Yea." I said, "I mean I know I have a lot going on, working 2 jobs and all, so you'll just have to bear with me, but I have Sundays off!"
"Ok well I'll give you a call later on this week, and maybe we can set something up."
"Ok." I said.
"Well thanks for havin' dinner with me." He said, stepping in closer.
"Well thanks for dinner!" I said, as he hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"No problem. I'll talk to you soon."
And then I got in my car, and left!
The good thing about this er...relationship? is that I can go through the day without thinking about him, or wondering what he's doing, or Facebook stalking him. So there's no stress involved. Also I know that he's smart, and nice, and stable, and obviously into me, especially since he drove an hour just to take me to lunch. The bad thing? I'm not sure how I feel. I think usually at this point, when I really like a guy, I would be thinking about him constantly, wondering what he's doing and Facebook stalking him. But I mean...it's not like with Cali, where I almost dreaded going out with him, cuz the spark so clearly wasn't there. It's just...neither. I don't know. But I'm not about to turn a great guy loose just cuz I can't figure out what the hell is going on in my own head. I guess I'm just not ready for anything yet. So I'm just gonna continue to hang out with him, and hopefully I can draw him out of his shell a little bit. We'll see.
But here's an interesting, unrelated tidbit. There's this other guy, we'll call Boston. He works at the bar with me, as a door guy. He has a real job actually, a really good job. He just works at the bar for fun, and to meet people, cuz he moved here from (guess where!?) Boston, kinda recently.
So he's been working with me for a while, and I've always thought he was cool and funny, and that's it. BUT...I've known for some time now that he has a bit of a crush on me. And up until like...4 days ago, I never considered him an option. He's too short, and I'm just not really attracted to him. I mean he's definitely attractive, just not my type. But he's so funny! And goofy, and uninhibited! I mean, he sings and dances around the bar after hours acting like an ass, just to make people laugh. And it's not like he's doing it for attention. He doesn't do it in front of crowds. Lol. He actually hates being put on the spot, but he's hilarious! And I just love that about him. And I've found myself thinking about him randomly, and I dunno...it's almost starting to weird me out. Saturday night after work, I texted him "What are you doing?" because he left early, and I thought that was kinda weird.
Then he texted me back, "Waiting for you to come over to my house." Lol. And I totally knew he was kidding.
So I wrote, "HA!"
And then five minutes later, I wrote him again, "So...where do you live?" as a joke, but maybe that joke had a little truth in it??
Anyways, he didn't write back, I'm guessing he went to sleep. But the next day, when I was getting ready for the zoo, he texted me, "Where you being serious??"
And I just laughed to myself and didn't write back.
Then 2 hours later, another text from him that just said, "?"
And so I finally wrote, "I guess you'll never know!"
And he never responded.
But we had this moment on Saturday night, where he and I were goofing around and I got up in his face, really close, as a joke, but the sexual tension caught me off guard so much that I had to step back, like, WHOA. It was reallllllly weird. I mean our noses were practically touching, ya know? That close.
And after that I practically ran away from him, because all these things were running through my head, it was like I had to physically shake myself free of his influence.
Anyways, I know that's a lot of stuff to pile on about Boston, but it all just sorta crept up on me.
And this is the thing, with Boston, I'm pretty sure I would make out with him, just to see how it feels, but I'm not so sure I would date him. But with Dave, it's just the opposite. I don't feel impulsive like that with him, but I do wanna continue to see him.
So...what gives???
"Hey, hold on. Dave's calling me again. I'll call you right back!" I said to Jenna.
"Ok."
"Hello?"
"Hey Peyton. It's Dave."
"I know." I laughed.
"Ok well just making sure you remembered. It's been so long since we've talked!"
"Haha, yea I remember. What's up?"
"Well, I was just thinking...would you like to get lunch tomorrow? I mean, do you get to leave for lunch?" He asked.
"Umm...you do know I work all the way on the north side of town, right?"
