Today when I turned on my computer, I opened up Safari, and clicked on my history. I always use my history, because it's the easiest and quickest way for me to get to the sites I always use. And to my surprise, the last 10 visited sites were...porn!
And it certainly wasn't me visiting them. And some of it was a little disturbing. Umm...cumshot.com, Tara Patrick 3sum xxx...???
I immediately called Brandon.
"Hello?" He said.
"Umm...I gotta question for you." I said, hesitantly.
"Have you been looking at porn on my computer??"
There was a brief pause that indicated I had obviously caught him off guard.
"Uhh...EVER??" My eyes bugged.
"Maybe... Sometimes..." He mumbled.
"Ok. Well could you not do that on my computer cuz I can just imagine my mom being over here and seeing my list of most recently visited sites, and I don't wanna have to explain that to her."
"Well you shouldn't have to."
"That's not the point!" I sighed, exasperated.
He didn't say anything.
"Is that what you were doing this morning before work, when I got up to get a drink, and you looked all surprised to see me?"
"No, I was just surprised to see you up."
"Oh. Well when do you even have time to look at porn at my place anyway?"
"When you're not there." He offered no other explanations.
"Well you must have been looking at it this morning, or last night, because those were the most recent sites that popped up. And they were from today."
"Is that all you wanted?" He asked, "I have to get back to work."
"Yep." I said, shortly.
"Ok then. See ya later." He hung up without even waiting for me to say goodbye.
I don't know what to do about this! I mean, I know that all guys look at porn, and I'm not shocked or anything, it's just...why does he have to do it over here?? Am I not enough for him? I mean, I can't compete with those girls! I'm not a pornstar! Nor do I have any desire to be one. It's all just so....disconcerting. ((Sigh))
I texted him to ask if he was mad, and he said no, he's just really busy and having a hard time concentrating on his work. But he failed to ask if I was mad. And I think I am. Maybe not mad but...disappointed. Or upset. I dunno. Am I overreacting?? What should I do??