He hesitated. "Uhhh no, I didn't know that... Well, that's ok, I'm not really doin' anything."
"Ok, well...I don't usually leave for lunch, but I'm sure it wouldn't be a problem. Let me just double check with my boss tomorrow morning and get back to you though, cuz I wouldn't want you to drive all the way out there and have to eat by yourself!"
"Sounds good!"
So it was agreed. First date with Dave.
The next morning, I asked my boss as soon as he came in, and he said that was fine. I ended up being late to lunch though, because we had a meeting that went a little long. So when I finally got to the restaurant, Dave was already seated at a table. In his jeans, tennis shoes and checkered button up shirt. Hehe. Such a country boy...
Lunch went well. There wasn't really any awkwardness. We just talked and ate. He is very smart. He went to Penn State, and got his master's degree in nutrition. And he knows TONS of random medical facts. But I think it's kinda cool. I like a guy who's educated! But as far as the chemistry, I'm still not sure. I mean I don't want to force anything, or rush anything. And I just don't want to decide anything yet. I wanna really get to know him first. Which is exactly what I told Jenna when she asked me how it went. I mean I like him. He's smart, and nice, and he seems to have a goofy side, although I haven't been able to see it yet. I can tell from his Facebook. Lol.
So on Sunday, Jenna, Dave and I all met at the zoo. It was a little too overcast to be outdoors, but all the animals were out and about, so it was actually a great day for the zoo! And it's been almost too long since I've been. I brought my camera, of course, and took tons of photos. Dave seemed a little quiet, perhaps introspective? I dunno, I mean Jenna tells me he claims to be shy, but I don't see that. I mean he doesn't have a problem talking to people, he just...doesn't say much.
And of course Jenna and I are cracking jokes and acting fools, making the bears talk, and pointing out how small the lions' balls are. Hahaha. They really were quite small, considering he was a lion. And later I told Jenna that I was concerned that perhaps I'm too...wild for Dave. I don't mean that in a crazy or sexual way. I just mean...I'm a very outgoing, spontaneous, silly, out there girl! And he seems so calm and reserved. But then Jenna pointed out that his best friend is JAMES. Lol. I met James the same night I met Dave and he is without a doubt, certifiably, off the reservation, crazy. So that's a good point.
As we were getting ready to leave the zoo, Dave suggested we go grab a bite to eat, but Jenna turned us down, cuz she'd already promised she would have dinner with her parents. So he asked if I was still interested, and I said sure. He picked a place nearby that he'd heard about. It was an Italian bistro type restaurant, with a wine list as long as the Bible. But it was reasonably priced, good food. And once again, we had a nice meal, with no awkward silences. Afterwards, he walked me out to my car.
"So, what do you think? Do you wanna continue to get together and hang out or...?"
"Yea." I said, "I mean I know I have a lot going on, working 2 jobs and all, so you'll just have to bear with me, but I have Sundays off!"
"Ok well I'll give you a call later on this week, and maybe we can set something up."
"Ok." I said.
"Well thanks for havin' dinner with me." He said, stepping in closer.
"Well thanks for dinner!" I said, as he hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"No problem. I'll talk to you soon."
And then I got in my car, and left!
The good thing about this er...relationship? is that I can go through the day without thinking about him, or wondering what he's doing, or Facebook stalking him. So there's no stress involved. Also I know that he's smart, and nice, and stable, and obviously into me, especially since he drove an hour just to take me to lunch. The bad thing? I'm not sure how I feel. I think usually at this point, when I really like a guy, I would be thinking about him constantly, wondering what he's doing and Facebook stalking him. But I mean...it's not like with Cali, where I almost dreaded going out with him, cuz the spark so clearly wasn't there. It's just...neither. I don't know. But I'm not about to turn a great guy loose just cuz I can't figure out what the hell is going on in my own head. I guess I'm just not ready for anything yet. So I'm just gonna continue to hang out with him, and hopefully I can draw him out of his shell a little bit. We'll see.
But here's an interesting, unrelated tidbit. There's this other guy, we'll call Boston. He works at the bar with me, as a door guy. He has a real job actually, a really good job. He just works at the bar for fun, and to meet people, cuz he moved here from (guess where!?) Boston, kinda recently.
So he's been working with me for a while, and I've always thought he was cool and funny, and that's it. BUT...I've known for some time now that he has a bit of a crush on me. And up until like...4 days ago, I never considered him an option. He's too short, and I'm just not really attracted to him. I mean he's definitely attractive, just not my type. But he's so funny! And goofy, and uninhibited! I mean, he sings and dances around the bar after hours acting like an ass, just to make people laugh. And it's not like he's doing it for attention. He doesn't do it in front of crowds. Lol. He actually hates being put on the spot, but he's hilarious! And I just love that about him. And I've found myself thinking about him randomly, and I dunno...it's almost starting to weird me out. Saturday night after work, I texted him "What are you doing?" because he left early, and I thought that was kinda weird.
Then he texted me back, "Waiting for you to come over to my house." Lol. And I totally knew he was kidding.
So I wrote, "HA!"
And then five minutes later, I wrote him again, "So...where do you live?" as a joke, but maybe that joke had a little truth in it??
Anyways, he didn't write back, I'm guessing he went to sleep. But the next day, when I was getting ready for the zoo, he texted me, "Where you being serious??"
And I just laughed to myself and didn't write back.
Then 2 hours later, another text from him that just said, "?"
And so I finally wrote, "I guess you'll never know!"
And he never responded.
But we had this moment on Saturday night, where he and I were goofing around and I got up in his face, really close, as a joke, but the sexual tension caught me off guard so much that I had to step back, like, WHOA. It was reallllllly weird. I mean our noses were practically touching, ya know? That close.
And after that I practically ran away from him, because all these things were running through my head, it was like I had to physically shake myself free of his influence.
Anyways, I know that's a lot of stuff to pile on about Boston, but it all just sorta crept up on me.
And this is the thing, with Boston, I'm pretty sure I would make out with him, just to see how it feels, but I'm not so sure I would date him. But with Dave, it's just the opposite. I don't feel impulsive like that with him, but I do wanna continue to see him.
So...what gives???
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Insider Info
My boss is out of the office today so I can listen to my iPod! Haha. So I'm rockin' Rude Boy by Rihanna at the moment. I'm sure my boss wouldn't care if I listened to my iPod, but I don't, just in case he sneaks up on me while I'm jammin' out. Lol.
Anyway, Jenna talked to Dave again yesterday, and she gave him my number, finally. So perhaps I'll be hearing from him soon. We'll see...
Tonight, Cecilia and I are going to see Dierks Bentley at the rodeo! I'm so excited! We're going again next week to see Rascal Flatts. I always have so much fun with Cecilia so I'm glad we're going to finally get to spend some time together.
So yesterday, I heard from 2 people (Ben and Taryn) in 2 totally separate conversations that Jayme is apparently telling everyone that Todd is obsessed with her, and smothering her, and she's so annoyed with him, etc... Ugh. How fucking typical. I mean, he gives his affections to someone who clearly doesn't deserve them, and then she just...throws them away! What I wouldn't do to be in her position... ((Sigh)) Whatever.
To Anonymous who commented on my last post, I didn't think your comment was mean at all. And I appreciate your perspective, because I hadn't thought about it that way, and I guess you're right. I kind of knew that in a way, because I know how crazy it sounds to say he chose her over me, it's just... I dunno. I'm still not ready to talk to him yet. Even if he and Jayme are already over.
I just hope that Jayme is honest with him, so that he doesn't continue to waste his time on her. Then maybe I could get my friend back.
Here's a little story I've gotta tell
'Bout this boy I know so well
Back in the day was cool and all
Fell in love, I fell in love
Thought he was the one for me
Other boys I could not see
And look what happened to our love
I'm like how could it be?
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Boy you broke my heart and now I'm standing there
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Now all I got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you
Now baby it's killing me
I'm saying it's killing me
The fact that you ain't around
Baby I'm falling down
I need me a remedy
Been looking for remedies
I need you to be around
Baby I'm hurting now
I know you're a better man
When I was your girl
This land is a better land
When you're in my world
Today will be better babe
If it were like yesterday
So happy and lovely hey, hey, hey
All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you
All I've got are these photographs
I remember when I used to make you laugh
I don't wanna be stuck in the past
But you're all that I have that I had
And I don't wanna lose what we built this far
This is me and you, you're my superstar
I'd give anything, baby here's my heart
My heart, my heart…
Anybody else ever felt this way??
Quote Of The Day:
"Snail fiddling is not an occupation I'd be proud of. You dirty fucker."
Anyway, Jenna talked to Dave again yesterday, and she gave him my number, finally. So perhaps I'll be hearing from him soon. We'll see...
Tonight, Cecilia and I are going to see Dierks Bentley at the rodeo! I'm so excited! We're going again next week to see Rascal Flatts. I always have so much fun with Cecilia so I'm glad we're going to finally get to spend some time together.
So yesterday, I heard from 2 people (Ben and Taryn) in 2 totally separate conversations that Jayme is apparently telling everyone that Todd is obsessed with her, and smothering her, and she's so annoyed with him, etc... Ugh. How fucking typical. I mean, he gives his affections to someone who clearly doesn't deserve them, and then she just...throws them away! What I wouldn't do to be in her position... ((Sigh)) Whatever.
To Anonymous who commented on my last post, I didn't think your comment was mean at all. And I appreciate your perspective, because I hadn't thought about it that way, and I guess you're right. I kind of knew that in a way, because I know how crazy it sounds to say he chose her over me, it's just... I dunno. I'm still not ready to talk to him yet. Even if he and Jayme are already over.
I just hope that Jayme is honest with him, so that he doesn't continue to waste his time on her. Then maybe I could get my friend back.
Here's a little story I've gotta tell
'Bout this boy I know so well
Back in the day was cool and all
Fell in love, I fell in love
Thought he was the one for me
Other boys I could not see
And look what happened to our love
I'm like how could it be?
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Boy you broke my heart and now I'm standing there
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Now all I got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you
Now baby it's killing me
I'm saying it's killing me
The fact that you ain't around
Baby I'm falling down
I need me a remedy
Been looking for remedies
I need you to be around
Baby I'm hurting now
I know you're a better man
When I was your girl
This land is a better land
When you're in my world
Today will be better babe
If it were like yesterday
So happy and lovely hey, hey, hey
All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you
All I've got are these photographs
I remember when I used to make you laugh
I don't wanna be stuck in the past
But you're all that I have that I had
And I don't wanna lose what we built this far
This is me and you, you're my superstar
I'd give anything, baby here's my heart
My heart, my heart…
Anybody else ever felt this way??
Quote Of The Day:
"Snail fiddling is not an occupation I'd be proud of. You dirty fucker."
Friday, February 26, 2010
Go Me
Last night I went to the cookoff with a bunch of coworkers, got completely tossed and made some bad decisions. I had a great time and have spent the better part of my day listening to people recount my words and actions last night. I've been sitting in my cubicle giggling to myself all morning. Go me. That's all I'm going to say about that.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
First Rodeo
She'd never really been a huge country music fan, so the rodeo had never really caught her interest before. But Danny had invited her. And there was just something about Danny that she found so intriguing. She knew he liked her. But she'd always thought he was kind of...sloppy and crass. To be honest, she'd judged him by his grease streaked wife-beater, holey jeans and cowboy boots from the moment she first saw him. But over the past few months, she had begun to get to know Danny, and he was different than what she'd expected. Oh he was bad news, that's for sure, and he cursed like a sailor. But he was funny, and spontaneous, and there was something about his boyish grin, and husky laugh that captivated her. And he was genuine. He never hid what he was really thinking. Including his feelings for her. But she continued to resist him, and he respected that, even though he didn't like it. And he just wouldn't give up!
So when Danny asked her to join him and his friends at the rodeo, she hesitated at first, but in the end, she gave in. The bus ride to the stadium was full of jokes and laughter, and boys being boys... The rodeo itself was not at all what she had been expecting. There were tons of people, all of them in cowboy boots and hats, there was a carnival, and games... And it was fun! Being the only girl with 4 boys didn't bother her at all. She was used to it. Not because she'd always gotten a lot of attention from boys, but because she'd grown up a tomboy, and her recent transition to public school had made her disturbingly aware of how catty and judgemental girls really were.
So she goofed off with them, teasing the boys when they couldn't hit the bell in the strong arm contest, and spraying them, instead of the targets in the watergun game. When it was time for the concert to start, they left the carnival and went into the stadium. She had never even heard of the performer, and surely hadn't heard any of his songs. But of course all the guys were diehard fans. Their seats were at the very top, and they found themselves walking up and up and around for what seemed like ages.
The seats were so terrible the performers onstage looked like ants. Danny's friends got up to see if anyone would see them some beer.
"Let's dance!" Danny said.
"Dance?? Where?" She asked, surprised.
"Out there! We're at the very top, there's nobody up there." He pointed up and out to the concourse.
"Ok..." She said, and she let him take her hand and guide her out.
When they reached the concourse, he took her right hand in his left, and placed his other hand around her waste.
"What are you doing??" She asked, giggling.
"Two-steppin'!" He said.
"I don't know how." She said.
"I'll teach you." He said.
And he did.
1-2, 3. 1-2, 3. She was a little stiff at first, but after a while, they fell into an easy groove. And he twirled and spun her, and they laughed and laughed.
I could get used to this, She thought, and smiled.
Soon after, the guys showed up (sans beers) and they all took their seats and watched the rest of the show. Danny kept stealing sideways glances at her, and she couldnt help but smile to herself.
That night when she got home, she pulled out her diary and wrote,
Dear Diary,
Tonight was special...
So when Danny asked her to join him and his friends at the rodeo, she hesitated at first, but in the end, she gave in. The bus ride to the stadium was full of jokes and laughter, and boys being boys... The rodeo itself was not at all what she had been expecting. There were tons of people, all of them in cowboy boots and hats, there was a carnival, and games... And it was fun! Being the only girl with 4 boys didn't bother her at all. She was used to it. Not because she'd always gotten a lot of attention from boys, but because she'd grown up a tomboy, and her recent transition to public school had made her disturbingly aware of how catty and judgemental girls really were.
So she goofed off with them, teasing the boys when they couldn't hit the bell in the strong arm contest, and spraying them, instead of the targets in the watergun game. When it was time for the concert to start, they left the carnival and went into the stadium. She had never even heard of the performer, and surely hadn't heard any of his songs. But of course all the guys were diehard fans. Their seats were at the very top, and they found themselves walking up and up and around for what seemed like ages.
The seats were so terrible the performers onstage looked like ants. Danny's friends got up to see if anyone would see them some beer.
"Let's dance!" Danny said.
"Dance?? Where?" She asked, surprised.
"Out there! We're at the very top, there's nobody up there." He pointed up and out to the concourse.
"Ok..." She said, and she let him take her hand and guide her out.
When they reached the concourse, he took her right hand in his left, and placed his other hand around her waste.
"What are you doing??" She asked, giggling.
"Two-steppin'!" He said.
"I don't know how." She said.
"I'll teach you." He said.
And he did.
1-2, 3. 1-2, 3. She was a little stiff at first, but after a while, they fell into an easy groove. And he twirled and spun her, and they laughed and laughed.
I could get used to this, She thought, and smiled.
Soon after, the guys showed up (sans beers) and they all took their seats and watched the rest of the show. Danny kept stealing sideways glances at her, and she couldnt help but smile to herself.
That night when she got home, she pulled out her diary and wrote,
Dear Diary,
Tonight was special...
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Old Flame
Sorry I had to go so quickly last time! Hopefully I can get you guys all caught up now.
I've had a lot of time to think about the situation with BJ and I, and I even talked to Cecilia about it. And what I've realized is....I like him. Lol. But I'm afraid to like him because he's not really what I've been looking for. And I'm afraid that it just won't work out between us because of who I am, and who he is, and yet...I can't stay away! We just have undeniable chemistry!
I've gone up to Huntsville to visit him twice now, and we also hung out in The Woodlands once, which is sort of halfway in between. I dunno...I just have a lot of fun with him. And he is a nice guy, but things are just never clear cut and dry with us.
First, there's the situation with he and Cecilia. The other day, I sent her a text about it.
Me: Ok, be TOTALLY honest with me! Does it bother you at all, on a personal level, that me and BJ are...whatever we are?
Cecilia: U just do what u want to do
Me: I am, but that's not an answer!
Cecilia: I don't know. I guess part of me is a little jealous or weirded out or something. But I mean, I really have no right to be upset about it.
Me: No I understand. That's exactly how I felt when you and BJ were talking. This whole situation with the 3 of us is just so beyond effed up.
Cecilia: Well do u LIKE him, as in u could see this goin' somewhere, or are u just messing with him?
Me: I honestly don't know at this point. I know I don't WANT to like him! But I'm still trying to figure it out before things get too crazy.
Cecilia: This is just so weird. I never thought we would be back here to this again! Stupid BJ!
Me: Yea, me neither. But at least this time we know how to handle it and it won't affect our friendship.
She agreed. Our friendship definitely took a pretty big hit last time. What a mess! Anyways, I'm still keeping my options open, because I still don't totally trust him. Especially since he's in Florida for spring break with his friends right now. And I hate myself for admitting this, but I actually miss him! Ugh...
MOVING ON!
I'm actually off tonight, so Bethany and I are hittin' the town. I'm super stoked! She and I haven't hung out in a while, and we both got superhot new dresses to wear! I can't wait.
Melissa has been kind of giving me a guilt trip because I'm not going out with her and the girls tonight, but I almost feel like I've been neglecting my other friends! Ya know? I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Melissa! She's one of my besties, but I can't just spend alllll my nights off going out with her. I need to hang with Jenna, and Alyssa, and Bethany, and my other friends too. And it's hard to hang out with everyone all together, because they don't all know each other, and then I'm trying to split my attention 4 ways... You get the picture.
So it's Bethany and I tonight! And she keeps telling me she has this "hot friend" she wants to set me up with. I told her about BJ, but she agrees I should keep my options open, and there's no harm in meeting the guy. He'll be out with our group tonight.
As for FB, he's in Lubbock for spring break, and we haven't talked in a couple weeks. Unless you count the exchanged pleasantries on Facebook. I don't.
Jake The Door Guy? Totally out of the picture. He's just BAD. NEWS. And I'm glad I went with my gut on that one.
I went to the Rodeo Cookoff with Blinn, Valerie, Nick, and his friend Crystal. We had so much fun!! We drank lots of beer, rode carnival rides, played games and it was just loads of good clean fun! But then I noticed Blinn and Crystal getting cozy on the bus, and I was actually jealous!! Yea, weird right? But this was before the whole BJ situation so I haven't given it much thought since then. But, Nick did confess his undying love for me in his drunken stupor. Well not exactly undying love, but he admitted he's had a thing for me for a while. Obviously, he knows I don't return those feelings, and luckily, it hasn't been weird or affected our friendship at all, so that's good.
I'm trying to think if there's anything else important that's happened in the past couple weeks...
I hope I didn't leave anything out!
I guess I'll just tell you all about it later if I think of anything else.
TTFN!
Demetri Of The Day:
"I saw a sign that said "Watch For Children" and I thought, "That sounds like a fair trade. Especially if they're crappy kids.'"
I've had a lot of time to think about the situation with BJ and I, and I even talked to Cecilia about it. And what I've realized is....I like him. Lol. But I'm afraid to like him because he's not really what I've been looking for. And I'm afraid that it just won't work out between us because of who I am, and who he is, and yet...I can't stay away! We just have undeniable chemistry!
I've gone up to Huntsville to visit him twice now, and we also hung out in The Woodlands once, which is sort of halfway in between. I dunno...I just have a lot of fun with him. And he is a nice guy, but things are just never clear cut and dry with us.
First, there's the situation with he and Cecilia. The other day, I sent her a text about it.
Me: Ok, be TOTALLY honest with me! Does it bother you at all, on a personal level, that me and BJ are...whatever we are?
Cecilia: U just do what u want to do
Me: I am, but that's not an answer!
Cecilia: I don't know. I guess part of me is a little jealous or weirded out or something. But I mean, I really have no right to be upset about it.
Me: No I understand. That's exactly how I felt when you and BJ were talking. This whole situation with the 3 of us is just so beyond effed up.
Cecilia: Well do u LIKE him, as in u could see this goin' somewhere, or are u just messing with him?
Me: I honestly don't know at this point. I know I don't WANT to like him! But I'm still trying to figure it out before things get too crazy.
Cecilia: This is just so weird. I never thought we would be back here to this again! Stupid BJ!
Me: Yea, me neither. But at least this time we know how to handle it and it won't affect our friendship.
She agreed. Our friendship definitely took a pretty big hit last time. What a mess! Anyways, I'm still keeping my options open, because I still don't totally trust him. Especially since he's in Florida for spring break with his friends right now. And I hate myself for admitting this, but I actually miss him! Ugh...
MOVING ON!
I'm actually off tonight, so Bethany and I are hittin' the town. I'm super stoked! She and I haven't hung out in a while, and we both got superhot new dresses to wear! I can't wait.
Melissa has been kind of giving me a guilt trip because I'm not going out with her and the girls tonight, but I almost feel like I've been neglecting my other friends! Ya know? I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Melissa! She's one of my besties, but I can't just spend alllll my nights off going out with her. I need to hang with Jenna, and Alyssa, and Bethany, and my other friends too. And it's hard to hang out with everyone all together, because they don't all know each other, and then I'm trying to split my attention 4 ways... You get the picture.
So it's Bethany and I tonight! And she keeps telling me she has this "hot friend" she wants to set me up with. I told her about BJ, but she agrees I should keep my options open, and there's no harm in meeting the guy. He'll be out with our group tonight.
As for FB, he's in Lubbock for spring break, and we haven't talked in a couple weeks. Unless you count the exchanged pleasantries on Facebook. I don't.
Jake The Door Guy? Totally out of the picture. He's just BAD. NEWS. And I'm glad I went with my gut on that one.
I went to the Rodeo Cookoff with Blinn, Valerie, Nick, and his friend Crystal. We had so much fun!! We drank lots of beer, rode carnival rides, played games and it was just loads of good clean fun! But then I noticed Blinn and Crystal getting cozy on the bus, and I was actually jealous!! Yea, weird right? But this was before the whole BJ situation so I haven't given it much thought since then. But, Nick did confess his undying love for me in his drunken stupor. Well not exactly undying love, but he admitted he's had a thing for me for a while. Obviously, he knows I don't return those feelings, and luckily, it hasn't been weird or affected our friendship at all, so that's good.
I'm trying to think if there's anything else important that's happened in the past couple weeks...
I hope I didn't leave anything out!
I guess I'll just tell you all about it later if I think of anything else.
TTFN!
Demetri Of The Day:
"I saw a sign that said "Watch For Children" and I thought, "That sounds like a fair trade. Especially if they're crappy kids.'"
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